#sam cries ☔️

[admiringlove]

i want irl friends again.

[admiringlove]

hey man. i’m already crying. why you gotta be so rude.

reminder that oikawa made sure that, win or lose, his last toss was to iwaizumi before they graduated high school

[admiringlove]

hey, sam! this might come off as weird but i've been following you for a very long time(1st 100 followers methinks!) and idk i just feel like you need some cheering up? so here's little hcs for you and akaashi keiji hahaha </3

i think during your exams, keiji is very patient with you and tries to help as much as possible? you need to spend extra hours in the library or at school so he'll take the responsibility of cooking you food or sth along the lines of that! he'll make sure to organize your desk the way you like it if it's messy, or make you coffee before you leave for your lectures and labs!

you give off very ambitious vibes to me! i think to your moots as well (: so akaashi definitely admires you 10x more for trying your best to pursue your dream of medicine! he adores you even when you're talking your heart out about sth he's clueless about. he's going to watch you with fond eyes as you talk about literally cutting someone open LOL!

it's definitely harder to pay attention and study during covid, i myself had a hard time in junior year, without internships and whatnot. i know it must take a big toll on your mental health, so akaashi will comfort you whenever you feel like you're about to break. he won't tell you to stop crying, because he knows that's not helping. he's lend you a shoulder to cry on, or he's going to let you hug him tightly and cry into his chest. it pains him to hear you sobbing, but he's going to soothe you with comforting words and his soft embrace anyway!

just know you don't have to continuously put out content for us to appreciate you. we still love you! we'll wait for as long as you need. take your time, lovey!

you don't know how much this means to me. this ask has been sitting in my inbox for a hot minute(by 'hot minute' i mean a week or two), and i just want you to know that i appreciate you so much for staying with me for so long. when i get asks like this, the random negative spurges in my brain suddenly just stop and it makes me really emotional to know people appreciate me for just trying. thank you, anon. really. i've reread your ask about a hundred times in the past two weeks that it's been in my inbox. and i genuinely appreciate you and love you for sticking with me for so long and watching me grow. i think this ask was the way to start 2022 for me. thank you, and i hope your year goes as great as a person you are :')

p.s: you made me tear up with the last part of your ask. just saying.

[admiringlove]

i wanna cuddle with someone and have them kiss my cheeks is that too much to ask or am i just lonely 😀

[admiringlove]

i just experienced a very wattpad experience. help.

[admiringlove]

things like these make me want to dress like a british (wo)man from the 40s but i can’t because i’m broke as hell so i just daydream about it instead. 

latest favorite outfit and mug. 🏛☕️

[admiringlove]

what's that? me screaming? yeah.

[admiringlove]

i’m fucking screaming rn, where the hell is my 5k word draft that i opened tumblr on pc to post? where the fuck is it. why is it not here.

[admiringlove]

yk when your friends talk about someone they're dating or how they keep having flirty interactions irl, and you just sit there in silence because you're in love with some dude from 3 years ago who probably doesn't even remember you anymore.

[admiringlove]

i am. this close to destroying my pc after getting mona on xiao's banner after i worked my ass off for him. I DON'T SPEND MONEY ON THIS GAME BECAUSE I AM A BROKE COLLEGE STUDENT COME ON THIS IS UNFAIR I HAVE HIS WEAPON TOO I JUST NEED HIM WTF.

[admiringlove]

how do i tell people my laptop broke. AGAIN. and i have to wait a few months to get a new one. ugh.

[admiringlove]

did tumblr just delete my 20k fic? yes it did. am i crying? yes i am. will i rewrite it? you bet your ass i will. 

[admiringlove]

i fucking got passing grades what the fuck is this atrocity i studied for this exam.

[admiringlove]

my friend just cancelled our rollerskating plans when i called him to ask if he’s left his place yet 🥲 heart been broke 💔 so many times 💔

what am i supposed to do dressed like an alt skater now- 

[admiringlove]

today sucked lmao

[admiringlove]

i.

i couldn't do the genshin event quest because i was 50 points away from unlocking it.

and uh. i was literally fighting the snowboar thing when the event timed out.