#saki deserves to be angry and bitter and not prioritize others feelings over her own trauma

[lagomoz]

unpopular opinion, me projecting and definitely not what the writers intended but I still don't forgive shiho and especially honami for how they treated saki.

they were her childhood best friends, ones had been by her side since very early childhood and then when saki was going through one of the hardest times in her life they just ditched her. I know the story gives us their reasons for it, but honestly those reasons are bullshit.

shiho didn't want saki to be affected by her bad reputation and the bullying, but that falls apart real quickly. shiho didn't visit the hospital at all, which, what, are the bullies hiding in the bushes? she also didn't text or call and gave saki total radio silence. how do you justify not even texting your decade+ old best friend while they're fucking hospitalized? bullying is horrible and deserves to be taken seriously, but these are high schoolers, they're not wiretapping her phone.

furthermore, it should've been saki's choice, not shiho's. the bare minimum she could've done is tell saki she didn't want to talk right now, even without a reason, but no. not a word. you can argue shiho didn't want her to worry about her, but how is never responding or showing up NOT going to worry her even more? she also should've trusted saki and not babied her.

honami's reason is even worse. nobody deserves to be bullied, and her fear of it getting worse is entirely understandable. throwing your friend under the bus to save your own skin is not. honami pushed saki away and hurt her because of honami's own problems and that's the literal definition of selfish, no matter the reason behind it.

this is coming from someone very timid and terrified of rejection or criticism myself, but if you can't stand up for your friends, you don't deserve those friends. no excuse. I just can't buy any of the other stories portraying honami as someone so kind and caring and selfless when she completely abandoned saki for her own benefit, regardless of how sympathetic that benefit is. no visits, no calls, no texts, no support, nothing.

when saki does come back to school, finally getting to experience the life she's wanted so badly, having to work so hard to just get the chance to be with her friends, they abandon her. again. honami and shiho ignore her, avoid her, and shiho even tells other students saki's not her friend WITH SAKI STANDING RIGHT THERE. that's bullying! you can't pull the bullying victim as an excuse card and then do that to your dear friend!

saki would give anything for her friends, and they spit in her face. she desperately wished more than anything to just be with them, to spend time with them. when saki's sobbing in her bed alone, hating herself and the life that she'd been given, she comforts herself with her family and friends.

friends like shiho and honami, who weren't there for her. who neglect her, and when she finally can leave the fucking hospital - we don't even know the extent of her illness, she may have never recovered/had a remission or even died for all we know - treat her even worse. she had to fight so hard for the simple dream of getting to just go to school and see her friends again, and they decided that just wasn't important enough.

saki deserves better friends