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🎶K-pop Playlist for those who Lost a Loved One

Loosing a loved one .. the most painful feeling ever I ever felt for the 17 years of my life.

A month ago, I was at school taking my midterms when my grandmother unexpectedly left this world. I still remember that day clearly 03/03/2020, I was about to go home after midterms when my aunt told me…. my grandmother has left this world, I couldn’t believe it …. I remember weeping, and throwing up everywhere. I didn’t say goodbye to her that morning before going to school and guess what ….. it is true those quotes where they say …. you’ll regret not saying I love you to the ones you love when their gone.Thinking about it now …. I know there are probably tons of people whom are suffering through the same sadness and grief I am feeling , so here are the songs I listened to that made me remind me of my one and only grandmother… and some ways to remember your lost loved one 

1.)  Missing You by: BTOB 

Yes, it is supposed to be for a lover but honestly go ahead and click the link and listen plus go and read the lyrics. There were 2 songs that made me cry when my grandmother suddenly left this world and one of them was this song. The lyrics went like this ..

“ A whole day went by missing you A whole year went by missing you. I just live like that Missing you missing”

The song portrays a person thinking they could live on without the person they love , but soon afterwards realizing that, the reality is they could not move on and knowing that it’s too late. 

I promise you guys to go check it out and understand the message of the song. It’s a beautiful masterpiece.

2.) I’ll Smile Even If It Hurts by: Ladies Code

The 2nd song that made me cry like a lot would be this piece. You guys might have heard of the sad news from 2014 when ladies code lost 2 of their members. But if you have lost a loved one, this song is the main deal. The lyrics are the real deal when my heart was in pain, one of the lyrics that tugged my heart would be…

“ I still can’t believe it   It feels like I could still see you   I tell myself that it’s a lie  The fact that you left my side Your face that’s smiling in the photo  The past days that seemed would last forever  But one day, suddenly  You left my side But I won’t cry, so you won’t feel bad  I’ll try living without you now  No matter how much it hurts, even if tears keep coming  I wanna smile, I wanna think of you and smile”

The song portrays a person in grief after loosing a loved one, and although their heart hurts they promise to smile and move on while missing the person that left this world suddenly.

This will be my number 1 recommended song so go check it out. It’s okay to cry so just let it out.

3.) White Night by : NCT 127

I know…. it’s supposed to be a love song that’s angsty but seriously though, not all love songs an be ‘love’ songs…. you can look at it at another perspective. The lyrics that caught my eye would be ….

“  I`m still doing this and I`m in the memory Of not being able to sleep Walking looking for you And staying up all night again”

“ I try to meet you in my dreams When I try to sleep All my time Today”

The song portrays a individual hoping to reunite with the one they love even if it is through their dreams.

If you guys are NCTzens…. then that would be better. #YUTAGOTLINES I recommend you to listen to this track at night though, cause it’s pure sad.

4.) Goodbye by: Red Velvet’s Wendy 

another love-ish song but, this time the melody will make you cry. Wendy’s solo track for the OST album for the drama ‘The Beauty Inside’ .I haven’t watched the drama yet but I have watched some clips and one particular quote got my attention.The leading character’s mother passed away and one of the characters came to visit and she said these lines…

“Now what will you do? Your mom passed away as well? ….. After a tough experience meaningless consolation were all useless, It was like that for me. ‘Stay strong’ , ‘Cheer up’. Rather than those words…. ‘Now how and in what way will you live?’.The person that said so remained memorable in my heart.”

- Kang Sa Ra (The Beauty Inside)

Back to the song… here are lyrics that caught my attention …..

“ I’m right here But can’t you see me? I missed you so much I waited for a long time I can’t reach you So I’m just standing here Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye”

The song portrays a individual scared of hurting the one they long for again so instead they watch over them from a far place but instead says a goodbye to them only hoping for their loved one to remember them as time passes.

Wendy OST queen

5.) Always by: Red Velvet’s Seulgi 

This one made me cry while writing on my journal…. yes I do have a journal dedicated to my grandmother i’ll write about it when I have time.

Our Revel members made me cry and emotional . When I listen to the songs they sing … it made me remember all the things I should have done and all the unsaid words I should have said before everything just ended… Anyways here are the lyrics that I loved…

“ We’re a bit far apart today But let me send my heart with the blowing wind My love, don’t be sad Our story Is endless and beautiful “

The song portrays a individual in their own point of view , saying they would meet again with the one they love, and even if it may take centuries or years , the person promises to live until that moment and when they meet again they will spend an eternity with each other 

Now this song really made me cry, when I was in the funeral home I promised my grandmother in front of her casket that I would live well and make her proud. I said to her that when the time comes one day when I have to leave this world as well… I wish that in that world we would be together where death will not exist and we will live in that world happily without problems and sadness.

6.) Christmas Without You by: Taeyeon 

Taeyeon is the real ost queen but here is another one of her tracks that made  me remember my grandma once again. I found out 2 days ago that in our tradition we can’t celebrate any birthdays, holidays and give out gifts for 2 whole years. Yes, It is a sign of mourning but here is a emotional lyric for all of you …

“ That first December when it unexpectedly snowed The holidays that we spent together That winter, we were happy with whatever we did Our eyes held each other All the memories with your warmth Comes to me at the end of the cold wind The season has come outside the window I can’t avoid it anymore” “ The whole world is Christmas but I’m without you Dazzling Christmas but I’m without you After a sad day passes Without being with you I’m falling asleep alone, without you”

The song conveys a message where winter and Christmas is put in the story conveying a sad story where the main character just lost someone they love dearly but now it will be the first Christmas without that person.

Now this is pure sadness cause taeyeon is pure sadness …

7.) This Christmas by: Taeyeon 

Another Taeyeon song for you. She originally released this song for her father, thinking about how different it was when she was young and now to when she has grown into an adult. 

A similar story to mine is that, I am dumb honestly … I was always rude to my grandmother when she was still here and believe me when I say I regret it a lot.I love her a lot and my heart hurts a lot every time I think about it but I promised her that I will not feel sad for her and will continue to live my life so she would be proud… so now ask yourself if that person you just lost would want you to cry and just lock yourself up because you regret… your guilty… 

here are the lyrics that caught my attention ….

“ Christmas, a dream-like Christmas I want to remember The growing trembling at your sweet whispers Christmas, when you were here, Merry Christmas I’ll give you earnest heart that I thought would last forever I pray on This Christmas”

The song conveys a message where it’s finally Christmas and the singer flashbacks to the time and memories with a loved one

8.) Every Day Every Moment by: Paul Kim 

This song well you can look at it in another perspective… 

This track is from the OST album of the drama ‘Should We Kiss First?’. Its a emotional filled song , another reminder you can look at the songs in another perspective.

For me my grandmother is the comforting arms to the end of the day she was a light from heaven, always comforting everyone with her smile, food, and her humor. And if only I could be with her , I would tell her that she is a sunshine to all of us. Here is the lyrics that tugged my heartstrings…

“ In my anxious and suffering life You came to me like a ray of light and made me smile You alone are enough for me Because there’s no need for words, I know by your eyes Flowers bloom and wither Every day, every moment, let’s be together”

The song portrays a story where the singer talks about a certain person that comforts them and he/ she talks about how that person is enough for them and they would be together with each other.

9.) So Long by: Paul Kim

Yes, another Paul Kim song but this time out of all the songs in this playlist this one stays in my heart.

It was when ‘Hotel Del Luna’ was still airing at South Korea when I patiently waited for each episode every week and this song has a perfect message that made me cry everytime I listened to it, here are the lyrics….

“ Goodbye, goodbye now I just can’t say those words My heart is filled with you The only thing I could do Is to love you I hope I can see you again” “ Our encounter was short But you made me blossom like destiny I’ll dream of you every night But as much as this longing fills me There’s only one wish I have Please stay by my side”

The song has a emotion filled message wherein the singer say a tear-filled goodbye to a departed loved one, the singer believes and hopes that one day they will meet again, in the mean time he only hopes to see that loved one through his/ her dreams.

10.) Coming Home by: NCT U 

Yes, another NCT song… this song is quite underated though.

But yes, its another song to soothe you in the mourning and grieving you are going through.

Here are some lyrics..

“ When I walked for a while On the snowy street I turned around and you were looking at me Even when my time is up I will go to you And we’ll go back home where it’s warm”

The song talks about how a certain loved one is the singer’s only comfort and when they are tired and are ready to rest they will return to their home.. whom is that loved one.

The thing is ….. It’s hard 

Loosing someone who you’ve been with for the whole of your life and the only way after loosing them is grieving and mourning. I am still mourning up till now , the thing is …. I honestly still can’t accept it and I still want to turn back time and tell her all the things I should’ve told her … but thinking about it now It’s better this way at least now she’s not suffering. 

I know how hard  it is so hang in there … giving you guys a virtual hug and I got some suggestions to remember your loved ones, I recently started a journal where I constantly write letters to my grandmother, I add stickers , designs and quotes plus English translations of the songs that remind me of her .

It’s a way to remember our loved ones and a lesson learned for the future.

I have many songs in my playlist… so if you want more suggestions go ahead and message me.

And if you guys ever need someone to talk to… just go ahead and message me.

Stay strong luvs

X Danielle X