#sad billy hours

[demobats]

Courtney Love Prays To Oregon, Clementine von Radics

[makeadealwithdean]

endless billy 11/? - Stranger Things 3x02 "The Mall Rats"

[linusbenjamin]

I made my choice a long time ago and I'm never gonna leave you. I'm burning up a sun just to say goodbye.

[imsodishy]

Thinking about Billy waking up in that lifeguard chair distressed, disoriented, in pain, afraid. And surrounded by people. But he doesn’t ask anyone for help, it doesn’t even occur to him to try. He slinks away to handle it in private. Because people don’t help him, no one has ever helped him when he needed it, why would now be different?

[reblogglelog]

Sad Boy Hours: Billy Batson

He's trying so hard to get the screaming adults in the room to just stop screaming at each other and be reasonable.

He is immediately dismissed and storms off, justifiably insulted.

And Billy goes right back to blaming himself, trying to figure out where he went wrong, how he could have fixed things, managed the emotions of the room better--even though he is 100% correct and the adults are absolutely failing, and badly.

"Even if he's wrong...I should respect him." Honey, the thing that's eating at you is the absolute dogshit way they act and then expect you to just accept as normal. These grown-ass heroes should not be hitting each other.

And a degree, honey. Several of them.

He sounds like a teacher trying to get the class to behave and that script keeps failing him. Over and over the adults around him dismiss him for his optimism, ignore his calls for reason. And they're heroes. They're the good guys and they tear into each other regularly and viciously. And Billy is fifteen years old in a room of adults screaming at each other. The team is sometimes down right abusive, and this child is trying to keep them from falling apart.

I worry about him, ya know?

(anyway, thank you for coming to my Sad Boy Hours)

[svnflowermoon]

jealousy, jealousy

sometimes i wish i was them,

the girls in my pinterest boards,

the girls at my school on those road trips with friends,

the girls with the love stories people like me write poems about.

and more often than not,

that wishing becomes jealousy.

it sickens me, that i'm jealous of them.

i have everything i could ever want, do i not?

...do i not?

i saw this girl from my school post on instagram last week,

she'd just had her sixteenth birthday party.

an aesthetic affair, the likes of which are scattered throughout my pinterest.

they swam and danced in the rain, drinking apple juice from cocktail glasses.

i wasn't invited—of course i wasn't, we're not friends.

her friends' posts about it dragged out for days on end, and of course, so did my jealousy.

it's stupid, really.

her win is not my loss, i know that more than anything.

it is engraved into my brain so that each time i feel jealous of her,

i feel guilty for bringing her into my own personal inadequacy.

why do we look to others to reflect on our own lives?

and i know that i am that girl for some people at school,

and that knowledge just makes me sad.

because why are we never satisfied?

why do we always want what we can't have?

the things we long for,

they're the greatest things on earth,

until we have them...

and then we long for something else.

[shieldofiron]

Anyone? Bueller?

[moonchildsfae]

i got an A on my exam about the victorian era so i’d like to formally thank all irish people (but specifically oscar wilde and yeats), david tennant as alec hardy, david tennant as phileas fogg, david tennant as the ghost of christmas present, and the doctor who episode “tooth and claw” staring david tennant as the doctor and billie piper as rose tyler

[isadora426]

These lyrics…

“Would you like me to be smaller, weaker, softer, taller?

Would you like me to be quiet?

Do my shoulders provoke you?

Does my chest? Am I my stomach? My hips? The body I was born with Is it not what you wanted?

If I wear what is comfortable l am not a woman If I shed the layers I'm a sl-

Though you've never seen my body. You still judge me for it. Why?”

[hargrove]

「 In watching S2, I'm noticing how vastly different Mind Flayer's possession was over Will than it is over Billy. For Will, it takes some time to really come to fruition, whereas for Billy, he was instantly gone. The explanation for this could be that it got stronger between S2 and S3.

OR. We can go with a longer explanation and dive into the differences of the two victims in what I like to call 'A Tale of Two Williams'.

Poor little Will was not having an easy life by any means. He's growing up and learning that his dad is a jerk, his brother is a bit of a loser, and then of course he gets taken to the Upside Down and lost there for a week. It's not all rainbows and sunshine for him. But he definitely has something going for him in the beginning of S2: a loving support system. His friends are closer than ever, his older brother looks out for him, even calling him his best friend, and Joyce has won every mom of the year award ever. If they existed. He's surrounded by love. Even at times when it seems stifling and annoying, Will is aware that the people who surround him, really care about him. Even Bob takes the time for a heart to heart!

When the Mind Flayer begins to take hold of him, that support system is only stronger. Joyce is immediately investigating the strange shadow thing and promising him to protect him. His friends, especially Mike, are there for him, worried about him. There's a reason for Will to fight back, even if he doesn't know what he's fighting back against. He has that tether to the real world, holding him in place by means of friends and family waking him up every time they can. There was no way in the world that Will would want to go back. All he wanted was to stay with his mom, his brother, his friends, and in his home.

Then we meet Billy, who would probably say that he has no home. Forced to leave California and moved to a small town that he wants nothing to do with, he was a rebel without a cause. He might come off as popular, surrounded by people at parties or girls in the parking lot, but most of the time we see Billy, he's on his own or driving Max. His constant bullying of Max pushes her away from him, his mom abandoned him when he was young, and his dad beats him. We don't see much about him and his stepmom, but it's safe to assume there's not much a relationship there, either.

Once he's possessed, it doesn't look like people really notice. He's still at home but his dad and stepmom aren't worried about him. He's at the pool looking like he's sick as a dog, but no one is telling him to go home or asking if he needs anything. The first offer of help comes from his co-worker, but it didn't hold the same weight that it did when Joyce offered help to Will. Too little, too late.

Now here's where the headcanon part comes in. After surviving that and the Upside Down, Billy is still completely overcome with guilt. He knows that it wasn't him who killed all those people, but rather the Mind Flayer in his body. However, he also knows that he didn't fight back. As soon as the realization came over him that some otherworldly creature had possessed him, he saw it as his escape. His release from a life he loathed. He's not suicidal, but it provided the perfect excuse to just let go of everything. Sounds contradictory seeing as how I headcanon that his ultimate fear is losing control, but maybe he fears it because of what that loss could lead to: a complete surrender.

When he does find out about how Will had been able to fight off the Mind Flayer longer, he feels a deep shame, knowing that he didn't even try. He hasn't met the kid yet, but he has respect for him.

The point of this rambling is to point out that Billy, as strong and violent and unhinged as he is, was the perfect victim. He'd been conditioned from a young age to believe that he's alone in the world. To believe that he's worthless and not worth saving. There was really nothing in his life worth fighting for. When the Mind Flayer took him, he not only didn't fight back, he was actually relieved. 」

[demobats]

Chuck Palahniuk, Invisible Monsters

[makeadealwithdean]

the playlist for sad billy hours 💔

[a-romantics-guide-to-life]

me when my american history class doesn't cover the lincoln county war:

[mews-clues]

Btw, if Billy would have survived, the little kids that he taught at the pool would have definitely sent drawings to the hospital. Just so you know.

But instead they layed flowers on his grave :/

[theflayedking]

[svnflowermoon]

ITS NOT TRUE TELL ME I'VE BEEN LIED TO CRYING ISN'T LIKE YOU, WHAT THE HELL DID I DO? NEVER BEEN THE TYPE TO LET SOMEONE SEE RIGHT THROUGH. MAYBE WON'T YOU TAKE IT BACK, SAY YOU WERE TRYNA MAKE ME LAUGH, AND NOTHING HAS TO CHANGE TODAY, YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO SAY I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU, AND I DON'T WANT TO. UP ALL NIGHT ON ANOTHER RED EYE, I WISH WE NEVER LEARNED TO FLY, MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST TRY, TO TELL OURSELVES A GOOD LIE. DIDN'T MEAN TO MAKE YOU CRY. MAYBE WON'T YOU TAKE IT BACK, SAY YOU WERE TRYNA MAKE ME LAUGH, AND NOTHING HAS TO CHANGE TODAY, YOU DIDN'T MEAN TO SAY I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU, AND I DON'T WANT TO. THE SMILE THAT YOU GAVE ME EVEN WHEN YOU FELT LIKE DYING. WE FALL APART AS IT GETS DARK, I'M IN YOUR ARMS IN CENTRAL PARK. THERE'S NOTHING YOU COULD DO OR SAY, I CAN'T ESCAPE THE WAY I LOVE YOU. I DON'T WANT TO, BUT I LOVE YOU