#sacrilege🤨

[void-bun]

Okuyasu como Varón de Dolores (Man of Sorrows)

[reilemon]

⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡ 2024 fics in review ⋆𐙚₊˚⊹♡

♡ thank you @rose-tinted-kalopsia for tagging me - you can view her post here ♡ i'm tagging @acciotaitlynn @nanamiscocksleeve @hesperisms @poisonf0rest + any writer who wants to join. and no pressure ofc 💕

Total number of fics: 16 Total word count: just under 82k

Chronological Breakdown:

April - ❄Cool Off * ✩Under The Stars May - ଳLove Don't Be Shy * ✩Xavier, Xavier, Xavier * ଳIridescent Scales June - ✩Passion Star Martini July - ✩My Everything August - ♪Ambrosia October - ❄Tight Spot * ଳBeneath The Abyss * ✩Velvet Night * ♪Possession * ❄Beneath The Collar * ❄ଳAmore Immortale♪✩ December - ♪Surrender❄ * ♪Return To You

Overall Thoughts:

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted?

I didn't expect to write at all! I wrote some fics back in 2020 and 2021. After deleting them, I thought my writing days were over. But, Love and Deepspace resuscitated my love for writing.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January? 

Obviously, didn't expect to get attached to Love and Deepspace so much!

What’s your own favorite story of the year?

Beneath The Collar 

Did you take any writing risks this year?

Writing Amore Immortale has my braincells working overtime, since it's supposed to be a slow burn that leads to polyamory.

Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year? 

To finish, or at least to be close to finishing Amore Immortale.

From my past year of writing, what was…

My best story of this year:

Beneath The Collar

My most popular story of this year: 

Cool Off (2.8k notes) - i still don't understand why 😅 it's my very first fic for this fandom, and also the first fic after not writing smut for like three years. Ofc I'm grateful that people like it, but I cringe every time I remember the setting lol.

Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:

Beneath The Collar. Honestly, I expected it to be the most popular or at least second most popular during Kinktober. But the people who did like it were very invested in the story, so that makes me happy. And @gattapotatta made this beautiful artwork inspired by it.

Most fun story to write:

Amore Immortale. That one is the balm for my soul.

Story with the single sexiest moment:

I have no idea omfg

Most “holy crap, that’s wrong, even for you” story:

I think that everything I wrote was pretty tame. But I guess personal sacrilege in Beneath The Collar can be considered wrong lol. And some people were apparently taken aback by the dvp moment in Surrender.

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters:

None.

Hardest story to write:

Possession. I'm currently working on the sequel, and it continues to be the bane of my existence.

Biggest disappointment:

Xavier, Xavier, Xavier. For me, it's so bland, I almost didn't post it. Also, Tight Spot - Zayne is a little ooc there.

Biggest surprise:

Not to copy Roxie, but I'm so surprised by the love everyone has shown my fics! Without your support I'd probably just stop writing again.

Most unintentionally telling story:

There's the reoccurring theme in my fics where the Reader has run away to start a new life. 🤨

Highlights + Wrap-up:

I don't have that many fics to have 5 favorite opening, and closing lines. Or 5 favorite lines from anywhere. So I'll just write some randomly -

"Poor little bunny." - opening line in Amore Immortale, ch. 1.

He’s just a man now—just Zayne. - line from Beneath The Collar

Fic-writing goals for 2025: 

Write more fluffy smut and more unhinged smut.

[lovemyromance]

Azriel: "I don't need to resort to poetry"

You sure about that bro 🤨🤨🧐 what's this then??

Azriel: "We are born hearing the song of the wind"

Azriel: "You'd know, Cassian." <taps chest> "You'd feel it, right there"

Azriel: the gold necklace seemed ordinary...it was a small flat rose fashioned of stained glass... a thing of secret, lovely beauty.

Azriel: he needed to know what the skin of her neck tasted like. What those perfect lips tasted like.

Azriel: it was sacrilege for his fingers to touch her, tainting her with his presence

Azriel: just this taste in the dead of the longest night in the year, where only the Mother may witness them.

If this is him normally, I'd go crazy to see what he'd say when he wants to consider himself poetic 🤭

Between him and Miss. Elain "Put it on me" Archeron, idk if I'm gonna survive their book 🤩

[can-you-stomach-it]

I am not 100% sure these things affect trans men and transmascs specifically (I will be reading the trans women/ transfem version to be more informed) but here we go. Since this is a bit long, I will put it under a Read More.

I haven't been able to get a pap smear nor any type of gynecological care since my transition. My insurance won't cover it because I am legally a man. Once I went to a general doctor because I had a vaginal infection, explained it to him, and he just assumed I was crazy and diagnosed me with an UTI. I tried to make it clear that I was a trans man, but he just didn't care.

I was a victim of corrective rape. This happens often to a lot of LGBT folks with different identities. But, as a trans man, I felt like there were no resources for me. All support groups were for women. When I opened up about my experience, some people were "supportive" but, in their eyes, me being a rape victim actually proved I was a woman, and treated me as such. So. Yeah. Both during and after the rape, my identity was erased. My victimhood was interpreted by some "allies" as proof of my (non existent) womanhood.

I have read this before in texts written both by trans and cis butches. When you are a woman, your femininity is not your own. It is something you owe and must protect. If you are not feminine, you are ugly. And willingly choosing to be masculine is seen almost as a sacrilege. You are destroying something beautiful. There is a very specific way people in your social circles will treat you as a result. As the freak who mutilated themselves. I've seen it more clearly with the TERFs who are like, "she used to be a stunning lesbian and now look at her". Yikes.

Being cut off from your community. I've had two types of experiences in LGBT spaces since transitioning. The first one is, finding communities that are mostly dominated by (cis) gay/bi men, who would treat me with suspicion when I said I was a trans. They would not treat me as a man, but as a girl who wanted to be a man. Fuck them. The second one is, finding communities that are often composed almost exclusively by people who aren't men (who fled the former spaces because of the misogyny they experienced there), who would deny me my identity because I wasn't like they assumed men were. Example: They would make "ugh, men are the worst" jokes, look at me, and say that I "didn't count" because I was trans. It was obvious to me that those communities weren't for men to participate in. I have given up on finding queer spaces I can be comfortable in irl.

People assume that, as a man, I have nothing valuable to say about issues that directly affect my life. I have seen people say shit like, "if you are a man, you have nothing to say about [abortion/misogyny/harassment]" and I am always like: 🤨 What a way to erase trans men and shut us up.

Back when I was openly non binary: being treated as "woman lite". The whole "women and non binary people only" events infuriates me to no end. I was talking to a friend who is also a trans man the other day, and we came to the conclusion that the real gender binary is Man and Other. And when you are openly non binary, people throw you into Other and therefore deny your identity as a man. I guess this is too specific for trans men who are also non binary, like me.

Chasers. Trans women get them too. But fuck, the way I didn't even know chasers who are looking for transmascs and trans men existed before encountering one—and getting really hurt as a result, he was the one who raped me—absolutely destroyed me. As a trans man, the type of chasers I get are: men who want to believe they are straight and find you an acceptable target to experiment on because they don't respect your identity as a man. You look like one, but you don't count, because you have a pussy and therefore it isn't gay.

❗️❗️ This is asked entirely in good faith. This post is intended to open dialogue and help with solidarity and understanding. ❗️❗️

I would like to hear specifically from trans men and trans mascs how the system of [whatever the fuck you call the intersection of transphobia, misogyny, and specifically your gender- whether transandrophobia, isomisogny, antitransmasculinity, transandromisia, transmisandry, or any that I have missed as there are a lot of words to describe similar concepts] uniquely targets and affects you. Things that you feel other demographics do not experience. Reblogs and replies are very encouraged! If you would prefer, you could dm or send an ask to be added anonymously by me.

This is in the spirit of wanting to understand. I am listening. I encourage all non-trans-mascs to not speak on this topic and let trans mascs and trans men do the talking here. Reblog the post to spread it, but please say nothing.

Any and all people who identify as trans men and/or trans mascs are encouraged to participate.

This is not bait to start a fight. I will block without hesitation anyone who is actively being a shithead on this post. I want to hear and uplift your voices by getting it directly from you.

Click this to access the trans fem and trans women version of this post.

[captain-hawks]

Have you ever written a reader/Mattsun/Iwa threesome and if not… what are you waiting for 🤨

HAHAH. okay but honestly!!! it's actually a sacrilege that there's 0 mattsun/reader/iwa to be found on my blog when they’re one of my top hq threesomes. i'm looking in the mirror saying the same thing to myself. who am i. i'm a sham.

i promise this is on my personal to-do list once i get through more requests from my 2k event<3

(i should have finished this and let mattsun/iwa/reader fuck in the back seat while makki and oikawa watched from up front)

[wmarximoff]

Just realized that I never wrote about milf/stepmom!Wanda. That strikes me as sacrilege being a writer for this fandom on this site 🤨

[kcir2413]

PURE SACRILEGE. Ruin an iconic piece of hot rod history 🤨👎