#s!sam only has two ppl invoke an emotion in him: sam (he feels protective yet threatened by him) and dean (he despises him)

[shadystranger]

Soulless sam doesn't sleep. when the night falls, he places himself beside dean. Sitting at the bedframe side of his bed as dean lies motionless illuminated by a faint moonlight. he's close he occasionally traces his hand over dean's face, his eyelashes, his adam apple. but he's not doing anything, just observing him. etching into mind how his chest raises and falls how his complexion tenses (probably having a nightmare) then relaxes (probably got his brother back it's only his brother he has got or at least what he makes himself believe he got). soulless sam sits there, emotionless, tries desperately to work up a care for the man he once died for. but the hollowness inside him only rebounds echoes. he can't care. every part of him screams that he should. It's irritating.

Soulless sam is undefeatable he isnt burdened by a soul he doesn't have an Achilles' heel he's invincible. He is meant to be. But dean. Only him.... through the long hours of the night, sam’s indifferent gaze gradually shifts. contempt overrides nonchalance as he watches dean, locked in a state of premature death. a dead awaken. he thinks, if he could just eliminate this one flaw—this weakness—he’d be free by the morning. But he won’t do it. He can’t. And that gnaws at him more than anything