#ruumiipersonal

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It should be criminal to be this pretty.

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This is probably my favourite part of Look My Way. Ugh so beautiful. The animation, the gorgeous colours, the sheer beauty of the melody, the gentle guitar, the way "the camera" pans around him, the way Stolas lovingly holds the moon, the way the music "grows" when he lets go of that little moon that represents Blitz / Stolas' love for him.

Just Stolas being an absolute Disney princess with his sad gentle voice. Sobbing. 😭😭😭

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He’s a whore and I love him ❤️

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HOLY SHIT THAT WAS AN AMAZING GIG.

A full sensory experience. They performed all my favourite songs (including cha cha cha of course - I feel like it was my national duty to see this song performed live at least once), the light effects/visuals were amazing and the ground was shaking. And I got to experience it all from an amazing seat - on the balcony, sitting comfortably, with a full view of the stage. And yes, I saw them tits jiggling too, lol.

I’m glad I came. This gig was totally worth it, even though I was first afraid I wouldn’t be able to handle it (it’s been years since I’ve been in a gig and hated it then already haha).

And lol, when they performed Trafik, Joost’s lyrics were shown like:

Lmaooo.

@un-shit-yourself SEE I DID IT, I SAW FINLAND’S NATIONAL SLUT LIVE.

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I adore Stolas' theme music, which can be heard quite a few times throughout the show. And obviously I love the song based on his theme (I always love it when the angsty twink bird is singing).

I love the different variants of the theme too. Among my favourites is the scene in Truth Seekers where Stolas makes his badass horror movie appearance, and an epic variant of his theme can be heard.

This show is such A+ 10/10 quality when it comes to music.

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This is also my favourite part (tbh every part of the video is my favourite, who am I kidding, I just love all of it). So sparkly, such pretty colours (aahhh the way the blue and the red - Stolas and Blitz’s colours - blend together).

The way he desperately reaches for the moon, and then falls. The way he sinks and cries underwater - and still keeps reaching. 😭

Why does a silly show about demons make me so emotional.

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This moment was also epic. Cha cha cha motherfuckers.

@un-shit-yourself 💚💚💚

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This moment was epic.

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Käärijä’s new (unreleased) song ”People’s champion” is such a banger. 💚

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Hyvää juhannusta / Happy midsummer. 😈 Time for ritualistic sacrifices.

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14 years ago I brought Monty home. He was on my lap, on our very first car trip together (and he peed on me, but I didn’t care because I was overjoyed from bringing a new family member home). And yesterday, Monty was by my side, on our very last car trip together. 14 years ago, Monty slept on my pillow next to me on his first night in his new home. The night before last night, he slept next to me on the floor, in that same room as 14 years ago, for the last time.

I lost my beautiful baby boy Monty yesterday. He hadn’t been feeling well, so I took him to the vet. Monty was very old and his organs were close to shutting down. So his condition was only going to get worse. I couldn’t watch him suffer anymore. I told myself years ago that I would not ever want to prolong his suffering, and that I would be there for him until the end.

Monty fell asleep peacefully last night at the clinic, with me and my mom, his two favourite people, holding him and petting him. I’m devastated and heartbroken. I have never felt pain like this before.

Today we buried him. He got to take two of his favourite toys with him. His final resting place is in the forest at the summer cottage, right behind my cabin. The cottage was one of his favourite places on earth. I’m grateful I got to spend almost the entire summer there with him. We even spent a couple of days there this week, and he got to feel the breeze and smell the forest and the lake one more time, even if he was very tired. He will be part of the forest now. I hope new life will grow out of him.

Monty. My baby. You were part of practically every aspect of my life for 14,5 years. We’d do almost every day-to-day life thing together. When I wasn’t with you I’d think about you. You helped me get through some tough things in my life, such as my father’s death. You were part of my soul. And part of me died with you.

You will never take another car trip or a train trip with me. You will never sit on the porch and enjoy the breeze and smell the air with me. You will never take another walk with me, never join one our traditional christmas morning walks anymore or come with me and mom to pick a christmas tree.

I will never call you all those numerous (and ridiculous) pet names I have given you over the years. I’m scared I will forget all the different pet names me and the other people in your life have given you.

I would sing so many christmas songs as altered versions that included you and your name and your silly antics. I will probably never do that again.

You’re never going to give me kisses while receiving scratches and pets. You’re never going to be there looking at me and begging for treats when I cook. You’re never going to be there to greet me and hug me every morning after I wake up. I will never get to hear your snoring next to my bed during the night. I will never get to hear your bark, except through all the videos I have of you. I will never pet your soft fur again or touch your round teddy bear ears. You’re never going to stare at me intensely with your cute little eyes. You’re never going to wait me behind the bathroom door and lick my legs when I come from the shower. You’re never going to follow me around the apartment ever again. You’re never going to be there to greet me happily when I get home.

Home no longer feels like home without you in it.

Your nose nuzzled my hand one last time at the clinic. You looked at me with those sweet brown eyes for the last time, and you were peaceful. You gave me one last kiss on my hand, as if to say goodbye.

I’m grateful you were still here to greet me happily for a little while longer, even if you were very tired.

You were born on the 20th of March 2010, and died on the 14th of September 2024. You were a brave, beautiful, intelligent puppy and my best friend for 14,5 years. I love you Monty. I always will. Thank you for all the wonderful years together.

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I think that building used to be a sea fortress, and then a prison. Would like to explore that building too.

And the ship on the left looks interesting; I think it might operate as a cafe now.

Dang I wish my feet weren’t absolutely destroyed so I could explore more. Doesn’t help that I probably slept 5 hours (max) last night.

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Ugh why is it so hot. It’s September for fuck’s sake.

I still have a couple of more hours until I have to board the ferry. I bought some stuff from the supermarket near the harbour, and I have to pick up food before boarding.

Not yet though. I could go for a (iced) coffee.

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Up here enjoying the view. No need to wake up early tomorrow. I’m just going to sleep in and chill.

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Woohoo I’m at Waterloo, about to travel to Portsmouth. My plan is to take the ferry to Ryde, Isle of Wight, and stay the night on the island.

I hope things will go as planned!

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Waahhh I don’t want to leave.