#ruthie.thoughts

[komawo]

when I’m going through your blog and spamming you w/ notifs, just know that’s me giving you kisses all over your face

[komawo]

do i cook a real meal tonight or workout? because i only have the energy for one thing

[komawo]

finally going to start my therapy journey this month! let me keep growing into myself ✨🐛

[komawo]

I think I really need a pocket knife. To open my packages or boxes with. It would be so much cooler to whip out a pocket knife instead of going to grab a pair of scissors

[komawo]

Seeing Past Lives today, I realized how certain unnoticed moments with strangers can be meaningful. The movie describes the Korean term “in-yun” as fated past life connections with others, including people you marry or people you sit right next to on a train ride.

An older woman sat right next to me for the movie. I thought she had a husband who was going to sit next to her, but no one came. I was supposed to see the movie with my friend, but he couldn’t come. She said she could probably sit a seat over, but didn’t because of the assigned seats. I thought about moving over to the seat my friend bought, but ended up not moving. Before the movie I chatted with her a bit, and when it was over I turned to her right away to talk about the movie. How I had the realization we were in a way experiencing “in-yun” with each other. She lit up at this and agreed. I talked with her as we walked out of the theater together, gushing about the movie.

In short, I hope to be more present to “in-yun” in my life going forward, to share more moments with strangers.

[komawo]

someone tell me to do my ab workout today

[komawo]

I'M MAKING 26 ALL ABOUT SPARKLING. THE WORD OF THIS AGE IS SPARKLE. let me shine, explore, be curious, push myself, be authentic!!! stand in the spot light, be confrontational, and be honest without backing down. here's to 26 -`♡´-

"I'm choosing to be daring instead of perfect"

[komawo]

my friend got me literal doc martens for my 26th birthdayyyyy! i'm crying. she is the best friend bro. I am so lucky and grateful to have her in my life <3

[komawo]

not makin time for yourself feels like being tired all the time and caring even less about things. And I just mean having time to clean my room. Making time to work out a few times a week. reading. there’s no time or space for yourself

[komawo]

Agatha All Along is so much fun so far ! The mystery, the actor chemistry, the set and costume designs, the writing even. Disney can create cool stories nowadays still, sometimes. When they want to.

[komawo]

It’s been quite some time since I spent a day at home in bed. There’s an itch to go out and do something. To not waste this beautiful day. Maybe today’s beauty is in the rest I provide my body and mind. Maybe it’s okay I don’t go somewhere and use the unsustainable gas in my car. Maybe I should rest in bed for entire days more often

[komawo]

just booked two more tattoo appointments. I need to Stop It!

[komawo]

everyone! I made it through my grad school interview! I was so nervous yesterday, but today I felt a sense of calm. I’m feeling even better now that it’s over. I think it went well but you never really know with these kinds of interviews. If I don’t get in it’s okay and I’ll try again next year and maybe try to get in more experience and volunteer work before then

[komawo]

I’m deleting my tumblr app along with my other social media apps to try to be more present in my life. I will be queueing posts to stay a bit active since I will only be checking tumblr via a computer for a while. Ty and wish me luck ~

[komawo]

Is it weird I find it a bit endearing when a guy's voice cracks? like I heard that moment of vulnerability... even though i'm sure the guy is cringing at himself for it

[komawo]

I saw the broadway show for the new rendition of Romeo and Juliet starring Kit Connor and Rachel Ziegler and it was the best rendition of that play that I’ve ever seen. Which is saying a decent amount because I don’t even like Shakespeare let alone Romeo and Juliet. Acting was great, music, lighting, use of the stage were all so well done. It was very fun to watch. Would give it a 8/10 at least.