#rtyna

[undadasea]

Ok so. Um. I am so, so sorry for disappearing on y’all. 

Part of it was due to a lot happening in my life, partly because I had no motivation. 

Not going to lie, 2019 was a lot for me to deal with. I’m going to spare you all of the nitty-gritty, but it involved me telling my mother that I had accounts online and also that I had a girlfriend, which were HUGE for me, as well as working full-time equivalent, being a full-time student, having my sister move back in with us….

I’m not going to pretend like I didn't break… a lot of promises. I’m sorry. I cannot apologize enough for the amount of times I said I would update and just… didn’t. Some times I didn’t even try, sometimes I did, but I couldn’t get out more than a few words.

A lot of this was due to me falling out of love with Yuri!!! On Ice for a while. I went through so many fandoms in 2019, Banana Fish,Bungou Stray Dogs, Good Omens, All for the Game, Captive Prince. And I love all of those series and fandoms, but at some point I had to remind myself about yuri on ice, and about the promises I made. 

Despite me inviting so many other series into my life, yuri on ice still has more meaning to me than all of them. It brought me out of a depression, and it gave me something to hold onto. It’s because of yuri on ice that I met my girlfriend, and through her one of my best friends. It got me reading fanfiction after 2 years without it, and it is because of yuri on ice that I began seriously writing and sharing fanfiction of my own.

And more than just that, it’s because of you all that I write. Because of the nice words you left on my stories, the messages and all of the love you showed my stories. 

I know that I have lost a lot of you to the same thing that I was lost to. Other fandoms, more active, more interesting to you now, and that’s okay. I will never resent people for leaving a fandom that no longer brings them joy the way it once did. Not everyone has the attachment that I do to this series, and that’s okay. 

I am no longer the writer I once was, I don’t have the time or energy to write like I used to, and I may not always have the motivation. But for all of my broken promises and empty words, there is one thing I will never lie to you about.

The Beginnings Just Another End will have a complete ending. 

I will never abandon this story forever. This story means the world to me, even after all this time. I have never put this much thought, time, or work into something before. Not like this. I have 126 pages of plot, ideas, thoughts, plans, and story. 126 pages of this. And I will not leave it without a conclusion. 

This is one promise I will always keep.

So thank you. Thank you for your words, your encouragement. Thank you to those who have stuck with me through this from day 1, 2, 3, 60, 129, 475. Thank you to anyone who is only finding this now, for taking a chance on me.

I truly am sorry. Thank you for everything.

[bigmaxxle]

Me: calm, at peace, reading boyf riends fics that are only slightly angsty

My Spotify: i am hanging in the bathroom-

Me: S H I T

[undadasea]

Fanfic ask game

based on what has happened so far in the story, what is something you think might happen before the story ends? (or alternatively, what is something you want to happen?)

[undadasea]

i’m a mess dsfgkhj

guys i’m so sorry about the lack of anything, life has been very crazy for me recently and it hasn’t really slowed down ;A; but you’ve all been amazing and so supportive and you’ve also sent in ideas for drabbles on rtyna, so i’m going to see if i can type one of those up quickly as a thank you!

i’m going to try and get more written soon, but idk if i’ll have time until after finals so please continue to bear with me, ily!! <3

[undadasea]

oOF HERE IT IS!!!

“remember that you’re not alone” is part 2 in the TBJAE series, and will be updated with random drabbles from TBJAE! 

feel free to send (or comment) things you would like to see, such as: -one-on-one conversations -”what if..”s -scenes from a different pov!

thank you and have a great night!!

[undadasea]

will i ever work on tbjae again? probably. for now enjoy this from my notes for a chapter of rtyna ^^;

[undadasea]

here, have this... interesting adventure right here :’))))

[undadasea]

I’M FINALLY FREEEEEEEEEE

NOW i am going to reply to some comments, try and write chapter 21 of tbjae bc it’s been MONTHS and maybe i’ll write some prompts for rtyna, if i have time before work~

[undadasea]

Eyyyyy I just updated "remember that you're not alone" however my wifi is being dumb so it won't let Tumblr load properly on my laptop so I can't post a link to it, so just go check it out!! Thanks!!!! Have a nice night!!!

[undadasea]

i know what you’re thinking; “will she ever stop?? when does it end???” and also “ac is updating twice in a day??? for the third time in 2 days?????” as well as “where is the actual tbjae update???????????”

and the answers are; no. it won’t. yes, and yes. also i’m trying but it’s being a pain to write so.

there will be one more update on this fic today, and then i will work on tbjae!

[undadasea]

i’m so sorry