#roxie: oh no i cant say anything about this i'll get yeeted

[rose-tinted-kalopsia]

warning: largely incoherent, out of context yelling (but over media so like, /pos) because i NEED TO YELL SOMEWHERE

BREATHES.

I BREATHED.

I BREATHEEEDDD.

i BREATHED AND.

OH GOOD AFTERRNNOOOOONNNN.

GOOOOODDDDDDDDD FUCKINGGGG AFTERNOON.

you ask me "roxie what makes you ship a ship" and it's the fucking YEARNING.

the fucking "we're not meant to be, but despite the odds, why do i still love you this much?" THE FUCKING, "i don't think i was ever supposed to fall for you, but i don't think i can imagine anymore, either, what it's like not to" or "i'm not the type to do this, i never meant to fall in love with you. but you... make me feel safe. you make me feel like me." THE???? FUCKING????? "i would walk through fire just to keep you by my side" "the ends of the earth could never scare me if i have you" "you make life worth living" "for you, i'd stay"

itS THE TENSION OF LIKE "shit. i can't have you but i want you this badly"??? being doomed by the narrative while simultaneously AWARE of it???? you know the outcome of loving the other person will bring you both absolute HELL but what about your feelings? WHAT ABOUT YOUR FEELINGS BECAUSE YOU CAN'T SEE YOURSELF WITHOUT THIS PERSON ANYMORE and there's all that unrequited-secretly requited pining going on, all the hesitation and caution UNTIL YOU GIVE IN

UNTIL YOU JUST. DON'T CARE ANYMORE

YOU'RE LIKE FUCK IT, I WANT YOU more than any blue sky

AND THERE'S THIS OVERWHELMING LOVE AND IT'S JUST "US AGAINST THE WORLD"

like whhyyy elseeeeee do you see me yelling over pairs like undyingflame, teredion, hwaryun/viole, khun/elaine, hell even jeremiah/mc

AND YOU???

THROW THAT IN FRONT OF ME??????? ONN? MY? DASH?

the hurt/comfort? the slow realization of falling in love? the slow realization of the fact that you're about to drown in everything that's been built up becaUSE IT WASN'T SUPPOSED TO BE?????? how every soft moment shared has so many underlying feelings and it's not just tooth-rotting fluff because it CAN'T BE, not when underneath it all it's "i love you so much it's unbearable"??? and there's just. SO. MUCH. FUCKING. DEPTH.

LIKE YOU CANT. YOU CAN'T GIVE ME THESE TROPES AND EXPECT ME NOT TO BE OBSESSED OVER THEM LIKE THIS I CA N N O T. IM. SCREAMINFNFJDJG YELLIGN SO HARJDJSNGBEJFJSKFJD OHHH MY GOD IM LOSIIINNGGGG ITTT.

god knows i cannot keep this contained the kilig is too strONG IMMMMMMM NOT BREATHING. LIKE HOW IS THIS. HOW ARE THEY NOT REAL. HOW—I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.

im getting impatient, i need to fucking write.

watchhh this fic be done in a week 😭