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[bisexualriza]

constant state of mind

[hoodiegf]

everyday i think abt bicon megumi and his line abt his father naming him megumi w no regards to his gender

[mhaccunoval]

everyone SHUT UP and look at this bat

[bisexualriza]

my brain was having thoughts again

my mind is currently fixating on royai kid unhealthily.....i always thought the concept was really cute but unrealistic (which adds to the appeal) and i like mom!Riza. a lot. Roy's there too ig. ive written a LITTLE about royai kid but here's my first time being inspired enough to actually draw out my ideas/concepts

behold my vision. probably not original by any means but i like when the kid is like a mini version of the parent whose personality they take after. if they have a daughter, she'd be like Roy with a touch of Riza. if they had a son, he'd be like Riza with a touch of Roy, and so on, and i tried to convey that visually. i usually dont write them with multiple kids at once but if i had to they would definitely cap at two, with the daughter usually being the oldest ^^

anyways those r my thoughts + silly lazy artwork. hopefully ill get inspired enough to make more (or even finish a fic about them hehe)

[bisexualriza]

"You…don't really know how to ballroom dance, do you, Mr Mustang?" He stuttered in his step, losing the rhythm he never really had to begin with, which probably emphasized her words. "Ah…I may be out of practice." He chuckled nervously. "I wasn't…professionally trained, if that's what you're asking." At her silence, he glanced back down at her mahogany eyes and found that she was gazing up at him skeptically. It was a familiar gaze, searching and scrutinizing. Trying to read him. "You seem surprised," he noted in a low voice.

aka some au stuff....sorta

[bisexualriza]

we know that Berthold was a pretty shitty father to Riza, and we know it's all because of his alchemy research. but because i'm currently in a pre-canon headspace, i've been speculating reasons for his neglect outside of just his obsession for alchemy.

incomprehensible brainrot below.

what if he straight up did not want a daughter. maybe he wanted a son instead, and his wife passed away before they could try for another child. it would partially explain why he showed more favor to Roy during his apprenticeship; Roy was the son he never had.

sexism aside, that can even be simplified to Berthold wanting a child who can perform alchemy. we don't know if Riza never showed an interest in it, or just wasnt able to grasp it, but she definitely isn't an alchemist in canon. (however. fanon secret alchemist Riza, i love u) it also explains his favoritism towards Roy as the prodigy child alchemist he also never had.

hell it could be a combination of both. Riza just wasnt good enough for him :(

on some darker notes, what if he didn't like Riza because, in however many ways, she reminded him of his late wife?

we dont get much information about Mrs Hawkeye, only the fact that she "died a long time ago", said by teenaged Riza in front of her father's grave. i emphasize teenaged because it means that, somewhere in her early childhood was when her mother died, and it's unclear if she remembers her mother, or even knew her at all.

we know that Berthold has been researching flame alchemy for decades, possibly before Riza was born, possibly before he even got married. whether or not that was a happy marriage is up for debate, but it clearly it was....substantial enough to produce Riza. maybe with his wife present, Berthold wasnt so deep into his research. maybe for a short period of time, he was actually a loving husband and father.

but then his wife did die. all he had left was his daughter. instead of the logical thing and, ya know, being appreciative of the only family he had left, he buries himself in his work as a result of his grief. distancing from his very young daughter, neglecting her in the process. why would he do this? because she reminds him too much of his wife.

Riza probably gets her blonde hair from him, sure, but her Big Beautiful Brown Eyes had to come from somewhere else, that being her mom. maybe even some parts her personality, outside of her reclusiveness, are just like her mom, like her sense of humor. he didnt cherish the fact that some parts of his wife were left behind in their daughter. the memories were too painful.

this would be even more emphasized if Mrs Hawkeye died tragically, like in an accident that could've been prevented, or even in childbirth (honestly Riza being "responsible" for her mother's passing would make this even more messed up.....Berthold blaming her for losing his wife, Riza never getting to meet her mother at all....)

anyways those are brain thoughts i've been circulating that i dont know what to do with. save yourselves, i'm too far gone in the pre-canon royai rabbit hole.

[bisexualriza]

i was threatened at gunpoint very friendly and politely tagged by @rizaposting to share 4 of my favorite characters from different media so that you all *gestures to empty space* can decide who fits my quote unquote "vibe" ^_^

yeah im like 3rd in line of a chain of riza lovers who had been tagged so the choice MAY be obvious but who knows!!! (do i even have a vibe? i sort of only exist when im summoned from the void)

everyone on tumblr scares me but ill tag @milekael and @the-blue-eyed-firebender and anyone else who wants to do it!!!!! <3

[bisexualriza]

kicking your pants for 'flowers for riza' and 'terrible husband' (perfect for fathers day lmao)!!!

HI KIM and YEOUCH!!! thanks for making me write something ^_^

flowers for Riza:

The lieutenant was the last of the team to return to the office, and he watched with anticipation as she headed for her desk. Just before she sat down, she paused, finally noticing the little glass bottle holding the single gardenia in water sitting at the corner. She hesitantly reached for it, touching the white ribbon wrapped around the bottle, before glancing up. She only surveyed her teammates for a moment, before her confused eyes locked gazes with his own. This time, she did not verbally speak the question, but it was clear in her eyes. Is this for me? Roy had no response either, but in his mind, where she wouldn't have a hope of hearing, the answer was simple. I wanted to do something nice for your birthday.

just kiss her you fool, i say as i write him to have zero rizz specifically when it comes to his wife.

terrible husband:

Riza didn't look back as she carefully made her way to the door. "I-I know you haven't slept well either, so I'm going to sleep in the other room," she said calmly. "Don't worry about it anymore, Roy. I'll be okay." Bewildered, he said, "Y-you're just gonna leave? W-we…we haven't even talked about—you haven't even listened to what I said!" She did stop, and with a sigh she hobbled over to him. Her pale, shaky hand tenderly cupped his chin, bringing his face up so she could kiss his cheek. "I heard you," she said softly. "Loud and clear. You don't want this baby, but I do. We've disagreed before, Roy." With that, she continued on, and he could only stare, frozen. She was treating this as if it were an everyday argument, not as if her life was on the line. Not as if the entire life they had built was threatening to crumble. Not as if his reason for living was about to be taken away from him. The words escaped his lips in a strangled, agonized voice. "You'll die." His wife paused in the door threshold, and though he was frozen, he could still see her trembling. "I wont, even if you don't have faith in me," she whispered back. "I love you, Roy."

you know what, youre correct, this is perfect for father's day. father (and husband) of the year award goes to definitely not Roy Mustang.

TECHNICALLY i didnt do a five minute sprint for these but i did manage to write!! nothing publishable yet but still :D thank you<333

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[bisexualriza]

HELLLLO HI i know its many hours after u reblogged it but if u still want some motivation to work on/share wips, the huntress. i am Looking. 👁

HIIIII and thats okay!!! im always looking for motivation and i also do not sleep ^_^

the huntress is actually one i've been writing slowly by piecing together scenes and trying to?? basically fit together a puzzle of them?? into a story??? LOL but you've gotten me to write a scene i've struggled with for a while!!!

"Why don't you just kill me?" It took everything in her not to have her voice tremble, not to convey any of the conflicting emotions welling up in her chest, not to wince in pain at the stinging on her cheek. Riza locked her gaze tightly onto those deep, crimson eyes and did not waver. "I could ask the same of you, songbird," the vampire woman purred, and her blood red lips quirked in amusement at Riza's mortified reaction to the nickname. "Besides. You don't seem to be in a hurry to die." "Don't call me that. And I have been trying to kill you." It was tempting, but she didn't glance over to where her stake had been knocked away. "You just...aren't the same as any vermin I've encountered before." Something about that elicited a low, delighted chuckle. "Oh, songbird," the woman sighed longingly. Riza felt her stomach tighten in knots. "You have no idea." That was when the vampire began her approach, her long, wavy dark hair bouncing enticingly with each step. Riza instinctively took a step back, and another, before forcing herself to remain still. If this was how she was going to die, then she wasn't going to spend her last moments pathetically retreating. She was going to look directly into the face of death and finally let it take her. Now uncomfortably close, the vampire woman raised her hand again, and once again her fingers elongated back into the thin but sharp daggers beneath that rose lace. She reached for Riza, who stood stiffly in anticipation, and used slow, snake-like movements to wrap her arm delicately around Riza's shoulders. Riza couldn't stop herself from trembling this time, both out of fear and whatever the hell else she was feeling. It was starting to become hard to hold the vampire woman's gaze, especially when those red lips parted to reveal ivory fangs that glistened even in the moonlight. The vampire leaned close, dipping her head to reach into the crevice of Riza's neck. Forgive me, Colonel.

rest in peace, Riza, you died doing what you do best; gay panicking in front of beautiful women.

thank you for getting me to write!! this au is dear to my heart and i definitely need to pay it more attention >_<

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[bisexualriza]

Tag game for fanfiction authors!

woag 2 tags in 1 day.....ty @quiet-nocturne <3

Tell us:

The story you're proudest of: this changes often depending on my mood but currently im pretty fond of this royai wip titled "hide her". its a pretty wild fic; Riza, no longer enlisted, gets into some pretty serious trouble and Roy, promoted to General, has to help conceal her crimes and try to get her back on her feet. i've been working on it frequently and i hope to someday post it ^^

Your story that's gotten the most love online: i havent actually posted any stories online in recent years, but if i remember correctly, when i was about 15 i posted a short royai series onto wattpad. i dont remember the plot or even the account name i had, but i know it had like 2k votes lol. ill try to find it but im pretty sure the account is lost now due to wattpad's purging of mature works or wtv.

Tease a current WIP or idea you're working on: since i posted about royai kid today here's a lil sumn sumn ^_^

He turned back to the child in his arms to do the same, gently brushing a finger against the baby's cheek; cold, but soft, tender. So incredibly fragile. Those soft brown eyes gazed up at him in disorientation, and then the baby's face puckered up. At the first cry, he'd have thought something electrocuted her, the way his wife jolted up in her bed. Looking at her gave way to a startling feeling; Riza's entire face was alarmed as she grabbed tightly onto his sleeve, and her eyes frantically examined the baby in his arms. Defensive, alert. Scared. She had never looked at him like that before. It was just for a moment, but that reaction still shook him to his core. Her face softened when she realized there was no danger, but that hard, guarded emotion remained in her eyes. "H…he's probably just hungry," she said in an even tone. "Here, I'll take him." Roy was too stunned to do anything else but obediently pass the baby over to her. Riza relaxed almost immediately when the baby was back in her arms, and she raised her shirt to begin breastfeeding. Why did you look at me like that? The question didn't form at his mouth, but it haunted him.

Your top 3 fandoms: FMA, ofc, which is the only series i create stuff for now LOL but i remember i used to write a little for Inuyasha and Black Butler too.

Your top 3 ships: Royai my beloved, InuKag, aaand.....damn idk i dont think about anything else other than royai. i guess any and all Riza ships for #3 ^^

Rec someone else's fic: go read all the hope that i lost, you have found if u havent already. if u have, go read it again. absolute banger.

Pick one!

Fluff or Angst: angst. they must suffer.

Oneshots or longfics: long fics!! oneshots can be cool and great, but i like a long compelling story!!

Canon compliance or canon divergence: canon divergence, i loveee making stuff up and seeing what other people make up for a series.

AO3 or FF.net: FF.net raised me.....but AO3 is simply superior sawryyy

all my author moots have been tagged already so if YOU 🫵 write fanfiction, then YOU 🫵 participate too!! <3

[bisexualriza]

im not good at the self promo stuff but i updated my fic :>

[bisexualriza]

i got tagged byyy @phoenixfangs to do this aesthetic thingy where u search "[___] aesthetic" into pinterest and use the prompts city/country, eye color, favorite color, and name to get some pretty results! heres what i got

nods head nods head....the name prompt was pretty funny since i guess technically my name is an action LOL but these look pretty cool!! ty for the tag :>

im still at work so ill just tag YOU 🫵 and YOU 🫵 and YOU 🫵!!!! do it NOW!!

[hoodiegf]

welcome back, @9ph i only came on bc my email told me u followed me LOL

[hoodiegf]

when is o*kawa hate night scheduled

[hoodiegf]

WHERE THE FUCK IS THE MIYUKI AND SAWAMURA HEHEHE POST

[hoodiegf]

this just in user @p3remake is actually white get em boys