#rise leo nsft

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Ive done 2 writing comms so far and i love it so much

Shameless promo if u have any weird idea or k1nk and want to see it inflicted on the hamato boys, dm me! (No matter what the topic i won't judge, chances are i'm nuts about it too!)

Tcest or xreader welcome along with solo pieces, comms can be private or anon if you wish!

[what-reader-we-r-illiterate]

Cw: nsft, overstimulation, eating the hamato boys out, worth noting in all of these they can either be dubcon, or assume theres a safeword, or assume that the genetically engineered supersoldier killing machines arent throwing u across the room be they dont want to. Apologies for neglecting Donnie a bit I'll write about him more throughly in the future <3 my favs fluctuate depending on the day. Also pain/impact play on genitals bc :3. And crying. Mwah

Im just saying it would be fun to eat one of their plump tail slits out until they're sobbing and pushing you off and squirming to get away because it's too much they can't cum anymore

I feel like Donnie? Would put up a fight and try to brat probably smack you at least once before you smack his pretty cunt and shove him back down, he'd ultimately go nonverbal and let out those choked throaty moans and high pitched ah! He does, trying so hard to stay still, eventually breaking and arching his back, wrapping his thighs around you, tapping and signing 'too much no more please mama/daddy' or whatever he can think of to appease you. If you call him a good boy and praise him for being brave though he will try so, so hard to not struggle. He wants to be praised and good and has SUCH a huge mommy/daddy kink and praise kink because of yes. You can train him so easily with flattery and cooing over how beautiful and obedient he is, what a good job he's doing, how you're so proud of him for being so brave!

Mikey would be giggly at first i fully believe that if he's approached by somebody unless he feels patronized he doesn't bother bratting or pushing them away, he's happy to take physical care and affection. He's letting out the sweetest little moans with his warm, raspy voice, making little jokes, playing with your hair. Then he cums.

And you don't stop.

So he's laughing and thanking you but saying that's enough, he's a bit sensitive now. You ignore him, burying your face deeper into his chubby slit, lapping up his slick like it's your favorite meal. It probably is. His hands tense, his fingers curl into your hair and he tries to tug you off. His laughter fades, replaced by his breath hitching, his pretty eyes tearing up, and he managed to stay pretty still for the first round but now he has all that pent up energy and is overstimulated so he's squirming under you, arching his back, crying out your name.

Your hands are going to leave marks from how tightly they're gripping his soft thighs, forcing them to stay open as he squeals and whimpers under you, his hands yank on your hair, pulling you closer in hopes the counterpressure will help. It doesn't. He sobs, tears running down his cheeks as he tries to look down at you and beg for mercy, before throwing his head back to cum a second time, a third. He probably sobs something about you being mean, how this is NOT nice. You take a break for a few seconds to ask if it feels good when you make him cum over and over. He glares down at you with all the spite in his adorable little self and says no. You inform him that you know he's lying, and good boys don't lie if they want to be listened to. Honestly, he should know better. Healthy open communication is important. You make him describe how it feels out loud as you make him cum four more times, biting or sucking just a bit too hard on his poor clit when his voice breaks and trails off into nonsensical moans. Eventually he slips up and calls you something embarrassing, something he's been holding back for months. You make him cum one last time, scoop him up into your arms, and carry him off for a bubble bath and lots of cuddles and hydration.

(I imagine he is SoooO stubborn about admitting he wants to call you any type of mommy daddy sir maam ect be if baby boy hates anything its being seen as just little and being patronized but he'll make an exception bc a: hot and b: if u actually respect him he'll let that guard down)

Leo has so many damn fronts he puts up he almost loses himself. As with everything regarding Leo, getting him to be vulnerable is so fucking difficult. You have to be open, let him in, be gentle, and when you do push him to be honest, don't let up. You need an answer out of him. It doesn't need to be the answer you want. But you need an answer.

He won't give it to you. He hums and jokes and dances around it. You eventually decide to just get it out of him. He's kicking his feet, reading a comic book on his bed when you pull his shorts down, nip at his tail, tease him for wagging it so hard already, flip him over, and start eating him out lazily.

He's happy to tease back at first, smug, bright cheery tone ringing out as he chatters endlessly, even as he gets close and cums he's talking. His moan is too much like a porn star, practiced. Performative. It sounds a bit different the second time.

Third time and he's laughing nervously, pushing you off as best he can. You grab his waist, pull him further into you. His quips fracture into whimpers and breath hitching.

You are goddamn determined to make him cry. You need an answer, sure, but he needs emotional release more. You let his thighs squeeze around your head, his hands are slapped when they try to pull you away, so he grabs the sheets and writhes under you, rutting his hips up into your mouth despite himself. It takes so long to get him to cry, cumming hurts at that point. Your face and the bed are drenched with his slick, your tongue shoved in as deep as it'll go as he actually moans, actually cries out, as tears finally make their way across his gorgeous crescent markings.

He went limp a few orgasms ago, now he just twitches under you, whimpering your name. You haven't asked in a week, but you get the answer you want. You eat him out awhile longer, just to make sure he gets enough emotional release, then sit up and pull him into your arms, kissing his markings and wiping his tears, pulling a blanket over both of you as you rock gently. The euphoria he feels after crying is more than worth it, he thanks you over and over before falling asleep in your arms.

(V self indulgent sorry all. Also leo walks in but it isnt test dw cuties i wont terrorize yall with that here)

Raph is amicable to whatever you want, very raised eyebrow, 'huh okay i'll try it' with a wry smile. He loves eating you out, fucking you, domming is kind of expected from the partner that's three times as big.

The first time you guide him to lie down on his back, he assumes you're going to have him drop so you can ride him, the (or if he's trans like yours truly, he's just confused, looking up at you with the sweetest puzzled smile, it's a weird angle to be eating you out but okay then.) He reaches to pick you up and help you sit on his face, excited to bury his snout in you, or reaches down to make himself drop. You kiss his hands, gently place one of them on the back of your head, and lick up his slit with your broad tongue, drawing a yelp out of him, before your bury your face in his cunt, soft thighs tensing around you already, he's scared of crushing you so he holds them open. You finally get to hear him whimper instead of grunt, the dirty talk and low voice he usually feels obligated to use is gone, high pitched whines taking it's place. He falls apart immediately, hands flitting between his thighs and your head, scared of hurting you, the fear leaves as you hum into him and he cums hard, forcing you deeper into him, thighs pressed against his hands as he rides out his orgasm. You have to check on him before continuing because he's sobbing so damn loud, it takes a minute to figure out he's saying "no, more please" as in 'no, i'm fine, please, please keep going.' You oblige, and no matter how much he wants it it's a lot, he's fighting the urge to push you away, squirming and panting under you no matter how slowly and gently you take it, poor sensitive boy. He's literally screaming by the fourth orgasm (Leo portals in, takes one look, snorts, portals right back out). Eventually he pulls you off, crying 'no more no more' then regretting it, you tell him he tastes so good, there's so much slick left dripping from his pretty cunt, can't you just clean it up? He holds his thighs open, trembling, soothed by your words as you take breaks to explain how this is so good for you, he's being such a good boy letting you be selfish and taste him as long as you want. Raph doesn't know what to do when you offer to do things for him, it feels weird, he doesn't like it. But he'll do anything for you. And if you making him cum until he screams makes you happy, and is actually for you, he'll let you do it forever. When he's a trembling mess, near passing out, you promise you'll be right back. You walk out and return with snacks, drinks, and a warm washcloth and towel. He's cleaned up, dried off, cooed over and brought his favorite plushies, you watch whatever he wants on his laptop under a million blankets and cover him in kisses and praise as his tail wags.

[starry-eyed-adam]

hey you! 🫵

are you over eighteen, a Head Over Boots fan, and looking for some age-appropriate writing?? (if so tap ‘read more’)!

if not! have a great day anyways!!

NOW TO THE BUSINESS!!

are you a Head Over Boots fan who’s tired of waiting on the last chapter, or perhaps wants extra smut chapters??

are you unwilling to pay for Patreon or Ko-Fi (because c’mon I’m not a New York Times bestseller) but still want more cowboy Leosagi after hours??

well you are in luck my friend because on this fine evening I have posted THE FIRST CHAPTER of the Head Over Boots Smut Oneshots!

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will hopefully be back soon with more plotless nonsense. any recommendations are more than encouraged (no t-cest) to drop either in the comments or my inbox!

thank you again for your attention, have a fantastic night :)

[turtlesoutofspace]

Quiet

Cw: tcest!!! Blood, hidden relationships, intox, dubcon, pregnancy, leoraph and mitello

Raph and Leo screaming at each other until they're hoarse and one is sobbing and there's blood on the floor, until they can't look at each other and face the damage they've done, until one turns away or one concedes.

They don't leave each other alone if they're fighting-no stomping off and slamming doors. Raph follows Leo until Leo feels like snarking back, and every bit of frustration at the lot the world gave them, at absent parents and being forced into leadership they never wanted, at watching their little brothers bleed because they didn't take or deflect the blow themselves-every bit of that helpless anger is taken out on each other.

Donnie only made the joke about 'mom and dad fighting' once, Raph lost it and Leo put him in the medbay. Raph repaid the favor. All they ever do is feel awful and hurt all over.

Until one's voice cracks. The other herds him into the kitchen, calls him a dumbass, gets the bandages. Maybe some water, but water is being replaced by tea more and more often.

They actually talk, in a calm voice.

The next day, they still fight. It's subdued the first time. And then they're bored, and frustrated, and they forget to be better. They love each other, and it hurts, and they don't know what to do.

One prods, the other trips, and they're screaming and hissing and holding back tears again.

They fall asleep on the couch after tea that night. Wake up for a few moments on the floor, cling tighter, back to sleep. They're stuck together with dry blood in the morning, Leo was too tired to bandage anything properly.

They start drinking together, and everything gets so much worse, arguing every moment they're awake, breaking furniture and yelling at the top of their lungs. They get high together, on purpose or after Donnie put something in their tea, they honestly have no idea.

And it's quiet. Sans quiet giggling and whispering, like they're ten and know how to be some semblance of kind again, even if none of it's on purpose.

It's quiet in the morning, night comes and brings old music, stifled laughter, sighs after your body gives up on a task or standing or arguing just a bit for fun or giggling.

They didn't need bandages, they wake up stuck together again. Leo can't think about it or he'll vomit, stuffing gummies into Raph's mouth before he realizes, furiously scrubbing at himself until Raph takes over and his hands are so big and gentle and leo's falling back into him, it's warm and soft and velvet and safe and they'll be okay, like how Donnie and Mikey are okay, also high, stifling giggles and sighs, making a mess of each other, joking about their older brothers joining in.

Raph sobs like he did the night before as he adjusts around Leo, waiting for his body to be good and give like it's supposed to. Leo tries very hard not to mock him, or coo at him, losing the battle and doing both, shoving in before Raph can swipe at him.

This process repeats until Raph cannot possibly deny how much he likes being looked at and touched like he's pretty. Leo's starting to mutter about turning Raph into a mommy, because he knows raph likes it, he knows Raph would die to have more babies to dote on.

(One of their little brothers is already pregnant, has no idea, and is squealing happily as he dances with his favorite person.)

[dxrkshippers]

𝐖𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐠𝐢𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐞? (𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐫𝐨 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐭)

𝐀𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐌𝐞

Heya, my name is Kenny! I used to have the account @ kenny-pilled before it got deleted- but I’m back! My pronouns are they/them, I’m an adult, I’m taken, and I’m a proud proshipper!

𝐓𝐖𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐠

My account will contain NSFT content that may include incest, abuse, grooming, and other taboo topics!

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[loveless-in-the-morgue]

Intro

Lex - Axel - Salem

any pronouns

asexual polyam lesbian + gay

femme and masc because my gender is fluid

single, looking

transmasc bigender boygirl

you can use any terms for me

21 years old

there will be some nsft on my blog

Fun Facts !!

I’m a Leo sun, Pisces moon, Virgo rising

My favorite colors are green and purple

I’m a Hellenic polytheist

Halloween is my favorite holiday

I’m emo and also getting into the whimsigoth style as well

I’m a kemonomimi (puppy)

I like to draw, listen to music, read and write, play guitar, make things out of Kandi, and spend time with loved ones

Anime fan

I love animals

(nsft🔽)

you can use any terms for me

sub

I have a huge mommy kink

others include: size difference, petplay (puppy and kitty), cnc, free use, praise/degrading, brat taming, corruption, breeding, omegaverse, squashing, foot worship, human furniture, facesit, eprocto

[starbug-space]

!!!!!! NSFT content! Minors DNI !!!!!!

Stories on this blog include selfcest. All characters are 25+ unless stated otherwise.

Contents and TW may include:

-noncon, dubcon, cnc, pregnancy, bodymods, body horror, discussion of mental and physical illness, religious kink, assorted things that are either upsetting or fun to explore in fiction (not irl), dehumanization

ALL Readers/xinserts are male, and often trans masc.

Characters are frequently chubby and/or trans because I'm chubby and trans and fat/trans people are gorgeous!!

Hi!!!!! Hello!! We are Star and Bug, we love tmnt esp rottmnt ESP Mikey ESP ESP future Mikey (we love the others and write abt them too!)

We write hot yaoi on yaoi tmnt x reader Action baby!!! Usually transmasc reader and Rise turtles, but there are some occasional cis male reader and other TMNT iterations.

List of aus!! (Almost all aus branch out into diff stories, and are more umbrella labels for anything with the same general premise.)

Doorstep au:

-future mikey fell through the portal and onto your doorstep and wants you bad

-Angelo (present mikey) wants you bad

-healing, catfights and shenanigans ensue

Employment au:

-you are hired to entertain future mikey by his exhausted past brothers

-he's understimulated and refuses to stay out of trouble

-it's your job to care for him

-and he's delighted

Devotee au:

-TBA ;3

Mutant pets au:

-mutants are pets

Human pets au:

-you are pet

Something in the water au:

-nature yielded something odd and it wishes to either come home with you, or drag you back home with it

Lamb and Guard dogs au:

-feral F Mikey x reader x F Leo

Wasteland baby au:

-mikey finds you in the wasteland and keeps you, one way or another

-you're feral or he's feral

Silent hill au:

-includes Raph PT au

-donnie and mikey are nurses

-??????

[rennie-the-batboy]

'Donnie gets the shit beat out of him by Leo, sexually.'

Despite how the others voice made his stomach flip, made his mind want to disappear, made him weak - he stayed standing. A whore, maybe, but Donnie wasnt going to be an easy one. Even applying a sarcastic grin to his face, though his legs visibly shook. Shaking from pain or arousal he was unsure, though he could feel small beads of his blood pooling atop the scratches over his thighs. Donnie swallowed hard, suddenly nervous as Leos gaze hardened at him.

( impact play, blood kink, daddy kink, humiliation kink, feminization kink, overstimulation, fictional twin incest. Hard Dom Leo, Sub Donnie. )

[brattata]

Hi!! I hope your having a great day!! I don’t know how many have submitted these yet but if i’m too late that’s totally okay and just ignore this 🫶🫶

My fandom of choice is hxh, my age range is 18-30. (I’m 20) My preferred pronouns are she/her and i do not have a preference for gender. I have a very all over the place personality, some days i’ll be very bubbly, i’ll be cracking jokes left and right and im known as the funniest one in my friend group. I’m also known for my sense of style, my outfits are always looking different everyday depending on how I feel. But other days I literally shut everybody out and don’t get out of my bed all day. Sometimes I can have random bursts of anger directed towards whoever I’m talking to at the moment. For my hobbies I often foster dogs and cats (so far only kittens) who are in need of a safe home after being abused or abandoned.

For my dislikes and dealbreakers, if the person i’m dating has age-play or chews loudly 😭 That’s all i can think of 💀

For my letters can i please have O and D from the nsfw list and C from the fluff list!!

(bonus) My sun is a pisces, moon in leo, rising sign is aries. Venus is also aries. I’m an INFJ, and my love languages are giving gifts, physical touch (cuddling, holding hands, the little things, etc) However if my partner is not into physical touch that is totally fine.

I think that is all! Thank you so much and I hope you have a great rest of your day!! 🫶

Alright, a HxH request! And a little NSFT too, huehue. 😏 Since there are some spicy headcanons below the cut, any readers under 18 should please skip this post.

Now, back to the matchup! Reading your info, the person who jumped out to me the most was…

Knuckle Bine!

Side note: There were so many GIFs to choose from, holy shit! Look at him, carrying Meleoron all cool…

You’d make for a very fun and flashy couple, imo. Clearly Knuckle is a dude with a very strong personal style, and I think he’d appreciate that in a partner too. He shares your love for animals - tends to be a little more of a dog person, but come on, who can resist a kitten? 😽 He’s not going to be put off or scared away by your occasional outbursts, and though his response might often sometimes be an outburst of his own, he gets over it pretty quickly. He’ll whine and scold you about PDA being embarrassing, but I bet he’s a cuddlebug in private.

C is for Comfort

So…the first time Knuckle witnesses you spending a whole day in bed, he doesn’t handle it very well tbh. When he’s feeling down or angry, being active makes him feel better, so it might take some time for him to get that you’re different. Not being sulky or lazy, just processing your feelings in your own way. He loves you though, so he’ll adjust, although he still just doesn’t feel right leaving you totally alone all day. Might insist you keep a puppy or kitten with you for company - you know, because they whine too much when they miss you. 🙄

D is for Dirty Secret (NSFT)

I don’t know why, but I feel like Knuckle has a scent kink. It initially started as something very innocent - smell is the sensation most strongly tied to memory, so it makes perfect sense that he’d want a piece of your clothing to remember you by when he has to be away from you for a long time. Right? Morel and Shoot tease him pretty hard when they catch him wrapping an old shirt of yours around his pillow one night. So, he would literally rather die than have them find out about the pair of your underwear he keeps stashed for when he’s really “lonely.”

O is for Oral (NSFT)

Knuckle slightly prefers receiving to giving. He’s naturally a bit of a hair puller and head pusher, not because he’s trying to be “dominant” (unless you’re into that 👀) but because he just gets too caught up in how good your mouth feels. He will also eat you out very enthusiastically (though you might need to ask), and may make it a personal challenge to see how fast or how many times he can make you cum with just his tongue. Bonus dirty secret: he likes oral fine, but he really prefers good old missionary sex because he’s a romantic who wants to be able to see, and kiss, your face. 😘

Ngl, it’s been a minute since I watched the Chimera Ant Arc, so I hope I did Kuwabara Knuckle justice! 😉 Thanks again for participating in my matchup event.

[raspb333ry]

𝐅𝐀𝐐 & 𝐆𝐔𝐈𝐃𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒

about me — celine. twenty-one. bisexual. she/they. cancer sun. libra moon. leo rising. italian and lebanese. in a relationship.

disclaimers — NSFT BLOGS, PEDOPHILES, RACISTS, HOMOPHOBES, TERFS, INCELS, SEXISTS, TRANSPHOBES, FASCISTS, NAZI’S, THIN-SPO, ANTI-BODY POSITIVITY, ZIONISTS, RACE FETISHERS, RADFEMS, ARE NOT FUCKING WELCOMED HERE.

note — if you fit into one of these categories i’m blocking and reporting you without hesitation. this space is only for giving good energies and manifesting good things as well. take your negative energy somewhere else if you aren’t happy with that.

[what-reader-we-r-illiterate]

All four boys x you they r gna kiss u so hard and birth so many eggs pls heed the tags there is owchie and dubcon in this mwah! Leo's chapter out now!

[turtlesoutofspace]

We know better

Mitello, based on rise, fits other iterations. Nsft, bc of bodies reacting to each other

Raph and Leo fight.

They fight and the others hide and try to keep each other amused, overwhelmed by hyper empathy and sensitivity, the screaming, emotions and noise and fear of how far the fight would go.

One day Mikey held them chained to opposite walls, lost his grip, and got his snout broken by Raph.

Mikey doesn't try to interrupt anymore.

Donnie builds curios, trinkets that only exist to make Mikey smile. A normal desire, to help someone he loves feel happier, safer.

He never was able to fully process how Mikey's response struck him.

It's like he's still there when he tries, hearing mikey croak out a thank you, beaming even as he cries.

Donnie suspects the main issue was an unusually large hit of dopamine. His favorite brother genuinely, fully appreciating something donnie made. Being able to soothe someone. Actually soothe them. The way mikey laid with his head on donnie's thigh, watching the projector spin, making constellations twirl across the roof of their blanket fort.

Mikey fell asleep like that, his head on donnie's lap, and he was so beautiful. So loving and kind and sweet and bright and warm, everything Donatello envied and could never be, if others and the unchanging nature of sapient life were to be believed.

Michelangelo is the center of Donnie's universe.

Michelangelo is Donnie's everything.

Donnie sat rigid, nausea building as he ran tests.

Who he would grieve the most. Dark, but telling. Who he would struggle the most without. Angelo, no hesitation. Who his favorite is.

Who he agrees with when they compliment themself.

Who he thinks of as cutest. Prettiest, most beautiful.

Who he thinks of as beautiful every time he sees him.

Donnie chokes down bile. Disgust is well warranted, but won't serve him. He can do this, he just has to figure out what's going on and he can take the appropriate measures to stop anything from happening.

He thinks, for less than half a second, about what he could possibly be afraid of regarding mikey. Mikey is safe, mikey is his person.

He actually loves mikey. Not like the others, not that that isn't love, but-

His brain fractures, what he's afraid of seeps in.

He never gets rid of it, the disease takes and he has always thought of angelo as his angelo, hasn't he? His sweet little brother, who he loves, more than anyone else. The beautiful boy asleep with his head on Donnie's lap, who comes to donnie with everything, comes to donnie when he wants to feel safe and far away from the world.

Mikey sketches in his lab, brings him treats first and Donnie has to be actually sick because he thinks that means something, and he knows he's sick he knows he has to keep the bile down and he's crying and it hurts his eyes and his head.

Mikey stirs. Rolls over to look up at donnie, frowns. "Hey, hey, Donnie, why the tears?"

Donnie cries harder.

And mikey's kneeling beside him, checking donnie's forehead and admitting he doesn't know what a fever feels like.

Mikey's gone, dashing out of the pillow fort and his traincar to brave the fight. just to get supplies for donnie.

Because donnie's having a pity party over being attracted to him, probably, definitely attracted. Probably in love.

Mikey's back and donnie's blushing, cheeks hot and mikey doesn't know what a fever temperature is for a turtle mutant with human dna, donnie should but he can't think of it or anything except bits of red in the amber of mikey's eyes, soft cheeks, cerulean skin marred with beautiful scars, dappled with markings, all gold.

Mikey leans his forehead against donnie's to feel the difference. Donnie stops breathing for a moment, and he wants everything he can't have, were he basically any other person alive he wouldn't have to feel guilty for thinking a beautiful, sweet, wonderful boy is beautiful and sweet and wonderful. How could his thoughts be bad when they're just the truth? His emotions wrong when he can't help them?

Mikey's asking some question, donnie isn't listening. Mikey grabs his face. Donnie flops onto the pile of pillows and blankets, taking mikey with him.

He gets to say it. Just once. And mean it and feel the sick rush of being able to say what he actually feels to mikey's face.

"I love you."

Mikey's eyes shift. Barely. Pupils narrow, then dilate.

"Why are you saying it like that, Donnie?"

Shit. Shit. Shitshitshitshit-

Donnie tries to face away, Mikey turns him back. "Repeat it. Say it the exact same way."

"No, i'm not performing affection."

"It's just a test, donnie. What's the harm?"

"I love you?"

Mikey slowly shakes his head, never breaking eye contact.

"No. You said it like this."

Mikey takes a deep breath. When he speaks, it's low, shaky.

Is that how Donnie sounded?

"I love you."

Hesitant and vulnerable and sincere and resigned and his voice is raspy, when it's low it makes something in donnie tighten, it's thrown him off it always has he's always loved mikey's voice-

"Are you okay? Is this still about raph and leo?"

Maybe donnie assumed too much. Maybe mikey didn't catch onto anything other than donnie being weird-

"It feels like you have a problem with me."

Donnie can't breathe.

"Did I do something?"

Donnie can't lie, he never could.

"Are you... upset with me?"

He needs something, anything.

"No."

"Are you... scared?"

"No."

"But it has to do with me?"

"...No, of course-"

"Liar." Mikey breathes out. The air feels weird. The quiet, the distant sound of water, electrical humming, muffled by the blanket fort, all weird, too much. Targeting donnie specifically somehow. Everything is weird. And bad. Donnie wants to go to bed.

"Goodnight."

So he does.

Mikey follows him out of the blanket fort, across the main area of the lair, no faint arguing to be heard, nothing but two sets of footsteps, mikey's quiet pleading.

"I just wanna know what's up."

Donnie's ribs ache. His thighs rub together too easily in the worst way, gliding and messy and he's crying again, the universe is cruel. He couldn't have a normal life, crushes who could love him back, windows with sunlight and bookstores and running as far as he could without broken glass and he loves his life, he does, he loves solitude and quiet. He loves dark, cold rooms.

But he'd like to actually have mikey.

He shakes his head, they go into donnie's room, another train car he remodeled.

Donnie turns off the lights, crawls into bed. Plugs in his phone, tries to, gives up. Whatever, life as he knows it is over anyway.

And mikey crawls on top of him, just heavy enough to be comforting, warm and soft from indulging in the treats he makes, not that donnie's fared any better, absentmindedly eating anything mikey gives him, trusting that it will meet his sensory needs.

It always does.

Donnie is miserable.

Mikey pries and threatens and bribes until a tactic works.

His lip wobbles. "I won't sleep if you're upset because of me."

Donnie is certain he's going to get disowned in an incredibly stupid, misguided attempt keep mikey happy.

"I am not upset at you."

Mikey's eyes widen, tears start to flow. "But you're upset because of me? Did I hurt you?"

Shit.

"No. No, no, my brain's just broken, it's none of your concern. An intrusive thought stressed me out."

"Your intrusive thoughts don't usually bother you this much. Did I get hurt?"

"No-well technically-"

"Did I hurt you in the thought? I'm so sorry-"

Donnie chokes a bit on his laugh. "What? No! No, no-please, mikey, we have to stop talking about this, I can't think about it anymore."

"Why? It can't hurt either of us. Just tell me, let me reassure you and you'll feel better. So i sort of got hurt?"

"I didn't-if it was violent i wouldn't be bothered. Because that would never happen."

"And this could?"

Donnie is going to die.

Mikey is sitting on his lap, his face inches away.

"Get off of me"

"Not until you tell me what it was, I know you were thinking about me."

"It's not my fault."

"I know."

"I didn't hurt you-"

"You never would."

"I just crossed a boundary."

"Physical or emotional?"

The quick response throws Donnie. He eyes the manipulative demon sitting on his lap, pretty tears long gone.

"stop asking questions."

"Both?"

Donnie will never speak ever again, he decides.

Mikey shifts his weight, grabs donnie's jaw, guides him to face mikey. Just a little bit more forceful than necessary.

"So you had an intrusive thought about crossing some boundary with me that makes you scared of being near me. even though you're certain you would never hurt me. The intrusive thought is about you crossing a physical or emotional boundary with me. Is it incest?"

Donnie can't say no and make it convincing, he can't speak, he doesn't try.

"Are you nonverbal?"

Donnie nods.

"Was I right?"

Donnie doesn't move.

"Was it one intrusive thought? Or a steady feeling? Oh-no, shh, it'll be alright."

Donnie covers his eyes and sobs. Mikey rolls off, wriggles under the covers, pulls donnie into his arms. He undoes his older brother's mask, takes his goggles off. Wristlet, elbow pads, gloves. "So you were just gonna go to sleep with these on? There, that should be better. There you go, lie with your head on my chest, heartbeat will help calm you down."

It's probably bullshit. Donnie lies there anyway. It helps. Might just be because of the softness and warmth and how mikey smells like safety and home and warmth and that stupid forest their dad dragged them into, their shared dad donnie is so gross-

Mikey's voice is quiet, tentative. "What if i had the same thoughts? Would you think i'm horrible?"

"Of course not." He could never.

"Then we're good. Also reptiles. Half siblings. Not that big of a deal."

He turns over and donnie's face is buried in his chest and it's so soft and if donnie never gets to cuddle like this with his beloved again He will actually die.

Donnie makes a note to research Mating behaviors on ornate box turtles the next morning.

Mikey's voice cracks when he speaks. Donnie has literally never heard him speak so quietly.

"So you arent going to ask me anything?"

"Do you also-"

"Yeah."

"How long?"

"No idea. Maybe since forever. You?"

"Yeah, same."

"What now?"

"I think we have to die from shame or something"

"Okay. What then?"

"We stay dead."

Mikey scrunches up his snout. He might be the cutest thing ever, and is definitely killing donnie because of it. "No we don't."

Donnie would argue with anyone else. "Okay. We reincarnate."

"And?"

"Find each other again."

"And?"

"And then we get another shot. We can ideally have whatever we want, it'll be healthy if we're really lucky, if we find-"

"Why can't we take this one?"

"Because i'm not doing anything and neither are you."

"Why?"

"Because we know better."

Mikey kisses him.