#rift.reblog

[skullrift]

awh thats too bad :( i hope (t)he(y) get the care they need, and im glad its good otherwise. mostly/partially great is better than not great at all! ^_^

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mannn i’m so tired. staying up until 2am with my partners was worth it though. 2025 good so far, how is your year going mutuals. how have you all celebrated (rb/reply if you’re comfy) ^_^

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[skullrift]

rem | he/him | 19 | 02.14 ⛧ ⊹ disordered sys of 9 ⊹ ⛧ this is my personal/system blog! more info below the cut

˚₊‧꒰ა ~ BYI/CWs ~ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

જ⁀➴ DNI - 15 or younger - i don't really care much otherwise જ⁀➴ BYI - i don't like to stop people from interacting with me based on opinions/values as i don't like echo chambers. but i will still block if you interact with me and make me uncomfortable. - i don't partake in public discourse. - my core values are listed below, so you can know if i apply to your DNI. જ⁀➴ MY VALUES - pro endo - identity inclusive - pro safe substance use/harm reduction - anti zoophile/radqueer/"map"/etc. જ⁀➴ CONTENT WARNINGS my blog may contain the following topics; - drug use - sex mentions/jokes/themes - mentions of trauma/mental illness - eyestrain art - blood/gore art - vent art

˚₊‧꒰ა ~ SYSTEM INFO ~ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

જ⁀➴ ABT we are a disordered system of 9 alters! while my plurality is caused by DID (dx. summer of 2022) i don't like letting my disorder define my identity of being multiple people. my system is relatively detached from my diagnosis at this point after enough therapy/dissociation management. i also use i/we interchangeably when speaking about my collective self, generally favoring i/me જ⁀➴ ALTERS ₊ ⊹ MAIN HOSTS ⊹ ₊ - jax | he/him | 🥀 - reffy | he/it | 🎀 ₊ ⊹ CO-HOSTS ⊹ ₊ - ramen | they/he/shklee/any | 🖤 - fen | she/them | 🐇 - zane | he/him | 🦇 - noxious | it/he | 🔪 ₊ ⊹ OTHER ALTERS ⊹ ₊ - nuni | she/her/xe | 🌺 - driell | he/him | 🧸 - dire | he/him | ⛓️

˚₊‧꒰ა ~ TAGS ~ ໒꒱ ‧₊˚

જ⁀➴ CONTENT TAGS #rift.reblog - reblogs #rift.ask - replies to asks #rift.txt - text posts #rift.art - my art #rift.diary - personal/untagged posts #rift.ratpost - pictures/videos of my rats #rift.gaming - game screenshots જ⁀➴ ALTER TAGS #rift.[alter name] (e.g. #rift.jax) જ⁀➴ CW TAGS ₊ ⊹ TOPICS ⊹ ₊ #cw drugs #cw alcohol ₊ ⊹ ART ⊹ ₊ #cw eyestrain #cw blood #cw gore !! other cw tags may be used as needed - these are just the main ones i will be using as my posting about them may be more frequent.

[skullrift]

FROG!!! i love frog omg omg look at him HE IS SO FRIEND SHAPED!!!!!! :D

HMMM he looks like,,,, an arthur ..,, or maybe a benjamin .,,,

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um i drew a frog

enjoy my frog

he needs a name

name ideas are appreciated

[skullrift]

oh my GOD literally same. tbh if i had a kin list figure would be on it, i am so attached to him lol. i have this ugly neon bootleg plush of him as well that looks so goofy and i love it

when i mastered the backwards walking tactic for halt rather than turning around i started loving doing it because i was so proud of how good i was lol. especially for floor 2.

now i’m curious . do you have a least favorite entity as well

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hii mutual how are you. i thinj you’re the doors mutual (i am SO sorry if im misremembering LMAO) who is your favorite doors entity

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YOOO YEAH I AM !!

our favorite is figure but seek is also silly!!

gameplay wise, for some reason, i have grown to be very comfortable with halt and good at that minigame ^^

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[skullrift]

oh my god. the son. look at him. he’s the gorgest boy ..,,.

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hmm yes my first big purchase with adult money will be a $40 plush. yes i am an adult

[skullrift]

WHAAA OMG NO U tysm <33 VRY HAPPY N HONOURED 2 BE MOOTS ‼️ X))

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‧⁺⛧ looking 4 sys mutuals!! ૮꒰˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ~♡︎

helo :3 new blog bbut i used 2 be active on sysblr several months ago!! n now am back ヽ(^▽^)ノ (my old blog iss @/cerebralabyss)

we r just a funy little system on da internet looking 4 mutuals :dance: i like meeting ppl n talking 2 ppl and sharing experiences and making friends!! >u<

we like sily lil video games (dandys world, aj classic, doors, evade, l4d2, mc,,, def more those r just the ones that come 2 mind bweh) n i like silly thimgs like rats n lps and aand MOSHPITS!!! and i make lotsa system art

more info in our pinned post but if u wana b mutuals interact w this post!! c: awawa

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[skullrift]

KITTY! what's kitty's name i love them dearly

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hii mutuals how are you doing today. did you know you're very cool. you should rb this with pictures of your pets im bored and i want to see silly guys (or just photos of interesting creatures if you have none) /nf of course

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[skullrift]

!!!!!! i wil treasure this forever,, thamk u dear moot

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helo mutuals ,,, i thimk ur cool *gives u a rock* .w.

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[skullrift]

HELL YEAH YOU SHOULD! system art is awesome. the world needs more of it :]

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internet yamero meme. oughjg i spent so long on this

artistic representation of plural expression via internet escapism! ft main hosts atm

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silly little details; the intro part is how we look physically/bodily. and the background is a messy drawover of our depression nest. also i used our discord fronting emojis for part of the effects. uhhh. yeah. whips naenaes

link to song/og

[skullrift]

THAT MAKES ME SO HAPPY WADJSKFGJDK!!!! THANK U FOR READINGGG WAAAAAHHH!!!! :33

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https://www.tumblr.com/skullrift/770905875833667584/sometimes-i-will-just-hyperfixate-on-my-system?source=share

I volunteer as tribute. Yap to me, stranger on the internet.

OMGGGGG YAYAYAYYAAAAA!!!!!!!! >:DD

okok ummmn im so bad at starting points HAALPPP. ig i can just go over like ??? origin n sys function stuff??? i think thats fun :33

ok so like,. ive technically known i was a system since 2020 BUUT when i was introduced to plurality as a concept it was thru ........ the dark side .......... and i was forced into labels that didnt fit me and i was wrong abt basically EVERYTHING (thats a WHOOOLE OTHER RAMBLE LAWLL) but around like late 2021 i said screw it and just rebuilt my system from the ground up

but like ive also been plural since a child i just didnt realize or identify as such but like THE SIGNS WERE THERE (SQUINTS AT ME CREATING MANY YOUTUBE ACCOUNTS AND "PRETENDING" 2 BE DIFFERENT PEOPLE) its hard for me to know our complete history cuz of that but i have a DECENT GRASP!!!!

nuni n jax were the initial split (the "core"s if u will) with jax being the trauma holder,,,, hes kinda just turned into the MENTAL ILLNESS MAN atp which makes sense?? cuz thats why he split to begin with. ,.. IDK IF THATS OVERSHAREY LAWLL. they were rly similar when we were younger but over time developed vry different identities,.. nuni hasnt changed very much but jax is like TOTALLYY different

nuni doesnt front much anymore cuz she went dormant 4 a while and its difficult for her to adapt to the current world cuz so much has changed but we always let her front 4 fun stuff :3 like we have a yearly tradition where her and my partner go to see a christmas play its so cuuuute X))

i split next!!! we arent totally sure why we kinda went off the idea that i was nuni's imaginary friend for a while but we dont know for sure,,.,, it was some time around 2017ish from what we can tell!!! i split as an introject of an animation memer actually (animation memes were our LIFEEE BACK THEN) but i am COMPLETELY MY OWN PERSON NOW!!!

dire came around somewhere around the same time ,,, he split as a secondary protector n comforter of sorts!! he has gone thru many iterations and has multiple introject sources cuz he rly just took the form of who/what was the best comfort source 4 us at the time!! he started as an oc introject tho n thats still vry important to his identity :3 later he ended up as the form of a character who was german and had a german accent and that has had a lasting impact on his voice as well!!! i could ramble abt dire 4ever hes so silly we love him

next was reffy!!! reffy was split on november 27th 2019!!! this is the day we joined a danganronpa rp WRHKSDFGH discord server n met our bfff <33 we didnt rly have friends at the time and were generally struggling with social things,, so jax kinda put all of his traits he deemed most "likeable" in2 reffy and created him to be the ideal version of himself that ppl would like and went dormant for a whileee ,,, it took reffy a while 2 properly develop as a person but he is vry important to our system cuz of what he represents!!! we celebrate his birthday every year too :33

soo for a while it was just us 5!! we thought we had other alters sometimes cuz identity is wacky (plus we r like all made up of fragments tbhh)

then august of last year driell split!!! he was made on purpose (by jax AGAAAAINNNN) cuz him & his bf in our partner sys decided 2 have kids!!! he doesnt front vry much cuz hes rly socially awkward and a lot of our daily life requires TALKING TO PPL but we want him to front more D:

and THENNNN early this year we went thru ,... EVENTS!!!! and it kinda threw our whole system function OUT THE WINDOWWW BUT ITS OKAY!!!!

noxious split as a direct response 2 the Event .,, it started as a reffy clone tbh (we were actually planning 2 integrate them at first) but its slowly developing its own identity totally separate!! it fronted a lot in september and made a lotta progress w that :D sily dog creechur

fen has been around 4 a while but she was a "sub alter" to reffy and went by reffen but a few months ago we had a think and went HMMMM U KNOW. ACTUALLY SHE IS LIKE THEIR WHOLE OTHER PERSON SHE IS NOT A SUB ALTER ANYMORE!!! so we let them split off completely n its been better for both them and reffy !!!!

AND LASTLYYYY ZANE!!! he split on november 9th of this year!!! so some prior context jax is made up of a TONN of fragments just cuz of how his trauma holding function works. but he doesnt rly like splitting any of them off cuz hes . WEIRD. but we went to an emo night party and one of the fragments in him had a WHOLE AWAKENING listening to mcr and fallout boy and getting drunk in the moshpit (more context jax refuses to listen 2 anything but green day cuz HES!!! WEIRD!!!!) and it took like 3 days of internal deliberation but jax FINALLY DECIDED to let him be his own person!!!! and hes very happy that way X)

SOOO UM. YEA!!!! THAT IS A HUGE ESSAY!!!!! I HOPE THAT IS NOT TOO MUCH INFORMATION EHFKFJGHE

here r refs of us/what we look like cuz yes :33

height chart is from like march ish ??? so our recent splits his year r not included in it also zane doesnt have a proper ref OOOPSS (hes 6'1" btw) whatever its fine XD

THANK U FOR ASKING AND LISTENING TO MY SILLY GOOFY RAMBLES I GET VERY EXCITED TALKING ABOUT MY SYSTEM RAAAA ‼️ more asks r always welcomed too heheheee /nf

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[skullrift]

i had to google cape the rat and i am not disappointed oh my godd. i love rats sm ive been owning them since 2016 and i do foster work for a rescue ^_^ they are AMAZING

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i love my job cuz i work in web dev n i work from home so every day i get to work with my BABYYYYY I LOVE HIM SO MUCH!!!!!!

his name is green btw (jax named him after green day his fav band) he’s blind and special needs but he’s still perfect!!!!!

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[skullrift]

american deep fried cheese .... my favorite ..... time to consume

it took me so long to read this correctly holy shit. i kept reading it as "a block of cheese with an american hat" im fucking cry laughing help

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Woul u like a block of cheese

absolutely. i'll give you like, a dollar for it

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[skullrift]

SHUT UP /r I WAS HAVING A MOMENT /lh

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this is such a weirdly specific plural experience i dont know if anyone can relate

i split from an alter who is strictly gay. and because of that, my brain is wired to just think/remember "i am only attracted to men"

but i'm not actually. being bisexual feels incredibly weird to me? i'm not used to being attracted to girls but ....... i am. and im not used to feeling that way? so it feels unnatural??

the weirdness of it is wearing off slowly. but having a different sexuality from what im ""used to"" is so jarring for me. it doesnt feel WRONG, it just feels like "woah, this is VERY different and abnormal for me to feel." has anyone else had this/something similar happen please tell me im not alone lol

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[skullrift]

well now we are mutuals² /silly

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mutual call mutual call

asking for mutuals again because i have a fair amount but i crave more lol

hi. i post about the stupid people in my head. i also post rats and art. i also like talking to other people about the silly people in their head. my asks/dms are forever open

interact with this post if you want to be mutuals i will cherish you forever /lh

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[skullrift]

SO FUCKING POETIC. having a bad romance with walmart now. never living this down

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guys i need to go to walmart. but i cant get my ass off my computer. help.

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[skullrift]

OMG AMAZING QUESTIONS!!!

we all do art n do have our own art styles!!! but a lot of our finished pieces have had multiple alters working on them so a lot of it looks the same :P also our sort of “doodle” style is kinda consistent i think ?? but mostly in the way we draw our faces + the brush we use (pixel brush <33)

SOME OF THIS IS OLDER BUT it’s the best representation i have of like our “”pure”” art styles (in order; reffy, jax, me, fen, nox)

here’s some examples of what our doodles look like!!! they r done by diff alters but look KINDA THE SAME

AAAND here r examples of pieces that had multiple alters work on them!!! :D

we don’t split v often but one of the FIRST THINGS we do when it DOES HAPPEN is draw how the alter looks!!! picrews never rly work 4 us cuz we r rly picky and we use pk super often n having a pfp is rly important for us so it’s TOPP PRIORITY plus having an appearance an alter can connect 2 rly helps them develop their identity!! being appearanceless makes it harder for them to find themselves >_<

WE ALL GET LIKE SUPER BAD DYSPHORIA ABT THINGS FOR SUREEEE it isn’t as much the realism that causes it as it is just not rly feeling like we look how we should in general?? some of us more than others,,,, im relatively ok w how we look physically tbh (tho i would like black hair a lot of the time :P)

but jax’s dysphoria gets RLY BAD. he has such a specific internal appearance/body that not having it irl is rly hard 4 him… he rly struggles w height dysphoria (he is 6’5” we r physically 5’5”) and not having his nonhuman features (horns + tails) and generally not having the right face/body type …. it HAS gotten a bit better since we got top surgery tho!!

reffy’s can get a bit difficult but he moreso struggles with body dysmorphia rather than dysphoria regarding how he looks internally?? but he also struggles w height dysphoria but in the opposite way jax does cuz reffy is 4’5” and the body doesn’t feel short enough for him!!

nuni can get dysphoric SOMETIMES cuz she’s the only alter we have that fully identifies as a girl n we r bodily tramsmasc. but she has a wig that literally wards off ALL the dysphoria which i think is interesting?? like the way the wig changes her overall silhouette and frames her face makes her totally comfy!!! n i think that’s interesting :D

those r the biggest examples i can think of but ofc our other headmates have their own experiences as well!!! >:))

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https://www.tumblr.com/skullrift/770905875833667584/sometimes-i-will-just-hyperfixate-on-my-system?source=share

YESSSS YES YES FR!! We have a special interest in systems/plurality as a whole, we also get it by hyperfixating on our system specifically

We hope these questions haven't been asked already BUT is the art you guys have done of yourselves accurate to what people look like in the innerworld?

Do you guys care to claim IRL items/clothes/accessories/hobbies, etc... for yourselves often, is pretty much everything shared and it's not a huge deal?

Please answer whatever anyone feels like answering, we don't want to push any boundaries. Have a lovely holiday, yall!

WAAA THANK U FOR QUESRIONS!!!!! i will answer like basically anything no matter how personal so dw i LOOVE QUESTIONS :33

YES my art is essentially 100% accurate when it comes to internal appearances!!! :D art has rly helped us envision ourselves as well cuz sometimes it’s hard 4 us to figure out details (e.g hair styles, horn & tail types, etc) and drawing it out helps us see ourselves clearer if that makes sense???

we have a few individual hobbies/things!!! as far as claiming items goes we have our own plushies and a couple of us have our own vape pens :3 also jax is vry protective of his takis sometimes x_x

with clothes we have a few common items we share (mostly just PANTS N TIGHTS/SOCKS) but we have completely different wardrobes!!! reffy takes up like half the closet n he’s the only one that wears any of his clothes cuz he dresses pink n pastel X)) jax also doesn’t share his clothes cuz he literally has ONLY ONE OUTFIT and he ONLY wears green day shirts he’s COMPLETELY CLAIMED THAT AS HIS BAND!!!

for hobbies!! there’s a couple games only one of my alters will play (reffy’s the only one who plays farmstead n jax is the only one who plays among us) but we enjoy games collectively 4 the most part!! we have system smps sometimes cuz jax n reffy have their own minecraft accounts n its fun :D also im the only one who makes kandi as a hobby!! when i was selling stuff some of my headmates would help me w making stock but its basically just my thing :3 those r the only examples i can think of atm WAHH BUT IM SURE THERES MORE!!!!

THANK U FOR ASKINGGGG THESE QUESTIONS WERE FUN :DD

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