#rick watching jessie getting bitten then cutting off her arm to save carl - such an insane montage

[linusbenjamin]

The Walking Dead 6.09 — No Way Out

[imagineswriting47]

The Meadow

A/N: This is for the Anon who asked  Is it alright if I request a imagine with the reader(Ricks gf & Carl's mother figure) got shot in the eye and is having trouble adapting to the new injury. It is different than what you asked I hope you don’t mind

This is more of an AU and has not been beta read so all mistakes are mine and mine alone.

Summary: The reader is shot by Ron instead of Carl and this is what happens to her after she gets shot.

Warnings: Gore, Death and mentions of violence. 

Parings: Read/Rick  

Walking in the dark of the night covered in walker guts trying to get someplace safe was not how I expected this to go. But when those walks got passed our walls I knew we were in trouble. The walkers were all around us making their growling noises and smelling of rotting flesh it made me want to run and never look back but I knew that I couldn’t. That the moment that I did that the walkers would know that I was not like them and go after me and try to eat me.

I admit that I was scared. But for my safety but for the people around me; the people that I love. I am not a afraid to die I haven't been since all of this started and I lost my family to the walkers. So when I found Rick and all of them I made a promise to myself that I would not let anything bad happen. That I would not lose anyone else; so when we found Alexandra I thought that we finally would be safe. But that's not the case anymore.

It was Sam that made everything go to hell he became a afraid and I can not fault him for that. He was just a child living in what many at one point would have called a nightmare but this is our reality. We tried to get him to start moving again without drawing attention from the walkers. But he starts crying and making noise drawing the attention of the walks and the next thing Sam is being attacked by them. Being bitten and torn apart by their teeth and there was nothing that we could do.

His scream was heartbreaking screaming for his mom I had to look away. I didn’t want to see it. And I knew that with him screaming like that it was just going to attract the other walkers to where we were and we need to get out of there. Jessie started to scream as well watching her son be torn apart and eaten drawing the walker to her. I could see the heartbreak on Rick's face at losing two people that he had sworn to keep safe and that he would get them out alive.

But Jessie didn’t let go of Carl still holding onto his arm. Carl called out to his dad hoping that he would be able to save him. He cut Jessie’s arm off the the axe that he had in his hand; blood went everywhere. Carl must have dropped his gun when he fell that is the only thing that I can think of when I see Ron pointing a gun at Rick.

He must have been so angry at Rick for not keeping his family safe but he was endangering us all when he did that. I move to be standing in front of Carl wanting to protect him from Ron. I hear the gun go off it takes a moment but blinding hot pain screams across my face.

“Rick?” I ask as I turn to look at him. I don't get to see his reaction as I collapsed to the ground and the darkness descends on my mind. I don't know how long I am in the darkness that my mind forced myself into to in order to protect myself when a light appears. I feel like I am walk to it but that doesn’t make any sense and the closer that I get to it the brighter that it get. I get so close to it that I have to cover my eyes from the blinding light. As quick as the light gets bright it dies away leaving me standing in what appears to be a meadow.

The meadow is beautiful and not something that I would ever see again in this new world. It has wild flowers in every shade I could think of and some that I didn’t even know existed. Walking to the middle of the meadow I look to the sky and find that the blue of the sky is overwhelming and nothing like I have ever seen. The sun is warm on my face I close my eyes and savor this moment of peace. A moment I never thought that I would have again.

“Y/N?” I hear asked behind me I turn quickly at the sound of the voice but who I find is not someone that I ever thought that I would see again.

“Daddy?” I say the shock that I am feeling at seeing him is overwhelming. I saw my Dad die ripped apart the dead when the world first went to hell. He was the first of the people that I lost but not the last.

“It’s me baby girl.” He opens his arms and I don't hesitate to run into them. I sob when his arms wrap around my waist. I cry for what feels like forever standing there in that my meadow.

“It’s alright baby don't cry.” He continues to whisper soothing words to the top of my head.

“How? I saw you die.” I ask when I finally say when I calm down enough to pull out of his arms. He doesn’t look like he has changed from the last time that I had seen him. His eyes, his face even his smell are all the same. Making me yearn for what has come to pass.

“I did die.” Daddy tells me with a sad frown on his face. “I am so sorry that I had to leave you.” The sadness in his voice is heartbreaking. Then what he says seems to register to me, he is dead but then how is he here?

“I don't understand Daddy, does that mean I am dead to?” I ask.

“No not yet Baby Girl. But you need to make a choice you can stay here and see everyone that you have lost. Or you can go back to the ones that you have left behind.” He takes my hands in his as he talks to me.

“If I go back will I ever see you again?” I squeeze his hands wanting him to know that I need the truth.

“Someday. When the time comes for you to come home for good I will be there to greet you again.” I can see the sadness in his eyes that I would not be going with him. He as well as I knew that I could not leave yet. I had so many that I loved so many I was not ready to say goodbye too.

“I can't stay Daddy. I wish I could but I can't say goodbye to everyone yet.”

“I know Baby you have always loved so fiercely and so loyal to them. Go back and live your life and be safe. Don't come home till much later.” He says to me as he lets go of my hands and takes a step away from me. “Daddy, tell everyone I love them and that I miss them so much.” I can feel the tears well up into my eyes again knowing that this would be the last time for a long that that I would get to see my Daddy again. Nor would I get to see the others that I have lost along the way.

“I will. I love you!” I hear him say as everything starts to fade around me. The colors getting duller and duller as the seconds go by.

“I love you too!” I manage to yell out to him before everything goes black once again. I lay in the blackness for what feels like forever before I start to get some feeling back into my body. At first I don't feel much not that I expected to but I can feel someone holding my hand. It takes awhile longer for other things to come back to me and when they do I wish that they hadn't. The pain is unbearable making me wish that the darkness would come back for me. But when it doesn’t I force my eyes open. But when I do only one of my eyes seems to open.

“Y/N?” I hear come from beside me, startling me, I turn to find Rick sitting next to me. He doesn’t look good, he looks tired like he hasn’t slept in days. He is covered in blood walker or human at the moment I can't tell.

“Hi.” I say to him. My voice is rough with not being used and the fact that I am freakishly thirsty. I look around the room then finding me in the room that has been turned into a hospital room. When my one eye that I can see lands on a picture of water a stop. “Can I have a drink?” I ask turning back to Rick.

Rick gets up after I ask and gets me a glass of water. Sitting up in bed a watch his back as he walks around the room. It is when he hands me the glass with the water when Denise walks into the room. She stops when she sees me sitting up in the bed before rushing into the room and over to the bed.

“Y/N! I am so glad to see you up.” Denise says as she takes a seat on the edge of my bed. The grabs my arm and starts to feel my pulse.

“What happened?” I ask not remembering how I got here.

“You don't remember Y/N?” She asks me a look of concern on her face at my question.

“I remember walkers had gotten past the wall and where everywhere. We were trying to do something; it was dark and we were covered in walker gut that all I remember everything goes black after that. But I think I died.” Rick walks out of the room not saying anything or even looking at me when I say this. It is Denise that fills me in on what happened to me and the fact that I had been shot in my eye.

I was scared then losing my eye, how was this going to affect my life living here in this nightmare. She leave after a couple of hours making sure that I am alright and answering all of the questions that I have to the best of her ability. As she is talking others come and see me; Carl I can tell feels guilty feeling as if I hadn’t moved to protect him than I wouldn’t been hurt. But what would have happened if I hadn’t it could have been him and I could live with myself if something happened to him and I could have kept him safe.

Rick never does come back as I am staying in that makeshift hospital room and for some reason that breaks my heart. I have no claim we are not together just friends. I had always hoped that something would happen between us. But then we got to Alexandra and he meet Jessie and I knew that he liked her. I didn’t really like her that much; I admit that some of it had to do with Rick liking her. But most of it had to do with that she had no idea what the world had turned into. She was a liability to us if we would ever end up outside of these walls. I wanted to be happy for Rick I really did I just couldn’t find it in myself to be. I was eventually allowed to leave this makeshift hospital; happy to be able to sleep in my own room and my own bed.

The thing about losing my eye is that it changed everything. Things we harder to do; I lost some of my depth perception and worst of all half of my vision. Leaving me vulnerable on one side I knew that I was going to have to re learn how to shoot my gun.

My first night home I just went to bed not bothering with dinner or seeing anyone. Happy just to have some quiet time away from people coming and asking me how I was feeling. I am awoken the next morning to someone knocking on my door. I make my way quickly to the door and pull it open to find Maggie on the other side.

“Maggie?” I ask her.

“Just wanted to make sure you are okay?” She says as I let her into the house.

“Why wouldn’t I be.” Puzzled I ask her as I walk to the kitchen hoping to find something to eat.

“Its pretty late in the day, Y/N, Its past noon.” Maggie tells me as she takes a set at the counter in the kitchen.

“Oh I must have been more tired that I thought. I didn’t mean to sleep this late.” I grab a apple out of the bowl on the counter before taking a seat across from her. We don't say anything, not needing to Maggie and I have found that we are comfortable around eachother that we don't need noise, don't need to talk to be comfortable with one another.

“Maggie I am gonna need help learning how to shoot again?” I ask her breaking the silence after I finish the apple that I had been eating. With Maggie teaching me how to shoot again I start to re learn how to live again with one eye. Things aren't as easy as I wish they were and there are draw back from losing my sight. But the hardest thing has be Rick and the fact that he seems to be ignoring me. I don't know what I did to make him Ignore me. He was the first face saw when I first woke up after being shot. What if he can't stand to look at me anymore now that I have this bandage and wound on my face?

I ask Maggie after a couple of weeks if Rick as said anything to her about what I did to make him angry at me. Even she doesn’t know what was going on; everyone in the town seemed to know that something was going on. It takes me a couple of weeks after asking Maggie about Rick that I manage to get him alone and to talk to him. But I lose my temper right of the bat.

“What is your problem!” His eyes grow wide at the sound of my voice. I can tell that he is looking for a way out but I am standing in the only door to the room. I have been waiting for a chance like this and I am not going to pass this up. “And don't bother you are not leaving until you talk to me.”

“Y/N.” He says in a clam voice trying to calm me down but I want to be anything but calm. All  these emotions that I have been dealing with for weeks are finally bleeding out and there is no putting them back in the bottle that they broke out of.

“Don't you Y/N me. What did I do Rick? Why all of the sudden do you hate me?” I ask him and as I do I can feel the tears prick in my eye threatening to fall down my cheek. The emotions overwhelming me. I am feeling too much at once and it making it hard to breath.

“I don't hate you.” I can see real sadness in his eyes  and it confuses me greatly. How can he say something like that after how he has been treating me.

“You really have a funny way of showing it. You have been ignoring me for weeks after I got shot. Is it because I got shot and don't look the same anymore that you can't even bother to look at me. Can't even bother to be my friend anymore.” The tears are now freely falling down my cheek. My chest feels as if something heavy has settled in it.

“It’s not that Y/N. Never that.” Rick says in a rush to me. Trying to calm me down; but I am past being clamd down as I gasp for breath I ask. “Than what is it!”

“I almost lost you! I love you, I don't want to live without you.” Rick yells finally losing control of his own emotions. The next thing that I know I am pulled into his arms into a bone crushing hug. I return it just as tight as I place my head in the crook of his neck. “I can’t lose you Y/N. I have lost so much I can't lose you.” Rick whispers over and over as we cling to each other. I finally get my breathing under control and pull away from him and whip my face. Looking him in the eyes I lean up and place a small kiss on his lips before quickly pulling away.

“I love you to.” I whisper to him.

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