#reposting with dm caps cuz fuck it

[aetherfangs]

woah an intro post after like 3 years of this account existing (idfk how long i've had tumblr, whatever idc)

i'm River, i use they/them pronouns, and my birthday is 18 july 2004 (20 years old as of writing this)... what else do i put in here. uhm.

my side blogs i guess?

oc art/artdump: @mosaichydra

fandoms/fanart: @doodlebug-salad

maybe i can make a tag for whenever i'm spouting some bullshit... or just any post by me because i think i might repost so much that i lose everything lmao

hm... the tag can be #river chatter cuz i'm soooooo quirky

ok time for yapping under the break

i've been self diagnosed for 4-5 years with autism, ADHD, and near to 3 years with DID... no i will not go into detail with that, im lazy. i live in southern USA, eastern coast (so... EST timezone). i love my irl friends very much, i can and will put more energy into spending time with them than internet bullshit. i also have college shit i'm doing but it's annoying so i'm not gonna talk abt that on here obviously

i hate answering DMs from strangers, sorry if my silence offends you. i promise i don't meant it in a rude way, i'm just a scared little bitch baby who doesn't like interacting with people on the internet (says the dumbass who basically grew up here)

random fun fact i have a fursuit and i plan on getting more 😈

my current hyperfixation (like BAD) is dandy's world. yes, a video game for kids! aren't i so funny 😋

but i also really like the following (not in order, bigger ones will be in caps):

Roblox games - Dragon Adventures, Creatures of Sonaria, Regretevator, Fisch, Grace, Pressure (im bad at this one), Twenty One (yes, the gory card game), Cavern Crusher, Felandia

other interests - MANTAFINS, WINGS OF FIRE, Fnaf, POKÉMON, Muse Dash, MINECRAFT, Halo, Dragonvale, Animal Jam (used to play, barely anymore), SONIC, FLIGHT RISING, Furby, Rain World, Avatar: The Last Airbender, The Amazing Digital Circus, Homestuck, Arcane, Warriors, No Straight Roads, Ena, Gravity Falls, Scp

there's more, but that's most shit that i can think of off the top of my head idk

i have too many clothing styles i wanna take up but my closet is literally as deep as an arm length and as wide as two. my tiny closet my behated 🖕💔

don't get in the way of me and my sushi. i will fuck up some sushi. wasabi my beloved 🤤

also i liek writing and art (and recently finding out i love cooking) but i'm dogshit at all three YAY

super secret thing for people to read to the bottom of this post.... if you ask nicely over on doodlebug, i'll draw you some dandy's world fanart/ships :3

[skold]

responding to this lj pm publicly bc i want to be completely transparent

the ONLY time i bring up a call out post about a former abuser of mine is when someone asks me about him. that’s IT. i do not periodically reblog it. i do not randomly send it to people i see interacting with him. i have reblogged it before when i had more to say or i needed to respond to something. the call out that me and my friend originally posted gained some steam going around twitter a couple months ago and i had NOTHING to do with that situation. i only heard about it because someone contacted me to tell me he had been inappropriate with them by allowing them as a minor into his 18+ discord.

it’s not my intention to make this dude’s life miserable by harping on some shit that happened a decade ago that he apparently doesn’t even remember because his depression was so severe at the time. which i’m willing to give the benefit of the doubt on cuz y’know, as a ptsd-haver (primarily from trauma unrelated to this) i have years of my memory that are basically lost, so. i believe him about that. but y’know. i’ve also never coped with depression and loss by having inappropriate relationships with minors so who knows. i changed my mind. i’m not gonna let this dude gaslight me when he’s been saying this whole time that either i lied about my age or he knew i was underage and immediately cut it off when it got inappropriate. so nah i am not gonna gaslight myself for him never mind fuck it even if he was depressed that ain’t an excuse.

and i’m not trying to bring this up over and over. because believe me, i don’t wanna fuckin talk about it unless i have to. i wanna move on just as bad as you want me to move on, dude. but alas since i’m the only person who is really willing to be open about this situation (which is fine cuz other people don’t want to take the heat and frankly i’ve been through worse trying to stand up for myself post-abuse so i’m willing to own this shit), i’m the one people come to when they have questions about the situation.

(as a side note: death threats are never fucking appropriate. harassment is NOT cool. i don’t condone anyone who’s attacking you directly. i’ve never incited anything like that personally. however, the mcr twitter fandom is huge, and i cannot control every person on the internet and that’s not on me so don’t try to blame me for others acting outta pocket. i don’t want people coming for you sideways like that in such an ugly way. i’d rather just see people block and move on.)

all this to say. i’m not trying to drag this person down constantly. i just want people to be aware and able to evaluate their friendships with the most information possible. and if people still wanna be friends with him then whatever. i’m not gonna go after anybody to try to sabotage anything this person has going for them. i have only ever provided the info/link when asked for it.

anyway. i believe that you’re sorry but i’m not ready to accept your apology. especially when it comes with so many caveats and underhanded comments.

PLEASE leave me alone now. don’t message me on anon. don’t email me. don’t send me lj messages. don’t have others contact me on your behalf. i’m trying to move on. let me.