#renee graves fictive

[harvestnomore]

It's weird being an abuser introject. I'm her. I look like her. I act like her. I have to be her. I'm her. I'm always her.

And it's disgusting. If I love myself, am I loving her? If I think Douglas is cute, is it a gross incestuous love of him?

I hate him. I know I hate him. I know I hate her. So do I have to hate Renee and Douglas? Can I like Renee? If I like Renee, is it liking her? If I see the horrible shit Renee does and go "haha queen shit," am I thinking that about what she did to me?

I want to just be me. I want to just be Renee. I want to just be Demeter. But she's etched into my bones. She's always a part of me. It's not really more than anyone else in my system, at least. We all have them in our bones. It's just not usually as obvious.

I just want to be able to look at myself and just see me. I don't want to think about her. I just want to be me.

But she's not Renee, is she? Only I'm Renee. She's just some bitch. Renee can just be mine, mine, mine. I want something of mine. Something she can never take from me.

[tcoaal]

i wanted to make a trans pfp of the flashback with teen julia although the wiki hasn't updated to have all the transparent sprites, so after i made one just using the in-game cgi a demon possessed me and i decided "fuck it, let's do Andrew, Nina, and Worst Mom too"

free to use of course!!! no credit required, but it'd be nice!

[harvestnomore]

i think i'm hearted of the monsterous mother archetype/trope. not all of them i fully kin but i feel a connection to all of them. and i couldn't find a renee vrchat avatar but i really was liking a lot of the horror mother looking ones. I think there's just something delicious about defiling something so culturally sacrosanct as the mother-child bond.

[harvestnomore]

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Mother.

Or should I say. Old piece of shit.

Hi! Hello, it is I, your embarassment, Ashley "Graves".

Im honestly not even sure of what to say to you. I could go on and on about how much of a shit mother you are.

I mean. Seriously! What the fuck?? Leaving a 3 literal child to raise your baby daughter??? What the actual fuck is wrong with you.

Do you even know the shit he did to me?? Did you know that your beloved son would watch me shower, watch me change?? Did you know how he touched me as a kid?? How he harassed other boys in the playground when i was specially little??

Where were you?? What the fuck did you teach him? OH RIGHT. ABSOLUTE BULLCRAP. CAUSE YOU WERE NEVER FUCKING THERE. FOR EITHER OF US. UNLESS IT WAS TO BERATE ME AND SHIT!!

You let your fuck up of a son do the job, and where did that get us?? Hm? HOW DID THAT WORK OUT FOR YOU??? YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD LEAVE US TO ROT IN THAT COFFIN OF AN APPARTMENT. PARASITE MY ASS.

I GREW UP TO BE A FREAK BECAUSE OF YOU BUNCH. YOU COULDNT EVEN BUY ME A BOX CAKE FOR MY BIRTHDAY, COULD YOU?? ANDREW GOT BOX CAKE, WHY DIDNT I?? WHY DID HE HAVE TO BUY IT FOR ME??

WHY DID YOU NEVER GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME OR UNDERSTANDING ME OR EVEN TALKING TO ME

DID YOU KNOW OUR NEIGHBORS ENDED UP HATING ME CAUSE I WENT BEGGING FOR FOOD SO FUCKING OFTEN??? YOU COULDNT EVEN PROVIDE ENOUGH FOR YOUR TWO KIDS TO EAT PROPERLY. SO WHAT TEH FUCK ARE YOU USEFUL FOR???

I NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHAT THE FUCK FAMILY MEANT ANYWAYS. IM SO FUCKING SOCIALLY INEPT AND UNLOVEABLE AND ITS ALL BECAUSE OF YOU. YOU AND YOUR STUPID FUCKING SON.

AND ANOTHER THING?? YEAH. YEAH I FUCKED HIM. AND HE WOULD NEVER IN A MILLION YEARS LISTEN TO YOU AGAIN. I WANT HIM DEAD JUST AS MUCH RIGHT NOW, BUT I WANT YOU TO KNOW, THAT THE GRAVES SIBLINGS DO KEEP IT IN THE FAMILY. FUCK YOU BITCH. YOU OLD FUCKING HAG.

YOUR HUSBAND IS A FUCKING PUSSY BY THE WAY. WHERE DID YOU FIND THAT GUY, SERIOUSLY. HE'S SO USELESS. AT LEAST ANDREW'S SMART.

Whatever. I couldnt care less about you anyways. But I wanted you to know how much of a disgrace you were as a mother. Id happily chop you up again any day.

Oh! Oh! Spoiled child whining that you didn't get a cake for your birthday? Some people have real problems, Ashley. Some people have problems like working enough to put food on the fucking table and keeping a fucking apartment while their IDIOT CHILDREN are TRYING THEIR FUCKING HARDEST TO GET THE WHOLE FAMILY EVICTED. Boo hoo you didn't get a fucking cake!!! Would that we all had problems on that scale!!!

I'M SORRY YOU GREW UP POOR, ASHLEY. DID YOU KNOW?? IT FUCKING SUCKS???? IT SOUNDS LIKE YOU JUST REALIZED IT FUCKING SUCKS!WELL I'M HAPPY TO CONFIRM IT DOES SUCK, ASHLEY!! AND YOUR POOR PARENTS WEREN'T HAVING ANY BETTER OF A TIME THAN YOU!!

I was trying my fucking best. Why did I not talk to you? Why did I not pay attention to you and Andrew? BECAUSE I COULDN'T FUCKING AFFORD TO!! BECAUSE I WAS ALREADY SO EXHAUSTED FROM DOING EVERYTHING I DO FOR YOU WHICH, BY THE WAY, WAS A FUCKING LOT!!! But don't fucking blame me for you and your brother's decisions. You decided to be a disgusting incestuous freak all by yourself. Both of you did. I don't care if he started it, you're both to fucking blame.

I know you think i should have been fucking perfect, that i should have done better, that I should have had more money. And you know what? I would have loved to be perfect. You do deserve that. I wish I could have given my children a perfect upbringing. But it wasn't in the fucking cards. And if your only criticism is that I committed the crime of having children while poor and imperfect, then yes! I did that. And now that you're an adult maybe it's time to learn parents are human too. Parents make mistakes! I'm not any different from you now, except I was dealing with two dogshit children. Imagine yourself raising two fucking children at your age. Would you be putting food on the table, Ashley? Would you be doing any better than me?

Maybe I wasn't the perfect mother, but I was better than mine. I know that for a fact. And maybe you'd be better than me still. But you'd be poor, you'd make mistakes, you'd fuck up, and then you'd have them yelling at you twenty years later just like this, pissed you didn't make enough money from working yourself to the bone. I understand you just fine, Ashley. But maybe that's what it would take for you to understand me.

[harvestnomore]

what i really need is renee graves with white hair, blue skin, blue eyes, fairy wings, and antlers. snow fairy renee graves.

[harvestnomore]

❄️ Demeter. Renee Graves. Introject. Adult. ❄️

I'm going to do an ask game where you can yell at me like I'm your abuser. Start your (anon or non-anon) message with a plant based emoji, then yell at me.

I can be your mom, your harvest goddess, your controlling ex, whoever. Say what you want to to your personal abuser (real life or kintype). I will respond in kind. Expect me to yell back, gaslight you, victim blame you, crack down on you, belittle you, whatever I feel like doing.

You can yell at me as my kintypes--if you're a graves kid kin you can yell at me for what I did in source, if you're a persephone kin you can yell at me for that source. I will accept being yelled at as a force of nature (winter, crops dying) because I feel that fits yelling at me for being Demeter. You cannot yell at me for who I am in real life (i.e. real anon hate) and you cannot yell at me as if I am someone else's abuser. You must yell at me as if I have hurt you personally.

Remember, you must start with a plant based emoji. (ex: flowers, leaves, trees, fruits, vegetables, but you are welcome to get creative) Any hate that does not start with a plant emoji will be deleted. This is a bdsm game we are playing, not a real fight.

Ask game idea from @polillaviolenta. Go to him for your yelling at a masculine abuser needs.

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