#rememberxtree

[cosmicxtree]

Now I'm here, writing you in the language I repudied for taking you away.

It's 2007, I'm in my new house facing the computer after coming home from school. My goal, my only one goal, is to open YouTube and watch Naruto. It's only been two months since I consciously discovered anime (it would be a mistake to ignore that I grew up with Dragon Ball, Digimon, Pokemon, Captain Tsubasa, Yu-Gi-Oh! and a few others) and it has become an absolute obsession , the best escape route from the hell that awaits my teenage self outside the home in a small town that doesn't understand its mere existence.

Of course I didn't know that throughout the afternoon I would end up finding that old, dead social media that ended up leading me to you. United by a common obsession, you were next.

Today 17 years have passed since that afternoon. And shortly after you left with a promise that was never fulfilled. At first I tried to bury your memory deep inside me.

For a few years I thought you were gone forever, that I had already become immune to all you left behind with me.

But my desire to reconnect with anime has made me open that door and find you there, standing, holding the memory of that promise. A ghost with a blurry face and a sad smile. A thousand stories that we never told each other, and a lifetime of distance between us.

I just wonder if you think about me from time to time, or if I was just a wave moved by your light that disappeared from your memory the moment it mixed with the rest of the sea. Because you will always be the moon that I could never reach, and yet it continues to move each and every one of my breaths.

Stuck in my lungs until the last day.

If the day I close my eyes forever I'll see you again...