#reinforces addiction and is more likely than failing to stick to a tapering schedule

[android-anathema]

i wonder why... i still get stimulating effects from it but why does my dexamfetamine make me feel so much calmer? i tried actually taking the full dose im prescribed today and never felt the urge to take buprenorphine, which im tapering off rn. that's unusual at the best of times, i crave opioids every time i have a PTSD flashback or feel ashamed of myself, so countless times a day. combine that with me being in a mild opioid withdrawal and its a very impressive thing to simply forget to take it. i put it in my mouth earlier! i have to pretend to take it when i go into the pharmacy (long story, all you need to know is im coming off my meds without my doctors knowing) and i didnt even hesitate to spit it out or have a moment of debating in my head if breaking my rules a bit even matters, or!! just! doing the sensible thing and taking the third of it a day I'm meant to!!!