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realtaychatlc · 7 years ago

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On this day 2016, Michael Phelps

Michael Phelps and I had a brief love affair. Over the last year I have reacted out of much anger. I owe him an apology. I chose to date, sleep with, unprotected many times, and stand by him at his urging when he left for rehab. People break up everyday for a myriad of reasons. It's unfortunate that hacks, people with agendas and vendettas used private information to hurt us both at a time of great pain and soul searching.

The reality is that whether he got a DUI or not I was in a relationship with the most decorated Olympian of all time. Privacy was at a premium and it was ill conceived to think we could keep it private.

Michael entered into a relationship with me emotionally and physically knowing full well that I wanted exclusivity and a connection that could become something more and more special. I never lied to Michael about my past and he was fully aware of my Intersex status while we were together unlike previously reported. I became aware that he was having a sexual relationship with Nicole Johnson the same time he was dating me in late October while he was in Arizona. I confronted him, her and Hilary Phelps prior to attending the HRC National Dinner.

Like many women who feel hurt or wronged by a man I blamed the other woman and chose for months to protect him. I was foolish and in a euphoria fantasy type world caused by our separation while he was in Arizona. The days leading up to rehab were not filled with him in bed wanting to die, but endless meetings between Octagon, lawyers, USA Swimming and the Olympic committee on how to save his image and the face of the USA in competition in the year to come. Michael may not have spoken about me publicly, but he has made contact with me several times over the last year through other modes of communication. I have been in several high profile relationships over the last 25 years, not a groupie, jump off, one off or any of the other names I have been called. Michael and I had a great relationship talking and sharing about many things. I have been to his house several times and had sexual relations with him numerous times.

Going forward in 2016 is about healing and making things right. I wish him and Nicole the best in their latest attempt at a relationship and now parenthood. He is a wonderful man and athlete, just a lousy boyfriend in mine and many women before me's experience.

I am truly sorry for my anger and lashing out from his not acknowledging us and making me look crazy or a liar. I hope one day he feels safe in a world of hate and prejudice towards people with gender challenges to tell the truth of what we shared and what I meant to him.

I hope that people can remember their breakups and the reasons leading up to them and have empathy for what I went through. Then imagine going through it all on a global scale after being a private person all of my adult life.

Tabloids told lies regarding September 30. I made a decision to tell the truth on Facebook mid November 2014 knowing that I was about to be outed by the tabloid press. I made a mistake trusting the Enquirer with the truth to report it and not sensationalize an already captivating story.

I wish Michael the best in the Olympics and I will always treasure the happier memories from the 4 months we were together.

My upcoming book will give insight into who I am and why I make the decisions I have over four decades. It will also take you on a journey through my healing and learning coping skills not to make the same mistakes again. It will help you understand why I did things most would view as unfathomable. Join me on my YouTube channel and the finalization of my book. We are all more alike than we are different. #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #michaelphelps #narrativetherapy #autobiography #apology #amends #makingamends #healing #freshstart #newchapter #intersex #transgender #genderchallenge #girlslikeus #lgbt #glaad #hrc #humanrights #empathy #noh8 #bestrong #stopbullying

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