#reclaimaiton and love and potential and actualization

[canisvesperus]

It’s quite strange when people try to extrapolate some kind of ulterior motive behind my blorbo preferences. Simply put, I typically gravitated towards the ones that everyone hates in-universe, or that the fandom hates, or both.

Eridan is more special to me now due to Events I won’t explain, but damn right next to him back then was Princess Luna, Shadow the Hedgehog, Nergal Jr., Scourge, Wheatley, Thomas Barrow, Ben Solo, countless others. I dug into books and become obsessed with the black sheep and tragic figures in House Harkonnen and House Targaryen. Wuthering Heights and The Phantom of the Opera made me eat drywall and roll in the mud. Oh Solas, oh David 8, Dolores Abernathy, and the whole cast of oldfandom creepypasta characters. I was transfixed.

When I was a kid I would spend HOURS out of the week defending black widow spiders in the YouTube comments section, posting my own videos of myself holding them in my hands. Something something righteous autism empathy, who knows. My parents used to say I should be a criminal defense lawyer. That’s probably the most important thing you should know about me going into all this. I’m the biggest black widow white knight the world has ever seen ever since I was 11 years old. I would put them on my face and smile for gods sake. Don’t talk to me about fandom.

Eridan is spiders. Or something. My gweegy my smeepus. ❤️