#really awesome to have this hovering over my head through this process 😀 (/sarcasm) | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

piplupod · 28 days

Text

talked to guy at centre about my anxiety and avoidance around applying for welfare and he was not super helpful but I expected that. however I was explaining the way I feel theres a clock ticking down to an endpoint (irt my money running out) and thats partially why I'm so stressed abt this all, and he asked me kind of hesitantly and cautiously like "...would your parents help or... ?" and I kind of was like UHHH PROBABLY NOT I DUNNO HAHA trying not to get choked up and also unsure what i can say, AND I'M JUST. ?? because what the fuck would any parents even do. if ur child runs out of money and cannot/"refuses" to work, then... what is there to do lol. like they could help w the welfare application process i guess but other than that...? i cannot think of what "help" would even mean in that situation

#idk what sort of things normal parents would do lmfao #if/when i run out of money if i cant get onto welfare and disability im either going to be forced to work or kms #like. those are my two options as far as i can tell. and if i work then i probably will end up going the kms route anyways eventually #so. life or death babeeyyyy #really awesome to have this hovering over my head through this process 😀 (/sarcasm)#''lets try to set you up for success so u dont stress too much during this process'' says the guy #buddy i cannot Not stress abt this. if this doesnt work then i die !! game over !! thats it for me !!#kind of uhhhh stressful!#what a fucked up situation though holy shit lmao. can u believe i used to think I'd be going to university and have a stable job. LOL!#im going to go finish working on reorganising my art shit and then I'll avoid thinking abt this this weekend #because i cannot do anything during the weekend anyways bc everything is closed. i love excuses for avoidance yayyy #pippen needs 2nd breakfast #suicide tw

2 notes · View notes