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#really annoyed with myself ngl
unma · 2 years
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Heya, @cjhern1109 I'm sorry I'm really late on this but I was your Secret Santa this time. I decided to cut this down way shorter near the end because I thought it was better that way but I'll post the extended version in the next couple of days.
I hope you enjoy it.
Thank you to @venelona for hosting the Secret Santa!
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scissorcraft · 4 months
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i really want to make isat friends…
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angeltism · 24 days
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The future is such a wonderful thing to look forward to
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heatobrienswife · 8 months
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gen-is-gone · 8 months
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I can't go five minutes in DW fandom without people being just atrociously mean about things that I love with the blissful unawareness of majority mainstream opinion holders that the people they're being mean about are like. In the space with them. And this in a space full of ardent fans of arguably some of the most esoteric obscure side stuff that everyone else disdains or doesn't even know. And I'm having fun for the most part but also like. It's just exhausting, constantly goddamn exhausting.
#this is about moffat and eleven#in case that wasn't clear#megan whines into the empty abyss of cyberspace#i'm not gonna say that Lawrence Miles in particular doesn't have every reason to hate Moffat#or that as an EDA fan first and foremost I don't also side eye the fuck out of a lot of his early arc plots#but Moffat wrote *characters* in a way that no one before or since does#everyone droning on about rtd found family has nothing on 11 and 12 era character relationships#also yeah it is genuinely annoying and upsetting that people are STILL going on and on and on and on about ~bad vibes~ ~misogyny~ whatever#like that's just your opinion man#and I think certain fans would genuinely be shocked to actually acknowledge that some people just straight up disagree with them#and straight up have a different experience with that era of the show#and don't share the opinions that got so saturated with so little pushback that the arguments are by now parodies of themselves#like do you hate eleven's era because you formed that opinion yourself or do you hate eleven's run because hbomb made a video?#do you feel the way you feel because you came to that opinion or because others in fandom 'warned' you about moffat before you started?#also like ngl it just straight up hurts my feelings#it's mean! it's just really mean and I'm tired of getting my feelings hurt in situations that are meant to be fun!#I lived through this ten years ago when I'd watch Dr Who and then get on the internet to talk about it#and every post would be just endless bad faith nitpicking and tearing the episode apart#anyway gonna watch power of the daleks now and remind myself not to engage w nuwho fandom
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astrxealis · 1 year
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my favorite teacher plays dnd and bg3 do you know how crazy that is to me
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#LOTS OF THOUGHTS HII GOOD NOON TODAY WAS A REAL FUN DAY#I ALMOST BROKE DOWN AND ALSO I KINDA VENTED AND G#UH. WHY IS TUMBLR WEIRD AND CLOSING MY POST. ANYWAY!#i did vent to my friends abt annoying classmates (aka annoying ppl who are irresponsible) that bring me and my friends and groups grades#down. and yeah. but i bonded a lot w various frienda and and and fun day and and and I LEARN ^^ AND#things are quite bad sometimes but sometimes they aren't actually that bad and idk school is just really fun i'm almost sad#just really happy with where i am rn and my friends are noticing too sniffs ..... noticing how i'm talking more or whatnot#and more comfy and whatnot and hey it did take like. quite a while. but still! just. really happy#bcs this Quite A While was either basically immediate but in the making (two friends) or gradual but always getting there (group in class)#and etc !!! like hey maybe some friends online or irl i am not talking to as much atm but there's the comfort that we still greatly care#for wach other. and whatnot. and there's just a lot and damn if i gave up this wouldn't be happening lol my point is things do get better#and a lot of it tbh is on how you improve and see things (???) idk but damn i'm just rlly proud of myself#I COULD STILL DO BETTER mbut idk all of this is me and im just rlly secure in that and i have been since the longest time ngl. im amazing#yeehaw ANYWAYYYYFGEGKR BG3 I STARTED A DARK URGE RUN LAST NIGHT YE GODS ITS A BIT SCARY TO ME BUT I LOVE THE BLOOD#im trying to fight against it bcs im using my main tav but boom make him a durge guy so ^_^
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chelseahotelntwo · 5 months
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Why the fuck do people expect me to be a literal fucking angel just because I like wearing colorful outfits and hair accessories and am autistic 😭😭😭😭
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spicyicymeloncat · 2 years
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Ohhh man. I just finished nexo knights. Goddamn that sure was something. There’s definitely a lot of potential in this show and it’s a shame it wasn’t renewed. Expect doodles later!
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seaquestions · 2 years
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can you believe to learn i managed to do everything i wanted to do in caelid. we’re heading to altus now!
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rainecreatesstuff · 1 year
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just texted like all my friends my therapist would be so proud
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grunge-mermaid · 2 years
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Thank god for Holo Taco cremes making it possible for me to recreate Mika’s nails (OG insta post here). I spent way more time than I should have trying to figure out the pattern but I think I got it right (there are only 8 visible colours in the OG pic but I’m absolutely certain it’s a 10-colour pattern) and decided on purple and melon/salmon as the missing colours. The pink I used (High Tea Hibiscus) is photographing are much darker burgundy than it looks in person, but What Do You Pink? was too pastel/baby pink and if I'm going to be wearing this for a few days, I'd rather have a pink that's too dark than too light
Left Hand
Thumb: Party of One Purple + One Melon Followers
Index: Left on Red + Royal Tea Blue
Middle: Bep Bep Blue + Here For the Payday
Ring: Banana Hacks + Bored Meeting
Pinky: Oh My Gourd + High Tea Hibiscus
Right Hand
Thumb: Royal Tea Blue + Party of One Purple
Index: Banana Hack + Bep Bep Blue
Middle: High Tea Hibiscus + Bored Meeting
Ring: Oh My Gourd + Here for the Payday
Pinky: One Melon Followers + Left on Red
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icharchivist · 2 years
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thinking about how Hisoka started out not wanting any material things to help him sleep because he wanted to be able to fall asleep in any situation, even uncomfortable ones, and how Mankai gradually gifted him things to help him sleep, that he first was warry about but soon enough he started to collect
and the boy who started out with nothing in his corner of his room now has a good pillow, countless plushies, which he always considers is a perfect gift, expertise on good pillows, an eyemask for sleeping purpose, welcoming cozy blankets, and even appropriated himself the coffin in the storage room for perfect napping spot, coffin that he filled with pillows and plushies and find ways to keep locked shut so Tasuku doesn’t drag him out of it (or else he becomes evil on purpose), and now he gets to complain everytime someone slightly disturb his sleep.
He agreed on rooming with Homare because he had such a deep sleep that he would have in theory not been bothered by his loud behavior, and instead he grew more and more irritated with it the more people taught him about cocooning because now his sleep is sacred.
And the lonely “nothing allowed to sleep” rhetoric, was traded with “gotta be hugging something no matter what” which led him to have nap and cuddle buddies like Azuma.
And i think it’s really just a peak character arc, to be someone who denied himself all sort of little comfort to not get used to it, to then become an hedonist plushy bot constantly seeking comfort he’s now allowed and expected to have. As he deserves.
#ichatalks about a3#also ngl rant inspired by the fact i just put a hot bottle and a hot-plushy with me under my two covers to watch tv#on my sofa covered in 27 plushies and 6 pillows and i'm just ah yes this is the life#and as someone who also denied myself all of that just a few years ago and had to slowly learn to spoil myself#only for it now to be completely out of control but also just the coziest cozy of the whole cozy world?#I see Hisoka's arc of looking for comfort with pure glee. This is what healing is all about.#Comfy.#i also sleep with a sleep eyemask so like#i' was always bothered by slight lights during sleep and would cover them when i could else i'd be soo annoyed#and a few years ago i was crashing at a friend's place when i left my mom's house#and i couldn't keep the shutter closed bc it was summer and we needed to have all the air inside#so my friend - very concerned - bought me an eyemask and i was just. so confused. because i never considered it a possibility#tried it on and now? I'm content with any eyemask i can have. It's truly really the sleepy comfy mode.#like my plush collection only really started when i was like. 24?#it really started end 2019 and i'm just doing the math but i think i was already a3ing at the time#and to me it was just screw it i deserve plushies it's good to have a pal to hug. And now look at me.#Basically my point is the specific card of Hisoka wearing a massive scarf an eyemask and his Pen Pen plushy is where i'm at psychologically#ANYWAY.#Rambling over i just love Hisoka very much
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book--wyrm · 2 years
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i am not going to derail the original post but OP and I favour very different interpretations of Can’t Help Myself, that art installation of a robot arm shoveling a red liquid back towards itself that went viral a while back.
On tumblr at least, the popular interpretation is the one by instagram user kricked, who in this post talked about his sympathy for the robot arm and the way in which it was worked to death and all that jazz.
It’s a neat idea I guess, but personally I strongly prefer the Guggenheim museum’s view, which is that this piece is more about border surveillance and state violence. The artists themselves have not weighed in—sensible, given that they live and work in Beijing—but given that the exhibition it was commissioned for (again, the Guggenheim museum) was explicitly about geography, nation states, and China, I’m inclined to say this interpretation is probably closer to the artist’s original intent than the instagram one.
So it was really funny and kind of jarring to read a post where someone contrasts it against the boston dynamics dogs as like. Finding humanity in a harmless machine, because to me, they’re the same thing. The arm and dogs are (metaphorically and literally, respectively) tools of the state used for violent suppression that have been reinterpreted as something cute and relatable by white people online.
This isn’t like a callout for the OP or even a criticism of their post, I just found this mismatch in perception funny and wanted to talk about it.
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deus-ex-mona · 2 years
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felt nostalgic, so take this pic that encompasses my entire school life lmao
#really long rambling bc i probably woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something this morning. you’ve been warned—#ngl i’ve never really had any friends since the start of my pathetic life?#and like even if i did get friends,they’d ditch me the first chance they get lmaooooo#i could befriend 2 people independently of each other,only for the two of them to ✨somehow✨ become besties and ditch me… or something#tbh though i’m 10000% okay with being friendless and left alone. i’m more productive when i’m alone!!!#it just gets really annoying when teachers go ‘lol pair up with someone your size (for sports)’ or ‘form your own groups for a project’#bc more often than not,i was the only one who was completely left out of a group lmao#like even the dude ‘leftovers’ would already start moving to group up with each other. it’s just me who’s left out#and the teacher would absolutely refuse to let me do the project by myself >:( and i’d get forced into the leftovers group anyway lol#and it’s not just teachers!! the senior student group leaders during orientation weeks refuse to let me be alone too!! >:((((#i’d just be vibing by myself and the group leaders would sidle up to me and talk to me. like?? why?? there are other loners over there too??#they’d allow the dude loners to remain in peaceful solitude but not me?? it’s not fair!! >:(((#ughhh that reminds me that there was also this guy classmate who refused to leave me alone for some reason#by ‘some reason’ i mean ‘i think he liked me but i can’t be sure bc he was really weird about it???’#like i literally ignored him for over a month and he still tried to get my attention for some reason.#and after that,i’d resorted to telling him ‘dude go away’ and he’d leave for like 1 min,only to return almost immediately ಠ‿ಠ#fun fact: the silent treatment technique never ever works. tried,tested, and failed#but anyway yeah. the pic with arisa was literally me in phys ed class lol#being the only friendless 🐓-less loser in a class with 30 dudes and 11 girls (in total) was fun!#the other girls would pair up with each other and i’d just rot in the corner and write bad fanfics in my mind lol#the only times when i could get a pair were when a single girl was absent for the day lmao#the fact that there were 11 girls made forming groups of 5 for ball games really annoying too.#the other 10 like-biologically gendered people would just split up into 5/5 groups and the leftover’d be me#not that i actually wanted to play or anything. i’d just go ‘i’ll observe as a reserve player from the side!!!’ and it’d work lol#but anyways… yeah. i personally don’t find friendships that necessary to succeed in life? casual acquaintances are good enough for me ig#maybe it was a sign when my friends from my former friend group were making jokes about how i was friendless lmao#i wish i could just completely isolate myself for an entire day… wait no make that an entire week#no texting,no social interactions,✨no worries✨. just me,my cup noodles,and my ✨productivity✨!!!!!!#well! i’m sorry if you actually read all of that… i just needed to get it all off my chest before i erupted like a shaken bottle of soda lol#inedible blubbering
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godkilller · 2 years
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astrxealis · 2 years
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sometimes (often) i think about the characters i kin or relate to and then the realization comes in again and again that i need therapy (/lh?)
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#unfortunately i doubt i will ever get therapy bcs i have this. thing. idk. but i believe in myself to just rely on myself?#and yeah i uhh can go on more about that BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT OF THIS sorry i suck at explaining things. anyways#humans. interesting. i am fascinated by humans and myself and i'm tired of typing now GOODBYE anyways xiv music is so fucking good#and also idk how to interact w others sorry ..... i am scared of getting close to people bcs everyone i've grown close to has ended up#leaving me or i mess up! but tbh it's better now i think and also not as bad as i think but sorry i still have bad issues with. that#me saying i don't want to type anymore and then proceed to rapidly type out so many words oopsies#pls just do not PERCEIVE ME !! unless you want to ig but idk why you'd want to do that uhm#yk i like tumblr most out of all social medias bcs it feels like i can... sort of just be my weird self here! and it's not fully nice#and i still have anxiety problems and overthinking problems and whatnot which is evident by my 100+ notifs i havent checked since#christmas but that's not the point (?) idk whats the point honestly uhhhh nvm (??)#OH I LOVE FF SO MUCH tbh it's w/o a doubt still my favorite series ever but drake/nier is also up there for sure#which i think is amazing bcs i have yet to finish a game. and ive only like played idk 5 hours of replicant and automata#and then ive already spoiled myself on important aspects of all games but that helps ngl uh. i could explain but im tired of typing#ANYWAYS GOD actually noehgjbsejhbghjes i really suck w interacting w others i really wish i were better at all that#im not super introverted or shy im just kinda awkward and anxious but im a fun person and all and idk#and tbh its interesting thinking abt my personality... some parts of me havnt changed at all from a bit (/pos) like my lively. aspect of my#personality !! i was a bundle of energy and a little annoying (perhaps unintentionally but now i think its a bit more on purpose lol)#but the only person who really sees my true self is me. and the closest to that is lune. but even i dont know who i really am#and yeah... wnvr im like woa ill make more friends !! and then when i have the opportunities i suddenly dont care anymore IT SUCKS#anyways i think i have Opportunities now again so lets see haha ?? at least uhh in school. its like 2nd sem and i dont rlly have friends#as usual haha that sounds so sad help BUT its not like im disliked im just rlly quiet and shy at school..... throwback to 7th grade tho#that was rlly the worst but also now is just as bad in a diff sense but back then i cldnt talk w my crush at ALL i didnt speak at all im so#sorry about that HELPPP I RLLY JUST CLDNT SPEAK anyways moving on in my class rn i do have a group of sorts. like#we're grpmates wnvr theres grpworks and we can pick which is nice! ive been classmates w em all b4 and theyre the cool kids#but in the more fandom sense and one used to be a close friend of my twin and of mine too by extent and then the other was someone#who knew me when i was more extroverted so yeah uhhh anyways#OKAY ALMOST MAX TAGS im DONE rambling. bye. hopefully. bye. oh god
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