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[reaghannn]

guys istg this man is the most confusing mf i have ever met. we get together at a party, get freaky, he ghosts me, then a couple weeks later we start properly talking, he starts coming over to my place and driving me places, we get freaky at another party, he ghosts again, we see eachother last night at nye & he’s drunk asf smoking a cigarette (he never ever smokes) & i just try to talk to him about it, i literally just said “i want our friendship to come before anything else, but i do really need to understand things from your perspective can you please just tell me what you want” & this mf would. not. answer. the entire time i’m trying to get a simple one word answer from him he’s just saying “go with your other friends, go with them & have fun” while he’s sitting on an esky not talking to anyone looking depressed asf. mind you, his two best friends were both telling me to just go for it & that they think he wants me? anyway after that whole situation i decided to get really drunk & i ended up sleeping (only sleeping & cuddling, no freaky business this time!!) with one of his friends from work in the back of the car beside his.

[reaghannn]

hi i’m reaghan!

she/her. sixteen. australian. enfp-t. extrovert. aries. oldest daughter. avid guitarist. fun-fact enthusiast. insect lover. mentally alaska young, lagoona blue & bindi irwin (physically a teenage girl).

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[reaghannn]

uhm so guys… the guy (😛) that I’ve been recently obsessing over (who was my first kiss & first ever sexual experience!!) was spotted in the wild last night in the tray of his ute with his EX getting ICECREAM TOGETHER. as if he hadn’t said some horrible, horrible things about her to ME. ALSO, he never actually ended things with me, he just went really dry. like, i know that’s kinda an answer in itself, but COME ON BRO. (also i’m pretty sure nobody’s supposed to know that they’re back in contact, but two of my close friends walked past them last night and they tried to hide)

in other news, fishing with my ex was fun and he was really nice to me and he wants to hang out more again hehehehe

[reaghannn]

guys i have a nye party coming up! the thing is, the guy who invited me added me to the gc when he & i were drunk & then he sorta ghosted me… but i genuinely have no idea why? like before that party he was coming over to my house & sending me videos & taking me to the gym so i thought things were going well? and his friends seemed to think he was really into me? anyway we spent the night together & got a little freaky & he was all cuddly the next morning but then he started being rly dry so idk what to do/if i should try again on nye for the plot yk? help!

[reaghannn]

@catacombspooks ask and you shall receive:

ok so basically every other time that i’ve talked about a guy it’s been the most recent situationship (from now on we’re referring to him as “😛”), but this story is gonna be about the lore of my most recent ex boyfriend (i’m calling him “🐐” cause he’s da goat).

brace yourselves cause this is quite the long story… so my relationship with 🐐 was purely platonic for many years up until like april of 2024. before we started dating we were absolutely inseparable, we ate lunch together, walked to classes together, hung out whenever we could, we were best friends yk? (also, for context, 95% of my closest friends are males so this was very normal for me) anyway, he came to my birthday party and we both got a little tipsy and ended up spending most of the night dancing with eachother and whatnot, but nothing more than that. after that i think we both began to realise that we kinda had feelings for eachother and we started texting heaps, sometimes in a gc but then it transitioned into us texting one on one into very early hours of the morning (canon event, ik). anyway, we went to our shared best friend’s party and we were all over eachother all night and he dropped all his hoes for me and a few days later i was over at his house and he asked me to be his girlfriend. literally everyone saw it coming, and everyone would come up to me saying how they think that 🐐 and i seem “right” together. and we really did for most of the relationship. BUT, to make a long story a little bit shorter, he started getting a bit distant, talking to his ex too much (who was very obviously still interested in him), and it wasn’t feeling the way it used to, so i broke up with him (the day that i broke up with him was the day we had woodwork together but he literally did not say a word to me, like come on we’re in the SAME CLASS, so i knew something wasn’t right). anyway, after i broke up with him he started shit talking me to all our friends (fun fact, one of them actually slapped him across the face for that). two nights after we broke up, he got his dick sucked by another girl and was talking to all the old hoes again so that was kinda insane, but it sorta helped me to get over him cause i had a valid reason to hate him yk? flash forward to the next party like a week or two later, and we sorta kinda maybe got back together (not officially, cause we’re drunk) and he apologised for everything. i was considering giving him a second chance, but i wanted to wait it out for a couple of weeks and just keep talking until i was certain that i wanted a relationship again. but he did not like that, so we were talking for a few days until he initiated the “what are we” conversation and i wasn’t sure and he didn’t like that so he called everything off and we agreed to just be friends. unfortunately, i was lowkey still into him for many months after this point, and the only time i think i truly got over him was when the whole situation with 😛 was happening. also, no hate, but 🐐 is a whore. this guy was consistently talking to multiple girls while we were together, and after we called things off he played insane amounts of girls (including the multiple times that he went around the same friend group of girls from a nearby school), but he’s not even that attractive! like, i love him for his personality and he’s not that bad looking, but he’s certainly not insanely attractive yk? (oh also i forgot to mention that he had a crazy stalker ex girlfriend who showed up to his house with a gang of people one day when we were at school and she was sending him pictures of his house and threatening to report him for rape and stuff DISCLAIMER: HE DID NOT RAPE HER, SHE WAS INSANE).

anyway, flash forward to now, he is one of my very best friends, i tell him absolutely everything. i’ve genuinely never met someone who understands me the way that he does and there’s never an awkward moment between us and our friend group. he was probably the main person who helped me through all the shit with 😛 too. also, it’s not that important to the story, but we never stopped saying “i love you” after we broke up. like, after every conversation we still end it by saying that we love eachother and i’m so so grateful for him. i think there’s a slight (very very slight) possibility that if he wanted to run it back, i might say yes, because i do genuinely believe that he’s changed for the better recently.

anyway, we’re going fishing together on thursday so that should be fun! (i don’t fish)

crazy realisation: i think maybe it’s been long enough that if my ex wanted to run it back, i might consider giving it another go (there is some insane lore lmk if you want a storytime 😇😇😇😇😇😇)