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binch-i-might-be · 4 months ago

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this is so fucking funny looking back. I was working on this project when I was a teenager, and in hindsight Most Things about it were incredibly telling, but this is a personal favourite of mine.

I remember I told my therapist at the time that the two main characters here were both supposed to be. Me. Ray (notice anything lmao) was supposed to represent who people saw me as (she even fully looked like me like I was NOT subtle about it) and Jawin was who I perceived myself to be on the inside. I was 100% aware of this and doing it on purpose. and somehow I didn't realise what the fuck I was admitting in this scene.

get you a guy who will write a low fantasy story about two traumatised unhealthily codependent assassins who are both supposed to be Her and have a whole conversation that's basically just "sometimes I want to fucking kill myself dead" - "noooo don't kill yourself you're so sexy haha"

#DO NOT judge my writing in this i was a SMALL GERMAN TEEN #i also only just noticed that ray exclaims something twice. like in a row. very good writing thank you so much Real Ray #these bitches were always bantering. stupidly!#also jawin is autistic and asexual. i only consciously decided the asexual part but he's written so autistically it's not even funny #ray has daddy issues. this is stated in the text multiple times. lmao #i love my old projects they were so meandering and stupid and never had plot because i didn't outline but damn can they be fun #oh btw the guy who's staring at jawin is about to commit a Racial Insensitivity. jawin is brown #so i wrote him facing casual racism into the story. thanks ray very cool 👍#rayrambles

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