#ravolia

[lorisystem]

One thing that makes me feel non legitimate as a system is my alters' reluctance to front with other ppl (especially singlets) n anyway today legitimacy boost in therapy when we did EMDR.

So like again on toxic shame Raven fronted n talked to the therapist and it was a smooth voluntary switch so i watched from cocon as he was experiencing the bodily feelings associated to fear/shame n doing the processing.

N like i noticed his mannerisms in that situation are very different from mine (no eye contact at all, bowing head, breathing much shallower) and i know it came from the anxiety of that emotion so hes not always like that- but still bc at some point he said something i didnt agree with so i let the processing (eye movement) finish and then i took the body again to say this doesnt reflect my opinion- bc my psych couldnt tell this was necessarily Raven and not me so its not everybodys feeling like that- and i noticed i could behave completely differently and though i felt the physical sensations still emotionally i felt fine and all.

EMDR is rlly wild tbh wtf.

- Volia(/Raven)

[duothelingo]

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[444names]

french names BUT ending with "a"

Abridella Adéréa Alaina Amaila Ambea Amouisya Anavia Andrina Annaya Anneva Aprea Arigna Assissa Aurteaya Authena Azassa Azura Barcia Barocka Barqua Bayala Beaulta Beaussa Beberterva Beliva Belota Benea Berminea Berna Bernhia Berta Bertaya Berva Bista Bizardinea Blairlissa Blossa Blossona Bobinea Bocka Bondréa Bonta Borea Bosia Boura Bouria Bourvia Bousa Boussa Branchacca Brejecka Brocqua Brojea Brosta Bruddilla Brumaria Burciena Burta Buréa Bérierthia Béthona Calia Callissona Caloiréa Carna Casira Cavoyna Cervesa Changua Chapina Charca Chardea Chautrea Chava Cheasa Cherea Cherta Chora Chouqua Choura Claigna Clailardia Claina Cleva Clottralia Cléréa Coeura Comanta Conea Contia Corejouria Coudea Couka Courvassa Coussa Couta Crosignosa Cuveria Cyria Cécia Cédéophia Céliena Céléa Daberna Dainea Daista Damasamena Dambla Dapena Debra Deciletta DeFra DeJea Delca Della DeLozaria Denora DeRossa Desca DeShusa DeShustia Desia Desla Desrecka Dessollea Devaulia Devressa Dianca Diolia Diona Dordea Dorecla Douffroua Dubrea Dubuthia Dufra Dugeva Dugua Duhambea Dupardia Dupena Duplanta Dupleauta Dupra Duricéa Durna Duréa Duvia Echencka Elanta Exnaudia Fagna Fansoucia Faulhuta Faveentra Flassa Flona Flonscla Fondea Forca Forémena Fospria Foutia Fouva Frata Fratea Fraymenua Gagea Garpea Garpena Garéa Gatherta Gautra Gautria Genria Genta Gerrenria Ghibecota Gigna Gillya Gissa Glainenta Glara Glava Gokboeura Gorea Gossa Gosta Goulacorta Graissa Grancea Granta Grastagnea Grava Gricka Grolorea Grossa Grumeassa Guessa Gueta Guigonna Guilla Guillexna Guina Halitia Havaca Hebea Herva Hudailla Hurnacta Huvetta Hyppicka Itatia Jacla Jacqua Jairca Jalia Jalta Jalènena Jamberigna Janna Jarea Jarra Jentrouva Jettia Jolea Joncea Josarna Josca Joyea Judria Juena Julia Julinoréa Jultea Jutusa Jéria Jérèchoua LaBarta Labelia LaBla Lacka LaClaria LaCoussa LaCreina LaDuboua Laela LaFousia LaGra LaJea Landréa Lantea Lanua Lanvia Lapdea LaPla Lardanta LaRobea LaRobicéa Laultena Laupuettea Lavierra Lebartria Lebea Lecheborea Lecia LeCola LeColia LeCouka LeDora LeDozeaya LeDucia LeDuka Legua Lejea Lembarna Lemira Leptia Lerieria Lerna Lesta Leviletra Levrea Liontina Livillena Logena Logua Loirea Lorena Louaya Louilleta Loura Lucia Luciena Luciewlya Ludea Lyoursicéa Léophia Léopolia Mahangea Mahia Maishougua Malia Malva Mancassa Mancellia Marchafia Mardifia Mardona Maria Marieraya Marra Marrea Marta Martra Maxena Maxenta Maëlla Methesta Micontra Migna Mobea Monnea Montiva Moquaya Morimogua Mouilloua Muntra Méléa Naquilla Nedogna Norrea Octouetra Odinneta Odismuka Onceaudea Ophia Othierria Pallica Pardelaisa Paroissa Passa Pattela Pauta Pecandra Pechélia Pellethea Pergoista Petrea Pettra Pilleta Poissava Poissieria Pombea Poquela Pouaillia Poula Pranica Prearsia Prionna Prumessa Raberacta Racqua Racra Raourva Ravolia Relva Renna Reurqua Revena Rhellva Riolea Rivinea Robiena Robilbea Rochauta Rochelina Rocka Roddia Rolia Romasia Rosconna Rosia Rossa Routa Ryvlina Salanta Salia Sallia Sardoucia Sarra Saveroissa Seena Segoissa Sejea Serenossa Serra Shussela Sinfalla Sonta Sourena Staina Sylva Sylvieria Tanta Tauddria Terca Tersa Theaugeva Thesa Thisa Thissa Tipposa Tirica Tofia Toussia Touta Trabrevia Trardea Tritaya Usintmena Vassa Vaustia Veria Verna Vertura Verva Vicka Vierowdréa Vigna Vilia Vingua Virea Viria Viréa Wardea Youvarcia Yvossa Zenaëta Zerra Zineta Édonierna Élipessa Émieuva

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[lorisystem]

An illustration with Raven for a song i covered

- Ravolia

[lorisystem]

Did this picrew, unfortunately you can't customize the second character too much so that's me (Volia) and Em if they had pink eyes

- Ravolia

Picrew chain time!! :D

Ft. two Haileys & Company system members ("Rusanya" is technically our collective polyplex name by this point and not a particular system name):

@xxlovelynovaxx and @sophieinwonderland if you're interested, and also anyone else who might be. ^^;

[lorisystem]

In a mood to make my music so fucking weird actually. In this mindset while composing im trying to come up w some lyrics n i decide to actually pick a conlang i made years ago to write in that language. The goal being to alienate anyone who listens to this song lol

I just made the lyrics about my forever mood which is social inadequacy, fawning etc.

So while making the video im like ok what kind of image could i possibly use. What about this pic of a character from a novel i started a while ago bc theyre from that same setting where they speak w this language.

So i put it together and everything n great. I watch the whole thing together. N it fits this character so well like. The lyrics are super basic and kinda wonky bc this conlang is not finished more like started so i used what i had but somehow its just perfect for that character. So somehow i wrote their theme song- i know this character has a lot of my issues but this is somehow so specific to them. So anyway now i wanna finish that dumb novel hhh

- Volia/Raven

[lorisystem]

I forgot to change the bg for Franca. RIP - Ravolia Dating sim picrew

[lorisystem]

Jyu so badly wants us to make a grunge hard rock song for him to sing his lungs out to. Sitting here like Darling you know we dont Sing. we do vocasynth. Its not gonna be the same. Jyu having a secret rockstar potential side to him is really so cute and endearing knowing the rest of his life etc. Is totally unexpected but so hot of him. - Ravolia

[lorisystem]

My coworker and i coming out to each other as DID \o/ yayyy yippie hurray. Lets hold hands and frolics in the fields -???(Ravolia/Estelle/???)

[lorisystem]

Re: the previous posts, i made a normal song as much as i could (???) Anddd its also sad as hell about my childhood etc. So there.

[lorisystem]

I think psychs should use my music as a diagnostic tool. For real its so alienating to hear that high functioning autistic ppl can sometimes be so smart and talented especially if someth is their special interest. Why am i so smart at boring stuff like analysis and understanding the logic of everything in the world. Instead of music composing which im dumb as hell at, outrageously so for someone who has been doing it for like 8 years and its my special interest. The way my music sounds is probably the biggest indicator thats somethings wrong w me. I sent someone a song i made that i think turned out good and he said "i like it but for some reason it gives me weird vibes" ????????? Like what did he mean by this. What was he trying to say. I think the worst part is that i have no idea what is wrong actually. I like my music. Idk why everyone is always like "your music is so interesting and strange" "weird choice in instruments" "ive never seen this rythmical structure before" etc what do you people mean????????,?,??

[lorisystem]

Its always like oh why are you afraid to leave the house. Why do you think people are out to harm you. Why do you think youre so weird and different from everyone. Youre literally so normal youre the most normal person i know?

Bitch its the mask! I dont know i literally cant explain why im like this all i know is everyday i interact w normies and i think thats not like me.

I will feel sick over people saying the most mundane things ever bc everything feels alienating.

Yesterday on lunch break having a nice friendly conversation w someone who works somewhere else and they were lauding their workplace like its such a nice environment where everyone is friendly. For example the other we organized a picnic with my coworkers and we invited some other ppl and like everyone knows each other and we can have activities etc. Whenever ppl say that all i can think is like it sounds so nice i wanna participate in that but then i remember if i dont have the mask on itll be on sight for me.

Ill hear someone say they met some neighbors or whatever on the weekend and went for a run or they took their kids fishing or somth and im like youre so normal i hate it

Sorry another nonsensical rant from me ♡

[lorisystem]

Oh yea i was telling ny therapists i fucked up my emotions bc i keep everything inside now instead of expressing my emotions especially if i think the emotion is wrong or useless. And the effect is that i feel my emotions much less intensely than before, i dont cry so much anymore, i just feel kind of empty and that my emotions are always wrong etc. Anyway im telling her like if i think an emotion is useless i repress it like, if i cant change it or do anything about it, whats the use right? And im frustrated bc i often feel like i dont experience the right emotion like ill be happy when a sad event occurred in my life or ill be sad when i should be happy etc and theres a cognitive dissonance between how i think and what i feel chemically that makes it feel very invalid and my therapist was just like????? You control your emotions like this????? You think emotions should be logical and follow reason???? And i was like, yeah??? Lmfao

- ???/Ravolia

[lorisystem]

Ohhh i have made an incredibly addictive song.

- Ravolia

[lorisystem]

Hm i decided to post an instrumental on my yt channel bc i wanted to gush in the description about how im gonna have Synth//V (youtube is a social media to me) n its a song i intend to use Synth//V on etc........

So like i think the finished song is gonna be good once it has lyrics bc i rlly like the them and also i worked hard(er than usual) on the PV but honestly i dont think its my best instrumental ever also some parts were wonky so i changed it after posting even.

Still its an original instrumental and it got 4 entire likes (so not a cover or a fansong which can get more likes due to more visibility). ?????? Instrumentals are not ppls favorite so they usually get no views especially if its completely original. So?????

So at this point i have to assume that while my audience is rlly small the suscribers i do have do check most of my videos and sometimes they want me to know they support me bc they go out of their way to like it (i know i have one very supportive friend who does that and i think they like most of my videos so im always assuming one like is theirs).

On this specific video i even got a comment from someone who never showed presence on my channel before telling me they liked it. ?????

That being said i was very hyped in that desc so i wonder if people just read it and were so excited for me that they liked it to show theyre happy? Or did they just like that song? Or combination of the two?

One thing thats very nice about my life tbh is when things like that happen to me it seems small enough but this is incredible to me and makes me so happy this kind of thing. I could never imagine that ppl would like what i make and support me even if its just a few of them thats so important and valuable.

- Ravolia/Em