#ratchet is very old and tired he deserves to smoke

[rungssparemodelpieces]

Ratchet, walks into a room with Drift, Rodimus, Megatron, Ultra Magnus, and Bot:

“Alright, now you listen up! I have had an extremely stressful day and I’m not proud of what I’m about to say but someone give me a cy-garette. Now.”

Bot: “But Ratchet, we don’t smoke.”

Ratchet, irritated beyond belief: “Cut the slag, Bot. I am a doctor. I know that one in five Cybertronians smoke. One, two, three, four, five. Now, I’m gong to close my eyes and when I open them, there had better be a cy-garette between these two fingers. Come on crew, hop to.”

Megatron places a cy-garette between Ratchet’s fingers.

Ratchet: “Thank you. Light.”

Everyone attempts to light the cy-garette at the same time.

[pastelgrungewrecker]

My Everything, My Nothing

As the hours pass I will let you know That I need to ask Before I'm alone

Percy hugged himself, listening to the soft and regular trill of the machines watching over his once-forgotten eldest like angels made of wires and flashing lights. 

‘Be not afraid’, they had said, ‘We are the arm of your Creator, and we come bearing message and glad tidings.’

He turned once more, smiling weakly at Mimosa’s sleeping face.

How like her sire she looked like this.

The door closed behind him near silently as he slipped out, walking the dim ways of the mad mod medic’s home in this new world.

He heard the rustle of an old duffel before he even reached the door, and sighed- too tired even to cry as he turned a different direction.

Lock sighed out something like his soul as he pulled the zipper closed, hearing the door open and he winced before turning with thousand year apologies on his lips.

“Babe, don’t do this you know how I a-”

The fist that thudded into his teeth was decided un-Percy-like, however. He wobbled back, too shocked to swear before he put a hand to his mouth and felt blood ooze from his teeth; he looked up, surprised and already angry before cowering just a little, just enough.

Ratchet, his Ratchet- Percy’s Ratchet, exhaled steam and smoke and let his rage burn wild in modified eyes.

“Really, now?! NOW is when you decide to pull the age old disappearing act?! The one time he needs you, needs us BOTH and you’re going to just RUN OUT ON HIM AGAIN?!”

“What the hell else can I do?! Me being here just hurts them both fucking more and you KNOW IT. Besides.”, a lynx growl escapes the undying mercenary’s mouth, “Besides, they’re better off with you. I can’t fix this. I only showed up to find Mimosa anyway and I did so my mission is DONE-”

“STOP PRETENDING IT’S A MISSION, LOCK.”

“I’M NOT!”, was the snarled answer, fists balled at his sides, “IT WAS! IN THE BEGINNING IT WAS! FIND THE MISSING WARMASTER, FIND THE ESCAPED MUTAGEN!”

Ratchet froze, eyes wide now in fear instead of rage, “You... It was you. You were the trace they used to find us all here.”

Lock nodded, looking down, “I... I found the tracker not long before I found this address. Its gone, but. Still. It was only ever a mission Ratch- and you know how those go. Don’t you.”

Ratchet nodded slowly, eyes dimming down to their usual preternatural glow, “...At least you had the decency not to sell him out for once.”

A wince, “...I deserved that.”

“You deserve worse and we both know it-”

“Big words coming from-!”

Ratchet silenced him with a raised hand, “...I say this fully aware and in acknowledgement that I played savior with a God who died long before his corpse did. But at the very least I was honest- and I meant it when I came back.”

“Did you, Ratchet?”, scoffed Lock, turning away to click padlocks closed through the duffel’s zippers, “I remember you saying that all the other times too. If you’re done lecturing me- you’ll want to. To go check on Him. Symbiosis made things like this worse for him.”

“Oh, he’ll be teary but I’ll help him forget y-”

“Every person who’s taken anything from him, any fluid- is a carrier of the mutagen. He can trace them- but it also drains him to try and hold up the connection over long distances.”

Ratchet looked confused, which was normally a concerning thing- until it clicked.

“Every person?”

“Every one. See you around; and... tell him I do love him. Please.”

“I won’t lie to him for you anymore.”

[It was another break in the connection- another day, another desecration and Ratchet blinked blurry eyes as a wobbling hand held onto a crystal glass full of something more expensive than most cosmetic procedures. 

Lock paced in front of him, having snarled and screamed himself hoarse as once again Percy had whirled out of the Iacon penthouse condo like a raincloud with cosmetics smeared by tears- landing, as always, in the arms of the Warmaster and his Sentinel and their disdain for the CMO of their forces.

“Tell him I’m sorry-”, rasps the drunken Doctor from behind a film of liquor.

Lock slams his hands on the couch- caging Ratchet in with arms made strong by scars and science and hisses, “I won’t lie to him for you ANYMORE!”]

They stare at each other for only a moment, before Lock hefts the duffel, gives a nod, and walks out.

Ratchet’s eyes close, and he exhales. He rubs his face with a hand before turning on his heel and stalking out to find Percy- worrying over what Lock had meant with so ominous a warning.

He finds him in the study.

A wineglass in one hand- the liquid within tinged the wrong shade of pink from the red pooled at the bottom that blends into the liquid when it’s swirled  by aristocrat’s hands scuffed by war. Nails elongated and impossibly dark, not unlike the Doctor’s own, where fingers hold the glass so delicately it hurts.

Even now, through all things, Percy’s newfound gentleness shows in spades.

“He’s gone, then.”

“...How did you know.”

“I feel it- every. Every time someone leaves.”, is the answer, and Ratchet feels his chest clench at the sound of so normally a bright voice. Dull, and lifeless- decomposing in the very air the vampiric sniper exhales.

Percy turn, slowly as though he’s in pain, and looks at Ratchet with eyes that swallow light- eyes like a porcelain doll, eyes like a drowning victim with pupils blown wide and reddened edges to eyelids.

“Every time one of you left, I know. I feel it- here.”

A hand with too-pronounced knuckles splays over Percy’s chest, digging a corpse’s nails into the white shirt Ratchet recognizes as one of his own.

The tears come, not for the first time tonight no doubt, and Percy hiccups softly before he takes another sip from the glass.

His lips are swollen and scratched where he’s chewed them.

“Percy, darling-”

“Don’t. Please, just... don’t.”, he sighs before turning back to the window. He sees a personal shuttle speeding away and lets his tears dribble free like rot. like venom, “I know what he asked you. I want to believe it. I try to believe it every time someone says it.”

Another sip, a swallow.

“I love you. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it.”

He breaks, then. The glass falls and shatters and he drops to one knee and leans against a bookshelf and he cries with no sound before finally giving in and sitting with knees splayed in heartbreak.

He stares out the window, his eye clouds over and dark lines pulse faintly over his skin.

“I’ll. Hold on. Like I always do. But not as long this time, I can’t. I have to support Mimosa- Keep her stable. Keep her fed, supplied. That’s why he chose now. He knows I won’t be able to watch for long; won’t be able to trace him for long, to try and save him from himself.”

Percy holds himself again as Ratchet watches with a mechanical heart breaking apart like an old reactor in critical meltdown.

“I did it for you, I always do it for him, but... I can’t. I can’t, this time. There isn’t enough of me left to give away anymore.”

The sniper hangs his head, in front of a window where moonlight shines in too bright and Ratchet remembers the old murals, the paintings from once upon a time.

[”Heartbreak in Monochrome” is what they call it?”, mused the doctor as Percy hummed softly.

“Yes.”, was the dreamy answer, “An abstract depiction of the sensation of love fading after loss. A manifestation of grief for someone who isn’t dead, but gone all the same.”

“Seems like self-glorification.”

“I think it’s beautiful.”, said Percy, moving close to stare with tilted head, “The way the color drains away from the center of the canvas first, like you’re watching the world fade with the memories of their face...”

Ratchet stepped back half a pace, smiling fondly at the way the greys and silvers and black and white of the painting haloed Percy’s figure.]

Ratchet felt his chest twinge at the way the wide and tall window so resembled an old canvas- the way the bleached glow haloed Percy in his grief.

The shards of the wineglass shimmered in the moonlight like tears, the white silk of Percy’s shirt seemed to swallow the starshine of the night sky-

Ratchet swore they looked like the wings on old statues of a God he gave up for technology so many years ago it felt like ancient history; and he wondered if, right now, something like him had the right to lay a gentle hand on slim shoulders and offer comforting words they both knew were simply a product of rote memorization, familiarity with the art of leaving that no one should have.

In the room Mimosa slept in, the machines trilled a little louder, faster, as she felt something pull at her very atoms briefly before it was gone.

[lavender-hemlock]

All of them that don’t get asked, Bwhahaha! -fom K.V. Good luuuuuuuuck lol.

Mun Ask Prompt  + Challenge because of course you would

1: How tall or short do you wish you were?

I wish I was as tall as my attitude. 

2: What’s your dream pet? (Real or not)

A German Shepherd named Bruno or Nasus. 

3: Do you have a favorite clothing style?

Casual/Classic. 

4: What was your favorite video game growing up?

Ratchet & Clank/Kingdom Hearts

5: What three things/people do you think of most each day:

Friends. Coffee. College. 

6: If you had a warning label, what would yours say?

Caution: Her words hurt. 

7: What is your opinion on [insert person/thing here]?

It’s Valentine’s this week so.. I think love is deserving for yourself before others. 

You’re worth that. 

8: What is your Greek personality type? [Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, or Melancholic]

Melancholic. 

                        (Break inserted here for the sake of others.)

9: Are you ticklish?

Dreadfully.

10: Are you allergic to anything?

My skin gets irritated if wax rests on it. I wax my eyebrows. 

11: What’s your sexuality?

Pansexual. 

12: Do you prefer tea, coffee, or cocoa?

All three? 

13: Are you a cat or dog person?

Dog, if I had to choose. 

14: Would you rather be a vampire, elf, or merperson?

Vampire. I’m nocturnal enough. Sun already hates me. 

15: Do you have a favorite Youtuber?

Creamheroes. (It’s a youtube channel about an owner that has 7 cats.)

16: How tall are you?

5′0. 

17: If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?

Claire. 

18: How much do you weigh? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!]

125 

19: Do you believe in ghosts/spirits?

Sometimes? 

20: Do you like space or the ocean more?

Ocean. 

21: Are you religious?

Yes! Christian. 

22: Pet peeves?

Hearing people eat, attention seeking. 

23: Would you rather be nocturnal or diurnal [opposite of nocturnal]?24: Favorite constellation?

Cygnus

25: Favorite star?

A registered one my best friends gave me for my birthday. It was named something stupid.. Like “cloud”. 

26: Do you like ball-jointed dolls?

No. 27: Any phobias or fears?

Height phobia. Fear of needles. 

28: Do you think global warming is real?

Yes/no. Effects are proven, but media/proof is watered down by subjectives. 

29: Do you believe in reincarnation?

Not really. 

30: Favorite movie?

Princess Bride. 

31: Do you get scared easily?

No, it varies on my energy. If I’m very awake, sure. If I’m dead tired, I’m not phased. 

32: How many pets have you owned in your lifetime?

Four. All have passed due to old age only, and I’m thankful for that. 

33: Blog rate? [You’ll rate the blog of the one who’s asking.]

10/10 for your “extra” personality. @kazexvoss 

34: What is a color that calms you?

Cerulean. 

35: Where would you like to travel and/or live?

Travel to Italy, live somewhere cold. 

36: Where were you born?

Somewhere hot. 

37: What is your eye color?

Green.

38: Introvert or extrovert?

Both. 

39: Do you believe in horoscopes and zodiacs?

I think they have coincidences and they are fun to read. 

40: Hugs or kisses?

Hugs.

41: Who is someone you would like to see/visit right now?

@palaceofthedeadmemes needs a hug before I beat him for not sleeping. 

42: Who is someone you love deeply?

My fiance. 

43: Any piercings you want?

Nope, fear of needles. 

44: Do you like tattoos and piercings?

Nope, fear of needles. I like looking at others who have either. 

45: Do you smoke or have you ever done so?

I do not smoke anymore. It was weed for awhile. 

46: Talk about your crush, if you have one!

My fiance is smart, patient, and fair. He’s able to stand his ground when I’m being stubborn, and knows when I just need caffeine. True love is when offers to make coffee just because of how I seem. 

47: What is a sound you really hate?

Chewing. Lip smacking. 

48: A sound you really love?

A violin singing. 

49: Can you do a backflip?

Maybe to break something. 

50: Can you do the splits?

Yeah! Probably really slowly. 

51: Favorite actor and/or actress?

Mark Hamil / Johnny Depp . 

52: Favorite movie?

53: How are you feeling right now?

Melancholy. I wish I was writing atm. 

54: What color would you like your hair to be right now?

Lavender. I would want to dye it if there was a lack of care for “professionalism” with my job. 

55: When did you feel happiest?

December 26th 

56: Something that calms you down?

Music, dogs, tea. 

57: Have any mental disorders? [Only ask this if you know the user doesn’t mind!]

Anxiety. 

58: What does your URL mean?

Lavender-Hemlock symbolizes the color of her infamous hair, and a poison that looks like a flower. 

59: What three words describe you the most?

Empathetic, analytical, passionate. 

60: Do you believe in evolution?

Of course. 

61: What makes you unfollow a blog?

I don’t do it often, but I’ve unfollowed when someone put their foot in their mouth on a topic they shouldn’t have spoken about. 

62: What makes you follow a blog?

When the content is similar, if I’ve seen them in my notes a good bit. It doesn’t take much. 

63: Favorite kind of person:

Someone who is just caring of others. Humans that are aware other people are human. 

64: Favorite animal(s):

Lions and tigers and bears- oh my! I tend to like owls too. 

65: Name three of your favorite blogs.

@palaceofthedeadmemes, @kazexvoss, @tiergan-vashir. 

66: Favorite emote:

:ok_hand:

67: Favorite meme:

Ugandan Knuckles. 

68: What is your MBTI personality type?

INFJ. 

69: What is your star sign?

Libra

70: Can your dog roll over on command, if you have a dog?

No, he only wants to play. 

71: What outfit out of all your clothes do you like to wear the most?

My cardigan over a t-shirt with jeans.

73: Do you have platform shoes?

Nope. 

74: What is one random but interesting fact about yourself?

75: Can you do a front flip?

I couldn’t do a back flip- how could I do it forward? 

76: Do you like birds?

They are so loud.. 

77: Do you like to swim?

Yes!

78: Is swimming or ice skating more fun to you?

Swimming is fun, and ice skating would be painful.

79: Something you wish didn’t exist:

Racists. 

80: Some thing you wish did exist:

Better healthcare. 

81: Piercings you have?

N o n e. 

82: Something you really enjoy doing:

Doing content on games. RP is fun- but sometimes I do just want to do roulettes or something with others. 

83: Favorite person to talk to (Pick someone you didn’t name):

@passage-of-arms 

84: What was your first impression of Tumblr?

Everyone devotes to the pool of creativity with tons of writing and different perspectives. 

85: How many followers do you have?

518

86: Can you run a mile within ten minutes?

Barely?

87: Do your socks always match?

Yes. Always. 

88: Can you touch your toes and keep your legs straight completely?

Yes!

89: What is your birthstone?

Opal

90: If you were an animal, which one would you be?

Caracal. 

91: If a flower could aesthetically represent you, what kind would it be?

Hydrangeas

92: A store you hate?

Claire’s. Like a rainbow of fake plastic sequins threw up. 

93: How many cups of coffee can you drink in one day?

Three. Though I am advised this is not good for your health. 

94: Would you rather be able to fly or read minds?

Read minds. Though it would probably be concerning to hear the things people don’t say.

95: Do you like to wear camo?

Not particularly. 

96: Winter or summer?

Winter. Snow. Cold. Ice. 

97: How long can you hold your breath for?

30ish seconds? 

98: Least favorite person?

I can only see this question as a target for a bullseye, so.. 

Someone who is extremely fake in their behaviors to negate any past actions of abuse they have inflicted on other people. The type of person that spends their time taking primarily lewd photographs to get attention without regards of decency for any amount.  

99: Someone you look up to:

Not sure. 

100: A store you love?

Yankee Candle. I love candles. 

101: Favorite type of shoes?

Boots

102: Where do you live?

USA. 

103: Are you a vegetarian or vegan? If so, why?

Nope!

104: What is your favorite mineral or gem?

Amethyst. 

105: Do you drink milk?

Yep!

106: Do you like bugs?

No. 

107: Do you like spiders?

NO!

108: Something you get paranoid about?

If I said something wrong. 

109: Can you draw:

I can! I just haven’t in awhile. 

110: Nosiest question you have ever been asked?

Probably about a name basis on something, like, “So who are ___?”

111: A question you hate being asked?

I don’t have one? 

112: Ever been bitten by a spider?

I can’t recall?

113: Do you like the sound of waves at the beach?

Absolutely. 

114: Do you prefer cloudy or sunny days?

Cloudy

115: Someone you’d like to kiss or cuddle right now:

Fiance. 

116: Favorite cloud type:

Storm clouds. 

117: What color do you wish the sky was?

Blue is fine!

118: Do you have freckles?

Yes, so many.

119: Favorite thing about a person:

Compassion. 

120: Fruits or vegetables?

Fruits!

121: Something you want to do right now:

Write

122: Is the ocean or sky prettier?

Depends on the time and weather. 

123: Sweet or sour foods?

Sweet!

124: Bright or dim lights?

Dim. 

125: Do you believe in a certain magical creature?

Sadly no. 

126: Something you hate about Tumblr:

Everyone is a critic, and some feel entitled to their opinion. 

127: Something you love about Tumblr:

The many views and varying content.

128: What do you think about the least?

Probably something I’m not thinking about right now. 

129: What would you want written on your tombstone?

“She was loved.”

130: Who would you like to punch in the face right now?

Uhh..

131: What is something you love but also hate about yourself?

My brain.

132: Do you smile with your teeth showing for pictures?

Sometimes. 

133: Computer or TV?

Computer. 

134: Do you like roller coasters?

Kinda..? I go on them, but I’m terrified. 

135: Do you get motion sickness or seasickness?

Motion sickness with a migraine. 

136: Are your ears lobed or attached?

Lobed. 

137: Do you believe in karma?

Yeah.

138: On a scale of 1-10, how attractive would you say you are?

7

139: What nicknames do you have/have had?

“Bean” for coffee bean. Starlight. 

140: Did you have any pretend or imaginary friends?

Nope. 

141: Have you ever seen a therapist/shrink?

Nope. 

142: Would you say you are a good or bad influence to others?

I’d like to say good. I encourage others to speak freely and just be themselves- unless you’re just rude. 

143: Do you prefer giving or receiving gifts/help?

Giving. Receiving gives me anxiety lol. 

144: What makes you angry?

Ignorance. 

145: How many languages do you speak fluently?

1. 

146: Do you prefer boys, girls, and/or non-binaries?

I prefer boys. 

147: Are you androgynous?

Nope.

148: Favorite physical thing about yourself:

Eyes. 

149: Favorite thing about your personality:

150: Name three people you would like to talk to right now in person.

@aurorahawklight, @impure-ivory, @sangria-fangs

151: If you could go back into time and live in one era, which would you choose?

Renaissance   

152: Do you like BuzzFeed?

Too many ads. 

153: How did you meet your spouse/girlfriend/boyfriend/partner? [If you have one.]

I met them working a temporary retail job. He was working temporarily there with a bachelors. We had no business ever meeting or ever working there for all our experience- but we did. Its so special to have that coincidence to be in that right place and time. 

154: Do you like to kiss others’ foreheads or hands for platonic reasons?

Forehead kisses are so so endearing- but I don’t give affection freely. 

155: Do you like to play with others’ hair?

Yes.

156: What embarrasses you?

Falls in confidence that brings insecurity. 

157: Something that makes you nervous/anxious:

Crowds. 

158: Biggest lie you have ever told:

I’m fine. 

159: How many people are you following?

300- even. Wow. 

160: How many posts do you have on your blog(s)?

1,911 

161: How many drafts do you have on your blog(s)?

4

162: How many likes do you have on your blog(s)?

5, 817

163: Last time you cried and why:

Two days ago. Stress. 

164: Do you have long or short hair?

Long!

165: Longest your hair has ever been:

Mid-lower back.

166: Why do you like, dislike, or have neutral feelings about religion?

I like religion because it is the sacred beliefs that are worshiped or dedicated to. It’s a choice. 

But, I dislike religion because it brings all manners of people who disrespect other religions, or cause people to react hatefully. 

167: Do you really care how the universe and world was created?

Yeah. 

168: Do you like to wear makeup?

Just eyeliner. I just gotta wing it. 

Get it?

169: Can you stand on your hands or head for more than thirty seconds?

Maybe? 

170: Did you answer the questions you were asked truthfully?

Yeah!

@kazexvoss, another example that I am no coward from any challenge posed. 

However, I’m not going to lie, pretty sure I lost like 1/3 of my energy doing this. Thanks for the ask nerd.