#rant of the day but i've so emotional and inspired since yesterday

[bandzboy]

the columbia university movement is definitely inspiring me to keep going with what i am doing! it's especially very discouraging sometimes to keep going when there are so many people against the music boycotts and people are always questioning the validity of what is being done but seeing these people risking everything and standing on the right side of history reminds us that this is being done for something is ultimately bigger than tumblr, bigger than stan twitter, bigger than the music industry even and so that's why i keep going and that is the big reason! i've realized that i genuinely wanna keep going with this for as long as it's needed and even expand it to musician rights and how this industry exploits so many people and profits off of their dreams and leaves them out to dry and it's definitely something that i've decided to keep moving forward with it. as someone who is a human being and a musician it's only fair. i don't think there are people in this industry who want their image and their art to be used as an indirect weapon for propaganda and to have the money they generate from said music to be used to fund a genocide it's truly disheartening that it's something that is happening currently as we speak and nobody should comfortable with that in fact, this should make you feel uncomfortable and make you think. anyone who loves music should not look away from this. someone who is human shouldn't look away from this. zionism is unfortunately in many industries and music is one of them and truly all i wish is for people to fighting against the presence of zionism in any industry. we should fight against zionism of any shape or form and we shouldn't rest until it goes away

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92/100 days of 100 days of productivity challenge!!!

9:50 PM | Apr. 8 | 2019 | I apologize.

I was extremely dramatic and emotional yesterday. I just did not know how to deal with my emotions. It felt as if I was a volcano and my emotions were the eruption. I just couldn't stop the pain, I couldn't stop myself from feeling... no not that time.

I applaud all of you who managed to read that scrambled mess. I feel... okay right now, but I still have a lot on my mind.

I also messaged him last night while I was ranting, multi-tasking. I told him to be honest with me and not take pity on me. And what I knew from the start was confirmed. He played with me out of pity. I asked him if he wanted to play, he said no. He usually makes up an excuse to get out of talking to me.

It's a bit troubling to think about... what was it that drove him away? What is it that makes people not want to be around me? It confuses me, am I truly that bad of a person? I've changed, yet the same thing occurs. I change, but the people I encounter don't. Why is that...?

Anyways, enough with my emotional rant. I finished all the routes in the Casual Story!! And, during that time, I saved up more than enough hourglasses to unlock the Deep Story!!! So, at first, I was conflicted, but now I'm officially going to go with Jumin this time. Next time I'll do Seven ^^. And I saved those hourglasses without spending my money!!

I really enjoyed the routes in Casual Story. The person I did last was Jaehee, and I honestly really enjoyed her route!! I wish when she quit, she quit in all the other routes too. But it just starts you all over again. Makes me lowkey sad that in only one route you can encourage and help her escape the source of her unhappiness, her job. Then, she finally is happy, and is able to freely do the things she desires.

Jaehee is so smart, pretty, and logical. I love that they kind of made it where she finds it hard to truly show her real emotions/personality, because I can personally relate to her. I'm honest, but only so honest so people won't get too upset and my relationships aren't in jeopardy. I wish she wasn't stuck in that terrinle job in all of the routes except for her own.

So, I'm about to be on day 3 for the deep story. A little off topic, but I found a way to get more hourglasses. I'm sure a lot of y'all already know this but when I found that out I was like O-O. So, apparently if you click on Guests, and click on a guest in the guest list, when you see the "RFA comment", if you click on it, you get 1 hourglass!! But it only gives you 1 hourglass, 1 time, per guest. But, since I had like 60+ guest unlocked, I got that many hourglasses. Now I have like 200+ hourglasses!! I had around 140 hourglasses before doing that.

But I did buy 100 hourglasses. Money well spent!! I'm saving up for Another Story!! I can't believe it's over 500 hourglasses to unlock it!! I could buy more hourglasses... but not until I'm done with the Deep Story! Jumin's voice is just,,, whew.

OKAY! Onto the real productive stuff!! I did all my work today, minus the reading. T-T. I participated in class!!

I created a new OC for my story!! I'm still developing her and thinking about a lot of things, but I got the basics down. I'm glad something good came out of me being extra emotional!! Much more inspiration! I would love to say more about her, but this post is getting long and it's getting late.

Stay safe, stay hydrated, and take care of yourselves!! Thank you for reading this!! ^^

~ Valentina 🕊