#ransomrambles

[ransomdemands]

whelp i just realized one of my nipple piercings has healed crooked as a result of wearing a binder without downsizing the barbell

the only way to fix it is to take it out and let it heal and get it pierced a second time and i don't wanna do that .... i'll have to .... but not yet — gonna wait till after top surgery

downsize your piercings kids

they won't heal right if you don't

[ransomdemands]

yknow sometimes the way trans women talk about testosterone and being on estrogen is indistinguishable from the way terfs try to convince afab people not to start hrt

this is not a criticism mind you, their experiences are their own and completely legitimate, it's just a matter of competing needs - they need a safe space to talk about their dysphoria and how testosterone makes them feel and i need to not hear about how i am destroying my body with hrt

ordinarily these things are pretty insular to transfem circles but since instagram has been feeding me transfem content i'm seeing it more and more and yet again the algorithm is fucking me

[ransomdemands]

thinking about calling my ass my pussy from now on, it just feels good

[ransomdemands]

i've been watching shibari suspension performances and there is nothing i want more than to tie someone up like that and play with them until they cum over and over

[ransomdemands]

skipped a few doses of T and got my period, good news for my fertility, bad news for my enjoyment

don't skip your doses kids

[ransomdemands]

Soliciting information anyone who has experienced masculinizing top surgery.

What kind of external support did you require in the first two weeks following surgery?

Specifically what sort of things did you need someone to help you with?

I’m in the position of not having any family who can help me deal with post-surgical care and while my roommate has expressed a willingness to help I want to understand precisely what I’ll be asking her to do and most post op guides don’t really detail that sort of information.

Thanks!

[ransomdemands]

my ass is shrinking cause of T and i don't have to jump to pull my jeans on anymore and i am not ok with that

vanity squats here i come

[ransomdemands]

yknow i feel a bit ungrateful but i am not comfortable with the body hair volume i have cause of T and i am lucky enough to be able to afford electrolysis to get rid of it but it's something i feel weirdly guilty about on both ends but its actually quite comforting to think about the trans women who have been through this before - like im not alone in this experience even if it isn't like the most traditional transition for my agab

[ransomdemands]

yknow i was thinking about how i will fantasize about being amab and approaching my nonbinaryness from that way, getting to wholly enjoy and play with femininity rather than having to titrate it so it doesn't trigger my dysphoria, and then midway through i remember the way transfemmes talk about their experiences and i feel like a bit of an asshole. like i am in a relatively privileged position to be where i am and hearing these folks talk about the parts of their bodies that cause them dysphoria, like i got to have that yknow? like it's very much a grass is greener situation, i imagine had i been amab i would be having very much the same desires from the other side, caught in an identical loop emotionally, but having been far more traumatized on the way up, it's one thing to be a little girl acting like a boy- that's encouraged to an extent and then i feel like an asshole again, like i remember at one point saying i wish i had adhd so i could have medication to help with my focus issues and my friend was like that's pretty shitty of you - like you wish you had a severe disability?, people who need medication are really suffering yknow and that stuck and so that's how i feel about this too .....

[ransomdemands]

made the mistake of watching some f1nnster content and now insta is just serving me a bunch of egg content for trans women which is so not relevant to me and also wild

but as a result i saw a clip where he asked his girlfriend if she had ever imagined dating a guy who had boobs and she was like honestly no not really

and this is obviously not the point but damn even trans women aren't checking for transmascs huh it's rough out here in the dating pool

[ransomdemands]

i found out there are options for vagina preserving meta or phallo surgery and all of a sudden bottom surgery is something i think i might really want

[ransomdemands]

yknow as porn writer it is genuinely frustrating how many random porn bots i need to block after they post in random tags

like .... y'all can't be cool and post in the porn tags? gotta be weird in the rest of the tags??? why

[ransomdemands]

seeking information regarding recovery from simple metoidioplasty surgery

i am in the process of insurance approval for both top and meta and realized i don't know anything about post op for meta

so any trans folks who've had this procedure please share your wisdom

[ransomdemands]

rip yet another horny blog septimus-moonlight you will be missed

[ransomdemands]

after my top surgery I was back to school/desk work after 3 weeks, back to acting (on stage), after 5 weeks, and then back to work (where I was pretty active) after 8 weeks! driving was much harder than I anticipated at 3 weeks and I wish I waited a lil bit more to feel super ready (felt like I had to lift my arms so much to turn the wheel lol).

as a whole I felt pretty much back to myself after day 5,, but then the more I healed, the more I realized that wasn't the case--it was more like day 35 haha

something that was challenging for me that I don't really see anyone talk about is showering?? I couldn't wash my hair upright by myself for like 4 months post op (would just bend over and do it like that, but if I had back problems forgetttt it)

good call, i had sorta thought about the sponge baths of the first couple weeks but not the long term shower realities!

[ransomdemands]

I don’t want to stress you out but I had double incision + nipple grafting 4 years ago and with all the soreness, bandaids, tubes, no showering allowed, etc, the last thing I could do was work out. For the sake of my scars healing really tiny and not possibly opening I avoided moving my arms and chest area as much as possible. So imo taking as much rest as you’re able is probably for the best. You can still do stuff like walking, maybe a wrist grip thing lol, would not recommend weights or anything heavy. Once I stopped having check ins I felt comfortable enough to start bending my upper body, it’s just a weird feeling, you may feel completely different but I was thinking I was going to be able to drive and go to school after a month and I felt like I was unable to move for like 4 months in actuality. Gud luck friend.

Thanks for the info, its important to keep my expectations measured. If you dont mind my asking how did you handle things like sitting up for long periods and typing/computer use? I am able to take some time off work but not that many months. So im trying to balance taking a reasonable amount of time with the reality of going back to work.