#rametto is right unless it all goes badly they will be the last one alive

[fantastic-mr-corvid]

△ how do you think you’re going to die? (directed at the oc or ocs you feel like answering this for!)

ooh that's a fascinating question! i think ill do a run down for celia and cos! warnings for discussions of death- particularity violent ones- as well as the morbid nature of someone thinking about how they will die and mentions of drug abuse.

Celia, 6/10 for uncomfortable, she doesn't like thinking about it, but shes come to terms with it.

Celia used to think she would die with adrenaline running through her veins, finally put down by someone bigger and stronger than her. Now? now Celia knows the people she needs to fear aren't those with strength but with power and desperation. She wont die heroically [or as close as people like her can] she will die in the shadows, finally deemed unnecessary or uncontrollable, killed with a bullet to the head or a knife to the throat. maybe her corpse will play part of a set up, redirecting the anger of those she left behind.

in her most morbid thoughts, she hopes its Rametto. the student surpassing the master, in the truest sense of the phrase, and maybe he can finally extract his own vengeance for what she did to him- he knows she would be proud of him for managing to rid the board of her. in truth she just wants it to be quick- but knows that not the end people like her get. [if its anyone she cares about its Tesoro- who else, who else. she glad its not Rametto, for their sake, even as she knows it means they will all fall apart]

Cecio, 5/10. hes aware of how its most likely to go down. weirdly proud of it?

Cecio has no illusions he will die in the line of duty, whatever that 'duty' means. if hes unlucky he will be exposed and left to rot in prison- until someone relives his suffering with a shank through the ribs. if hes lucky it will be quick and quiet and he will get to go calmly, but he knows one day he will cross a line in someones eyes and his poor computer set up will never be fully cleaned after getting his brains blown out as hes sat infront of them. [he likes to imagine his death as dramatic, for all it will be quiet in the end- he can only pray for a quick death, not a humiliating one]

Rametto, 8/10, will pretend to be chill with it but is not

Rametto knows their curiosity will get the better of him one day, and they wont be the chess master anymore. if hes unlucky he will slip up and die sooner rather than later, if hes lucky he will get to live a long life, and then die to some upstart after his position, following the rest of his family to whatevers waiting for them. [they thinks 40 is old and the rest will die before they- in their world? they might be right]

Conficcare, 4/10, he thinks he knows and hes made his peace with it

He knows hes gonna die alone because he misjudged how much he could handle and lost the coin flip between pride and cowardice. hes gonna break his lovers heart and hes gonna hurt all the rest of the people who care about him.

[hes gonna die a hero, looking at death with open eyes and choosing to spit in his face, hes gonna die to give the people he loves their chance at survival, and hes gonna die with the man he loves and despite the pain he wont have it any other way]

Tesoro, 9/10. he knows what are the most likely scenarios, but he doesn't like what they say about his struggles

Tesoro doesn't want to die with a needle in his arm or a pill in is mouth but he also doesnt want to die at the hands of someone he loves. hes been openly queer for a while, but its the secrets he holds that are so much more dangerous. Celia turns a blind eye, Conficcare relies on him to much, Rametto is the most distant from him, and Cecio never quite let himself realize just how similar they both are.

whats that tactic? the second in command does something that the leader turns a blind eye to, and if they succeed they are praised if they fail they are disavowed? thats the game hes been playing for to many years- and theres no such thing as winning, just not being found out.

they would be right to hate him, give him the fury they so eagerly direct at Celia- but if just for them, he doesnt want to die at the hands of someone he loves, but he doesnt want to die alone either

[he dies with the man he loves, a hero to those who survive him. eventually they talk about the true manipulator of the group but its easier to forgive the long dead. Celia will always mourn him, and Rametto grow to respect him more as they step into his role]