#rambilings

[peepingnee]

So!

Was rewatching OFMD like ya do and I know a lot of people were upset feeling like Izzy didn't get a proper apology from Ed given everything, but then when Ed is giving his "apology" to the crew it's full of buzzwords and Lucius rightfully calls him out on it yeah? He says "and yet the words ' I'm sorry' were never mentioned, did anyone else catch that?"

You know who did hear that word? Izzy did. It was short and clipped and yes not nearly enough, but where Ed bullshitted his way through an "apology" to the crew, he did not do that to Izzy. He looked pained and genuinely upset and he said the word that meant something not to the crew but to Izzy.

Annnnywhooo just something I noticed last night that niggled my brain. Feel free to take that as you will

[readysetimready]

I'm such a hater it's actually insane. Have I ever read or heard what I'm hating on. No, but I still hate it. Mainly because I heard why other people hate it, and I know that if I was masochistic to endure it enough I would hate it too. However, there's a big reason why I'm an unproblematic hater. One my hate is not bigoted, and two it's silent hate. I don't comment on anything or talk about it I just silently seeth. If you're going to hate right, hate like me. But if your soul can not stay silent about what you hate then do some research and be a informed hater. However I would never put myself through witnessing something I hate….because I hate it.

For example

Coleen Hoover books

[tigeristired]

so ive got to write a whole paper in 45 minutes because ive been avoiding it all day. this cant go wrong. no. 

121/450 words

[kihaku-gato]

This is a callout to write to myself as my bday looms closer again (a week to go);

I know you were hoping to have more figured out by now, more steps of independence and control, more goals met, more things in line rather than in what feels like an eternal limbo.

You need to remember that though you feel like you've set the bar so low that it's a shock it isn't being reached, that would maybe be the case if you weren't chronically exhausted, stressed, and being beaten down by whatever new bad news or task (that's NOT your own) crashing your way.

You HAVE been trying. For the rockiness its been you have tried to rise to the occasions to do what's gotta be done on others' schedules. You've been trying one foot in front of the other to get some old routines and responsibilities back in shape.

I know you've asked yourself "here I have been trying to transform/change some of my older OCs for the better but where on earth can I do that for myself?", do you think you'd be voluntarily changing them so much if you didn't already have some changes in yourself? The first changes you can name are the bad changes, but for the bad ones you've been trying to dig your heels down and not let them rule your self. You have had some good changes! Some of those bad things are merely a symptom of greater issues that are out of your control, even the tamest beast can be a feral mess in the wrong environment. You've been trying to manage it, failing to manage it despite efforts is a given.

Just because you have been working to get some things in track doesn't mean things are suddenly going to get easier all at once, or that you aren't gonna relapse to the routines you most detest. It may be exhausting, but it is somewhat human and natural for it to work like that as you try to grow.

I'm sorry we have not gotten as far as we wanted to for this point of time, and I know you fear of being the rotting workdog with no free will locked on the property till your end of days, but time as far as its felt to be going is still not truly fast, our memory is merely making it feel so. We will continue to try, even if its one thing on the goalpost, or even just resting. You realize how much we both need to rest.

I don't know how long we will be in this hole, but by god you have been trying so hard to clamber out of it, be proud that you are trying! So many people look up to your efforts, you need to acknowledge to see what they see.

Maybe if we can squeeze the memory/time, we will look at the biggest thorns on our side and make a list of them, and see if we can find some unconventional solutions to them if need be. And if we can't find a solution? then more reason to be on the list just to remind that some of the goals we so desperately want to reach are just simple unattainable at this time, and move on.

I hope that future me if they read this will be in better straights, and if not? I'm very sure you are still trying to do your best, and past me is here to remind you that you really are. Be more kind to yourself, you deserve it just as much as you need it.

[k1tz]

so yesterday i was in a waiting room and uh.

aw hell naw they turned chosen into a mirror 😭

[hollis-art]

doing some very important thinking about what star trek crew i'd fit in best with and i have many thoughts about it

now my first instinct would be to say The Next Generation guys because they feel like family and i love them, but then i think about how they treat Reginald Barclay (the guy who is literally me fr) and,,,, yeah, those guys would NOT like me. i could hang out with Data just fine but anyone else feels like they'd be a bit judgmental smh. like as much as i love Geordi, i feel like he'd be dissing me behind my back smh smh

then we have Deep Space Nine. now i love that crew, i really really do. they are so fascinating and genuinely one of the most interesting set of people in tv history imo, but those guys are FREAKS and i dont want to be ANYWHERE near them. Jake and Nog get a pass bc i genuinely really want to be their friend but other than that? no. get me OUT of this space station

and the other series just dont stick out to me enough to even have an opinion about them, but my final verdict is that i'd be buddies with The Original Series crew. i would probably die really fast but hey, at least they're not judging me like tng or doing whatever they do on ds9. and they have Uhura :D i love Uhura

[casually-salad]

push that thing down the stairs

[patchwork-crow-writes]

THEY LIT MY BOY ON FIRE DDDD:

[3000-200-grains-of-salt]

2 things:

mutuals i would die for you

@mawofthemagnetar what kind of sick twisted disturbed messed up absolutely genius fric8king brain do you have to have come up with the blessing that is choke down my poison im breathing you in

like seriously. i. im in shock. the ending made my brain Stop working for a second. th. i.

mutuals i wuld die wfor you so bplease read this Right Now (be warned as it can get VERY disturbing like So disturbing, both in body horror sense and in the horror/apocolypse/somethings-out-to-get-everyone/dread sense like literally it is call of the void but 1/3 of the length and infinitely more horrifying i love it for that though)

the link is here READ IT RIGHT NOW

[2hoagie]

man, i miss gravity falls. it feels like only yesterday when i first discovered the "THREE LETTERS BACK" secret what do you mean it was TWELVE years ago

[potionpeddlerpatchy]

Realizing with my big-girl corporate job that I would be the breadwinner over Bokuto - and I feel like he would love being spoiled and leaning into that

I can see him saying that he's "I'm a HOUSE-HUSBAND" on off-seasons as a joke but like... he's kinda serious and loves saying that

Like he loves spoiling me as much as he can, but he can't help but find it super attractive and hot when I say things like "I can take care of it, baby, don't worry!" when I spoil him and pay for his meals and stuff or "Let me take of you, please?"

Really gets him a going

[crimsonamber9999]

:|| Sadly, due to their rough upbringing, bullying about their appearance, and anxiety around the thoughts of pregnancy itself, Calypso themselves would prefer not to have a child of their own. I think...once brought up with a partner... it's easy to see the immediate anxiety upon that thought. While they have the anatomy capable it's just...not for them;; On top of that, I can think of the idea of settling down while it would be a genuine dream for someone to ask them to do that. They themselves think unworthy to be someone's lifelong partner even though their dating and did everything together because they don't want to have to burden their own partner with their issues of anxiety and depression lifelong. So sometimes with the intimacy of that kind, of opening their heart to one another, they unintentionally push that partner away by trying to change the subject. Or if you finally get them to it turns into lots of apologizing.

[readysetimready]

Things like this are always a small reminder the way the ancient Greeks perceived Zeus and Hera. The fact that Hera is almost never shown in plays except for this rare occasion, and Zeus never is, is something kinda overlooked. At least in my mind it shows the majesty and very respected position both Zeus and Hera hold in Greek society. The article goes on to further explain what they mean by the section I mentioned, but still, it’s something so interesting to me.

Most likely because so often I see Zeus and Hera dumb down to these caricatures of themselves. You know, Hera the jealous wife, and Zeus, the cheating husband, it becomes easy to forget how respected and honored they were in Greek society. Even his infidelities and her jealousy are rarely, “just because.” If nothing else it is a key factor in another major god's beginning. So to see so many people denote it as just, “oh thats just old Hera and Zeus at it again,” really causes a loss of context and nuance.

“The presence of Hera on stage is perhaps the most important piece of information concerning this play as far as the presentation of gods on stage is concerned. This happens because Hera, although often playing a part in various myths, is never found on stage in tragedies. For example, in the story of Heracles the intervention of Hera is crucial but at least in Euripides this happens through her agents, Lyssa and Iris. Io in Prometheus is also a victim of Hera but again the goddess does not descend to destroy the mortal herself. In both cases she retains a royal status that allows and perhaps necessitates a more distant approach. Could this reflect some kind of hesitation on the part of poets to bring Hera on stage because of the status she has to retain? Easterling, who sees no hesitation to present gods on stage in Greek drama, notes that there is prohibition as far as Zeus is concerned9. Zeus is never present on stage. The testimony of Pollux, IV, 130 for his presence in the lost Psychostasia of Aeschylus is not convincing, at least not for the original performance10. This would have been the case for Hera as well had it not been for fr. 168 in a lost play of Aeschylus where Hera is present transformed11.”

- Hera transformed on stage

[k1tz]

oh boy here i go again

so in the henry stickmin universe pokemon exists so does that mean that certain sticks get battle themes like trainers do? Do the higher ups get the gym trainer themes? I wonder who gets which theme..

Idk why but i feel like tophat king henry would get cynthias theme

[anatakizuita]

I look up nightmare disorder to try to find some advice from other people who have it and all that’s showing up is prn sites

I hate this hell site

[kerosene-saint]

RGRGRR