#queer to queer communication. neurodivergent to neurodivergent communication. ianitee to ianitee communication.

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just in general i think jordan is So Normal abt other people who speak the language once he gets home from the isles. tom is great and all but only knows a few specific phrases that jordan taught him for specific purposes (same as jordan does for the dianitee language) and doesn't Know things like someone fluent would. tom can't really talk about the fine details of shit like gender expression or really Understand the nuances of pronouns in a language where he doesn't even know all the cases. and then isles ianite didn't really want to give him the time of day, much less care enough to have in depth conversations about much of anything. nobody else really Gets it when jordan tries to explain things, bc they literally don't know the words, so he's left trying to explain in vague ramblings that he's in the vaguely masculine soup but with extra spices about it. other ianitees get it immediately, but they aren't there, because he's almost perpetually alone.

and like. the gender is a good example of it but oh god there is so much that jordan just CANNOT communicate to people without So Much Explanation, which he usually not in any state to give when it comes to it, because if he's talking about loyalty or vengeance then it usually means that he is about to start stabbing. there are more immediate practical concerns (how many ways can he injure lieutenant al before the bastard loses consciousness, for example.)

anyway. he gets home and gets back to other ianitees and totally for sure does not have multiple sobbing breakdowns about people actually understanding what the fuck he's on about. haha :)

ianitee language pronouns go brrrrr. jordan has Bonus Secret Gender that literally like two people know about or understand. there's a vaguely awkward ianitee brunch once he gets home and andor uses his Bonus Secret Pronouns that he figured out in ruxomar and redbeard just gives him a thumbs up and picks them up for him too. jordan is for sure normal and does not cry into his french toast.

[voidandradiance]

the first time it happens, that night at the lighthouse, andor is so awkward and unsure of himself for the first little bit, even after they actually have that ridiculously heavy conversation from canon, and they're both trying to lighten the mood a bit and talk about less horrifically depressing shit than how much danger they're in for existing. and then jordan says something that gets him rambling enthusiastically about a topic that nobody else has ever cared to listen to, and he keeps cutting himself off and apologizing but jordan keeps encouraging him to go on and then suddenly it's been another six hours and they've gone through an entire pot of tea that andor barely remembers having put on and his throat is hoarse and his face hurts because he's been- smiling? he's been smiling for that long, and he hasn't talked that much in years, but it's. okay? it's good?? and even after jordan eventually, reluctantly leaves, andor just sits there until sunrise and struggles to process the fact that That Happened, that it was Good, that He's Not Alone-

but surely he won't be that lucky again, jordan won't be that patient and sit through his ramblings a second time, they probably won't do that again. and then- then they do.

i think that andor and jordan meet, click immediately but don't understand why until the lighthouse conversation, and immediately proceed to utterly ruin each other's sleep schedules by just sitting there and talking for hours. jordan shows up around noon and then suddenly andor looks up and it's three in the morning and he has lost his voice. this pattern does not stop after the first few times they would hang out. you would think they would run out of things to talk about. they do not.