#queens of confidence!!! just rock the world hunnies!!!

[moonfart]

If you listen to Happiness by Red Velvet at 11:59:55, then Seulgi will say “Sometimes you gotta be bold just rock the world booyah” and that’s how you’ll start off the new year

[youknow-igetit]

A playlist for our favorite mafia sports gays. songs and the meanings below the cut

1. sex - EDEN

‘Cause you said it meant nothing And I should’ve kept my silence But I guess I’m too attached to my own pride to let you know That all these words meant nothing And I’ve always been this heartless And we’re just having sex, no, I would never call it love But love Oh no, I think I’m catching feelings And I don’t know if this is empathy I feel

“This,” Neil flicked his finger to indicate the two of them, “isn’t worthless.” “There is no ‘this’. This is nothing.” “And I am nothing,” Neil prompted. When Andrew gestured confirmation, Neil said, “And as you’ve always said, you want nothing.” Andrew stared stone-faced back at him.

2. Be Kind (with Halsey) - Marshmello, Halsey

I know you need, I know you need The upper hand even when we aren’t fighting ‘Cause in the past, you had to prepare every time, yeah Don’t wanna leave, don’t wanna leave But if you’re gonna fight then do it for me I know you’re built to love, but broken now, so just try I know you’re chokin’ on your fears Already told you, I’m right here I will stay by your side every night I don’t know why you hide from the one And close your eyes to the one Mess up and lie to the one that you love When you know you can cry to the one Always confide in the one You can be kind to the one that you love

“No one’s said a word to them since they said we couldn’t see you.“ Nathaniel’s heart skipped a beat. The heat that gnawed at his chest was an ugly mix of gratitude and shame. He tried to speak but had to clear his throat before trying again. “But why? I’ve done nothing but lie to them. I willingly put them all in danger so I could play a little longer. They got hurt last night because of me. Why would they protect me now?” “You are a Fox,” Andrew said, like it was that simple, and maybe it was. Nathaniel dropped his eyes and worked his jaw, fighting for a center he was quickly losing hold of.

3. I Think I’m OKAY (with YUNGBLUD & Travis Barker) - Machine Gun Kelly

I guess it’s just my life and I can take it if I wanna But I cannot hide in hills of California Because these hills have eyes, and I got paranoia I hurt myself sometimes, is that too scary for you? Watch me, take a good thing and fuck it all up in one night Catch me, I’m the one on the run away from the headlights No sleep, up all week wasting time with people I don’t like I think that something’s fucking wrong with me

“Trust you.” Andrew enunciated each word like he’d never heard them before. He laughed curled his fingers tight around Neil’s chin. “You lie, and lie, and lie, and you think I’ll trust you with his life?” “Then don’t trust ‘Neil’,” Neil said. “Trust me.” “Oh, but who are you? Do you have a name?” “If you need one, call me Abram.” “Should I believe that?” “I’m named after my father,” Neil said. “Abram is my middle name; it’s the name my mother used when she was trying to protect me from his work.” It was the name he went by at his little league practices so the coach would actually let him play. It was strange hearing it aloud when no one had called Neil “Abram” in eight years. “Ask Kevin if you don’t believe me. He would know.” “Maybe I will.” Neil waited, but Andrew didn’t let go. With so many people watching them Neil couldn’t lift his shirt. He did the next best thing and dragged one of Andrew’s hands under the hem. He pressed Andrew’s palm to the ugly scarring across his abdomen. Andrew’s eyes dropped to Neil’s shirt like he could see Neil’s marred skin through the dark cotton. “Do you understand?” Neil asked. “Nothing Riko does will make me leave him. We will both be here when you get back.” Andrew’s fingers twitched against Neil’s skin. “Someone lied to me. These ouches feel a little rough for a child on the run.”

4. Lover of Mine - 5 Seconds of Summer

Lead to where your secrets are Where we’ve been a thousand times Swallow every single lie Take all of me

When I take a look at my life And all of my crimes You’re the only thing that I think I got I right I’ll never give you away

“It’s always been ‘go’,” Neil said. He turned his hand palm-up and traced a key into his skin with his fingertip. He’d toyed with Andrew’s house key so many times he knew every dip and ridge by heart. “It’s always been ‘lie’ and ‘hide’ and ‘disappear’. I’ve never belonged anywhere or had the right to call anything my own. But Coach gave me keys to the court, and you told me to stay. You gave me a key and called it home.” Neil clenched his hand, imagining the bite of metal against his palm, and lifted his gaze to Andrew’s face. “I haven’t had a home since my parents died.”

5. Vowels (and the Importance of Being Me) - HUNNY

I was a queen last night I said “Take to the water” And let you drink my lies Like, “Okay, you’re right” You can’t spell pain or kiss Or run away or little mistake Without me, or A, E, I, O, U

“I’ll always have and be nothing.“ Andrew reached up and forcibly uncurled Neil’s fingers from his mouth. He pushed Neil’s hand out of the way and stared Neil down with nothing between them. Neil didn’t understand the look on his face. There was no censure over Neil’s crooked parents or pity for their deaths, no triumph over having backed Neil into admitting so much, and no obvious skepticism for such an outlandish story. Whatever this look was, it was dark and intense enough to swallow Neil whole.

6. BLUE - Troye Sivan

I can’t say no Though the lights are on There’s nobody home Swore I’d never lose control Then I fell in love with a heart that beats so slow I want you I’ll color me blue Anything it takes to make you stay Only seeing myself When I’m looking up at you

Nathaniel watched until the hotel disappeared out the window, then looked to Andrew and asked in German, “Can I really be Neil again?” “I told Neil to stay,” Andrew said. “Leave Nathaniel buried in Baltimore with his father.” Nathaniel looked out the window again and wondered if that was possible. He knew in a sense he could never really leave Nathaniel behind. Even if Stuart could talk the Moriyamas down, they’d all know Nathan’s child was alive and kicking. Nathaniel would always be a security risk to them. But the thought was thrilling and chilling in turns, and Nathaniel turned his hand over to consider his palm. He traced Andrew’s key into his skin with a bandaged finger. “Neil Abram Josten,” Neil murmured, and it felt like waking up from a bad dream.

7. Some Kind of Disaster - All Time Low

I wore the crown, I sold the lie I lived the life and paid for every crime, yeah It’s all downhill 'til it’s a climb Through blood and tears, but I don’t mind I’ll just keep singing on and on and on And it’s all my fault that I’m still the one you want 'Cause I’m a liar, I’m a cynic I’m a sinner, I’m a saint I’m a loser, I’m a critic I’m the ghost of my mistakes And it’s all my fault that I’m still the one you want So what are you after? Some kind of disaster

Andrew pressed two fingers to the underside of Nathaniel’s chin to turn his head. Nathaniel let himself be guided and said nothing while Andrew looked his fill. When Andrew dropped his hand and clenched it in Nathaniel’s hoodie, Nathaniel risked looking back at him. There was violence in Andrew’s eyes, but at least he hadn’t shoved Nathaniel away yet. That had to count for something. "I’m sorry,” Nathaniel said. Andrew’s fist went back, but he didn’t take the swing. Nathaniel knew it wasn’t because that was the hand cuffed to Wymack; Andrew’s arm actually shook with the effort it took to not knock Nathaniel’s head off his neck. Nathaniel said nothing to tip the balance either way. At length Andrew uncurled his fingers and let his hand hang limp from the cuff. “Say it again and I will kill you,” he said.

8. The Space Between A Rock and a Hard Place - 5 Seconds of Summer

Faded, I’m wrapped in your arms While you’re waiting to tear me apart With a last kiss, you leave me wanting more You, you’re a catch 22 Win or lose, I’m screwed I’m trapped under your spell It saves me, breaks me 'til I fall back to you You’re a catch 22

“You are a Fox. You are always going to be nothing.” Andrew stubbed his cigarette out. “I hate you.” “Nine percent of the time you don’t.” “Nine percent of the time I don’t want to kill you. I always hate you.” “Every time you say that I believe you a little less.” “No one asked you.” With that, Andrew caught Neil’s face in his hands and leaned in. Nicky’s drugged assault aside, Neil hadn’t kissed anyone in four years. The last girl was a scrawny French-Canadian who’d held him with just her fingertips and kissed like she was afraid of smudging her tacky-bright lipstick. Neil couldn’t remember her name or face anymore. He remembered only how unsatisfying the illicit encounter had been and how furious his mother was when she found them. That awkward peck wasn’t worth the punishment that had followed. This was nothing like that. Andrew kissed him like this was a fight with their lives on the line, like his world stopped and started with Neil’s mouth. Neil’s heart stuttered to a stop at the first hard press of lips against his and he reached up without thinking. His hand made it as far as Andrew’s jaw before he remembered Andrew didn’t like to be touched. Neil caught hold of Andrew’s coat sleeve instead and knotted his fingers in the heavy wool. The touch was a trigger. Andrew leaned back just enough to say, “Tell me no.” Neil’s lips were sore; his skin was buzzing. He felt winded, like he’d survived a half-marathon. He felt strong, like he could run another five more. Panic threatened to tear his stomach to shreds. Common sense said to refuse this and retreat before they both did something they’d regret. But Renee said Andrew regretted nothing, and Neil wouldn’t live long enough for it to matter. He hadn’t figured out which way to lean before Andrew pried Neil’s hand off his coat.

9. Medication - YUNGBLUD

You cannot pretend there’s no dirt on your shirt 'Cause that’s not how it works, that’s not how it works You try to perceive that you’re so squeaky clean But that’s not how it works, that’s not that’s not how it works

“I’m not going to apologize for thinking you’re being idiotic.” “Is your spine the spine of the righteous?” Andrew wondered. “Are you trying your best to step on my toes because you’re feeling the tragic weight of the holier than thou?”

10. Take Yourself Home - Troye Sivan

Talk to me There’s nothing that can’t be fixed with some honesty And how it got this dark is just beyond to me If anyone can hear me switch the lights I’m tired of the city Scream if you’re with me If I’m gonna die, let’s die somewhere pretty

“Don’t dismiss me for lying to you then ignore me when I tell the truth.” “This is not truth,” Andrew said. “Truth is irrefutable and untainted by bias. Sunrise, Abram, death: these are truths. You cannot judge a problem with your obsession goggles on and call it truth. You aren’t fooling either of us.”

11. Trouble Is - All Time Low

All that I know is I just can’t say no to you Funny how things never change All that I wanted was just to get over you Trouble is I can’t find a way You’re part of me

Andrew bit the question into the corner of Neil’s jaw. “Yes or no?” “It’s always yes with you,” Neil said. “Except when it’s no,” Andrew said. Neil put a plastic-wrapped finger to Andrew’s chin, guiding his head up for another kiss. “If you have to keep asking because—I’ll answer it as many times as you ask. But this is always going to be yes.” “Don’t ‘always’ me.” “Don’t ask for the truth if you’re just going to dilute it.”

12. Safety Pin - 5 Seconds of Summer

No more waiting, we can save us from falling This time, maybe this time We’ll safety-pin the pieces of our broken hearts back together Patching up all the holes until we both feel much better Deleted things, I really meant So now I’ll say the things I never sent

Neil remembered too well what it was like to say goodbye. He remembered what it was like saying hello again. A hint of Friday’s panic and outrage flickered in his chest, hot enough to burn the air from his lungs. He didn’t know what this thing between them was anymore. He didn’t know what he wanted or needed it to be. He just knew he had to hold on for as long as he could. “You are a mess,” Andrew said against Neil’s lips. “What else is new?”

13. My My My! - Troye Sivan

Spark up, buzz cut I’ve got my tongue between your teeth Go slow, no, no, go fast You like it just as much as me Now, let’s stop running from love Running from love Let’s stop, my baby Let’s stop running from us Running from us Let’s stop, my baby Oh my, my, my! I die every night with you Oh my, my, my! Living for your every move

Time was nothing. Seconds were days, were years, were the breaths that caught between their mouths and the bite of Neil’s fingernails against his palms, the scrape of teeth against his lower lip and the warm slide of a tongue against his. He could feel Andrew’s heartbeat thrumming against his wrists, a staccato rhythm that echoed in Neil’s veins. How a man who viewed the world with such studied disconnect could kiss like this, Neil didn’t know, but he wasn’t going to complain. Neil had forgotten what it was like to be touched without malicious intent. He’d forgotten what body heat felt like. Everything about Andrew was hot, from the hands holding him down to the mouth steadily taking Neil apart. Neil finally understood why his mother thought this was so dangerous. This was distraction and indiscretion, avoidance and denial. It was letting his guard down, letting someone in, and taking comfort in something he shouldn’t have and couldn’t keep. Right now, Neil needed it too much to care.

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So roommates? Part 34

Alex as the first to wake up looking over her could see that anyha was still asleep holding his hand “mmm anyha wake up” he nudged her with his shoulder to wake her up “come we are about to Land” slowly her eyes fluttered opening pulling her hand out of his so she could rub her eyes. The plane had landed and they was on the way to get their bags “we should go get coffee before we get picked up” Alex picked up their bags as he said this handing anyha her bag and linked arms with her as they walked out getting in a taxi , soon they was outside starbucks waiting for their drinks to come “ I can’t wait to get back on set” anyha smile as she nibble on her cake as their coffee was put on the table “thanks” they both said , as the dank their coffee it was Alex that made anyha giggle and all most choked on her coffee as he pulled a faced at his coffee being sad that it was all gone she snapped a picture on her phone of this smiling at him as soon they would be being picked up to go to work.

Driving on to set after their little coffee date seeing all the people mill about getting stuff ready for filming their first stop they had was makeup then into costume and they was really for the day , both of the sat reading the script as micro walked in “yaay you to are home” he hug Alex then anyha “you ready for the day” Alex smiled at him “yer I think we are” anyha got up from her seat and gave him a big hug “well I will see you two later I need to find Katheryn” she walked out off makeup as she walked passed Alex her hand ghosted over his back .

Scene

Fraye standing in the watchtower looking out our to the lands of katket as lagertha walked up behind her “I have spoken to king harald and he tells me that he want he want to Aline with us” fraye scoffed looking at lagertha “mmm don’t trusted him” fraye said as she look out over the lands , out of the tree line they saw some men riding with blue and red banners “by the gods it can’t be” lagertha watch the way fraye smiled as she moved so that she could get down “lagertha you have to open the gates” she said as she climbed down “open the gates” lagertha called out to the men standing at the gates they did what was asked of them

As the gates open men rode through as fraye ran to them and jumped in the arms of a large man covered in white far and a gray beard as he got of his horse “by the gods it good to see you sindri” the man grunted at her as he hug her putting down to look at her “hello freya” a young lad step at the side of the man , he was tall and built like a ox but with a beautiful face hiding behind blond bread “tahu look at you” fraye piled him to hug kissing his cheek “look how you grow I remember you just as a babe but now you're a man” tahu wrapped his arms around fraye “but I still have so much to see if the world” fraye pulled back from him to look in his eyes that was almost like hunny unlike sindri eyes that was black as the night “you must be hungry come eat and meet lagertha” she grabbed their hands as lagertha walked over to them “ fraye” lagertha had a confidence look on her face as she looked at the men , the tallest of all the men watched her like a hork as she move over to them “lagertha this is sindri and his son tahu , when I was just a girl leaning the ways of the god I found them when little tahu was just a babe , they are good men of mine and I tried them with me like as sindri voud his life to me” lagertha smiled at them “then friends of fraye are friends of katket” sindri nodded his head “thankyou you queen lagertha” Tahu said as they walked back to the main hall with lagertha.

They was all in the Hall eating and drinking “your father doesn't speak much” lagertha said looking at tahu as he sat between Fraye legs as she beaded his hair up “he never talks not in all my life when he found me” lagertha stopped drinking her drink “found you?” Tahu nods his head as he drinks some of his drink as fraye slaps the side of his head “don’t move, lagertha tahu is not his real son sindri found the boy when he was young his family had been killed and the babe hid under his mother dead body” lagertha looked a the large man as he sat watching everything around him as he eat as he watched her as well , fraye felt the tension in the air so she guess she had to tell lagertha of the story of who she came to meet sindri the berserker and how he would pierced her as they travel together.

After telling lagertha she looked over the man “a kind heart sindri” lagertha finishes her cup as more food was put on the table for the feast as people start to fill in , tahu was talking away with some of the warriors that was sitting with them , Freya looked round them smiling to herself as this moment in time shoe was not thinking about bjorn or how she left ivar in York.

Somewhere in York

freydis Laid in bed with a man with ginger hair strokes get ginger beard as the laid naked wrapped each other body’s “ tell me again how we are going to break ivar” she asked as she kissed the side of his face “my queen made a promise to him and the gods that she would not have her army on the battlefield as he has don’t nothing to her or her people”the ginger man said ,Freydis hummed thinking this thought “so tell me the plan” she kissed his neck nipping at the skin .

Hvitserk was sat with ivar talking about their plans to go home as ivar wanted to take katket back and this meant they had go to king harald so they could go to war and take back katket .

Far way in katket the seer woke up crying out with his hand held above his body as he saw the world go up in flames and men fall to the ground with their blood spilling into the earth, the sound of battle crying rang through the air , the seer pulled at his clothes as he came face to face with a blue eyed wolf with flames licking at it far as it move over the battlefield, the seer sat up and the vision stopped making him call out no . Freya sat up right in her bed looking around her room to see who had called to her in her sleep and it was a call of pain but she couldn’t see anyone shaking her head trying to shake the feeling but still it sat in her gut making her feel sick , she got up from her bed wrapped her clock round her body as she mad her way into the main hall from the living qworts .

Walking through the hall she picked up a cup and a jug of mead the had been left on table , taking a sip from the cup as she walked over to lagertha throne to sit down and closing her eyes as she sat down but her eyes snapped open when She heard movement at the side of her looking over to where she heard something she could make out the body of some one soon they stepped in to the light and there was margrethe “margrethe?” “You not the queen nor should be lagertha it should be me and ubbe as king” fraye stands up walking over to margrethe with the coldness as a true ice queen looking her eyes making margrethe step back a little “I have to remind you that I am a queen” Freya voice was flat and cold “and don’t talk like you could overthrow lagertha” she had a look in her eyes like she wanted to kill margrethe at the moment as if some one was listening in it would look like the was plotting overthrow lagertha and that was not it , it was margrethe wanting more then she should ever have she got her freedom she should happy with that .

End scene

It was their lunch break on the katket set so anyha , Georgia and Ida when for lunch , anyha found it nice getting to spend some time with the girl and it just be them getting the lunch they sat down chilling and eating as janes came over to sit with them they was all asking anyha about the gig that she did with her brother as there was some videos of it and Alex had uploaded some pictures of her when she was on stage so she told them all bout it .

On the way back to set the walked passed Alex , Marco and Jonathan as they was going to get their lunch they said the quick hellos then was on the way again as they walked back to set anyha felt her phone buzz in her hand looking at it she saw a text from Alex reading it she smiled more as it was a text to say that he miss her and that he just want to sleep , making the girls giggle as they walked back to set .

Scene

It was the next morning in katket as the sun came up fraye was on she heading to down beach in just simple dress , getting to the beach she walked into the water letting it come up to her hip making the dress cling to her body putting her hand in the watch feeling it move around her closing her eyes she got a vision off a flet of boat coming their way as she felt flames lick at her skin making her bit her lip to keep her eyes closed as she know she had to see this soon the vision shifted as she was look on a battlefield as men fell to the ground the sound around her was muffled pain ripped through her body making her stumped forward , it shifted again showing her a temple with it doors broken and there was blood everywhere moving in to the temple she saw a statue of the all mother Freya cover in blood with a white goat tied to it with it gut cut out making her feel sick and that she couldn’t breathe, Freya open her eyes and felt her body pulled up from up the water as she was pulled to the surface she gasped for air coughing as she was being pulled back to the seashore.

Sindri pulled her back to the shore laying her on the sand as more people move around her as she tried to figure out how she end up under the water as she remember standing up , ubbe push her to sitting up “what the hell was you thinking?” He asked her as someone wrapped something round her “I l had a vision” she muttered out looking to her side as tahu face came into view “what did you see?” He asked, Freya started to cry ubbe pulled her into a hug “I don’t know” ubbe rocked them to calm her as her body shock with her crying “let her you back and out of their wet clothes” ubbe said as he look at sindri and tahu to help Freya up , sindri scooped her up in his arms letting her lay her head on his shoulder as he carried her like you do with a small sleeping child cradle in his arms.