#qneg

[xomoosexo]

I’m getting “the rise and fall of dream” videos in my recommended again except they’re q and qs mp 😭 war is over ^_^

damn and it's only been a year

[mavcancees]

WHAT IS HE SAYING PLEASE SHARE WITH US😭😭

in the middle of speaking about all the q smp stuff that happened, he again spoke about so well of sapnap george and hannah, super thankful for everything, and mentioned how there's a huge untapped market with certain streamers that are friends of "los gringos" not getting invited to the smp

he said the server is made to unite communities but because they keep inviting streamers that are of their same "type" ( their friends ) and not truly a variety of people ( he mentioned cris, farfadox, amilcar ) it's a big waste of actual multiculturalism. that since finding out spreen got kicked out because he didn't like rp, he doesn't find the idea of joining so entertaining anymore and he'd not have fun if all he's going to be doing is rping with others instead of actually playing the game. and that that obsession with rp is the reason a lot of creators turn away the opportunity

[demonstars]

just saw a clip of q and bad and want to die. forever bitter at q for betraying bad’s children and step daughter

like fuck that guy forever tbh

[nagitolovemotel]

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[yateno]

Angry thoughts of a drunk I just want to share because... why not?

Okay I'm drunk, but it doesn't mean that I can't be understansdable either in French nor in English because I'm pretty sure that my current state is not that bad.

So... I'm really sad, depressed, stressed out about my future... what am I gonna do about my future ? Right now it's almost four in the afternoon and I'm drunk. Not because I had a crazy night... even though I got to bed at five in the morning or four.... I don't really remember... why am I even really writing in english even though I'm french ?... I'm so supid sometimes... I'm such an idiot.

What is so wrong with me ?

I am really crying rgiht now... so cliché... I'm such an idiot...

My cat is right beside me, on the table, next to my computer... and she can't even understand what is going through my mind.... and now she's gone...

I'm such a mess.

I'm a mess...

I'm listening to a song I don't even know.... My fingers are working on the keyboard faster than I can even follow.... typing words with mispelling.... is that a word ? I'm french... damn it.... why am I writing in english... ?  I am so drunk and alone... I haven't even finish my second drink... okay I'm gonna do it...

Done.

I was once in love with someone... I didn't even realise it... until this someone declare their love for me... it didn't obviously end well... I rejected her... even as a friend because I didn't want her to hope that someday the response would be any different... I'm such a mess...

J'aimerais un jour pouvoir dire que ce n'était pas une mauvaise idée. Que j'ai fait tout ce que j'ai pu pour avoir une vie décente... acceptable... j'ai tellement l'impression de ne pas réussir à accomplir toutes les missions d'un jeu. Failure. I'm such a failure. YES. I'm a failure. Why am I even here ?

Still crying and still drunk.

On ne devrait pas avoir à subir la vie... c'est subir peu importe ce vous pensez.... je subis. Je suis seule. Je ne sais pas ce que je veux faire de ma vie... parce qu'on est censé savoir quoi faire de ça.... de la vie. And I'm still crying. Listening to songs I know and don't know.

What am I supposed to do when everything seems to be against my happiness ? I'm not suicidal.... right now.... but... I don't know what to do... ever... when I am like this nor when I am actually feeling good enough to believe that someday I'll just find my way to become 'someone'... what am I even saying ?

Sorry... ?

Am I even talking to someone ?

Wellcome to the dark side...

What is that song coming through my earphones ? I don't even know... but it fits so well... I'm such an idiot.

I don't even know what I want to say...

Why should I stay ???

You know...

Depression is not easy...

LOL...

Really ?

I'm such a mess...

I don't even know what is the point in telling people that I'm not feeling well. People don't want to know that.... they don't bother... they have their own problems... but... sometimes you may feel that telling your feelings to someone might feel like a burden is lift off your shoulders...

Is that even english ?

Oh my god I'm so drunk... Is that Halsey that I hear through my earphones ? I'm french damn it... why is it so difficult to think right now ???? …. I'm such an idiot when it comes to.... everything... my cat is lucky to have my unconditionnal love... nobody except her has it...

I hate so much...

I live so low... less ? I don't know... It's like I don't even allow myself to feel something something.... Is it because I'm an ace ? Because I don't want to have kids or a partner ? What am I supposed to do when I don't want either ? What am I supposed to do when I don't have any purpose ?

J'aimerais avoir un jour un vœu... un but. Je ne sais pas. Je suis tellement nulle et bourrée et seule. Pourquoi suis-je en train d'écrire alors que je ne sais si j'ai vraiment envie que quelqu'un lise ceci ?...

And it comes in waves... what is that song ? I've already heart it...

it's exactly like depression... it comes in waves... you don't always feel depressed... sometimes you happen to fool yourself in some kind of normalty... happiness...

Still crying though I don't know the point.

I am sure, certain, that I'm not even coherent in my writing...

Okay now I know this song that just begun... it's Scared to be Lonely... oh my god it's exactly how I'm feeling about my future.... because yeah... I'm always... I'll always be lonely... no matter what.... I'll be lonely. Ace and without any focus.

My parends just put me in this world that was supposed to be wonderful, full of promises but...

LOL.... I'm just so lost in this world... nothing just matter enough to just be...

I love whiskey...

I love alcohol... it makes you so honest about everything... people like to talk when they are drunk. They want to share. It like a key to unlock everything that has been kept inside your own world.

My world is full of bullshit. Bullshit that I fullfill to entertain myself or I would just kill myself. Yeah... I'm not scared to write it... Bullshit save me everytime I try to live. How the fuck am I supposed to fall asleep when I don't know what is going on with my life other wise ?

Otherwise ??

I don't know damn it...

I don't care...

I don't care about anything except the fact that I'll still be unhappy about evertyhing.

Everything.

I'm an artist. I could play piano if I really wanted to... or play any other instrument I believe... but...

I can draw... If I really wanted to I could perfection my skill... If I really wanted to...

I could write... if my mood would allow me to. Most of the time I'm feeling depressed other every little things that make me different from everyone... even about every little things.

I think everyone think there are unique and because of that everyone isn't unique. We don't matter. We live and die like everything. We don't even fucking matter in any way. The truth is that. We won't leave a mark of our existence even if we really wanted to. And even if we do, why should it matter to anyone ? To anything ?

Damn it.

Humans.

We just assume that what we do is so very important peu importe who we are.

Assuming.... is the worst thing that could happen to us right ? Amirite ? LOL.

I'm supposed to be beautiful, I really think I am but how does it matter when I am an ace ?

I'm too sensitive...

and I love cats...

Not that even make sense... remember I'm drunk... and french. ?????

What the fuck am I even doing right now ?

I am supposed to find a job... a carrer... a purpose...

but I'm just so lost...

So drunk. So french...

I think humans like to complain but maybe it's just the french ones ? Je suis tellement stupide.

Don't tell me what to do... and don't tell me what to say... you don't own me...

Don't put me on display...

Well.... yeah I'm drunk...

Just let me be myself that's all I ask of you... I'm young and I love to be young, I'm free and I love to be free...

Damn it... I love music, I love music... you can so relate to this.... even though it's not really specific most of the time. Singer won't be too personnal about their lyrics or people won't find them so like them ? Is that even english what I am saying ?

Can love myself No I don't need anybody else...

Fuck I'm so screwed.

I just want to throw everything away even though most of those things aren't even mine. I'm almost 25 and I still live with my parents and I don't have a steady job. Fuck my life. And yeah... no... don't... fuck me lol.

I'm so funny aren't I ? even though I'm depressed/depressive... I can still be so funny...

ha. ha.

Il est 17h28, je suis toujours un peu saoule. Je me suis déplacée sur le balcon comme si être là allait changer quelque chose à mes émotions. Je suis... screwed, fucked up. Je n'arrive pas à trouver mes mots en français... je suis stupide.

I feel so alienated. Most of the time I'm just breathing. I qneg d d xddd gnd f ,

I can't even see the keyborad anymore. Yes I feel not human anymore... not since I grew up. Since I got judgment. Since I've become an adult. Since I realised I was an ace.

The point of being seems to work, found your own familly, grow old and die... but what if you don't want to have children ? What if you're an ace who don't even want an emotional partner ? What if you don't know what you want to be ? What if you're unemployed and don't know what work you want to do ?

I'm almost 25 damn it... my mom was a mother... my father was an electrician or a plumber or whatever... I'm not any of those and never will be...

At this rate I will never be.

I will never be anything.

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[mavcancees]

The QSMP focuses so hard on roleplay because that kind of content is popular and fuels fandoms. Quackity understands how successful it can be from his time on the DSMP. It attracts the really diehard kind of audience that will likely get deeply invested in it, create a fandom around it, and stick with it long term. It's not really about "uniting" anyone lol, it's about ensuring the maximum engagement possible, making money, staying clouted, and maintaining a brand.

This wouldn't be inherently bad if the marketing and PR for this server wasn't so centered around it "revolutionizing the global content creation space" (gag) and "uniting" communities, which is obviously disingenuous to anyone paying attention.

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[xomoosexo]

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[xomoosexo]

I feel like part of the reason the way ccs talk about q and q smp is so startling and weird is cause it is so drastically different to the way they'd talk about dream and the d smp back in the day. they would shit talk the smp and dream all the time and that was just so normalized and we'd all say, "oh it's because they are passionate and they love it so much they get fired up<3"

I think the part that makes it easier for q smp is q having a whole "team" which is kinda this entity of an unknown amount of people that go into this project, in which the server members interact with a portion of (the admins). and so it's harder for members to criticize the server at all, consider not participating in events, leave the server, or even just play minecraft with ppl on the server outside of q smp. everything is kinda framed in this way that you can "betray" the project you are "so privileged" to be a part of. and if you consider doing any of those things, you are criticizing a whole group of people multiple of which are your friends who you might not even have access to outside of the server.

it's very strange.

[xomoosexo]

if q and dream made up I would be happy because qolos would be throwing up and backtracking and like half of the biggest drantis would cease to exist and dream would know a much more peaceful existence but also I would still hate q to the end of timw srry

[xomoosexo]

they way dsmp blew the fuck up and was mainstream popular all on its own with like no promotion no official update accounts no merch and the guy who owns the server didn’t even stream his POV and his mere presence on another person’s stream made them get crazy amounts of views

yeah. the way q has been acting since the beginning of his smp just further solidified that he saw what dream did with dsmp, saw what worked and what failed, and then went about constructing an smp that could do everything "right". actual employees, update accounts that could update just what he wanted them to, events to keep the ccs always interested- forgetting that one of the biggest draws of dsmp was the genuineness of the phenomenon

[mavcancees]

i think what make the dsmp lore work was that while it was very scripted in some moments. The lore was 100% written by the ccs colaborating amd talking privatly. The creators had the Freedom to write their lores in the way they wanted while taking in account others lores too and the story was almost entirely move by the characthers and only the egg lore as an exception but it moved by the characthers too. Like a rp party. While there's some stuff to follow your characther actions are yours to decide. The only problem was the fandom but that's outside of the server itself

dsmp's dnd campaign swag vs q smp's bad indie movie script with an insufferable director swag

[mavcancees]

Ironically, if qs. mp was half as popular as drea. mspm was at it's peak it would be getting dragged to hell and back. The only reason q is still alive in the public perception is because literally no one outside of mcyt has heard about him

WELL

[mavcancees]

The way he was licking his own asshole in 3rd person in that new qsmp video is sooo dire 😭😭😭😭 baby it’s a minecraft server you didnt revolutionise shit

and remember, nothing can be revolutionary if it's not released to the public ! a private server with private tools that rides off a previously made idea is not a revolution ! it's just a trend !

[mavcancees]

All I'm going to say as an opinion about this whole qsmp drama is this. Karma has a boyfriend, and it doesn't look like it's Q.

super excited for the post hunt and run three way tournament soon ! 😁😁😁 i hope spreen or diff are put as relators along dre and sap, the hispanic ccs are really excited for it 💚💚💚

[mavcancees]

When your fandom has a dream-stan reputation but you don't even have Dream numbers. Worst of both worlds damn

the worst of dsmp split in two one went to chommy and the other went to q and we are now seeing the consequences ! people will not be as patient with their stupidity like people were in 2021 with dsmpers, and they do not have the numbers to be a loud majority like then

especially post last year. dream has a lot of support in hispanic communities ( to the immense distaste of his second fanbase, cry about it ), diff was yesterday talking about him, s hadoune mentions them all the time, f arfa and s preen do too. meanwhile q is getting fucking cooked because of his deranged fanbase, and they ticked off a LOT of people last night. looking at amilcar

that server is reaching it's lasts i don't care what anyone says