#putting them under a microscope cuz ohhh they make me insane

[rakkuntoast]

the way that forever could've had a chance with phil if he wasnt so stuck up with brunim..and the fact that today forever mentioned stuff that he loved about phil, not brunim but phil himself... and even then phil just kept reminding him that he wont correspond to him cuz forever only likes him cuz he looks like brunim

and yeah! he's right! its shitty that someone you care about only seems to be interested in you by your looks, i dont blame phil for holding that against him. but it feels like phil keeps reminding himself that he cant correspond forever's feelings cuz he knows they're not genuine

and the thing is, some of them are genuine, if you move forever's weird relationship out of the day (and its not me being delusional rn,, probably a little) he does have actual feelings for phil himself, hell we've seen him multiple times actually praise phil, or going out his way to admire phil for his little quirks or protectiveness

but then the brunim thing always comes back, its always a lingering thing in their relationsip that stops phil from getting too close to forever, he needs to build that wall cuz he knows he wont get genuine love out of that relationship. and while for some it might be true, there was sojme genuine love from forever slipping out, but phil will always dismiss it cuz he built up that wall already

and he kept repeating it when forever was in that chair, not only to make sure forever understood but also to keep reminding himself that he cant let that happen

anyway philever is dead when i say this dead im holding on this duo on a lifeline