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qloof ¡ 7 days ago
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For the oc ask: 5 and 14?
5.) Do you have any voice claims for your OCs?
the only one i have is a sorta voice claim for Ashton !! I think Essenger's singing voice is close to what he would have,,…Essenger's regular speaking voice is also what i have in mind for Ashton though by default i think Essenger speaks kinda monotone. i'm using youtube timestamps bcus spotify does nawt preview at vocal parts in his songs lmao
Downfall <- pretty soft As Above, So Below <- rougher/level of what his voice would usually be like
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14.) Which OC/s do you relate to the most?
gahh this one's a little hard cus i put different pieces of myself into all my ocs,,i relate a lot to Vita's leadership/older sibling sorta role i projected that onto her lolz. I also relate to Kaysem's self-consciousness/social anxiety and fear of scaring people off or appearing off-putting, so much so that no one would really care to be around me. every thing all at once answer would be Acec since he's my self insert,,
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venusiangguk ¡ 4 years ago
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O.o
Okay so my playlist!
I'll write them and some parts that remind me of icrl ?
Used to - Avalon young
"It still ain't the same If I got somebody She will never be you there"
" I'm thinking about summer 2012 yh we went through hell and back, .... your still the best I ever had "
( like the reminiscing, the yearning man, even if they move on, it's just neevr the same. Nothing will amount to the feelings that they had )
Time lapse - taeyeon
" The seasons are still the same
Though many have passed
Now it’s time that
I got used to being without you
But still, when I think of your name
Tears well up and when I close my eyes
I see you and even though everything changed
You’re always at the same place, looking the same
Making me cry "
( the season thing and then oc feelings and jungkooks that although many have passed theres still that feeling that love there, so strong that it transports them back to that time (?) )
Almost is never enough - ariana grande
" bc almost , almost is neevr enough so close to being in love " 💔
( I put more before but this really just fits so well )
Always I'll care - Jeremy Zucker
" Listening to self control
Those feelings that you'll never know" -
protecting from the heartbreak or whatever he thought he was protecting himself from.
Never not - lauv
" I will neevr not think abt u
From the moment I loved I knew you were the one "
The realisation that came to late. The realisation that he loved her, but ran out of time.
He realised when the ink had ran out in their love story.
" for as long as I live and as long as I love "
" we were so beautiful we were so tragic , no other magic could ever compare " 💔💔
12.45 - etham
" Oh, baby, you gotta stop, I see that you're calling
I told you that I ain't picking up
I know that you wanna start
'Cause we got our problems
I love you, but I just need a night off"
There were so many factors that lead to their downfall , but they both didnt fight harder to see past their own selfishness. They loved eo, but it just wasn't enough. So they put up shields, they built versions of eo that neither wanted.
You were good to me - jeremy zucker
"And I'm so used to lettin' go
But I don't wanna be alone
You were good to me"
Kind of like jungkook realising that he doesnt want to live alone, he needs to love. But he acknowledges that only oc could love him. Like love him. Be good to him. He grew and he matured and he found the answers to love in the memories he shared wth her 💔
300am
" Baby, if I could tell you, if I could tell you
How much I care
I'm in despair
Are you still there? "
I imagine this to be from jks pov in the years he spent growing up, thinking abt the possibilities to go back and start over, the agonising moments on the am hrs of the night.
Like strangers do - AJ Mitchell
" You and me, what are we if we not together?
It could be nothing 'cause nothing last forever
If you saw me on the train would you look the other way?
Like strangers do"
I think of this of jk from the time after period too !
More and more - finding hope
So many things I try to say to you
Then I don't feel too well
Get so close and then I bail
From that time too, jk wanted to run back but he ultimately put her first, and the happiness she was like searching and in pursuit of didnt include him.
I like to think that this is like the process of jk falling in love , or realising his feelings.
Also the yearning in this song is also soo yn imo
2 soon - keshi
Same crew but another mistress
Every day, every night getting wasted
But I miss you, what did I do?
Fuck it up, laugh it off and I lost you
I love you but I'm letting go - pamungkas
Cause you know what they say
If you love somebody
Gotta set them free
I love you but I'm letting go
Mean it - lauv and lany
But I'm all, I'm all in
I'm fallin' faster
But if you're looking at me with a
Heart of doubt
Don't kiss me right now
Don't tell me that you need me
Don't show up at my house
All caught up in your feelings
Fuck u goodluck - suggi
No one compares
Nothin' compares
I've never loved and loved so deeply
But how the hell could I argue a "no"?
'Cause you'll never change
For anyone's sake
I could've gave, and paid, and saved, and killed
But I guess no is a no
" Hope you learned how not to break a heart
So fuck you, and good luck too "
Iris - goo goo dolls
Dancing with a stranger- Sam Smith
Fire on fire- Sam Smith
Willow - Taylor swift.
Dont watch me cry- alex porat
Wrong direction - hailee Steinfield
Blue- taeyeon
" the words ' I love you ' which resemble you "
Us - keshi
" Maybe we've been
A little too guarded
From things that have hurt us
A bit more than we thought"
💔💔💔
There are more but I think this is so long alr 😭😭💛
I hope u have the best day ♡
omg thank you for telling me!! i think it's so cool that people get reminded of songs when reading my stuff so i appreciate it <3
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a-writers-reality ¡ 5 years ago
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Senji: Lost at Heart
Senna was a young girl, someone her parents took pride in. She was pretty, intelligent, but a bit shy and sensitive.
"Sen.. C'mon.. You can make at least one friend can't you...?" Her sister would gently coax anytime they were out. Each time she was met with a headshake.
One day however, two blonde children moved in near by and she felt compelled to introduce herself.
"I-I'm Senna... My friends call me Sen....."
"Hey Sen!!! I'm Richard and this is my big brother Liam! He doesnt act or look like my brother but I swear he is!!"
And that, that was enough to kick off a friendship last through their entire lives. However things weren't always easy.
"You're Dad walked out cause you wanna be a boy, loser!"
Watch what you say about my friend Mickey..."
"Why should I Scunder? Youre too tiny to do anything about-"
That day, Senji witnessed his first murder. Watching, scared as Richard, a sweet, bubbly, kind boy beat the brunette into a bloody pulp, watching the life drain from his eyes. Not a single ounce of regret clear on the ten year olds face. Afraid, Senji ran home, crying to his mother. A woman he found to be sweet and loving toward him for most of his life.
She was sweet and gentle, fully understanding and kind until Senji turned thirteen years old.
"Mommy... I need to speak with you..."
"What is it, Princess...?"
"I.. I've been thinking.. For a while now.. And I... I want to be a boy.. Could you ca-"
"No."
"What?"
"I said no. You aren't a 'boy', Senna. You're a girl. You'll always be my baby girl.. Grow up and get over yourself."
"But Mom I-!"
"Do not argue with me, Princess..."
"I hate that nickname."
"Do you hate me too?"
"What? No of cours-"
"Of course you hate me! Why else would my baby girl want to destroy what little i have left?!" the woman snapped. Empty alcohol bottle of various nature where littered throughout the house. His mother wreeked and could be smelled from a block away. She began to laugh as she grabbed a kitchen knife. She sat Senji down, pressing a lit cigarette to his pinkish pale, sensitive flesh.
He screamed in pain and tried to weasle away. Her grip however was tight as Senji Began to cry.
"Your father left! Your sister left! And no you wanna leave me too?! Am i not good enough for you people?! Do you want to watch me crash and bur?! Huh, do you?!" He screamed in Senji's tear stained face. She picked the knife back up and held it to her throat.
"I'm going to do it! None of you need me! I'm worthless to you aren't I?! Just a piece of garbage! An inconvenience in your life right?!" She said, laughing like a lunatic.
"Mommy please.. Youre scaring me-"
"Grow up Senna! The world isn't your friend! You'll have your heart ripped from your chest" set on fire, crushed, thrown out, cut up, and every single.other thing someone could do to it!"
He was scrambling to find his phone, desperate to call for help as he watched his mother pressed the knife to her throat. Small drops of red stained the silver knife but she hadn't yet cut deep.
She didn't get the chance. Senji had managed to calm her into a crying mess instead, letting her be taken away from him.
He decided that night to pack a bag and live with his friends, afraid of being put into foster care or back with his mother.
Over the next five years hed have his heart crushed more times than he could count. He was dumped, used, abused, haressex, shattered, left to cry.. Nothing worked out.
He felt his life becoming pointless. Thats when he joined the government brach Crystal Thorn. Finding his purpose, he kept going. With the money he earned he got his surgeries, game consoles, testorone, and almost anything he could ask for.
He only.had one issue with the job. He couldnt save everyone.
He watched a girl his age be slaughtered before his eyes one day. That shattered him past repair. To this day he still has nightmares staring her face. He dedicates poems and tattoos to the girl he couldnt save. He never even got to know her name.
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@max-rp @degenerate-era @oc-clique-x @suzakumuto
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that-bookworm-guy ¡ 6 years ago
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Character Creation Tag (Alexander)
@pens-swords-stuff did this and this looked cool so I thought I’d do it with my baby Alexander
1) What was the first element of your OC that you remember considering (name, appearance, backstory, etc.?)
The name. I knew he would be a bookworm too 
2) Did you design them with any other characters/OCs from their universe in mind?
Nope, he was the first character and everyone else was built around him.
3) How did you choose their name?
always loved the name, since I was tiny. I never knew anyone called Alexander so I have no idea where I got the name from, but it was also a name I was considering when I came out as trans but it didn’t suit me, so my character’s name was born. 
His last name is Fawn, which just came to mind and seemed to fit.
4) In developing their backstory, what elements of the world they live in played the most influential parts?
Oooo so in the first book he loses his family. I wanted to really concentrate on his backstory at the start to show how normal his life was and how unprepared he was for everything to go tits up. Everyone has a special power and his is enhanced intelligence and he experiences everything from being able to read minds (Not a lot), to having visions about the future and hearing his powers voice. He wants to get rid of it, so I really wanted to show how much it affected him.
He has ADHD so I wanted to show that through his every day life and I made sure it was mentioned in passing. I wanted to show how he was in school because there are some important characters that come back from there.
His family were well off with house staff and technology because I wanted a clear contrast between his old life and his new life on the run. 
5) Is there any significance behind their hair colour?
Nope
6) Is there any significance behind their eye colour?
Nope
7) Is there any significance behind their height?
Nope, he is average
8) What (if anything) do you relate to within their character/story?
He has bad anxiety and depression. I didn’t want to hide it and I’ve had it all my life so I wanted to write a hero who had a mental illness and although it does slow him down, it doesnt stop him.
9) Are they based off of you, in some way?
The whole story came to be because I had a dream where my sister was taken and I had some kind of powers that helped me to get her back. This is basically the outline to the whole of book 1. So in a way yes.
Same with the anxiety and depression, a lot I wrote about it true and was how I was feeling at the time. I feel it made it more realistic to a reader that way. 
I can be quite cheeky and was often got told off for it when I was younger, so I really wanted to include that element of fun into his character.
10) Did you know what the OC’s sexuality would be at the time of their creation?
I knew he wasn’t going to be straight. Whether he knew that about himself yet was another story. But it’s turning out to read like he is bi, so I will definitely be sticking with that.
11) What have you found to be most difficult about creating art for your OC (any form of art: Writing, drawing, edits, etc.)?
So there was a scene where he got caught and basically got beaten up but a police officer (They are all working for a corrupt government and know it). I knew I wanted him to get caught and I knew he was going to get treated like a mini adult (He is 13) and that it was going to be a massive shock to him. 
But when I wrote that part, it seemed too light. He was basically being interrogated in a cell where they police have no rules. 
Then it was too harsh, like way too harsh. 
And he didn’t care if he died at this point, he thought he lost everything and in this situation he would have given up. I needed to give him a reason to fight, to be brave and not quit. He needed to get his sister back but thought there was no chance.
So I thought back to my anxiety. If i want something I can’t do it (like ask for sauce in a restaurant) but if my friend with anxiety wants it and can’t ask, you bet I’m going to try to ask for some. 
So I put in his best friend (and the guy he may or may not have a crush on) with him, but he was beaten up worse. So he could find some will to fight again.
12) How far past the canon events that take place in their world have you extended their story, if at all?
Oh god I have planned this so much. SO basically I had it so well planned out that me @izzytheheartbrekker and @lantern-keeper had a half hour convo about how I could get my characters to break into this one building. All the reasons they gave couldn’t work because I basically wrote myself into a corner that made it so the ideas would not work at all. They needed to break into this building to find files. The files can only be found in this building, I tried to move them but they just didn’t make sense to be anywhere else because of how I wrote the first book and the characters. But they are on the run and trying to lay low so have no reason to enter this building at all. 
They can’t just walk in. It’s guarded because of how I wrote the building in the first story. It was basically a suicide mission. But the character’s traits also held an issue. They wouldn’t break in for fun or a dare.
I did work it out in the end. 
But their story is always going and I have ideas that will never get put into the story. I have everyone’s back stories wrote that I could form another book on
13) If you had to narrow it down to 2 things that you MUST keep in mind while working with your OC, what would those things be?
Anxiety. Anxiety controls his life. He wouldn’t do certain things or act certain way because of it. 
He loves his sister, in the book I’m currently writing (book 2) I know the first few chapters are missing their interactions. Everything that happened in book 1 was because he was trying to get his sister back, I need to remember that.
14) What is something about your OC that can make you laugh?
His cheekiness, he always answers back, and he doesn’t always mean to. 
15) What is something about your OC can make you cry?
His love for people. I cried when I wrote the scene his sister got taken, because I know how much his life revolves around her. 
‘“Trust me.”
These were the last words that Alexander said to his little sister before… well you’ll see.’ - start of chapter 9
‘Rosia didn’t look so sure. She ran towards her brother and leant against his chest. He wrapped his arms around his little sister and lent over her like a shield. Protecting her from the world outside of his warmth. If he could take all the pain away from her, he would in a heartbeat. She didn’t deserve this, she didn’t deserve any of this. His shirt felt wet against his skin and he realised they were the tears of his sister. He bent down and rested his hands on the side of her shoulders, before leaning forwards and gently kissed her forehead. Looking into her watery eyes, he tried to smile bravely. He couldn’t bare to see his sister so scared. He wiped away her tears with his sleeve and held her against his chest once again.
“We’ll be alright Rosia. We’ll make it somewhere safe tonight and then we will get away from all of this.”
Rosia lifted her head and looked at her protector. With her face red, eyes puffy and gently sobbing, she opened her mouth and gently whispered one word.
“Promise?”
Alexander stood up and held out his hand.
“Trust me.”’ - end of chapter 9, book 1
WHY DO I DO THIS?
16) Is there some element you regret adding to your OC or their story?
I want him to be an arsehole sometimes, like it would be easier to write, but he is just so darn nice and lovable. 
17) What is the most recent thing you’ve discovered about your OC?
He doesnt want to burden anyone, he is struggling and didn’t tell his best friend. His talent has grown out of control.
“He’s been repressing his power which means he isn’t focusing it, which means it’s growing and every time he relaxes the hold even a tiny bit, that will happen” He pointed to Alex. “and it’s only going to get worse the longer he does it. And by longer I don’t mean days, I mean hours. His mind is developing at a fast pace just as teenagers brains do, except quicker. Christ Alex we’ve spoke about this and you didn’t listen.” Theo was becoming clearly more and more agitated by the second.
“You spoke about this, without me.”
Theo looked at Alex, who looked like he was about to blackout again any second. He calmed down a bit, feeling sympathy for him. “He didn't want to worry you.”
Jathan turned to Alex, “You’re my best friend, I want to know if you’re suffering I want to help Alex.” He turned back to Theo “Isn’t this why we placed the seal in the first place so he wouldn’t lose control. Can't we just do that again?”
“You saw what happened the first time we can’t risk that again.”
“What will happen if he continues to repress it?”
“Worse case scenario, it takes over, he can’t take it, his brain shuts down. But that’s if he doesn’t give up first”
“He dies? Shit, Okay, okay and best case?” He inhaled deeply.
“It takes over, it leads his life for him until he goes mad.” He paused. “Then his brain shuts down.”
“That’s exactly the same just worded differently.”
“It’s exactly the same apart from one takes longer.”
“I am still here, and I can hear you.”
Jathan turned to Alex quickly “Shut it, you don’t get a say in this after you didn’t listen the first time.” He turned back to Theo. “So what do we do?” (First draft)
18) What is your favourite fact about your OC?
“I think the scars showed that you survived, you fought and you won. They show you were brave, that you’re stronger than you think. You got these scars so Haylan and Leo didn’t get any. That’s incredibly brave.You’re incredible…. bly brave.”
Alex looked back up and saw tears running down his face. He lunged forwards awkwardly and hugged him, succeeding in knocking him over. Jathan laughed in between sobs as Alex laid on top of Jathan.
He thinks he is smooth, but boy is he not.
I tag @immzies-adventures-through-books and anyone else who wants to do this because I have been lacking on the writeblr side so I’m not sure who writes anymore and I also tag @phantom-solitaire because they are reading my first book currently so I want to show them more of my baby
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sightofsea ¡ 8 years ago
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this is rly dumb and there is the HUGE chance im going to regret this but ok
basically when i was 15 i wrote an approx. 200k OC doctor who fanfiction featuring a kind of half self insert/half attempt to subvert mary sue comapnion stereotypes named jenna quigley. and ive been thinking about it more lately like the general storyline bc like. idk. n i figured i should write it out.
i should mention this is all 11th doctor era bc i was a huge fan at that time, and it takes place between that time he leaves amy n rory to when he does his farewell tour bc i wanted to try n add some canonical irony that ill get to later
so basically its all narrated from jenna pov as kind of stories she’s telling to the tardis database via recording. why, we don’t know yet. she;s. ok so in the plot she was from our universe n was an AVID fan of the show which like tacky i know but whatever. she starts out 15 and in basically my house and neighborhood (this fic started from a constant daydream i would have of going on adventures w the doctor bc i was a nerdy 15 yo so like. sue me) and there have been a disturbing amount of disappearances in the surrounding area that local police are stuck on. so everyones kinda afraid to go out into their own homes and at one point, jenna is doing something out in her backyard and actually witnesses one of the abductions, but is surprised to see the kidnapper looks like the silence, aka the television show shes been watching. she thinks shes going bonkers. her family leave her alone for the day to go to a thing for one of her siblings and she’s just kind of ruminating on this event when--lo and behold, an officer arrives at her door.
and jenna, she’s very skeptical about this guy. like, given recent events she doesnt trust her own eyes. and the guy is...off. like his badge n credentials, if she concentrates, looks like something else for a flash of a second, and for some reason the figure of him is kind of hazy whenever jenna tries to look directly at him. he is shown to have a quirky, friendly demeanor n jenna figures well, i gotta tell someone about what ive seen, so she invites him in. they have a brief chat n its obvious to the reader that this guy is someone VERY familiar (mostly due to my bad writing at the time) and jenna begins to explain what she saw and how its like this one show she watches, and this guy suddenly becomes very very interested in this before realizing he’s got it all pieced together and asks for jenna’s help in navigating the area to find what is, ultimately, a silence space ship.
jenna agrees and over time realizes this guy is most definitely connected to something in the whoniverse and originally believes he might be a time agent bc that seems more likely given their number as they travel to the ship. its also revealed that the officer has brought jenna along bc the key thing about what she saw is that she actually remembers the silence and can see past perception filters due to the qualities of alternate universe, slightly alternate brain chemistry and so on. its not exactly perfect--she can’t get through perception filters rly, especially good ones--but its enough to know something is wrong n remember certain things others from the dw universe might not be able to like the actual silence aliens themselves.
anyway they make their way to the ship, which has come through a massive tear in reality that the officer came through. in the fic lore i guess tears are seen as usually benign things meant to leak ideas of universes into other universes as a kind of waste disposal system, and as a side effect create inspiration in those who are close to them. this tear, though, became too big, kind of like a leaky pipe, and actual material was able to get through by keeping a frequency from both ends of the tear as a kind of safety rope. and to maintain their energy as a stranded ship the silence have been using humans as batteries. i put a lot of thought into this, i know.
SO once theyre in the ship the “”officer”” (we know who he is by now lets just face it) and jenna are captured n separated. jenna is held hostage and it is revealed she is a part of a second half of the “silence will fall when the question is asked” prophecy which goes “the unexpected shall follow the guided task” (i loved rhymes) which is further revealed to the be the following: change the timeline and destroy the doctor. and jenna, being jenna, is like “listen u guys i dont even know the guy so uh failed step one i guess”. she’s saved by the “”officer”” in the nick of time through work of faulty electrical work (like? i know its for style but the silence have all those lights on the floor n it is VERY dangerous) so the whole ship is blacked out n she hears the differently pitched speech patterns (”why do u sound all different” “they took my equipment nevermind lets go”) and after doing some work to reverse the frequency and basically make the ship implode back into its original universe they run back to jenna’s home in the dark, seeing as she was out for quite a bit. her family is conveniently not home yet n decided to hang out with some friends. and when she gets back n is finally in the light SURPRISE!!! turns out the officer was the doctor all along in disguise from the silence using a perception filter. 15 year old me was a literary genius.
n u might think hannah this is rly long is it done now and of course it isnt!! that was just the intro!! after the initial shock jenna kind of parses what era the doctor is from, which is pre-silencio but after finding out about it n in that 200 yr stretch that was never rly shown. and jenna’s like, a whole season ahead of him basically and knows all this stuff and is trying to engage with this guy she’s a huge fan of without like accidentally spilling the beans on his future. she sits him down to explain the whole tv show thing n lets him watch an episode while she goes to her room to pack like clothes n her laptop because its not every day the doctor just flies in and she’s 15 so shes like hellz yeah im gonna be a COMPANION not even THINKING of the consequences in terms of the multiverse, the prophecy and her family (she does leave a note but its self centered n kinda lame tbh just like be back whenever). afterwards she walks the doctor back to the tardis and is like so where we gonna go n the doctor looks at her like jenna you are a literal child im not taking you anywhere and jenna though some MASTERY of writing that was basically hey look over there! and doing it anyway sneaks into the tardis when the doctor isnt looking n becomes his stowaway.
for the next few weeks she just kind of chills in the tardis with this fear that the doctor will immediately bring her back home so might as well have fun and kinda sneaks around him and keeps couch hopping from room to room. the tardis does not like her one bit due to the whole different universe funky energies thing (and this was pre-clara and i really wanted to see a companion the tardis didnt like so) and has multiple conversations with it via the interface hologram which meant i could write cameos for classic companions and write the tardis as a character bc i was a nerd.
SO after weeks of casually avoiding the doctor eventually she gets caught by him and hes not happy about it so shes like well ok then send me home n then she gets the real kicker which is the tears all mended up. after the material was put back in place it went back to being benign n too small for anything to travel between. so jenna basically stuck in this foreign universe with a very slim chance of returning back to her old life and her family and friends and she mistakes the doctors anger at the situation for anger at her so shes like basically im all alone here oh god n has a crisis n has a dramatic run off into the bowels of the tardis hallways
eventually the doctor finds her and they bond over being kind of the last of their kind in a way and he takes a kind of fatherly role and is like well youre already here and im miserable on my own so why dont we two birds one stone it n just go on adventures for the time being and takes a kind of fatherly platonic role with jenna bc i was sick of seeing companions hook up with the doctor and was confused as to why they wanted to hook up with him (spoiler alert: huge lesbian)
so they set off on their adventures. the first one was about the doctor and jenna accidentally boarding a ship of genetically engineered soldiers called evos being shipped off to a galactic war and finding out some of them had rebelled and had been camping out in the ships underbelly. they had no mouths but were able to communicate via sign language n empath touch powers of transferable memories. the captain was a bitch who didnt see the evos as living things n eventually in a stand off either offered them a chance for the other, still podded evos to live and for them all to live a horrible life or have the podded evos be ejected into space in return for them to have a chance to fight for their freedom. the choice ended up coming down to jenna, somehow, i think, and she chose freedom and cost the lives of like 200 evos but were able to get the ones they were able to save (about, like, 100 i think) to safety and create their own civilization away from harm on a distant planet and their success and triumph to live their own lives i guess canceled out the fact that jenna played a part in the deaths of 200 beings. it was. i dont even know 
the next “episode” after a brief interlude of less impactful adventures and discussing mortality was a sherlock crossover episode that im too embarrassed to go into detail about but did reveal jenna’s newly formed abandonment issues due to her stranded in a strange universe situation and the fact she had a self harm problem that, surprise, mirrored mine. her n the doctor went on some more adventures over the next few months that were mentioned in passing. it should be noted that this first “act” i guess takes place over a solid year
the next episode featured river song bc i was gay for her without knowing it and i had just learned about easter island in history class and i decided to expand on one of the adventures said in passing during the series to kind of root my fic in canon bc i was a smarmy bitch. it involved being perceived as gods and the silence and using the flesh as a means of luring villagers to be used as human batteries and also putting a percetion filter on the ship so what was actually a crater was perceived to be a mountain. through this episode we saw the doctor again facing his own mortality, river sitting jenna down after a series of events pieced together her abandonment issues n harm problem n being like you cant rely on the doctor for this alone trust me i know its fun but when it starts ending it wont be. jenna gets kidnapped again by the silence n is reproduced as flesh to try and steer the doctor n river away from saving the day but overcomes that impulse and eventually pulls herself out of it and helps save things.
this episode also imports an important plot device of misplacement, which i shouldve put in earlier if im honest. the basic idea of it, within the fic lore, was that the universe, multiverse, whatever had to compensate for temporal displacement all the time when choices were made, but when big things that would alter history happened--like a giant supposed mountain blowing up 200 years after it had already blew up--it had a fail safe to transport the object causing the harm to the exact place but in a different time where the event would have less of a temporal impact. theres also an important note here where the doctor doesnt recall jenna being with him on their first adventure together. both are setting up the larger plot.
after the deal with the kidnapping and the flesh and all their adventures the doctor becomes kind of protective of jenna because i mean the dude also has abandonment issues like lets be real. so he kind of tones down the danger in fear of jenna dying or getting hurt. i mean, its been a year and theyve kind of become these friends who snark at each other like a family would and its nice that jenna has this person she can trust because she watched the show and like, knows him and knows his tells and calls him out on his bullshit before he can even get started and feels a kind of responsibility for due to the prophecy she was given and the doctor has someone to talk to and someone he also doesnt have to hide from really because she already knows almost everything. theyve been equally protective of each other--jenna keeping the doctor in the dark about the prophecy about her and keeping mum on the fact that she knows he isnt going to die, and the doctor worrying about jenna’s safety and trying not to screw her up like he has past companions to kind of try to atone for his past mistakes and make it up to this girl whose life he kind of unintentionally ruined. ok honestly idk why im getting in depth but i spent. years on this fic you dont understand
so. after a while jenna just kind of calls the doctor out like come on lets at least go somewhere fun and end up spending christmas eve in new york in the forties and befriend this newly single mother and jenna fakes a REALLY BAD accent to get across that her n the doctor are related n poor to gain sympathy. they do all the things she wants like times square and macy’s, where surprise! she sees amy n rory n their son and just kind of like. guides them away from the doctor like guys. this aint ur guy. and it would fuck EVERYTHING up also hi i know your guys’s entire life story, cute kid, etc. they give jenna some advice dealing w the doctor and she tells them that she’ll try her best to make sure he doesnt like, go self hating n all that bullshit n they part ways. her n the doctor meet up again and throughout this whole first part jenna’s been noticing people following her? with like, these weird orange-y eyes. and she thinks like fuck ok this’ll ruin the adventure, maybe theyll leave but they end up starting to go after her and reveal themselves to be a species called the visicheck
after escaping and dumpster diving because the visicheck hunt based on scent, jenna and the doctor start heading towards the single mother’s place for refuge (she had seen their situation n offered a place to spend christmas eve) and on the cab ride over the doctor explains that the visicheck r these ancestors of the family of blood, and basically are lifeless specks that latch onto living things and possess them until they burn them out and move onto the next one. they consume what is the basic energy a thing needs to exist and be alive, and for different species there’s different levels. lets say a dw universe human is ur basic ten on the scale. because of different circumstances in different universes, jenna is basically a 120 on the scale. like, these things could possess her body and use it for centuries to wreck havoc with the kind of energy she holds. and jenna, thinking about the prophecy of changing the timeline and also not wanting to basically be the living dead is like yeah ok fuck this is bad. 
they find some brief refuge in the single mothers apartment for a time and enjoy a lovely christmas eve dinner but eventually the visicheck catch up to them. the doctor escorts the single mother n her kid into a cab to get as far away as possible while jenna is just supposed to keep holed up in the apartment, but things arent so easy and they end up breaking in. she’s able to hit them over the head with a pan n kind of stave them off for a bit and heads for the roof, but is eventually backed into a circle. knowing the visichek can’t possess something that is dead and not wanting to potentially endanger the universe just to keep her life jenna jumps off the building in a dramatic fashion that i wrote to play with the carol of the bells because i thought it was cool, and you know what? it was. it really was.
and so jenna dies
at least for a bit
she wakes up in the tardis, rly confused because like, she died. like she knows she did. and the doctors not speaking n acting all broody and she finally gets the story out of him that after she died (posted as an anonymous person in the newspaper, i should note, and put in an unnamed grave to keep the whole “written in stone” thing in line) he kind of. went off on his own for a bit before rly hating himself for letting jenna die right in front of him and went back to catch and save her before she landed, therefore altering the events as it happened. and jenna is...not happy about this. like, one bit. because, in a twist of fate, because she is both living and dead the universe must compensate by going to misplacement, but jenna can’t fully complete the misplacement “”process”” i guess until she is in the exact location she is misplaced from, only different time and all, and in this case she’s in the tardis which almost always has its shields up, so she can’t even complete that bit. so, as explained, the universe will start the process over whenever the tardis decides to fly off again, and send jenna to a different time within the tardis’s general vicinity.
basically, she’s gonna be stuck hopping around the doctor’s timeline. like, all of it, until she finally meets up with the right doctor who knows her n has been past this point. which could take years for her. and, mind you, the task she was “assigned” in the prophecy was to change the timeline, and as a result destroy the doctor. so this is basically jenna’s worst nightmare, and she finally spills the beans about the prophecy in a fit of anger before trying to say goodbye and being whisked off
and this is where the angst stuff happens
basically, for the next year or so (when i rewrite in my head its two years, makes more sense) jenna is thrown around one end of the universe to the other, trying to stay out of the way of the doctor’s events while also trying to, you know, survive and eat and drink and sleep. she’s basically a homeless vagabond for most of it, and her abandonment issues and self harming kind of escalate. she begins leading a really lonely life, and grows this kind of love/hate relationship with the doctor where she really hopes to see him again but also grows bitter against him for putting him in this situation. she visits companions before their time with the doctor, like donna, by accident and stumbles through meeting them and trying to just keep going. in her loneliness she starts talking to a version of the doctor in her head, which starts taking more and more of a form to her before its a fully grown kind of hallucination she’s created out of loneliness (which was kind of based off of me being a lonely kid and having pretend conversations with characters to simulate human connection which is. sad. i know. really sad. its a lot). 
for a time jenna is stuck with the doctor and martha during the months leading up to human nature/the family of blood, and inadvertently meets martha and gets a job at the school as a fellow maid through helping martha drag the doctor to the place. she figures its the only stability she’ll have for a while and since she was never shown in the show it isnt rly affecting the most important bits of the timeline, and resolves to stay as far away from john smith as she can and just live out her life until the events of the episodes start happening and she’ll vamoose. she adopts an accent to blend in and when she has free time finds the stashed away tardis, which initially does not recognize jenna as a companion until finding archived recordings from the future bc duh its a time machine, which brings the whole pov thing full circle, and interacts with the interface to get answers about her growing questions about the silence and her situation and learns about a device called the cage, which has been alluded to in previous “episodes” only by name, as a great machine created by the silence that is meant to basically make it so that anything inside of it would be erased for existence, past present and future, using energy form the cracks in the universe. this was still at a point in the actual series where we knew nothing so i just kind of went buckwild.
anyways
jenna ends up having to interact with the tenth doctor as john smith once, and kind of aims all of her bitterness towards her future self at him and realizes that isnt fair, apologizes, and has a cathartic moment of finally moving past a grudge with the wrong version of the doctor. eventually the events of the episodes start happening and she vamooses before getting sent off to god knows where again, yippee
eventually through the next year jenna kind of begins to rly lose hope. like, it’s been a year already, she doesn’t know if she can keep living like this. so she makes a deal with herself to wait out until the end of this second year of time travelling vagabonding before she decides to off herself to save herself and the universe the trouble. 
she keeps going through the motions and actually stumbles upon a future, post-silencio doctor, with rory and amy in tow, and in a fit of like oh my god relief she kind of runs up to him and is like i found you, finally, holy shit n the doctor looks at her like im sorry but i dont...know you? like i genuinely dont know who you are. you might have ur timelines all switched up. and jenna knows this isnt true and freaks out and kind of just is like, theres like fifteen days until the deadline, all hope is lost, gonna just completely self destruct n cuts her hair and stops eating, but on the day of the actual deadline she keeps stalling as she zaps from place to place before finally deciding to end how it should end by jumping off a building n she has this heartfelt convo with this imaginary figure thats kept her company all this time
so she makes the journey up this apartment building in this basically abandoned future...chicago, i think? yeah. and you know, is about to do when whaddaya know, a familiar voice is calling out for her. she thinks its just the hallucination but eventually realizes that its actually the doctor, one that knows her, and they have this really heartfelt hug before she punches him square in the face
after the fact is a lot of secret keeping on jenna’s side. she doesnt want to be a burden and just kind of wants things to eventually get back to normal after a period of just resting finally and lies about her time being thrown around the doctors timeline, telling him it was only a few months instead of two years, and hiding the evidence of her self harm and other forms of self destruction to try and get things back to the way they were. the doctor can see through jenna’s bullshit though and over a month of just kind of chilling in the tardis and getting better she eventually tells him and after being pulled into an adventure with alien bees and a prison break and characters very much based off of the captor brothers from homestuck they kind of find their original rhythm
the next adventure was the one where i stopped writing mostly bc the plot absolutely sucked. it was a beach adventure episode, involving aliens and aliens who were mermaids and being stranded on a remote island. also, at the time i was going through a sexuality crisis and decided jenna was gonna go through it too and made her realize she was gay for one of the alien mermaids and totally made out with her. you can see how the plot was failing a bit, and the only thing i dont regret is the whole mermaid makeout thing really. 
the rest of the series from that point on was supposed to go something like this: jenna has to go back to her old high school, except in the dw universe, and finds out she actually doesn’t exist in this universe??? which is weird. the doctor plays teacher and they live in the prop attic of the school investigating a counselor that literally feeds off of emotions until the students are a husk and die. there was going to be a filler where the doctor and jenna start the doctors farewell tour (it is revealed when they finally find each other at the end of the timeline jumping debacle that the doctor has like two years left until silencio happens, with like a hundred years passing between new york n finding jenna) and the doctors mortality is discussed and jenna begins to wonder what happens to her since she isnt at the event or anything going forward, and begins to worry about the prophecy again.
the finale of jenna’s adventures was supposed to go like this: they end up tackling the silence again, only with the help of the cage, after jenna notices the doctor beginning to forget more and more things about her. they get captured and the silence plan to place the doctor in the cage and eradicate him from existence so that the question to be asked never existed to begin with. i hadnt figured out how yet, but basically jenna would finally click everything together and realize it was her destiny to do this, and even had a better chance since it eradicated her from this universe, and she still had a life in another one and could maybe start over and appreciate her family and friends a bit more, and would pull a switcheroo so that she would be put in the cage and slowly eradicated from existence. from that point the silence ship would kind of go haywire from the power being used by the cage and jenna would drag the incapicitated doctor back to the tardis and saying she has to go record something real quick, and then we dont hear from her again.
last scene would be of the doctor, years and years into the future, during one of his alone periods, sifting through the tardis database and happening upon the archived recording files and listening to them, not remembering exactly but living through these events with a person that was there but also never there to begin with, and the last recording being an actual face recording of jenna saying you know, she doesnt regret a minute of it, go out there and have a nice life and dont feel bad for her before saying goodbye and zapping out of existence.
last “scene” i guess would be a fifteen year old jenna, rather than the 18-19 year old we’ve come to know, waking up the day it all started and realizing she accidentally napped through the whole day when her parents wake her up. it seems apparent she doesn’t remember a thing, but her parents say something offhand that wouldve been a prolific line and she has a sense of deja vu and hints towards her someday maybe remembering but also having a chance to live a life without the trauma of her life lead in the other universe
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so uh yeah. idk why i decided to write all of this. actually i do i have an essay i have to write but. idk this fic was a huge part of my life for like. a good amount of time and despite its tackiness im actually very proud of it and just wanted to share its story without having anyone ever have the link to it and read it because despite my careful planning i did narrate like a superwholock for most of it and it was REALLY annoyin. but this fic and the character of jenna actually helped me work through a lot of my own bullshit and im still kind of in love with it. and in the years to come actually m*ffat fucking used these plot points like the tardis hating the companion n the doctor forgetting about a companion like years after i wrote this shit but i think i wrapped up the cracks in the universe n silence thing pretty fucking well so uh. petition for fifteen year old me to rewrite the last half of season 6 i guess. anyway its 2 in the morning and i just wrote honest to god a full 5,000 words about my doctor who oc fanfiction so uh. yeah. fuck.
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