#putting it in da tags !!!!! so that ppl know!!!!!!!

[ficyorick]

bad ending bonus material - ch 3.5

good morning bad enders!!!!!!! as i mentioned an ao3, i have to skip this weeks update bc im on a work trip BUT in preparation for this break i wrote a little bit of bonus material :) it's canon within the world of BE, takes place after chapter 3. specifically it's the morning after the, erm, drink sesh. it's from homelander's POV and it is also his first time interacting with kessler :^) except he doesnt know. that its kessler. hoho. 3k words, trigger warnings would be emetophobia + extensive suicide discussion. and everything else attached to bad ending already

Waking up basically clinging to a toilet had to be a new low for him, even in this new life of lows he was currently living. Homelander blinked sluggishly, his eyes rolling from one side to the other before his eyelids drooped again. His legs felt numb after having supported his slumped, half-sitting pose for God knows how long. A deep ache had settled in his knees, a dull burn that already felt like one of those lingering pains he would have to deal with for a while.

His mouth tasted vile, like a combination of every unpleasant flavor he could think of, mashed together and spread all over his tongue in a thick film.

He didn't want to move, but he had to. With a soft grunt, Homelander finally pushed himself away from the bowl, slumped lower on his thighs, and opened his eyes again. The visual onslaught of things and objects merely existing around him made him regret that decision immediately. He pressed both palms to his face with another exhausted noise—an unfamiliar sensation of a dull, pounding pain bloomed behind his eyes. 

For a brief second, he wondered if Butcher had finally done it. Poisoned him and left him to die on a bathroom floor. In a way, that would have been more dignified than having to live with the fact that he was having the first hangover of his life.

Jesus, why would anyone put themselves through that willingly? He'd heard stories about the concept and always just smiled politely at the silly limits others had to live with. Madelyn always got insanely irritable if she had too much wine at a party—but at least she was fun and bubbly the night before. Homelander didn’t feel particularly fun and bubbly last night. He swallowed; his sore throat protested sharply. Shifting a little, he made an attempt to fix his uncomfortable position, and for some reason, his entire body let out a rustling noise.

Right. He removed his hands, feeling the stale bathroom air sting his already wet eyes. The bootleg Homelander costume was still clinging to him, still so embarrassingly cheap and—disgusting. There was no other way to describe it. It was just disgusting to him. He hated it. The only thought he could formulate on the topic was the need to rip it off—maybe alongside his skin.

He was going to take it off. He had to take it off. While Butcher wasn't here. He'd rather be naked than continue to wear this insult. Homelander tugged at the collar, expecting to be able to rip it like tissue paper, but the plastic only stretched under his pull.

"Fuck…" he wheezed, a little pathetic note in his voice. Climbing to his knees, he tried to tug at it with both hands—but just like he couldn't manage to cause even a little bit of pain to Butcher the night before, he couldn't even tear this thing apart. Something lurched violently inside him again, and he swayed on his knees, shocked by the sudden twist in his guts. Then he launched himself at the toilet in front of him, another wave of bile forcing its way up his throat.

Disgusting. Disgusting. Disgusting. Every part of his body—from the shiny plastic wrap on his skin to the foam on his thighs and now his insides—another wave of vomit shoved itself up, fighting him. But he couldn't bear down and stop it, just like he couldn't rip cheap fabric apart, just like he couldn't even choke anyone to death anymore. Just like he couldn't stop Butcher from picking him up like he weighed nothing at all. He was just cheap foam, all over, inside too. Cheap foam soaked in vomit, sweat, and tears.

And he used to be marble.

Another strained noise, hot liquid squeezing itself out of his stomach and up his throat. He tried to relax, tried to just stop thinking about it like Butcher had instructed him yesterday—but it felt wrong. He was supposed to be calling the shots here, but now he was out of control, at the mercy of this body that was never going to feel like his body again.

He glared up, his eyes red-rimmed and wet. Butcher did this to him. And now he wasn't even fucking here. He took whatever he wanted last night and left him here.

Homelander shuddered violently as he finally managed to catch his breath between the waves of nausea. He gripped the toilet seat, managing to furrow his brows despite the utter exhaustion he felt. Picked him up, touched him wherever he wanted, and now he wasn't even here. Wanted a spectacle, but then he wasn't even fucking watching. What was the point? One final spit down the toilet, and Homelander pushed himself away, wiping his face on the rustling costume.

His mouth tasted even worse now. He sniffed again, doing his best to ignore another twisting sensation in his stomach. His shaking hand reached out to press the little handle, flushing the toilet. Fuck. He still had to free himself from the costume, and he just had to hope this attempt wouldn't trigger another fit of nausea.

The door to the bathroom creaked open. Homelander froze, his hands pausing an inch away from the plastic collar of the sick joke he was wearing.

Butcher was standing in the doorframe, watching him with mild interest. Like he didn't expect to still see him down there, or maybe see him at all. Like it was overall kind of silly that Homelander was here.

His dark eyes swept around the bathroom. Then he let out an unsurprised grunt.

"There it is." He approached the bathroom sink, picking something up. Homelander squinted his eyes just a tiny bit, too surprised by his sudden arrival to react properly—not that he knew what that reaction should have been. Butcher helpfully held up the object in his hand, letting him see it better. "Left you in here with a knife. Can you believe that? Untied, too."

He laughed, a weird sort of laugh.

Homelander felt his lips part, a question he wanted to ask but couldn’t even think how to begin formulating. Butcher didn’t give him time to think about it; he just stepped closer, and embarrassingly, Homelander found himself tensing up.

"You didn’t even notice, huh?" Butcher waved the knife in his hand, giving it a tiny, playful wiggle. "Didn’t notice a little gift?"

Homelander debated saying he was too busy puking his guts out after Butcher pumped him full of booze against his will—but he could save that remark for the time when there wasn't a sharp blade in Butcher's hand, right above him. Sure, all of that made him angry. But not angry enough to deal with any new cuts on his body. His already exhausted stomach protested weakly at the mere possibility of seeing his own blood.

"I wonder what you would have done with it if you knew," Butcher mused, now toying with the blade, slowly moving it from one hand to the other. It looked like he was clapping with it—just without a noise. Lazily applauding the crumpled-up man before him. "Slice your wrists?"

Homelander just blinked up at him. Wetly.

"In case you get another chance to do that—" Butcher was suddenly squatting down right in front of him, moving fast. Too fast for his usual worn-out, exhausted pace. Homelander twitched, leaving his dignity behind in the toilet bowl, and pushed himself away until his back hit the bathtub.

"Don't touch me." He tried to snarl, but all he managed was a hoarse croak.

"Am I fucking touching you? C'mon, I have a lesson for you." Butcher laughed again, the same kind of laughter he couldn't categorize. He knew the safe laughs; he knew the dangerous ones—but he didn't know what this one meant. It just felt—mean, as childish as it sounded in Homelander's head. "Pay attention."

Butcher rolled up a sleeve of his dark coat. Homelander only now noticed he seemed ready to leave—his combat boots on, the car keys jingling somewhere in his pocket. No, he couldn't afford to get distracted by little details like that. Not with a knife so close in his personal space. He forced himself to focus on Butcher's actions. The other man seemed invigorated, a complete opposite of his usual sluggish pace. Or maybe he was still giddy about what he'd done to him the night before. Butcher finished rolling up the sleeve, revealing the pale underside of his arm.

He grinned at Homelander.

Then he pressed the tip of the knife to the little dip of skin underneath his palm. Homelander blinked slowly at the bead of black ink that bubbled up to the surface. It swelled, then lazily rolled down to one side. Butcher's grin only got wider, black gums and white teeth.

And then he dug deep and pulled the knife toward himself.

Homelander felt his eyes open wide, not sure why. Maybe surprise, maybe longing. He hadn't seen blood that belonged to anyone else but him in a while.

The knife went up to the inner side of his elbow, a thick line of black opening underneath the slicing motion. The sweet-sick rotting scent made Homelander's stomach twist yet again. He stared up at Butcher, attempting to find his eyes—and maybe an explanation behind the self-mauling. 

The explanation came immediately in the form of another low chuckle: "It's down the road, not across the street. You ever heard of that saying?" 

Homelander just wordlessly shook his head. 

"Ahhh, 'course you haven't. Never had to pay attention to that sort of stuff before, right?" Butcher laughed again, an easy sound, making his shoulders shake a little and making the blood ooze out of his opened wound like thick icing drops. "But you talk a big game about wanting to die and you don't even know the basics."

The cut in Butcher's forearm was sealing itself already, brimming with movement underneath his skin. It looked like there were worms nestling in it, disturbed by the light that just reached them and quickly sealing the wound closed. In just a few seconds, there was no trace of it left, save for the few black streaks of blood following gravity down.

"But hey, now you know." Butcher rolled down his sleeve, not bothering to wipe off the ink on his skin. He found Homelander's gaze, the dark and amused eyes meeting his cautious stare. "So next time you find a knife—" He held it up in front of his face. Homelander leaned back, but the wet blade followed, stopping just an inch away from the tip of his nose. His eyes had to strain to focus on the sharp, fine end of it. "—you'll know what to do, right?"

Again, his stomach lurched, but this time no hot bile flooded his mouth. It was just a cold, numbing sensation; his heart sank to follow it down.

"You're—" Homelander finally managed to find his words again. 

"—sick, deranged," Butcher finished for him. He sounded—off. Like there was a mismatch between his voice and his words, two puzzle pieces being smashed together despite not fitting. He sounded so weird that it was setting off an instinct in Homelander's brain he didn't even know he possessed. Butcher continued, clearly unaware of his own discordance: "I know. You're like a broken fucking record."

He was standing up now, cleaning the knife on the side of his coat and tucking it into his back pocket. Homelander didn't relax, remaining pressed against the bathtub.

A few days into his captivity, he told himself that all of this was just a matter of getting used to it. He was going to adjust, and then he could start thinking about how to get out (in any way possible). But day after day, Butcher created a brand-new version of the Bad Room, leaving no space for adaptation. All he could do was endure, endure, endure.

He was getting sick of it. If there was a breaking point to all of this, he felt like it was on the horizon. Maybe then Butcher would move on, at the very least. 

Move on to Ryan, he reminded himself. And curled his fingers into tight fists pressed against the floor. Jesus, the kid didn't even know what his own dad was going through—and he probably wouldn't even care. Homelander could easily imagine Ryan getting jealous of the fact that his dad got to hang out with Butcher in a cool cabin and bemoaning the fact that he didn't get invited. Butcher could do no wrong—and Homelander was the bad guy in any scenario, no matter what.

The breaking point on the horizon seemed so much closer all of a sudden. The breaking point next door, maybe. 

The bathroom was quiet while Homelander busied himself with torturing himself with his thoughts, no outside help necessary. Butcher was clearly thinking something through as well as he stared at him in silence, one eyebrow raised. And then he just asked: "What could possibly be so interesting about you? Especially now?"

Homelander scoffed. He glared up: "I don't know, you tell me. You seemed plenty interested last night."

Butcher smiled, a hint of respect in his eyes now that he finally bit back. And an absolute lack of shame, despite the previous events, despite the brief panic in his eyes before he abandoned him in this bathroom. He acted as if nothing happened, as if this morning came to someone else than the two of them. Butcher just casually nodded at him, pointing at the door behind him:

"Get up. Take that clown shit off. Put on some normal clothes.” 

Homelander felt his entire face burn. He wanted to rip off Butcher's hand, specifically the one that was on his back last night. And feed it to him. Just shove it down his throat until he swallowed or choked on it, no real preference. Anything that ended with him twitching and gurgling on the bathroom floor, legs kicking uselessly as he stood over him, watching him die.

"C'mon man." Butcher gestured at him again, urging him to get moving like he was livestock. "You look like a fucking bachelorette party attraction. A cheap one too, they should put you on a Vegas party bus."

Homelander stared at him and let out a little desperate laugh. If all of this was just a joke to Butcher, he might as well join in on it. Then he got up, ready to do whatever was going to make Butcher leave the cabin faster. His captor smiled pleasantly, another expression he'd never seen him make, and then he ushered Homelander into the main room of the cabin. He followed (like livestock).

"Where are your normal clothes?" Butcher glanced back at him.

Homelander just shrugged. He wouldn't call them normal; he found them insulting as well. But he would take the fucking Jimmy Buffet shirt over wearing this fucking parody of who he used to be.

"So helpful. Heel." Butcher pointed at him, the gesture nonchalant and casual. Homelander balked. Then decided he was too tired to react. He just waited for Butcher to look through a bunch of drawers and boxes until he returned with the t-shirt and everything else. And zip-ties, of course. 

"Get dressed. I gotta get your carrier ready." Butcher pushed the cotton bundle into his arms and then sighed, as if he was being made to do this unimaginably boring and awkward chore of giving him clothes and pushing a few bottles of water between the bars of the cage while Homelander stripped without a word.

It turned out it was much easier to get out of the costume by the intended way of using the zipper instead of ripping it apart. He had to abandon the idea of destroying it—because that was something he didn't get to do anymore. He didn't get to kill, he didn't get to hurt, he didn't get to rip. He didn't get to stop, he didn't get to defend himself. There was nothing left for him, except getting through it.

Butcher thankfully didn't treat him to another sarcastic comment as he changed into his usual prisoner clothes. Didn't move any closer, either. He approached only when Homelander was fully clothed, zip-ties ready to go. Homelander just sighed through his nose and formed the usual X with his wrists. Butcher rewarded him with another languid smile, securing the loop around them.

He kicked the door to the cage open. "In you go. Daddy will be back in a few days."

Homelander went in, just like he would go into the oven, into the Bad Room, onto that Vought debut stage. Butcher continued to smile as he watched him settle on the floor in the usual sleeping spot. He followed right after, a new set of zip-ties to go around his ankles. Homelander couldn't withhold a scowl; he was hoping he would've forgotten about the bottom pair as well.

Butcher read his face perfectly and mocked him with a little pout: "Wouldn't want to spoil you. I know how it is—I give you a finger, you take a hand." 

God forbid he got to piss standing up instead of kneeling in front of the bucket. But Homelander didn't say that—yet another strategic decision on his part. Butcher secured the last loop of plastic around his limbs but didn't get up just yet, squatting in front of him—a repeat of the mere moments ago in the bathroom. Homelander stilled, protectively.

Butcher pulled out the familiar back pocket knife, staring at it like he was seeing it for the first time all over again.

"I should leave this with you," he mused, suddenly completely fascinated by his new idea. Butcher glanced at him, then at the knife, then at him again—considering.

Homelander looked at the blade as well. For some reason, he didn't even want to imagine its weight in his hand.

"It would be kinda funny, right?" Butcher asked him. "If I did that."

"Hilarious." Homelander muttered, dropping his gaze to a random spot on the floor. 

"Yeah." Butcher agreed by laughing his new, annoying laugh. But then he hid the knife in his pocket yet again and gave him a little sarcastic salute before locking the cage door and hanging the keys back on the wall. "You know where the bucket is. In case you need to throw up again."

Homelander didn't bother acknowledging him.

"See ya, Vought boy." Butcher threw one last goodbye over his shoulder. 

Homelander just sighed as the door to the cabin opened and closed, at least two pairs of locks clicking behind Butcher. 

"Fuck." He murmured, his palms covering his face, lips brushing against the fresh new zip-ties. Another few more empty, mind-numbing days.

At least this time, he was relieved to be left alone.

[danielnelsen]

the 'talktables' in dao and da2 are the files containing all the text ever used in the game and are typically separated into two talktables per module (in which a module is like.. the base game or a specific dlc): one in the 'module' data folder and the other in the 'core' data folder (typically sorted under 'packages', rather than 'module').

the core talktable generally contains asset text (eg, ability, item, and creature names/descriptions, most codex entries, loading screen text, gui buttons and tooltips, error messages, etc). while most modules have a core talktable, the whole idea of the base game's core resources is to be available to any addons.

the module talktable is where all text specifically related to that module is listed (eg, mostly dialogue, but also specific character names, plot item names/descriptions, plot-related codex entries, etc). this is where the vast majority of dlc text is stored (and the vast majority for the base game too; there's a lot more text in dialogue than in menu options).

[peppermint-moss]

✩ peppermint-moss FAQ ✩

will be updated as needed! :-)

What do you use for art/animation?

I’m now using Clip Studio Paint for art/animation; I used to use photoshop for art/frame by frame animation, and premiere (and recently, switching over to da vinci resolve instead) for editing/tweening

Can I commission you?

All my commission info can be found on my website! or my tumblr post here for a quick overview ^^

Can I make a video edit with your art/animation?

✅ You can include my warrior cats/other fandom animations in EDITS as long as you credit me somewhere (@peppermint-moss) ❌ Please DO NOT include my OC/fursona etc. animations in edits. ❌ Just reposting my art/animations (reposting means e.g. posting a part or all of my amv just with different audio and no other editing) is Never Allowed even with credit Please don’t do that. (updated for clarity 11/30/2024) Thank you to everyone who did respect my previous decision of not allowing edits before. (updated 09/27/2023)

What brushes do you use?

Here’s a google drive where you can download the ones I get asked about/use the most! (they should be ok to use in photoshop or csp) I also use this lineart brush from csp assets a lot! I tag asks about this with #brushes btw if you wanna look through there too

Do you have a place where you put all your warrior cat designs?

Nope, But I always tag characters with their name so if you search #CharactersNameHere on this blog you can prob find them if I’ve drawn them before!

Can I draw fanart of your character?

Yes! If you post it online please mention somewhere that the character belongs to/its fanart for peppermint-moss. And tag me if you do (if im on that social media platform lol) I’d love to see it!!

Can I use your art as a pfp/phone background?

Yes! for profile pics just please put in ur bio that it was made by me! Personal n private use like for a phone background is a-okay to just use :)

Are you on [x social media]?

I’m only really active on tumblr+youtube, but here’s a lil list of where else you could find me online. im not aware of anyone impersonating me and i hope no one is blegh but feel free to ask me here if ur unsure!

How do you do/draw [art thing]?

feel free to send these questions in but just keep in mind I’ll only do a lil tutorial answer If I have the energy and feel like i know enough about the art thing!  so as long as you’re cool with that ask away c:

What’s the difference between an AMV, PMV, and MAP?

AMV = Animated Music Video, PMV = Picture Music Video, MAP = Multi Animator Project (aka has multiple ppl working on it, amv/pmvs typically only have 1 person who worked on it) Sometimes i dont rlly know whether to call my vids an AMV or PMV cause they’ll usually be some animated shots some more pmv shots lol (i think they’d technically be more accurately called an animatic ?) but i like calling mine AMVs if theres some kind of frame by frame animation in there as animatics tend to be just in the sketched out phase n my amvs are more finished with colour n stuff

[dio-the-thot-exterminator]

I feel so weird and like I'm doing something wrong?? My Boss manager always being so passive aggressive to me or maybe I'm just not used to ppl being so stupid.

She's like "you NEED to be selling the credit cards more. You know we base your scheduling on how many credit card u sell and if you don't have high numbers then when I start hiring new people..."

HIRING WHO?????? HIRING WHOO???? Id like to see all the people you’re hiring hmm? Where? You can barely keep ur own managers from constantly calling out of work. So ur forced to do 60 hr work weeks every month. I know u ain't talking to me And the other two associates always call out or don't show up so I have to come and cover for them…I KNOW YOU AIN'T TALKING TO ME!??!??!?!?

"Your job is to sell the stuff at the counter and credit cards" ok then why am I sweeping the floors and cleaning the bathrooms and wiping the mirrors and pricing merch and tagging and taking out the trash and dusting and packaging online orders etc?

She like "even tho ur just an associate u NEED to be reading the emails everyday" girl how is knowing what the stores over n Texas and Florida make gon help me 💀 She acts like she got hella people on stand by bitch u dont she tryna lecture telling me I need to do more... All you do is talk on the phone and ask ppl to join ur church.

She be in the corner somewhere on the phone and the customers are like "um...excuse me?" And she ignored them so I gotta help them. Even tho she tasked me with scanning all the fucking items in the store!!

And she literally told me "u need to pay attention more to the customers YOU'RE NOT HERE TO COMPLETE TASKS!!!" AHHHHHHUAHHHHHHHHHHHHH what do you mean???????? Wtf am i here for then??

I'm bout to snap on her fr maybe I'm too combative… she got me pushing around this chart.

She was like complaining "uh make sure you fix that bcuz y'all like to leave it a mess 😒" And I was bout to say "bitch who tf is y'all??????" I KNOW how you are and I know you complain about every lil thing, so whenever i'm pushing that chart around it be looking neat and tidy and I put it back like that too. 

I'm da best employee she has!!! My other managers Jays and Red were literally like “ugh we were so lucky to have found you” and the other day a customer had came back into the store to tell my manager Red what a good job i did helping her find what she needs and being accommodating…The other associates dont do shit.

The college girl who barely works saw a box all messed up, she tried to quickly close the top (didn't work) and then she just walked away. I was like "um aren't u gon fix that?" And she was like "oh yeah right" Like??? And all she does is stand behind da counter. The store be a mess and she be standing.

The phone guy just be on his phone and he be chilling in da back. I know u are not on my case. when u let a whole ass employee stay in the break room his entire shift 💀.

I feel like she get someone sort of power trip off it and she just needs someone to terrorize and she choose me because I'm always there 🥲 (this is the reward i get for being a real ass employee??) 

Boss manager was like "I'm going to start quizzing you guys on what was in the manual  bcuz y'all act like talk forgot, you NEED to be following them!!" Girl still on shit from da "training" videos. Shit she don't even follow…

Yesterday she was like, “go reprice the entire clearance section, make sure you don't leave the chart out!!! Every Time someone walks in the store, put the chart back and greet them!!! (she's standing next to the entrance doing nothing) Well this NEEDS to be done before your shift ends so get it together hurry up!!! And you can actually leave the chart out when u need to ring someone up on the register (she is one the phone and didn't notice someone standing there) OMG WHAT ARE YOU DOING THAT GUY NEEDS HELP!!! HELP HIM!!! GOOOO!!! AND TAKE THE CHART WITH YOU!!!!! OMG OMG STOP STOP LEAVE THE CHART HELP THAT GUY NOWW UGHHHHHHH!!!!!" and she is...standing there doing nothing...he walked up to her first bcuz she was closer…

Its so awkward asking someone to apply for the credit card, bcuz the boss manager expects you to harass every customer (she literally follows them around the store and asking them repeatedly to sign up i counted once…she asked one person 7 times) AND it's not even only the credit card, it's everything in the damn store. AND she only wanted 1 person on the register even when its rlly busy, trying to sell everything in the store…. (you guys only 2 people are allowed in the ENTIRE STORE one associate and one manager bcuz the company wants to be cheap)

It's like the customer places whatever they’re buying down and I have to say “hey this thing is buy one get on half if you're interested, and we have this item on sale, also if you wanted any of these items they’re behind you. Do you want any of this? I can show you the different ones we sell. And we have this too. I can help you pick out the one you need. We also have a credit card, if you want, you'll earn coupons and get a discount off today's purchase :D"

And she wants us, to say that, TO EVERY SINGLE CUSTOMER!! Everyone…

So it gets so awkward asking, especially if they are just buying like one little item. And to make things worse she's so nitpicky about everything like I was asking if they wanted to join our rewards and she was like "ugh if you ask it like that of course they're gonna say no!!!" And then she...didn't give me a way I should ask them…

I just nod and say "okay" whenever she starts ranting. She just get on my nerves a lot but that's also bcuz ima hater. Idk i feel like i do everything correctly and efficiently so idk why my managers are always attacking or complaining about me. 

Can I pleaseeeee have a job where I only need to complete tasks??? Where are those jobs?? Someone point me in the right direction

[nerves-nebula]

i dont usually do tag games but i liked this one, tagged by @alighted-willow

20 questions for writers

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

4 (technically 5 but i abandoned and privated one of them) on my main account and 9 on my smut account

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

37,751 on my main, around 47,000 on the porn account

3. What fandoms do you write for?

uhhhh dimension 20 (not really but it was my first posted fanfic) and tmnt. i write mainly about one other fandom on my smut account tho.

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

well i've only got about 5 of them so i'll just put them in order

caracal carousel

show me already

time to think

a modest comparison

it's my turn on the Being Abusive

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

most of the time. i do it to encourage people to comment, because really really like comments. but if i get a comment i SUPER like i put off answering it because i wanna give it the time it deserves. ironically that means i have yet to respond to some of my favorite comments. oops.

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

idk i think they're all pretty equally angsty. like a lot of them end with the implication that more abuse is going to happen after the story's been concluded, lol.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

definitely Show Me Already, it's the only one that doesn't end with someone feeling like garbage or implying some kind of abuse is about to happen. just an alien brain slug excited to make his boyfriend happy.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

i dont think so? I think someone commented something rude once on one of my smut fics but im not great at telling tone so idk.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

yup, the fucked up kinky kind that could get me harassed by ppl who's opinions i dont care about but who would prolly be really fucking annoying to deal with

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

nah

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

idk

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

not to my knowledge

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

no, that sounds stressful

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

thats like asking what my favorite song is like how da hell should i know they all serve different purposes.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

GOD. on my smut account i have an outline for a 2 chapter fic and i posted the first chapter and never the second one. it haunts me. idk if i WONT do it but it wont get done any time soon.

16. What are your writing strengths?

i can write ok and people like it :)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i dont know enough about writing as an art form to properly assess my weaknesses :(

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

too complex a question for this kind of game. if i were to do it i'd want to get the input of someone who like, actually speaks it or something. but idk. i'd try my best on my own, cuz im unlikely to find someone willing to do that kind of beta reading for me, and though i'd want to compensate them somehow i'm so fuckin broke.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Dimension 20 Starstruck Odyssey. i think it was the first fanfic i ever wrote and posted and i have no idea what drove me to it.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

hhhhhhhhhhh this really depends. I have a lot of fun writing about abuse and since that's what basically all of my fics are about in one way or another it's like. idk. i've re-read my smut ones more often than my non-smut ones tho so uh, maybe one of those.

[theproblemcallednight]

Welcome to my chaos corner!!

I'm night!!! I use any and all pronouns!!! (excluding it/its)

I do art here, but i also reblog and post random shit bc im too lazy to make another blog lmao.

DNI rules apply here, no discrimination and such. also new accs put ur pronouns in ur bio or reblog a random post so ik ur not a bot :))

rest is under the cut :D

Currently rlly into bsd, but here are some other things im into!

bungo stray dogs

link click

genshin impact

avatar the last airbender

mha

hxh

naruto

one piece (kinda?)

jjk

hazbin hotel

hamilton

spy x family

alien stage

(bold is current hyperfixations)

also im reading crime and punishment and its been taking over my brain :)

i do take drawing requests, but i might take a bit to respond bc school :( also if the req is in a fandom i’m not familiar w i’ll take longer bc i research. the reqs r still very welcome tho :)))

Tagging system:

Art: #night does art

Ep reviews: #dahostcallednight

Ramble: #nighttime notes

Asks: #da hw answers

Crime and Punishment notes: #night and punishment

Vent: #night's tea kettle

u guys can ignore my vent posts tbh, i usually post those out of frustration.

if u happen to be my moot, know that i will hog ur notifs and like every post out of love <33

Also moots u can ask for my discord if u want :) Edit: your girl just created an insta so uh this is my @: theproblemcallednight

I like talking to ppl, so feel free to dm me/send asks! i like doing collabs as well, so im open to those! also i'm rlly bad at typing so u guys can call me out on any typos

Some warnings:

my art may contain gore/bright colors and other tw/cw, i usually dont tag those but if u want me to tag smth, lmk!

i do swear and sometimes talk abt heavier topics so don't follow if those things trigger/bother you

i will not draw/look at any nsfw or smut

MY BLOG IS NOT SPOILER FREE - i usually tag major spoilers on posts but reblogs may contain spoilers

again standard DNI rules, jus dont be a dick and we can be friends :D

yay i did the intro!! hope yall have a great day/night!!

[limetimo]

Who You Really Are by Ayolen Severus is a girl and he swaps bodies with Lily via a potions accident; Sev in Lily's body is a Marauder's magnet and Lily in Sev's body says yes to a date with Regulus

Fire In Love by English is my death (Lena013) One Piece's Ace, Sabo and Luffy get reincarnated as Regulus, Lily and Harry and they might not live happily ever after but they do live happily for a little while. Very nice

two coffins for sleep by Anonymous for brightened ♥♥♥ Severus treats Regulus' cave-poisioning

The Unknowable Room by QSWP I'm really interested to know where this is going. Lily and Regulus get stuck in a deathly escape room, escape with their life intact, but the mystery remains to be solved

The Depths of the Abyss by Anonymous ♥♥♥♥♥ Wartime Bartylus my beloved I am soft I am tender

Everything Has Changed (Taylor's version) by Youvebeenfandomed Reg gets yote to 1995

Double date by Arik_readsbooks Pandalily Jegulus doubledate!

You've Got Us by Arik_readsbooks Barty and Evan comfort Regulus when he's a saddo

l'éphémère (the ephemeral) by anouri Ballet dancer Regulus gets hit by James on a motorcycle and his leg is FUCKED and since he hit da bricks and changed his name he has nobody to help him while he recovers and so James takes it on himself and it's slowburn

Of Middle Names and Myth by DefinitelyNotStraight bamf blacks

A (somewhat unconventional) Black Family Getaway by Trex_patronus PoA but Regulus is also a Azkaban escapee ♥♥♥

Grey by Nevermindmeatall182 a lot of Regulus whump, read the tags

After all, he's mine by anauro for otrtbs ♥♥♥♥♥ Bad Romance by Lady Gaga is the BArtylus soundtranck bye

Tempest by pjxckson James loses a bet, models nude for an art class, and has sex with Regulus in the bathroom

someday by justwhatialwayswanted crying screaming throwing up I love them your honour Regulus/Evan

tomorrow by justwhatialwayswanted CRYING SCRAMING THROWING UP I LOVE THEM SO MUCH YOUR HONOUR Regulus legally breaks Barty out of Azkaban

daisy chain lovers by Beyond_the_Grace Regulus fucks off to muggle world and dates petunia evans and the world is a better place and harry grows up loved

we'll be okay, won't we? by bee_the_nerd good vibes good vibes, Jegulily!

birthright and brotherhood by paldogangsaan Sirius runs away. Regulus ensures he can remain free.

The Curse of Juno by LdyBastet Lucius/Severus sexy times but Reg is mentioned so like, good enough

Severus' Garden by Bonfoi severus is looking for a husby amongst his past lovers

Black Out by ThinLine_Archivist Severus and Sirius have sex, and talk about regulus

To Touch by OnceUponaLegend Regulus as a Thing for Severus' hands, gentle smut

We are all Stardust by rrosie_08 Seer REgulus ayo Jegulus to be

hearts are wild creatures by brightened Black bros incest also sad

Unresting Death by brightened Sirius is upsetti

Forced to Stay by w0scarz muggle au, regulus has to stay with sirius after their parents perish in a oh so mysterious fire

𝔻𝔼𝕁𝔸 𝕍𝕌 by august (cassiehowardstherapist), cassiehowardstherapist regulus is put in Sirius' custody rather unexpectedly, enither of them likes it

Domestic Life, Was Never Quite My Style by Ick_arus Regulus holds harry for the first time

Good summer, Mr Thomas? by BennieLee Out of Lake Quite Mad but from Dean Thomas' view. Regulus looked much saner from the outside than from the inside

sun and shadow by justwhatialwayswanted marauders era ppl in percy jackson au, Regulus the son of hades has a c r u s h on Evan teh son on afrodita and what would you say it might be mutual (it'S sooooooo mutual Regulus is just oblivious)

The Way We Hold Hands by moonshinemaker modern AU Jegulus and Wolfstar "You bitch why are you dating my best friend/brother" we do love to see it

leo by swirlees Regulus survives and becomes a Creatures profesor

supernova by swirlees Creatures professor Regulus Black would like his estranged brother to stop being a bitch and get caught finally. Also hi hello what a good big black doggo yes

A Full Guide To Gardening For Amateurs by aphrsditea James is bipolar and ADHD and Sirius is in AFRICA and James for got to take his pills... quite a few days in row... and his flowers are dying... but his new mysterious mean but pretty neighbour Regulus has really nice plants so maybe he'll help James save his? I devoured this like, in a day

A Way Out by Anonymous a comics! Peter and Regulus the boyfriedns ♥♥♥ meet up to discuss what to do now that they know about horcruxes.

La Sylphide by pjxckson Ballet dancer regulus is so ♥ jegulus

The First of Many by zeddmarker JEgulily dating! Regulily got together first and i like that

Fated to Fall by ouzell soulamates au jegulus

the world i close my eyes to see by tonberrys blind regulus, he gets around

Unmanageable Mischief Podcast by jeepcharlie modern hogwarts podcast!

where the ice burns by jelenaRusso Regulus in Azkaban huhueheehhe ♥♥♥

Bound By Strings by moonyfest the wallout of war in au where regulus was a spy (read the first part first it'll make more sense) Jegulus and marylily

The Consequences Of Our Actions by Dancersock for Booktopus Jegulily domestic fluff!

All the things you want me to do by Samunderthelights Regulus gets drunk and ends up in Jily's bedroom. They might want more than just sex

Dark Red by veriableflowers Jegulily smut but with a lot of emotions

Unexpected turn of events by Morriguns_box James and Regulus semi-accidentally walk in on Lily domming Severus, they both realise they're kinda into that. Endgame Lily/Reg and James/Severus. James POV

Made Real by Maeglin_Yedi Lily fucked up. I don't know how to tell you this girl but PERHAPS the solution to your husband being hit with an infertility curse is NOT designing a magic ring that will trap you until you have sex with the person you're trapped with. Oh how the tables turn, dead dove do not eat

Snakeface by Mr_Customs_Man Marauders pull a prank, it gets out of the hand in unexpected ways, Severus/Regulus and Severus/James

[gurorori]

no but like. it had genuinely never occured to my dumb (perisex, singlet) ass that transfem could literally just mean. trans+fem😭😭 goddddd i feel silly :(

OH!! tumblr did a thing where the only tag of yrs it shown on dat post was 'huh...' i jus reloaded n it now shows da full thing haha n_n

i wud never say it Inherently 2 do with bein inttrsex or a system, altho those factors Can complicate yr gender presentation & feelings towards it, a lot....! nawt 2 hog da blanket again but jus like i joked earlier bein inttrsex at least in my experience has been basically like puttin E & T togethr n watchin which one wins.... ik presentation is a conscious thing but really ive been both transmasc n transfem longterm cuz not only is it hard 2 consistently pass as Jus One, it also doesn feel appealing, cuz i am a girlboy afte rall :]

so like.. don say yr dum! the terms r definitely needed, but they r misappropriated on such a large scale its kinda hard 2 remind ppl dat naww transmasc=/=trans person who was afab, or even transmasc=/=trans man, how its most often used.. :/

jus like ya said, ye, trans[ ] jus means transitionin 2 an [ ] presentation. i *can* understan why ppl conflate tmasc w ALL!!! trans men/afab trans ppl & tfeem w ALLL!!!! tgirIs/amab trans ppl but it leaves out a huge amnt of ppl - gnc ppl come 2 mind (like when i kept forcin myself 2 identify w transmasculinity cuz well i id as a guy too so TransMasculine is my word rite? but it feels shitty cuz rn, we put in a Lotta effort 2 present n pass entirely feminine), nawt 2 mention it creates yet another binary, we love those (as 90% of ppl don even KNOW ab tneu or look at ya crazy when ya say it, cuz they cant visualise it. lawl)

[apoptoses]

DA here and I just wanna say A FEW THINGS 💭

First of all I hope you're feeling better now! Read about you having a horrid week and my hear broke for you. Sending nothing but hugs, horses, kind words and the sweetest summer breeze your way🫂

Onto smuttier thoughts, I read the final chapter of Come Get Your Knife and I'm IN AWE of you as usual. Perfect ending to a perfect story. The pool scene was incredible and it reminded me of those pictures of people taking their very old dogs with arthritis for a swim and just holding them in the water while they have the most peaceful, trusting, loving expressions in their faces. That was Armand with his boy right there 🥹

Armand finally doing for Daniel what Marius couldn't do for him was nothing short of a healing experience. Also some of the best smut out there 🥵 The mirror, Armand coating his fingers with his blood and and putting them in Daniel's mouth 🥵🥵🥵, "faking" a real human orgasm and smearing Daniel's come on his own cock jfc. She NEVER misses.

My favorite bit: “Did you know there’s a rare songbird, and when people eat it they cover their faces with a cloth so as to hide the shame of their pleasure from God?” Armand murmured into Daniel’s back, voice just loud enough to be heard over the little wet gasps he dragged from Daniel every time he rolled his hips. “I should cover your face, Daniel. I should hide you from God so that he doesn’t see the pleasure you take in being fucked by a dead man.” INSANITY!!!! Also was this a Succession/Tomgreg reference (yk that scene at the restaurant) or am I just That person now? 😭 perfection either way.

Finally, I read your last ask abt that anon seeing Armand/Daniel hate all over town and lmao SO IT WASN'T JUST ME. I mean I'm not doing myself any favors here because I do check their tags constantly. I'm sadly like a rabid hound when it comes to them, sniffing around in search of good food and yeah most of the time the takes are rancid but other times I find one ☝️ good take and some amazing fanart and I tell myself it's all worth it dsfhsjfk. The way some ppl treat their extremely personal headcanons and projections as undeniable canon facts is nuts. Ship and let ship is my motto but damn some of the things I've seen... and I wouldn't blame the show per se, but the massive influx of fans that a mainstream tv show gave to an already existing fandom has been a contributing factor to what we're seeing imo, where very few people actually bother to read the source material (which is okay really, no one actually has to read the books and the show is almost nothing like the books anyway) and then start treating out of context quotes and scenes or headcanons or summaries of events they heard from a friend of a friend of a friend or plain incorrect takes as canon. it's like a bad (horrifyingly bad) game of telephone around here 🥴 wtvr tho it's literally fiction, and not that much of a big deal (someone tell them that tho lmaoo).

xoxo ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ 

Dungeon anon, I wondered where you were ♥ Thank you for the kind words, things (seem to be) getting better.

lmao armand as an arthritic dog floating in the pool. It's accurate though, his old body needed a rest and I needed them to do something cute before the filth began. I feel like he would enjoy swimming, not for any particular reason. It's just a chill activity for him that he can do like any mortal.

listen i just needed them to fuck while daniel was still mortal and i was hellbent on making armand find a way to 'come' in daniel 😂 and tbh it's nastier for him to put daniel's own mess back inside him, daniel probably liked that better than he would anything armand's body could produce were he able to do the deed. it reminds him this is an artificial experience, it's not natural at all (and thus hotter)

and hell YEAH that is a wambsgans reference lmao i knew about orotolans long before succession but tom reminded me of them, and i just really wanted to write armand threatening to cover daniel's face from god (also it feels like something marius may have said to amadeo, and that armand would put his own twist on and later repeat), i couldn't pass up the opportunity.

see i have no courage to check the tags, i only trust what people i know reblog or the content of people who follow me 😂 i don't even wanna know what's out there.

but yeah, people do some WEIRD projecting, there's some weird head canons people insist are book canon fact (like guys daniel never did hard drugs on page in the books, not even once, the blood was his drug of choice lol but some people will go TO THE MAT and fight you about this like book!daniel was baby leo in basketball diaries, prostituting and railing heroin)

and the taking quotes out of context thing is way out of control. it's so easy for someone to screenshot some text on their ibooks app and then write whatever meta they want and then people who haven't read that book take it as gospel and just...it's very frustrating lol even the stuff from the vampire companion gets treated as gospel as that's a book written by FAN, it is FAN META with a few quotes from anne sprinkled in. ramsland calls armand a black hole who doesn't love anything and people take that as fact and just...no lol anne didn't write those words, those are ramsland's interpretation of the first five VC books circa 1991!

i'm lucky that everyone who likes the show who happens to follow me and read my fic has been outrageously nice, so i have no clue what happens in the more tumultuous waters of amc fandom lol but i really hope people give the books themselves a chance, even if only to read their blorbo's chapters because they're good and it's worth knowing the context in which things happened in them!

ANYWAYS DA, the fic you inspired me to write with armand learning dirty talk will be posted tomorrow, i hope you're hyped ♥

xoxo

[wetmithrun]

pol for da ask game 🫵

CHEERING CLAPPING YAYYYYY

first impression: I forgor. 💗 i first watch p3 like at least 2 years ago atp i think. i do not remember. i probably liked him right away though

impression now: sad man i give all my problems to. so sad. putting him in a blender and then giving him a hug and a cigarette and a [REDACTED] or something.

favorite moment: probably when he got revenge on j geil? that was really fucking great. that entire fight was amazing. and then he got all depressed after avdol "died" which was also awesome. and him wishing for selfish things at first then wanting sherry and avdol back.... Boy i love you. youre so problems. and of course, the iconic dio stairs scene... but i also enjoy his silly momence. 💗 tom and jerry cheese

idea for a story: I HAVE. SOOOO MANY. im constantly thinking about him. i rlly want to write about his relationship with jotaro in my head because theyre SOOO PROBLEMS. like post sdc it all goes to shit and it makes me so sad literally i sit there in my bed sniffling because of the things my brain thinks up. i also want to write about him playing a part in jolynes life. URG.

unpopular opinion: DO I HAVE ONE FOR HIM....? i dont really know what other ppl think about him to be honest. uhhh. Hes the main character of part 3. thats my unpop opinion. <3

favorite relationship: ive said it b4 ill say it again him and kakyoin are best friends and so are him and jotaro. THE SILLIES.

favorite headcanon: i have quite a few but i think my favorite is that growing up in his shitty little rural french town he had 3 friends he made a diy garage band with. like fully homemade instruments from washboards and buckets and wires and shit. it sucked. he was on drums. ALSO HE HAS A REALLY SHITTY CAR I HAVE STARTED A TAG DEDICATED TO HIS FUCKED UP SNIFFLING CAR 1 HARD BRAKE AWAY FROM FALLING APART IN THE STREET.

[sulfies]

hi!

very important question, where did u find your naked ezio?

is it an official model or is it fanmade?

also erm *cough* is there a leonardo model out there *cough*

asking for eeeer science?

in any case, thank you for sharing your work!

Its in the game files in Brotherhood, I think they probobly used it in the begginging bath scene (u know the one)

So its offical :3 (I use AC Viewer to get the models, you can use it on all the AC games tho the program does look a bit scary at first glance)

I dont think there is a naked Leonardo model since we never see him naked or shirtless in game (maybe they have a torso under the clothes but it is not likely since even Ezio does not have his modeled except for his fightclub shirtless model) but i do have access to all of Leonardos models old, bruised and young 😘 maybe I could headswap or texture swap with the roman pagan festival people(the half naked ppl) to make him naked since they dont look too buff and would suit Leo's body

Just saying this for the future/incase(not directed at the anon)

I sadly have decided to never share the models I get and edit myself since they do not belong to me actually :'( I have talked to another person who used to share their files when they were in the fandom back in 2015s and have learned from them that people used to take the free files and try to sell them which is definetly a no-no☠️.

I wish I could but once I share a file I will never be able to track where it ends up😞

I did however put some links to peoples models that are still up in my old 3D renders. If you look thru the tag you will find Desmond, Ezio and Altaïr linked and they have way better rigs since the people actually rigged them nicely for easy use. (One account has the whole auditore family tho no leonardo sadly/ u might want to google "character xps" on DA or other sites to see if you can find them. And to put these rigs in blender you need to add a XNlara add on since these models were made for that program)

[nulltune]

Lynn, my deawest wynny....... please recommend me blogs to follow. i am dying.

deawest quinny..... I GOTCHU !!!! ALL MY MUTUALS ARE SUPER WORTH IT 2 FOLLOW TBH (no duh..... why would i follow em otherwise GFJSHF) so honestly i could just list down everyone in my following list but i am is weenie </3 so i'll just @ some ppl instead !! I WOULD TAG SM MORE ACTUALLYYYY but i got hit by a frikkin 50 mentions per post limit 🥹🥹 tunglr hath silenced me.!!! smh.. BUT YEA i've categorized them (in attempt) to make it a lil easier but yes pls check everyone out 🫶

and everyone pls check quinn out too!!! have u ever seen a blog for the yandere trope before?? no?? YA I THOUGHT SO!! IT'S A HELLA UNIQUE CONCEPT IMO ?? ✨️✨️ quinn does it so much justice toooo i'm eh to yandere as a trope but i trust him with it 100% and have fallen in love with everyone on da muselist tbh 😳 -ME WILL SMITH POSING @ PSICHOPOP DOT TUNGLR DOT COM- 100/10 AMAZING WRITER, AMAZING FREN AND I CANNOT RECOMMEND ENOUGH 💖💖💞

and speaking of cannot recommend enough!! here's some blogs i'm heart eyes @ .... 😳🥺💖 FULL DISCLOSURE- i am an out of date binch, i barely know anything abt anything anymore but gahdamn do i love these portrayals!! these r also ppl who i've talked to / interacted at least a widdle bit so ik they r very sweet and easy + fun to talk to <333

ocs that r hella neat!! i am always so damn impressed by them and the amount of thought put to their character + lore 🫶 @knightglow @xfestiviity @unmeinoniwa @zorkaya @phantasmaw @dis--parity @laplacemail @slayersaided @opalscales @necroethes @bellusnymphine @jardinae @lexpape @terestris @aceparagon @holyrisen

solo muse blogs!! i literally dgaf abt most canon charas outside of hakuno but THEY HAVE MADE ME GAF 🥺 this goes for multis too ofc, but ya i rlly luv them!!!! @brawlqueen @lureri @guthalo @poweys @shackld @glasgcw @tanjodos @spangcoles @igniferous @wolvensden @traevaler @luminousglimmer-a @madamhatter

multimuse blogs!!! i am da most indecisive binch but i fr want 2 have hakuno interact with literally everyone on all these muselists tbh 🤧 even if idk anything abt them (tho this is thestandard quo 4 lynn actually), i already Know the mun's writing is just so good that i would love em all the same @stalwartembers @resolutepath @hearttorn @nefezh @minarcana @vitriolec @unmyeoung @doomxdriven @equiilux @autumnstide @knightinsourarmor @2citiez @ofstarsandskies @altaier @heartsealed @wishfell

there's a special fate section here bc that is hakuno's source material after all tho honestly i aCTUALLY DON'T CARE ABT FATE AT ALLLL outside of hakuno ofc <3 but hakuno shall continue to exist in fate bc of my fate mutuals 💖 also i 100% trust their portrayals more than canon FDJSGFJ @tenkoseiensei @darabeatha @caemthe @corrchoigilt @noircisaint @fakcr

AND UHHHHHH anyone i write with is bound 2 be good!!! my promo tag also got a lotta pretty promos from pretty ppl ✨️✨️ idk how to end this properly but if u see this on ur dash then consider this me lovemailing all of my mutuals bc WTF HOW DID U FOLLOW MY CIRCUS OF A BLOG 😭😭❤️💞 TYSM 🥹🫶

[imagineastrology]

Random Astro Notes! 🌙✨💜

*disclaimer* Do NOT steal/ plagarize my work and I regularly scroll through Astrology tags and if I see it, I will be very sad, report your account and manifest snails in your house. 

I’m sad 2night troops so I wrote some stuff,

💜 I saw this on Twitter: If you wear Zodiac Jewelry, wear the sign of your North Node. (Yes, I did just buy a Leo necklace) ;)

💜 Moon in the 11th House suggests someone who can easily detach from their emotions. They can also become numb when they feel hurt. 

💜 Mercury in the 12th House natives need to study alone most of the time. 

💜 If you have Pluto in the 1st House you are unforgettable. People will not forget your energy, yet somehow, they won’t be able to put their finger on what it was that made you unforgettable. 

💜 Aquarius Ascendants are known to have something ‘quirky’ about them. David Bowie, who has this Ascendant, has two different coloured eyes! 

💜 12th House natives know how powerful and intelligent when they are alone. Other groups of people can often throw them off their thought process. If you have an abundance of 12th House energy, it is imperative that you be patient with yourself. You are intelligent and don’t let other’s progress deter you from what you are doing. 

💜 Where the Lilith House is in your chart, is the area of life where you will feel the most rebellious. E.g. Lilith in the 4th House can indicate someone who rebels from their family/family traditions. 

💜 6th House Ceres ppl can often work with animals or study Zoology.

💜 Chiron in 1st House can mean someone who was a victim of bullying. 

💜 If you know someone with their Pluto in the 5th House, they may find their creativity hard to share with others. If this native shows you their creative projects/ creative process, consider yourself lucky af.

💜 Someone with Saturn in the 1st House does not make it easy for people to see their softer side. 

💜 Uranus in the 1st House can be tall. 

💜 Without a doubt, Scorpio moons are the most cynical moon sign I have studied imo.

💜 I believe (and have seen and read multiple times) underdeveloped Cancer and Leo Suns being more confusing than other Sun signs. There is something about this energy that is so sensitive when that they are hurt, they just turn to being vindictive and energy vampires. They may do this in order to cope with these horrible feelings, so they take it out on others to deal with the pain. 

💜 People with a 6th House Moon can find solace in small animals :) 

Das it  ｡･:*:･ﾟ★ ｡･:*:･ﾟ★ ｡･:*:･ﾟ★

[binart]

Hi Bina I love your art so much! You would always drop really good art/life wisdom during streams so I was wondering if you have any tips for ppl like me who don't feel very confident about their art? Sometimes I'll draw something and be like "ah yes my masterpiece oh la la" but then I'll post it and immediately feel a little bit like I'm not good enough to be doing this in the first place. Just shy art gurl tingz 👉👈 Any tips? Anyway I'm so invested in DTOK, can't wait to see what happens next! 💙❤

<333 THANK U!!! yes i have three excellent tips for this

ok so we're not going to pretend that internet validation isn't like.. THE BEST. because it is. yes sure validation from yourself internally should be the only thing we need to rely upon BUT WHO CAN ACTUALLY DO THAT??? not me if strangers don't tell me they like my gay little pictures SAID GAY LITTLE PICTURES DECREASE IN VALUE TO ME.

if you have any friends who you know will reliably gas you up, SHOW THEM YOUR PICTURES FIRST!!! i am a loser shut in with literally only one friend who i regularly show my stuff to, AND THEIR APPROVAL IS LIKE 8X THE SEROTONIN BOOST OF A STRANGER.

nextly, you must learn that People Love Fanart. you don't gotta make Da Vinci level stuff for people to love your fanart either ok. I AM AN EXAMPLE OF THIS. and if you can make a fair amount of it?? HOO BOY YOU'RE IN. YOU'RE GONNA GET THAT VALIDATION AFTER A WHILE. & tag your stuff so people can find it of course B^) so if u have a Piece of Media that you enjoy enough to make art of, DO THAT SHIT!!!

so that's two things you can do. the other thing, though very boring, is to put in the work to increase your technical skill. if you're able to motivate yourself to do this, confidence will come naturally as your skillset increases and you're able to more easily tackle illustrations that would have been much more difficult like a year ago. THIS IS HARD THO. i suggest finding things to get obsessed with so you feel naturally compelled to mAKE ART OF IT, since usually making a bunch of art helps you get better at.. making art. LOL

ANYWAY GOOD LUCK I HOPE YOU GET MUCH VALIDATION!

[executeness]

In which NHS and WWX use their arranged marriage as an excuse for insincere, dramatic courting and everyone else suffers

Starring: @aethersea as hummingbird, @words-writ-in-starlight as Gabriel, and myself as Errant, the bitch in blue

The images are all screenshots from a Skype chat. Transcript below the cut. I’m sorry, I know it’s more accessible without the cut, but I don’t have it in me to put a 2.4K word post on ppl’s dashes.

Note: Found this in my drafts and went why? haven’t I posted this yet? Oh right I was going to Tag It Properly with accents or w/e but uhhhhhh... fuck it!

Errant: NHS and WWX engagement of convenience

hummingbird: now that would be a fun fic

Errant: They're bros, just bros engaged to be married

hummingbird: they're also the two people in this whole show most likely to spend every single night getting drunk and causing merry chaos through every city of every street

hummingbird: it would be the most chaotic marriage in a very long time

Errant: Probably a marriage arranged when they were pretty young and the adults involved still had some illusions about them getting more responsible with age

Gabriel: God, NHS and WWX are engaged and they put on this HUGE performance of swooning into each other's arms every time something goes slightly awry and NHS one time sees a snake and flings himself at WWX like a kid hurling themself at their parent's neck, and everyone is like "well at least this will keep them both Out Of The Way" while LWJ just absolutely drowns in envy.

Errant: And then NHS and WWX are actually in the same room for any significant length of time and the adults are left calculating whether there's any polite respectable way to bow out of the marriage arrangement just to, y'know, keep the buildings of the cultivation world standing

Gabriel: They got tipsy and made out one night in the spirit of experimentation and then they kind of frowned at each other and simultaneously went "well" and decided they would just have nice quiet affairs.  NHS is gay and WWX is bi but like.  It's just.  It's weird.  

hummingbird: as they get older they sometimes contemplate the merit of loud, flamboyant affairs, just for the drama. they have fun scripting some of the fights they'll have about it

Gabriel: WWX uses the engagement as an excuse to call NMJ "da-ge" just like NHS does and on the one hand this is a great marriage, like, politically, it's going to do great things for QingheNie, and it's nice that he's going to marry NHS (Not A Competent Cultivator) to the rising genius of the cultivation world, and it's great that NMJ has a brother to marry off so that he, personally, can focus on the more important issue of not dying of qi deviation any time soon, but also.

ALSO.

This Wei kid is going to drive him fucking insane before they're even married.

Errant: They would be RIDICULOUS if they were engaged and meanwhile the peacock would kill something for Yanli to even draw a little closer to him when startled? To smile at him sometimes and put her hand on his arm? Where are the snakes when JZX wants his fiance to leap into his arms (he ends up leaping behind her anyway)? H o w are NHS and WWX doing this

Gabriel: On the one hand JZX would peel his skin off and jump in vinegar before he ever asked Wei Fucking Wuxian for advice but also hEY WHAT'S YOUR SECRET

Gabriel: (Someday, eventually, LWJ and WWX get married, and NHS shows up to the wedding with the biggest most expensive wagon of gifts he could get his hands on and tells everyone who will listen about how lucky LWJ is and honestly it's a weird vibe, compared to pretty nearly everyone else at this wedding who is only barely convinced that the Yiling Patriarch didn't enchant LWJ into this.)

hummingbird: YES

hummingbird: nhs plays the tragic bereaved ex with absolutely no actual rancor and approximately three dramatic swoons per hour, and this while everyone else is standing around having awkward polite chit chat over canapes

Gabriel: LWJ has come around to NHS with the slow and confused progress of going from "you're going to get to marry the love of my life and I hate your fucking guts on principle but also I'm aware of how unfair that is so I will reserve myself to quiet glares from the sidelines" to "you were one of very few people to maintain even a neutral stance on the love of my life and you seem genuinely sorry he's dead so I guess we're alone in that camp and I should at least consider you an ally" to "you brought the love of my life back to me, and then hit him with a clue-by-four and made him come propose to me and then brought us a large collection of porn for a wedding gift?????" with VERY little in between those three states.

Errant: WWX gives NHS a booklet and gets a dramatic public kiss. JZX assumes it is poetry. It is not poetry. He does not discover this until after gifting Yanli a small booklet of poetry (it is, at best, endearingly bad). He swipes the booklet WWX gave NHS for "inspiration" and not only gets an eyefull of gay porn with no warning whatsoever, but ALSO gets caught by WWX, who goes into dramatics about JZX only liking men and leading on perfect angelic Yanli

Errant: Also NHS and WWX bicker gleefully over who gets to have affairs with whom

Gabriel: "I think Mianmian seems like a gentle lover," NHS muses, three jars of wine in.  "I want her on my list."

"You don't even LIKE women!"

"So????  Mianmian seems great!  I would buy her nice hairpins and we could go dancing!"

hummingbird: wwx decides he wants someone on his list from each sect and they start fighting over mianmian, The Only Sensible Person In The Jin Sect

Errant: I ENDORSE THIS MESSAGE

Errant: EVEN BETTER

hummingbird: mianmian does not hear about this, but jzx does and is conflicted over whether he has to challenge wwx to a duel now

hummingbird: conflicted bc he WANTS to, but he always wants to so he can't tell if this is a reasonable response or not

Errant: ... NHS seems too twink for WWX to call er-gege loudly and in public but I mean. Would that really stop him.

Gabriel: They meet XXC and Song Lan and after they're gone, NHS leans over to WWX and whispers quietly, "So, since he's your shishu, I get dibs on Xiao-daozhang, right?"

"He's a priest, A-Sang!"

"What's your point?"

Gabriel: Counterargument, they BOTH call each other gege and it's making everyone around them insane.

WWX, pouting dramatically: "Nie er-gege, buy me lunch?"

NHS, flinging himself into WWX's arms: "Of course, Wei gege, what's your pleasure?"

JC, so red he could feasibly be mistaken for a lantern: "GREAT NEWS! I'M GOING TO KILL BOTH OF YOU!"

Errant: OH. GOLD STAR TO THE SECT LEADERS FOR MATCHMAKING THE BIGGEST PAIR OF PILLOW PRINCESSES IN THAT GENERATION

Gabriel: I MEAN? PRETTY MUCH?

hummingbird: nhs is constantly buying wwx ridiculous gifts and no one can tell if wwx actually likes having seventeen near-identical lavishly embroidered kimonos in different colors (that he rarely wears, largely bc he doesn't want to get them dirty while training) or if this is some weird elaborate game of chicken they have going

Errant: NHS tries to imply that he'll have an affair with JC if WWX isn't careful. WWX basically falls over laughing and goes YOU'RE WELCOME TO TRY IT DEAR

hummingbird: for like a week nhs takes that as a dare and puts in a valiant effort

hummingbird: wwx spends that week following nhs around and crying out in anguish and woe whenever nhs flirts with jc, dramatically concealing his definitely-not-grinning face behind one of the twenty-three painted fans nhs has given him to date

hummingbird: this is partly so he can watch his brother get increasingly furious and partly so he can step in and rescue nhs when jc inevitably actually loses it

Errant: Obviously the adults have shit gaydar (the boys were just convenient) but who's going to look at them and see right through them like Wow. That's not even slightly going to work as an actual romantic/ sexual relationship

hummingbird: shijie has known from like day 2

hummingbird: jc still has not noticed

hummingbird: he gets deeply offended whenever nhs flirts with other people

hummingbird: lxc, in his position as resident owner of the lan braincell, notices, but doesn't really know how to have a conversation about it with his brother

Gabriel: He resorts to just wingmanning WWX hard and assuming that eventually either LWJ will admit his feelings or WWX will notice his

Gabriel: It. Does not quite work out.

hummingbird: he keeps arranging for wwx and lwj to be placed in the same groups for training groups, only then whenever they get back nhs and wwx run dramatically into each other's arms

Gabriel: NHS takes a while to notice that the only person more viciously angry when he flirts with other people than JC is LWJ but hey listen he wants his fiance to have the best! Maybe if he flirts even harder with everyone under the sun, someday LWJ will be so outraged that he's driven to defend WWX's honor! Wouldn't that be romantic?

Errant: Does he start flirting with LWJ or?

hummingbird: nhs has planned out like eighteen different dramatic fights with lwj over his fiance, trying to figure out the exact right nuance of bowing out with grace and yet still fighting hard enough to show to everyone everywhere that wwx is a catch and lwj is lucky to have him

Errant: WOULD BE GREAT TO SEE HOW LWJ HANDLES ACTUALLY UNWANTED FLIRTING

Gabriel: NHS flirts with LWJ one (1) time, and it's the only time he ever sees WWX actually bothered by it.  It's so jarring to see WWX's sun-bright smile flicker into something mildly pinched and frustrated that NHS drops the act immediately and asks if he's feeling unwell.

hummingbird: yes good

Errant: Okay but: who catches them in an extremely compromising position, maybe in their underrobes, b/c Nie Huaisang was trying to draw a porn position and couldn't figure out whether something was anatomically possible

Gabriel: Oh obviously it's LWJ.  This is the this-universe version of him finding JC, WWX, and NHS drunk and roughhousing, right?

hummingbird: absolutely

hummingbird: he tells Nobody

hummingbird: his brother is worried about him for like a WEEK afterwards, thinks maybe he's caught a cold or something and won't admit it

Gabriel: It's not--it's not against the rules.  It's disgraceful, to be sure, and a clear sign that NHS is not good enough for even such a rampant delinquent as Wei Ying, that he would seduce someone before they were even married, but they're engaged and it's not against the rules and he doesn't understand why he keeps seeing this flash of NHS yanking his hands off WWX's hips like he's been burned and the rumpled half-slipped collar of WWX's undershirt, showing a collarbone and a shoulder and the muscle of his chest and--

hummingbird: omg he goes straight to 'nhs is the real bad influence here'

Gabriel: LWJ is spending time in the cold spring for a different reason than healing, when LXC blithely sends WWX to find him.  He hasn't been able to fucking concentrate on meditating since he saw--this is ridiculous, and offensive to his sensibilities, and a clear indicator that something is wrong with his golden core, so therefore: cold spring.

Errant: First line of defense: sword Second line: Cold spring Third line: panic

hummingbird: wen qing is also one of the people who notices very quickly that this is never going to hold water as a real relationship. she's too busy to really get involved in any of this nonsense, but somehow no matter how many times she explains to wen ning that they're not dating and none of their fights are real, he still ends up roped into their ridiculous break-ups and their even more ridiculous dramatic reconciliations

Gabriel: Wen Ning, sweet kind boy that he is, has been convinced three separate times that they are really genuinely having a permanent falling out, and even if they're not going to get together together he still wants them to be friends, okay, jiejie????

hummingbird: "every goddamn time" wen qing mutters to herself as she finds wen ning once again carrying notes between wwx and nhs in the dead of night. everyone is supposed to be asleep. she was out doing recon for her secret wen tasks, and her baby brother was supposed to be asleep, but instead he's out here catching his death of cold as he runs messages back and forth for these two MORONS

hummingbird: "but jiejie they're not speaking to each other! this is the only way I've gotten them to talk in three days!"

Errant: Consider: NHS has a moment of deviousness and convinces LWJ to spar with WWX so NHS can do "figure studies"

Errant: WWX is under strict instructions to make the positions as compromising as possible

hummingbird: absolutely devastating for all involved

Errant: They're sparring, they're sparring, they're sparring... HOLD THAT POSE. LWJ is basically pinning WWX to a flat surface (vertical or horizontal) they're both breathing hard and the tiniest bit sweaty and at first WWX is joking and laughing (maybe flirting! In front of his betrothed! Shameless!) But then there's one where he's just staring into LWJ's eyes and LWJ completely loses the plot

Gabriel: NHS's sketches of it are uh.  Not Suitable For Public Viewing.

hummingbird: honestly he's not sure he should even show wwx

Gabriel: He and WWX have this in common, the being a good artist, and in this AU LWJ definitely hears NHS offhandedly mention that he wants to get WWX to paint one of his fans, have you seen how lovely his painted flowers are, Lan-xiong?  And then maybe Huaisang could paint it with watercolors!  WWX prefers black and white, anyway, wouldn't that look lovely?  And LWJ can't even begin to define the rush of bitterness that almost blinds him, he just cuts a frigid glare at NHS and sweeps away before he can see the satisfied smirk that spreads over NHS's lips behind him.

hummingbird: oh nice

hummingbird: hmm. how much goading can lwj withstand before he just up and leaves? gets himself an assignment chasing monsters somewhere just so he won't have to look at huaisang's stupid face anymore

Gabriel: Well, after the whole cold pond cave debacle, LWJ can't leave, because he's been given a task, he has to carry the Yin Iron, and WWX is trailing after him (NHS told him to go) and when NHS joins them he can't get rid of him because he's the bane of LWJ's existence but also he is the brother of a sect leader and he could go crying to his brother and make Lan Xichen's life very hard.

[adancefortwo]

PSA for the anti shippers in hotd

so...just because you put "anti" in the tag, doesn't keep it from being in the main tag for a ship or character.

if you actually want to avoid getting into fights on tumblr (tho I know some of you little drama hungry jerks want nothing more than to bait ppl into spats) you need to disrupt the ship/character name in the tags either using * or $ or really anything.

so if you hate daemyra and you aren't a fucking jerk, don't tag "anti daemyra" or "anti-daemyra". instead, tag ur posts as "d*emyra" or "d-emyra" or any variation of that, ie. "anti-da-myra" or "anti d--myr@"