#put under a readmore bc the last one got long lmao

[fagcrisis]

sorry what do you mean your mother's coup. elaborate

this ended up being long as hell so readmore time

so i live in this old fucking apartament building right, turns 120 soon, hasnt really been renovated in 50 years. and our apartament has the attic built in, which wasnt a feature originally and the previous tenant did it himself, badly, meaning weve had a hole in our roof for about 5ish years now that we just have not been able to fix. last november we had a pretty big storm that fucked the hole up even worse and our previous solution of just "put a bucket under it and leave the room" has stopped working because too much water was getting in and my sister had to start sleeping in a different room so safe to say, shit state of affairs

my mum got a contractor to come take a look at it and the dude concluded that its dangerous to be left unfixed and hes gonna have to climb in between the attic walls and the roof bc due to the hole theres a shitton of mold that needs to be cleaned out. overall this wouldve cost us 600k forint thats more than my mum makes in 2 months and i had 9-5 at that point but my shit salary was not gonna fix this. so my mum had a breakdown and decided that well sell the apartament and try moving, which sucks bc when we got this place it was still cheap but since then the housing market has gone to shit and we wouldve had to live in a rental we probably wouldnt have been able to afford. but my mum still called an agent to check the house out, and he told us that theres no way were selling it, because of the big fucking hole, the messed up pipes and bc the building isnt insulated (legally cant be bc its a historical monument lmao. europe)

HOWEVER he also said. since this is an apartament building with 12 flats we have a house representative and we pay *google translate help me* common cost every month, to cover repairs on the house, that we shouldnt have to pay for the repairs, the house should. cause. its the whole houses roof not just our apartaments.

my mum went to the house rep (józsi) to ask about this, and he told her that this isnt true and that he wont pay for the repairs. which made my mum mad and she went and found a lawyer who said the house does have to pay for repairs. but józsi was still like i will not.

so my mum talked to all 12 of our neighbouring flats individually and found out that literally everybody has grievances with this dude. there has been an ENTIRE TREE growing on the roof for years now that we havent been able to get cleaned out, the staircase is borderline life threatening to use, we could technically get authorization for insulating the house but the rep needs to apply and józsi hasnt, one of the gates to the yard is like not working, etc

they ended up calling the first house meeting in years (were supposed to have those every month lol) where they ended up voting to have a new rep, and also to fix our roof. which got fixed by the way, and the mold was also cleaned out

BUT the story doesnt end here bc they still need to vote a new rep in. and my mum found this company who represents apartament buildings professionally and sure itd cost us some money but we pay the common cost anyway, and they have contractors they work with so itd be soooo easy to fix shit in the house. but for some reason some people decided they want this dude instead, who owns one of the flats in the building but does not live here, his insane mother does who hates me. and he DOESNT LIVE HERE the entire problem with józsi was, that he was like not helpful in any way and now they want a guy who doesnt even live here??

ANYWAY TODAY THE PLOT FUCKING THICKENED. because. my mum started looking over the houses finances with 2 of our neighbours one of whom is i think a lesbian but im not sure anyways they found out that józsi has been STEALING MONEY. FROM THE COMMON COST. WHICH IS WHY FUCKALL GOT FIXED IN THE HOUSE!!!!

anyway the coup is still ongoing but i hope u enjoyed my mums tale of intrigue. shes having so much fun w this shes having secret meetings with people to talk about this all day

[perikiro]

just wanted to send a big thank you because i've been following you for a while and noticed that you started using id in alt text. i decided to do the same w/ my drawings lately and your image descriptions have been a huge help for me to understand how to write those! do you have any advice for more people that would like to do the same?

Aaahh thanks so much!! 🥹🩷🩷🩷 I'm really happy they've been helpful for you. I'll put my thoughts under a readmore bc this response got really long omg

To be honest I'm still kind of fumbling around trying to get the hang of it myself jsadjfs.... But the first thing I did was look at how other people write them too, and that definitely helped a lot. It gave me the idea to write stuff like "a digital painting" or "a black and white line drawing" at the start of them, bc I would never have thought to do that myself?? I would have just started with like "character A holding an ice cream" or something lmao. But I think it's really useful to describe what the image actually looks like, as well as the contents of it!

I usually try to keep them on the shorter side. I noticed other people tend to either always write concise ones or super long and detailed ones, and it seems to just be up to personal preference?? But I like it when I can keep them between a few sentences to a small paragraph, because I know most people only spend a few seconds looking at individual posts and I want to keep it easy for people to navigate around my blog without being held up by a super long description. And I know I have a tendency to ramble on for too long if given the opportunity, so I need to hold myself in check lmao.

One last useful tip I picked up somewhere along the way is to always type out any writing that's in the drawing, either in speech bubbles or stuff like words on a character's t-shirt or shop sign in the bg, bc that can help for people with dyslexia and things like that too!

[alivegirlmari]

hii it's the same anon from rose's blog hopping over here because your tags on that mari post are so. yeah. it IS an inevitable car crash she is creating that which destroys her BECAUSE she's so scared it's so!!!! and YESSS there's a REASON why there are only two people she regularly like. makes fun of or snaps at and it's because everyone else will bite back in some way, because they know and she knows that she IS so close to the bottom of that totem pole. it's something she does out of social survival but it's both obvious enough to everyone where her position in the group is that it's kind of futile, and it pisses enough people off that it's probably dooming her further. thank you fellow mari warrior for your service she's so funny but if i think about her too long she makes me sad

HIIII anon hiii sorry for answering this late but please know you can ALWAYS hop into my inbox bc the mari stans need to stick together. it’s hard out here for us AND our girl 💔 this is long as hell so putting it under a readmore :-)

anyways ur last line is soo real. mari reminds me so much of jackie in the sense that they’re literally just sad teen girls!! yes ofc everyone else is too but bc neither really contribute majorly (in both the literal sense of contributing to the group the way nat-as-hunter does, and in the driving the plot sense the way lottie and tai do), their characters feel so much more grounded and real. bc without the possession and dreams and sleepwalking and relationship drama, everything's stripped away and you're just left with a scared teenage girl at the centre, desperate to survive. but mari lives when jackie doesn't bc mari does adapt!! mari moves with the status quo, and mari sides with power. and yet! she doesn't have that power herself! she's shielded by it at times, but she's not holding the shield itself, so ofc it can always be used against her. which is the whole point! nothing she does is enough to save her! mari, to me, feels like a character who barely scrapes by, if that makes sense? or like, a character who is at least never close to being on top. a real 'i submitted the assignment five mins before it was due' beat. the 'i made the cut off, made it into the next round, but ranked in last place' special. aka: she's doomed! she's a car-crash girl!

and sooo true about the futility of snapping at the only two people she can...like who is it helping/hurting, exactly? crystal & misty didn't really give a fuck because they were *secure* in themselves (see: not minding the taste of snackie, wanting to make snackie broth, generally being unapologetic), and also had each other. mari has akilah, which i don't think is enough (esp now that akilah's integrating herself into things, and has been given a reason to get home lol), and mari isn't secure! she's defensive when ben questions the cannibalism, she makes awkward jokes about it, she shot down the broth idea, she clings to whoever has power even when it seems like a sinking ship (insisting on the competition rules when there was a moose to save), she desperately needs a leader. as you said, being mean to crusty - while #valid - is like, 'oh look, i'm not your number one target, look at these two losers, i've got power and status over you two, this makes me (feel) safe'. but mari IS the loser in everyone else but crusty's stories lmao! all she's doing is just making that clearer!! it's not only futile but also like, incredibly short-sighted: what does she think would happen if crystal and misty just stopped existing? who'd be on the bottom then?

so yeah i'm v v v excited to see her maybe get even more bitchy now that crystal's gone, i think (hope) it'll shake her. she's operating on a whole different dimension of fear lmaooo, she's gonna be scared for normal reasons (someone is missing/dead) AND bc she's another notch lower on the totem pole now!! and she'll know it!! the literal only target she has left is misty, who is a) about to be useful and deliver a baby, and b) potentially at her most fragile (not emotionally, just in terms of looking suspicious & her role in the group being less secure bc of it) in the wake of crystal dying. so i wonder how that'll effect their three seconds of shared screentime dskdkfdsdfmf. i think they're really similar honestly, in terms of understanding the power of power, control, status. can a weirdgirl and a hatergirl ever be friends? not in this cabin unfortunately </3 (idk if you've seen it but misty's actress was like 'yeah if crystal hadn't befriended her she probs would've ended up snapping mari's neck' lmao)

idek if this all makes sense im running on 5hrs of sleep but feel free to message me anything about mari nolastname or anyone/anything else whenever!!! ty for sending this ask!!!!

[bountyman]

Name any three things about the rpc that bother you.

the be honest meme || x || accepting

Hum… 

1) Definitely the sort of hive-mind / mob mentality that sometimes rises up in the RPC. I’ve been fortunate to never experience it first-hand, but I’ve seen some roleplayers (genuinely nice ones!) get absolutely hounded by people for small mistakes, slips, things they’ve already apologized for, and even just false rumors. It’s scary how some folks will see cal.lo.ut posts, blindly agree, and then jump on the hate bandwagon.  I think I’ve mentioned this kind of thing before on my blog, but it’s happened enough times that it just sticks out so sorely in my mind. Observations of a few really bad and unfounded cases are the biggest reason why I’m so against call.ou.t / cancel culture. I know some of them are done with good intention, but honestly it just strikes me as childish and I’ve only ever seen maybe 1 instance in almost 10 years where it was ever justified.2) Roleplay groups that clog RP tags with ads, promos, and submissions!! Lord have mercy, I think I’ve blocked more RPGs than po.rn bots. I’m not against RP groups but wowee I can’t scroll through #marvel rp / #dc rp / #disney rp / any big RPC tags without getting flooded with ad after ad from RPGs. I think all the submission and application posts are the most annoying, though. It makes it so hard to find other indie blogs and definitely doesn’t make me want to join their group. 3) This is likely unpopular, but how villains or morally grey muses are treated within the RPC / people trying to equate mun and muse. I only write two bad guys right now and so far I’ve had decent luck with no one trying to police them, but I’ve had experiences in the past where people have tried to tell me that I couldn’t write something because they didn’t agree with it, or they became upset when my villain muse lashed out at theirs. If you’re going to write with a serial killer muse (for instance) or a muse with an aggressive personality… maybe don’t get offended when your muse pushes them and they strike back?

Additionally, it’s just really weird to me what people try to tell writers they can’t write. I’m mostly talking about villains here, but this could be applied to any kind of character. 

For example, there are muns out here getting dragged for writing dark topics like r.ap.e, but no one cares if someone writes about murder or torture? Now, granted, I’d never write a ra.p.e scene. Personally, that makes me extremely uncomfortable, but I also don’t really care if someone else writes it providing that both muns are consenting and it’s properly tagged. Why does one dark topic get a pass, while another equally dark (or in some cases objectively less dark) doesn’t?

You could argue that fiction has an affect on people and, sure, I won’t argue with that. Fiction is powerful. Fiction can change how people think and feel. But censorship is arguably more dangerous and I can’t agree that just because something is dark or taboo means that it shouldn’t be written at all. Fiction is a safe way to explore the dark, the macabre, and the violent, and for some people, it’s a way to cope with the horrible things that have happened in their lives.

A writer shouldn’t have to worry whether or not they need to babysit people or explain why a topic is bad, or worry whether or not the content they’re writing is “too dark”. The reader is responsible for what they view, and if those things truly do tempt them to do bad things, they shouldn’t be on the Internet at all. If someone writing a torture scene makes you want to go torture someone, that is not normal. Get off the Internet and go get help. But don’t blame the writer. And absolutely never assume that whatever is being written equals condoning that thing. Mun never ever necessarily equals muse.

Let villains be villains. Let characters do morally grey or straight up wrong things. It’s always good to write respectfully and to use your own discretion, but… also? This is just tumblr roleplay. No one is out here getting published. No one is preaching to the masses and trying to flip the world on its head by writing something questionable or dark. 

Just let villains be villains. A mun who writes a serial killer (or whatever!) doesn’t make them a serial killer, any more than a mun writing a four-headed platypus makes them a four-headed platypus. 

[shaanks]

Honestly can you just answer all of them because they’re so obscure I’m obsessed with knowing your answers https://at.tumblr.com/z-oros/695414491415003137/1eo6sk6hvtff

Alright you wonderful, beautiful mad lad, let's do this. Just gonna exclude the ones I've already answered so if it jumps around, that's why <3 also after the first few I'm gonna stick this under a readmore so I don't put the longest yeah boy on everyone's dash lmfao

2. lighter or matches?

kinda depends on the application. matches for lighting candles and like, campfires or hearth fires, lighter for things I'm gonna smoke.

5. what color are your eyes?

Hazel! Much more green than brown, with grey flecks and a kinda grey ring around the iris.

6. why did you do that?

m8 I was bored. or out of some kind of pettiness probably.

7. hair-ties or scrunchies?

when my hair was long enough, hair-ties. needed the extra grip bc my hair is super thick.

8. how many water bottles are in your room right now?

two + my hydroflask, all of which are empty atm. need to go downstairs and refill the flask after this aslkdfa

9. which do you prefer, hot coffee or cold coffee?

cold coffee almost always. i used to regularly order iced cappuccino from tim hortons at like 3 AM in freezing weather.

12. what kind of day is it?

It's kinda crappy today, I'm still having some flu shot side effects and there are strange men clomping about in here moving and banging on things. it's friday though, so that's something!

13. when was the last time you ate?

about an hour ago, I had some beef stew and a cup of tea with honey for my throat. :)

14. do you love the smell of earth after it rains?

there are few things I love more. I think rain just makes everything better tbh, saturates the world with beautiful scents and colors.

15. are you a parent? (all answers qualify)

not of any human children, but to my cat Nicki for sure.

16. can you drive?

I sure can, I've been driving since I was 15. c:

17. are you farsighted or nearsighted?

I don't ever remember which it is, nearsighted I think? If anything gets further away than like arm's length it becomes blurry and incomprehensible.

19. imagine we’re at a sleepover, would you paint my nails?

aw bby I'd sure try!! I can't promise they'd be like, salon perfect, but I'd love to paint your nails!

22. what type of person are you?

honestly I have no idea, you might be better equipped to answer that one. i sort of exist and I'm trying my best, that's about the closest to an answer I have for ya.

23. how do you feel about chilly weather?

it's my FAVORITE!!! i'm so excited for the onset of spooky season, fall/early winter is my favorite time of year <3 I just wanna wear my boots and jeans and sweaters without actually sweating.

25. perfume/body spray or lotion?

definitely prefer body spray/perfume, though I've started coming around to lotion in recent years.

26. a scenario that you’ve replayed multiple times?

unfortunately a lot of these are like. arguments i've had or incidents with people that have hurt me. i always think of the best responses or ways that i could have changed the outcome like 6 years after the fact lmao. there's also like...dumb self-indulgent stuff i'm writing where I'll turn a scene or idea over and over in my mind like a rotisserie chicken before (or if) I ever write it.

27. about how many hours of sleep did you get?

last night? like 5ish? my throat is kinda itchy so that always makes it difficult OTL

28. do you wear a mask?

everywhere now, and i may well do it forever. i'm a big fan of public health and also having as much of my face obscured as possible.

29. how do you like your shower water?

either freezing or scalding, no in between. reasonably sure that's some kinda flavor of ND but who knows.

39. do you use lip balm?

yes!! i've got multiple ones but my fave rn is lippe balm by drunk elephant.

43. what’s your take on spicy foods?

I love spicy foods...conceptually. I look at things like tteokbokki and drool everywhere, and I love the idea of a hot and spicy broth that opens you up, but unfortunately I am like. the pastiest person alive and my tongue is really...weird. so i cannot eat most of spicy things OTL

44. you get a free pass to kill anyone, who is it?

i'm always really torn on this bc like. vladimir putin, mitch mcconnell, and jordan peterson have all, in their own ways, done vast and irreparable damage to the world at large, and everyone would be better off without them, but idk how to like. go about parsing which of them is "the worst" if the pass is only for one asldkfjas (i realize i've just created the worst fmk round of all time without really answering you but oh well)

45. can you remember what happened yesterday?

I spent most of yesterday propped up in bed at a weird angle with my cat, I'm not feeling very well this week OTL

46. favorite holiday film?

i'm not really sure honestly. Krampus maybe, or Nightmare Before Christmas? Hocus Pocus maybe. Something spooky regardless of the holiday is the answer basically.

47. what was the last message you sent?

something about one piece to another friend of mine lmfao

48. when did you first try an alcohol beverage?

my biological dad used to give me like, beer and little sips of liquor so that I'd make a face for his friends, so I was like. reeeeeally little, maybe 4? I distinctly remember that being orange liquor and it making me feel like I couldn't breathe, which was apparently very funny for the audience of his buddies.

50. can i tag you in random stuff?

baby of course you can!!! if i don't respond/do the thing just DM me, chances are I saw it and then got distracted and forgot. <33

anyway this was SO SO SWEET of you, I promise I'm not obscure really I'm just a weird boring little gremlin but ILY HONEY <3333 I hope this was at least some kinda interesting for you XDDD

[megatraven]

RE: Number asks--4, 7, 8, 9, 10, 13, 14, 15, 16, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 28, 30, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 40, 41, 42, and 44. (Apologies in advance for the interview dump--and feel free to ask any back to me that you want! XD)

sorry this took a bit! my computer's been crap the last couple of days and answering this on mobile was a no-go :^) (if i already answers some, then i didn't re-answer them here!)

i am putting this under a readmore cause it's a little long, and there is a potentially triggering answer (with TWs on it)

4:Do you drink? - sometimes! not very often tbh, and when i do it's USUALLY just one drink tops

8:Want any tattoos? - YES!! the best tattoo idea i've ever had and desperately want is a tattoo of a grape on my finger tip so that when my fingers prune it becomes a raisin :))

but also i want this symbol tattood on in honor of alex <3:

but also also.... i want a bunch more too :) i want to get a cool sleeve tattoo that travels over my back and down the other arm

10:Want any piercings? - not really, i'm not big on wearing jewelry and the piercings i do have are empty for most of the year

14:Biggest turn offs - physical intimacy that isn't initiated by me. mansplainers. i dont really knwo what else to put here bc i don't necessarily even get turned on LMAO

16:I’ll love you if - this is a hard one because i already love everybody, i love all my little friends and followers here on tumblr dot com

18:Most traumatic experience - (TW: suicidal thoughts (not mine), knives) once when I was younger, i was home with just my older brother and my mom. out of nowhere my mom starts yelling and crying and me and my brother rush over to her and she's so obviously in pain and she's yelling about how her head feels like it wants to explode. (found out later she was having a really terrible migraine). my brother was trying to calm her down and we were trying to figure out what to do. i remember her saying, very clearly, that she wanted to take a knife and stick it through her ears to get the pain to stop. that she wanted to die because it hurt so bad. my brother kept an eye on her while he called our neighbors to come help. i went and took all of our steak knives and hid them. just in case we couldn't stop her. i was just a kid. i didn't know what else to do. but after so many years, that situation has stuck in my head, and it makes me extremely afraid of other people in pain. my mom's had a lot of health issues over the years and there have been times that she's in intense pain and i've always just froze up. and i would try to prepare myself to hold her down if i had to, like my brother was prepared to do back then. and sometimes i would wonder if i need to hide the knives again. (it never got so bad again, though, thankfully)

20:What I hate most about myself - i have a tendency to self-isolate when i'm feeling down or anxious and that only makes me feel WORSE and i hate it so much. im working on getting thru that tho

22:What I want to be when I get older - an artist and writer :) BUT!! also would be very interested in being an anthropologist still, too

24:My relationship with my parent(s) - strained a lot of the time, but it does a lot better when we're not living under the same roof. i love my parents, but they have a lot of room to improve, and i don't think they will. they love me, too, and they've helped me out a lot when shit has fallen apart, which i'm endlessly thankful for. but i don't know if they would love all of me if i came out which strains the relationship on my side which frustrates them and it's just. woof. we have stuff to work through lol but i'm not ready yet.

26:My biggest pet peeves - self deprecation as a form of humor, and refusing to take care of your body's basic needs even with a reminder to do so. neither one is funny or cute or quirky. it's annoying as shit. when my friends do it i want to throttle them (with love)

28:A description of the person I dislike the most - genuinely cannot think of a person i dislike the most

30:What I hate the most about work/school - i am taken advantage of because i'm a good worker and im a doormat so they just keep getting away with it >:(

32:What words upset me the most - when other people call me stupid or dumb or otherwise imply i'm not smart. when people try to control and box me in re: my sexuality as if they have any authority on that.

34:What I find attractive in women - everything :)

36:Where I would like to live - denver colorado! or really any place with mountains that gets relatively cold

38:My childhood career choice - volcanologist! (still kinda want that tbh) and firefighter, like my dad.

40:Who I wish I could be - i'm pretty happy being myself tbh

42:The last thing I ate - strawberry toaster strudels for breakfast

44:A random fact about anything - the plural of the word "beef" is "beeves"

[iiasha-archived]

Hiii I'm getting into svt recently and my fave part of getting into groups is finding out their dynamis. So far I've heard that jeonhan and Joshua r besties and so r mingyu and minghao idk if I'm not looking at the right place but i guess I didnt think they were particularly close?? Do u know who's the closets in svt? Or the ones with the best and fun dynamics

omg hello hello!! tbh all of seventeen are really close, some just tend to be closer “on camera” vs “off camera” if that makes sense??? fans tend to really hyper-analyze some relationships more than others which is why you hear about them more often but really all of seventeen are super comfortable with each other 🥺 in general though these are the pairings that are often picked out as being super close:

under readmore bc this got long lmaooooooo omg i could talk about seventeen’s bond for days

jeonghan and joshua: as you pointed out these two are very close!! they’re often called the “evil twins” since they often join forces to gang up on the other members a lot fdjkalf (i made a gif comp of it before) i think also in their earlier days they were often mistaken for one another

mingyu and minghao: mingyu and minghao are definitely the “artsy” duo of the group lmao they have really similar interests when it comes to art and fashion and stuff. i think they used to be called the “tom and jerry” duo because they used to bicker a LOT fajdsklfalksf but they’re definitely super close i mean just look at this post. all of seventeen’s families are close but mingyu’s family in particular seem to have adopted minghao to the point minghao will hang out with mingyu’s dad but not mingyu fdasjkldfa

mingyu and wonwoo: wonwoo is pretty often cited as mingyu’s “favorite hyung” lmao these two are also super close and they pursue their interests in film/photography together. wonwoo talked about this a lot in his monotube interview (don’t mind me subtly promoing my scan blog)

jun and wonwoo: i guess they’re not as obvious on-camera but these two are often mentioned a lot?? they’re basically “the cat line” and they often room together when they go abroad. they strike me more as a duo that share really comfortable silences with one another

jun and minghao: china line bros!! obviously since they’re both the only chinese members they’ve naturally become SUPER close since they can speak in their mother tongue with one another. they often talk a lot about how they have “opposite personalities” but it’s perfect in that they each make up for what the other lacks.

also not intending to sound like a shipper here but in line with above, mingyu x wonwoo x jun x the8 are often called the “love square”

hoshi and dk: basically the life of the party duo lmao they always seem to be on the same wavelength and bounce off each other’s impromptu jokes really well. they have this ongoing skit in particular where they act as old grandparents

seungkwan and vernon: basically the ‘98 line hahaha i don’t really have anything specific to say about them but they’re definitely really close, probably one of the more “popular” pairings that’s a little more lowkey/behind-the-scenes-feeling if you will. you can find a lot of video compilations about their friendship

hoshi and woozi: another sort of “opposites attract” pairing LMAO woozi acts like he barely tolerates hoshi most of the time but it’s clear they’re really close. hoshi seems to hang out in woozi’s studio a lot and in general i think woozi has been teaching hoshi more about making music/recording (e.g. that horanghae song)

if you want a more “fun” dynamic, also seungkwan and dino. basically they argue a LOT lmao they clearly have like actual tense moments but they come out of it stronger as a result. their bickering is really funny though and gives us stuff like this legendary rap battle

jeonghan and dk and jeonghan and hoshi. these aren’t actually like “popular dynamics” but i’m putting them here because they stand out to me bc jeonghan seems to hang out with these two in particular a lot LMAO i think they’re his favorite dongsaengs. jeonghan REALLY loves teasing dk (there’s a lot of moments but can’t think of any specifically to pick out right now unless u want me to), and for hoshi, dino was pretty adament in this last gose episode about hoshi being jeonghan’s favorite

[toraz1yal]

1000% ive posted abt this before but its bc im never not going to be mad abt how ziyal was treated in ds9 (by the writers/showrunners mostly) anyway heres what the situation would be if i had been in charge of ds9, graciously put under a readmore for your scrolling pleasure because this got huge

first of all fuck dukat i will tear him limb from limb like a rabid fox

- she can keep her backstory of the ravinok crashing and being in the breen prison camp and dukat trying to kill her bc its actually compelling

- after that though she doesn’t immediately forgive dukat because what the fuck (my reasoning for this is that obviously family is incredibly important to cardassians and if she had a traditional cardassian upbringing she probably would have forgiven him; however her childhood was likely very unstable and complicated given her parentage and dukat’s whole deal, plus being marooned in a breen labor camp with cardassian soldiers, bajoran prisoners and breen guards as your only company would probably fuck you up severely too, right? and i feel like she’d be much less trusting after all that so fuck dukat)

- so does she go to cardassia with him? if it were up to me she’d go live on the station immediately upon being rescued in order to recover at least a little bit. maybe after a while she’d be ready to confront dukat and potentially stay on cardassia for a while, with or without him. otherwise she’d probably want to stay on the station because the station rules.

- on the station garak is her weird mentor/uncle figure/whatever and under zero circumstances does their relationship ever get romantic ew why the fuck would you even think that. anyway. he teaches her abt sewing and introduces her to keiko who teaches her abt gardening, she likes to sit in the arboretum and sketch/paint/think.

- the possibilities for her living on the station are honestly endless. she wasn’t given much of an opportunity to develop her personality, skills, likes and dislikes, goals, or anything for most of her life so she goes through a long phase of just trying everything out. she learns about tailoring (from garak), engineering (from miles), botany (from keiko), medicine (from julian), culture (from everyone but specifically jadzia and ESPECIALLY nerys), gambling (from quank), she tries out writing with jake’s help but figures that drawing+painting is more her jam, she loves sweet foods and music and the color yellow and the smell of the arboretum when all the plants get watered and she learns that there is so much joy and love in the world and she starts healing. fuck dude im emotional abt ziyal

- anyway obviously she lives. the way i see it there are a few ways this could go.

first is that she survives the phaser wound; dukat still thinks she’s dead which causes his same spiral. maybe she decided she prefers it that way and everyone keeps her a secret so dukat will stay away from her which can cause some fun drama later on. who doesn’t love a good faked death? anyway this also gives potential for wheelchair/cane/disability aid user ziyal and thats good.

second is that she rejects dukat as her father once and for all. i think this is what would have happened originally had damar not shot her (idk tho i havent watched that scene in a while bc it makes me sad LMAO). but regardless This is what causes dukat to spiral; jealousy and betrayal and maybe some grief? regret? perhaps not those last two because this is dukat we’re talking about but whatever. so ds9 is ds9 again, everyone is reunited and she can live out the rest of her life in peace (maybe peace isn’t the right word; it’s still ds9 after all).

- after that she just grows and heals and becomes her own person outside her past, things are still stressful with the dominion war and her father being missing, but she has friends and loved ones and dare i say it, an extremely large and wonderful found family, and she’s okay. i think i might be mentally ill

[astronomeys]

why is the sun your favorite planet? do you have a favorite moon orbiting a planet outside of ours? (mine is io because of the volcanos) what's a fact about space that scares you (or excites you, or both)

Hewwo!

Okay I was going to try to condense my answers but I care about astronomy too much so I’ll just put it all under the readmore to be less Irritating but here’s the gist:

The sun isn’t a planet, that’s Ironic Stupidity. Uranus is my fav!

Neptune’s moon Triton is my favorite moon cuz its history is dark

The Kuiper Belt excites me!

Alright alright, so if for some reason people wanna know more about me (????????????????????????????????????????????) here’s more detailed answers:

The sun isn’t my fav planet because the sun isn’t a planet, that’s a joke I have on my blog TM because I used to study astrophysics really hardcore for a long time, so it was Ironic Stupidity. My fav planet it actually Uranus! Basically when the universe made Uranus, it was wearing a LET’S GET FUCKING WEIRD snapback. The bitch is orbiting on its side bc 2 Mars-sized planets smacked the fuck out of it early on, so because of that, its days/seasons are a bit fucking wild. It has an 84-year orbit, right? But bc it’s on its side, the north pole doesn’t face “up,” it’s either facing the sun or facing away from the sun. If you lived on its north pole, you’d have 42 years of perpetual daylight and 42 years of perpetual darkness. BUTTTTT even tho it’s on its side compared to the solar plane, it’s actually right side up compared to the galactic plane. WACK. Also you know how the Earth’s magnetic field is more or less a dipole (a magnet with a north and a south -- 2 poles, dipole)? Uranus has a quadrupole going on, and it’s off-center. WACK AGAIN. Also!!!!! It used to be the furthest planet from the sun and then Saturn bullied Neptune into fucking off and now Uranus is only the 7th planet from the sun. I wanna say that that’s the reason it’s the coldest planet (by average temp). WACK ONCE MORE. Here’s a crappy picture I drew:

My favorite moon is 100% Triton! I especially love the cryovolcanoes -- essentially, they are volcanoes that are made of liquid nitrogen!!! Nitrogen is a gas at room temp (obv) so it has to be SUPER FUCKING COLD to be a liquid. When I worked at the [REDACTED] Planetarium, I used to do experiments with liquid nitrogen where we got to recreate Triton’s cryovolcanoes and it was soooooooooo fun. Triton also has a “cantaloupe terrain” which is just cracks in the surface made from the liquid nitrogen (think of ice cracking from flowing water). But more than anything, I love love love its history as a Kuiper Belt Object (KBO). Lemme break it down tho-- WAIT FIRST here’s cantaloupe terrain (the actual scientific word for it)

Look at that and tell me that isn’t a shitty 2007 Nokia image of a cantaloupe!

ANYWAY OK so Triton’s emo history

So beyond Neptune is a section of the solar system called the Kuiper Belt, which is a bunch of icy rocks that never coalesced into a planet (also where Pluto lives!). It’s full of some of my favorite celestial bodies, but I’ll talk about that later. So anyway, it’s all ice and rock, cool. Remember how I mentioned Saturn yeeted Neptune? Well in doing so, Neptune plunged into the Kuiper Belt and threw a bunch of those icy objects out of the way. One of those objects was Triton and its sister object -- the two orbited each other, more or less. But Neptune and Triton got close to each other, too close, and Neptune’s gravity did two things: it pulled Triton in, and it flung Triton’s sister object out into space. God knows where, it’s gone. But typical of captured objects, Triton started orbiting Neptune backwards, and it was a brutal capture -- Triton, being so massive, destroyed many of Neptune’s moons or shoved the others out of Neptune’s orbit in its attempt to get into a more stable orbit itself. It has done so and the two objects live in temporary harmony, but there’s a caveat: as a backwards-orbiting object, Triton is slowly getting closer to Neptune, and at some point it’ll get so close that either it’ll crash into Neptune and be destroyed, or it’ll be ripped apart by Neptune’s gravity.

Fun (: Here’s a great pic of Voyager 2 flying away from Neptune and Triton (no color correction, so it’s b&w)!

Last one!!!! The Kuiper Belt

Ooooo how I love the Kuiper Belt. If I could restart my education, I’d go into astrophysics and follow in Mike Brown’s footsteps in researching the outer solar system. Everything from Uranus and beyond fascinates me, but the Kuiper Belt is full of intense stories. It’s essentially an icy version of the asteroid belt, and just beyond it is where comets come from. But inside the Kuiper Belt is a bunch of really cool dwarf planets, including Pluto, Makemake, Haumea, Quaoar, Eris (kind of), and Sedna (also kind of). I say “kind of” about Eris and Sedna bc those are beyond the Kuiper Belt, though they’re structurally identical to KBOs. Eris is a Scattered Disc Object and Sedna is an Oort Cloud Object. They’re basically just Kuiper Belt 2 and 3 but further away, less populated, and their orbits are WACK. Oh speaking of wack orbits, all the KBOs have orbits that are elongated, off-center, and tilted. They r all drunk. All the dwarf planets discovered in the Kuiper Belt (besides Pluto) were discovered by Mike Brown actually LMAO. They’re all named after creation gods -- Makemake is Rapanui, Haumea is Hawaiian (AND MY FAV KBO), Quaoar is Tongva, and Sedna is Inuit. Eris and Pluto are exceptions to the rule. There’s also another Dwarf Planet, Ceres, which is in the asteroid belt.

But who cares about any of THAT, the point is that Haumea is the best KBO because, in its discoverers words, it’s shaped like a squashed egg. That is because some other bitch smacked it when it was still liddol and so it went SPINNING and the spinning made it all Ovalesque cuz it was stretching itself out. We can tell that this happened cuz Haumea has relatively little ice on its surface BUT it has 2 moons made almost entirely of ice AND astronomers kept finding these mainly-icy bodies whose orbits had the same shape, timing, and tilt as Haumea’s, they were just all skewed about. But if u rewind time, all those icy bodies meet up at Haumea, so we know that something hit Haumea and sent the ice on its surface flying. She’s my queen. Here’s an artistic rendition of my queen and its 2 moons Hi’iaka and Namaka. (we also know Haumea has rings tho iirc?)

OKAY WELL THAT’S A LOT OF WORDS I just think astronomy is neat, I wish I had the money to go back to school and study astrophysics </3

[cowboyshit]

@adampage tumblr did a dumbass thing and messed up the read-more to where I couldn’t put it under one so I had to delete your ask and I’m making a separate post for this disaster of a ramble hoooo boy i hope you’re ready for what you’ve unleashed

adampage  asked: ma’am I know you’re high off your rocker but if you have time would you please critique hangman’s playlist for me bc I want to know your thoughts 🥰 anyway yeehaw

OH MY GOD yes???? yes I fucking WILL?????? let’s just pump the breaks on what i was doing right the fuck now, get his playlist in front of me (even though ive been listening to it nonstop and have so many things to ALREADY SAY) and talk about this shit. im sorry if this isn’t coherent im pry just gonna ramble. (edit to add now that I’m done: ITS FREAKING 3252 WORDS LONG LMAO OH MY GOD)

first and foremost. I Love It. let’s just slap that down. get that out of the way. ITS SO GOOD. SO FUCKING GOOD. also this is going under a readmore cause YEAH. it’s THAT LONG.

let’s start first with mr. adam ‘i taught graphic design when i was 20 and learned adobe illustrator and photoshop to design my own tshirts when i was an indie wrestler’ page’s cover image. wait. no. back up - look at the profile image he chose for his profile. it’s not a selfie. it’s not a picture he snapped with his camera. it’s a screenshot of the “has been drinking” moment on aew dynamite. what a lovable FOOL. he really saved that and put that as his profile pic im skjdfkjfd okay now swing back to the anxious millenial design with the signed hangman adam page for the cover. he designed that. I swear he did. I swear he did that. I could be wrong but I just feel it in my bones. that was him. also, THAT should have been the vintage shirt. cowboy shit is cute but ANXIOUS MILLENNIAL COWBOY? I NEED THAT AS THE SHIRT!

okay now let’s get into the songs. wait. before i go through it I do want to say something about the playlist overall.

I can’t decide if this is because he shares so many similarities to the character hangman adam page, but so many of these songs apply to his character like, this fucking playlist plays like a hangman adam page THE CHARACTER playlist. like this is the playlist i’d find on 8tracks back when that was the “thing” in fandom where every song makes me go “OMG THAT IS THAT CHARACTER” like. I don’t know if he did that purposefully as an extension of the character? or if it just happens to line up because of how similar he is and his story is to his character but SOME of these songs wooooo boy they get deep dont they? when you compare them to the character?

okay. songs.

so I know some of these, especially the classics, summertime of course, but for the ones I didn’t know I love them so much. they have such a vibe that just fits him, and they’re all so good???

rather low by nick shoulders is one I didn’t know and I fucking LOVE it. and look. it goes from Long Time Gone by the Dixie Chicks. Long Time Gone about being away from the country life, from home and if my THEORY is right about this playlist hitting the character, hangman is struggling with being lost, without a family. it goes from that to rather low, which talks about not being welcome at home. like “I told you once I told you twice, I’m steeped in verse and cursed in vice” ajdskjds GOOD lyrics. beat slaps. song slaps. I love it.

okay so we go roll on mississippi which is soft compared to the two upbeat songs that just hit us before. calms you down after that high energy beat rather low had. lets you breathe. AND it’s got a sad, soft, longing pull to it, falling in with more of those “lost” from home themes. “You're the childhood dream that I grew up on. Roll on Mississippi, carry me home. Now I can see I've been away too long.” UGH! and also, it’s just a good fucking song.

then we go to a song i haven’t heard and love, going places by aubrie sellers. it’s a little bit funkier, but still soft. also groovy as FUCK. and it obv talks about GOING places. so maybe the first three songs were about the home he’s left behind, but now it’s about where he’s going. and man this song just SLAPS.

A CLASSIC is next, 1970 something illegal smile by john prine. it has that classic soft croon, such a good country sound and it’s a little bit playful. it makes you wanna smile and sway back and forth. it’s a good song. fun. but it’s almost a little bit. dark? “ Won't you please tell the man I didn't kill anyone. No, I'm just tryin' to have me some fun. Well, I sat down in my closet with all my overalls, tryin' to get away from all the ears inside my walls. I dreamed the police heard everything I thought, what then?” it just makes me think of when his character “killed” joey ryan. I could be looking too far into it but, that’s what popped into my head.

OKAY NOW this next one. fuck yeah I DIG this song. I hadn’t heard this song and it quickly went into my liked songs. and if we’re following his character, the lyrics hit HARD. “ I've lost the will to try this worthless lullaby. Its melody won't fly me past oblivion. I bet it would be nice to find that paradise, a world of sparkling light beyond the setting sun. But I don't dream anymore” ugh !!!!!!! UGGGHH!! SO GOOD?? and even the slight upbeat to it. “would if I could but I don’t dream anymore” uuuuggghhh SO GOOD. love this song. one of my faves of the whole list for sure.

the next two back-to-back are CLASSICS and fit the hangman adam page character so damn perfect. i’ve even looked at lyrics from merle haggard’s i don’t want to sober up to night for adam in the past akjfdkjdsf it’s fucking perfect. and then followed by dwight yoakam’s honky tonk man?! amazing. we go from from fucking heart-wrenching lyrics if you think about them for him: “ I don't want to sober up tonight. I don't want to act like things are alright, and I don't want to change just to make you think I'm happy. That's my right, I don't want to sober up tonight. I want to keep my mind a little hazy. I don't care if all my friends think I'm crazy. The way I treat myself I might be a little crazy But that's alright, I don't want to sober up tonight. I'm here to drown another day of misery. I'm in here to spend one night without a mem'ry and the way I'm drinking now there won't be any memory. But it's alright, I don't want to sober up tonight” to HONKY TONK MAN. HONKY. TONK. MAN. “ Well I'm a honky tonk man and I can't seem to stop. I love to give the girls a whirl to the music of an old jukebox, but when my money's all gone, I'm on the telephone singing, hey hey mama can your daddy come home?” ajhsdjksdjkf like. look. partying hangman, drunk, swinging a girl around in the country bar???? cause he refused to sober up and just wanted to have fun? anyways regardless if there’s a connection or if im reaching, these are some good classics to pull out right here. honky tonk man will ALWAYS bring the party back up.

another song I didn’t know but now love? happy reunion by colter wall? this is a good freaking cowboy song??? and it’s a cute story???? about what a cowboy does during his day??? what the fuck? riding along the range with his dog, helping the cow, getting the calf back that’d gotten lost???? CUTE? anyways this is a vibin as HELL song and if it’d come out when I was still raising cows my ass woulda been blasting this shit as I drove to feed the herd for SURE. this song is a whole ass vibe and I’m digging it.

okay. walk through fire by yola? another i didn’t know (which - so far it seems all the songs that arent classics - spare dixie chicks - are from 2019) and I am obsessed with???? it’s so good? and fuck just such a good love song??? “Standing on the side of the river. Staring across the great divide. I'd give all my gold and silver just to get to the other side. Your love is like a rescue vessel, carries me through the night through these flames of destruction. I know you're gonna make it right. I know, I know you're gonna save my life.“ LIKE? HENLO????????? FUCK!!!! THATS SO GOOD. that whole song I could post all the lyrics tbh. and the way she CROONS it ugh. yeah. I love that song.

FUCKIN YES. DOLLY FUCKIN PARTON. youre not gonna make a country playlist and not include a dolly parton song boy i KNOW IT. and the song choice??? hm? remind you of a CERTAIN COWBOYS STRUGGLE WITH NOT HAVING A HOME???? “What difference does it make which way I go, got an empty feelin' down inside. Still I need to stay alive and who can tell what waits beyond this road. I'm a drifter” ajdfshjsd god I love dolly. and of COURSE he does too. i’m so pleased by this choice I can’t stop smiling. ugh. love this. love dolly.

sandpaper oneside, rubber other by the bobby tenderloin universe what do you know? another 2019 song I didn’t know and yet absolutely LOVE. I also am loving how he does a mix of classics with newer (but still almost classic-country sounding, maybe like. classic meets modern) country music in this playlist. AND WHAT A SONG. it’s so good? and again, just makes me think of the character. “there are two minds inside me. that’s one life too many. but i keep moving slow on both sides, strong as I can be.” tell me that doesnt make you think of hangman adam page. and it has such a... sad vibe. “i cant believe the things i am. as much a lion as a lamb” !!!!!!!!!!! ugh such a GOOD LINE. THAT SLAPS. LOVE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ugh this song. especially the back vocals of the woman that comes in later on? it’s like. ethereal. beautiful. fucking beautiful and almost haunting. paired with the sad lyrics? UGH. gorgeous.

long white line by sturgill simpson i do know and LOVE and it’s got a fun, uplifting cowboy beat following the more slow, sad croon of the last song. it’s SO COUNTRY. the way it’s sung? SO COUNTRY. and also ajdfskjsd adam. “I woke up my baby was gone without her I don't need no home” and “Gonna' push this rig 'til I push that girl out of my mind. If somebody wants to know what's become of this so and so tell em' I'm somewhere looking for the end of that long white line” kjdjkfdkjf this is just such a country song, and it fits SO well, especially after that previous pick.

now we go from two new songs to another classic. another (i think) 1970s country hit. lonesome, on’ry and mean is SUCH a classic country song. it has that good old sound, and the story it tells too. and just, I can’t stop thinking about hangman just “ Been driving these highways, been doing things my way. It's been making me lonesome on'ry and mean.” ajdskjflkf it’s fair to say that character IS lonesome, on’ry and mean right now. anyways, fun country song regardless and I DIG the addition.

okay back to a newer song and holy shit. this is my personal favorite of the new songs he introduced me to. this song I LOVE this song. fuuun FUN beat, makes me want to fucking GROOVE. I love love love this, and I love the way the singer sings? it just makes me wanna UGH. just wanna sway to it. the whine in the croon I just love. and the BEAT. the beat is so fucking good. and the lyrics? “I'm that wholesome Midwestern boy that you want to bring home to your mama. Even though I bring you joy, baby I'm not the toy you wanna play with at night. Too many things I've seen. Too many people and places I've been. I'm thinking about doing those things I shouldn't be doing. Something I've never done before. I want something to fuck me up. Need somebody to fuck me up. Everyone feels like it. Fuck me up, fuck me up, fuck me up” ajdsjkds I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH “Well I might go and get drunk and stoned 'cause it's better than being only crazy. If I ever come back, wherever I end up at is where I was supposed to be.” it’s so perfect for his character it drives me crazy. this is a song I’d listen to and first, groove to, and then be like THIS SONG IS HANGMAN. love this song. absolutely a favorite.

the next song though. the next song. fucking hangman adam page and his love of biscuits. southern biscuits by seasick steve oh. my. god. this BOY. THIS COUNTRY BOY. THIS BISCUIT LOVIN COUNTRY BOY. this is such a damn good addition. not only is it so fucking country, almost. spoken/sung? the soft hum with the fucking banjo??? and of COURSE of course he knows and loves this song I can’t with him. and it hits you with the: “ Southern biscuits, nothin' better in the world 'less they're made for you, by your southern girl.” and I go UWU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

two new songs so guess what? classic time. BALANCE. HE’S KEEPING BALANCE. I swear he’s done this purposefully and I could be crazy I could be giving him more credit than is due but I swear he’s picked the arrangement of songs too. because this is too coincidental. so, we’ve got our classic livin on the run by david allan coe. what a DARK song to go with. about a man who murders a woman and lives on the run (again, can’t help but think of the joey ryan murder thing, but hey. that’s just me grasping for straws) regardless if it ties or not, it’s a good classic and it’s fun to croon to even if its uh. dark but sung like. upbeat? almost???

okay, another classic and, to me, one of the sexiest songs on this playlist. I fucking love this song. it’s sexy with an underlying of dark. she literally seduces and knocks the guy out and robs him blind and he’s STILL craving her summer wine like. this song is SO GOOD. so fucking good. the way the music swells with the storytelling is beautiful. “Strawberries cherries and an angel's kiss in spring, my summer wine is really made from all these things. Take off your silver spurs and help me pass the time, and I will give to you summer wine” is just so ajkdfskjdfs ugh i love this song

and guess what? two classics so we’re swinging to a newer song. left turn on a red light by blackfoot. oof. I didn’t know this song and it hit me, it’s so good and I know im saying that about all of them but Honestly. “ Sun shines down on the desert, and it seems to make my life a haze, and I dream of my childhood sweetheart,and the freedom that I had in those days.” UGH. “ Will I always be a rambler? Will the ones I love always keep tellin' me, "You stare too long in the mirror, son, someday you'll be too blind to see.” HELLO???? those lyrics? SO GOOD. and again applying them to hangman just makes me FERAL SCREAM.

cowboys and hippies by cody jinks is such a hangman song it’s almost unreal. if I was going to REALLY reach I’d say it almost reminds me of the way the crowd pulls him back. “At some old honkytonk bar that I know by the smell, some old drunk on a barstool on a Merle Haggard tune. That's my kind of room. Raising hell with the hippies and the cowboys. They don't care about no trends, they don't care about songs that sell. Yeah, tomorrow I'll be gone, so tonight everybody just sing along, raising hell with the hippies and the cowboys” GOOD LYRICS. this has the same sad undertones too as a lot of these songs have too.

ugh. I love him sincerely for this next one. blue skies is one of my favorite songs, but blue skies by willie nelson? YES. my grandpa used to play willie nelson ALL THE TIME and I love this version. an uplifting song to follow the heavier songs. I’d like to think of a hangman who has the blue skies from now on. all of his blue days gone. this song is such a classic (cover) that just. good pick. I love this.

alright, so we’ve got a classic but he’s chosen the version from bojack horseman which makes me think that might’ve been the first time he heard it, but that’s neither here nor there. stars is a BEAUTIFUL song. and boy am I happy we had blue skies before this cause fuck. how sad? how emotional?????? “People lust for fame like athletes in a game, we break our collarbones and come up swinging, some of us are downed some of us are crowned, and some are lost and never found” fuck. fuck fuck fuck. and the last two lines, thinking about hangman? “So if you don't lose patience with my fumbling around, I'll come up singing for you, even when I'm down.” FUCK. my HEART. good pick but OUCH. good but ow.

summertime by orville peck is next BLESS finally an orville song I was gonna lose it on him if he put a playlist and DIDN’T include an orville song. interesting though he went with summertime, the newest, and not any of the ones off pony. but! it follows stars well. its soft, lull, and the lyrics are so hangman now that I put it in this context. “Catch 'em by surprise and chasin' the horizon, nothing holds me down. Askin', "Where the time's gone?" Dreamin' with the lights on, tryna keep your eyes on something along the rise" anyways I know YOU know this song well it’s so fucking good. has that same soft pull a lot of these songs have. the way that chorus swells though? the secondary vocals??? ugh. yeah this was a great choice, I’m glad he went with summertime. it fits the vibe of this playlist so well.

we’re ending on a song with such a country sound to it (i mean all of these do), a bit more upbeat, a bit more funky. “Some say I'm a wild man, drink too much nectar from the corn” and also “Oh the school, it wasn't for me. I earned my stripes a different way I learned to sing harmony and go play out on the stage” definitely makes me think of hangman for SURE. it’s a funky song to end on, and if you keep listening to the playlist on repeat like I do, it even falls into long time gone really well.

and of course this is assuming you’re meant to listen to them one after the other and not on shuffle. I’m sure it still works on shuffle but I LOVE the flow of this playlist listening to it one after the other.

love this whole playlist. and my identifying it with the character could TOTALLY be reaching, but of course I’m going to think of him and analyze his selection of *these* songs specifically to put out to all of us. out of EVERY song he likes. he didn’t include... hmm cowboy take me away, for example? shoulda been a cowboy??? the vibe of the overall playlist FITS “anxious millenial cowboy” it has an underbelly of sadness to it. and I dig the fuck out of that.

overall 10/10 I love this fucking playlist thank you goodnight

[saltine-kakyoin]

OH SHIT!!!! my clown ass never saw that u rb'd those ask posts, i was Looking at my notifs to see if u would so i could send u some but SOMEHOW I MISSED IT??? clown hours.... ANyways for the emoji one have 🤗💙💘🍀😇 and 👍 (tried to not do repeats from your ask 2 me cause they all apply anyways but, Regardless) and for the questions post, maybe 5, 11, 12, 17, 20, 23 and 25? ;__;/ ily so much and i hope u have a rlly lovely night!!! and that this coming week is kinder 2 u!!!! 💖💖💖💖

ahhh, it’s no worries!!! idk about you but for me, tumblr has been having the Time of Its LIFE lately wrt notifications and most disconcertingly, unfollowing people! D: so i completely get it, it’s no worries!!! ;w;/ i already know for a Fact i’m going to write so so much, so i’m gonna put this under a readmore >w< ruth 🤝 sarah respectful lesbian moments

edit: so I finished writing it and it’s Insanely Long- just in case you don’t make it to the bottom, thank you mein broth-er!!!! ; O; i hope you have a wonderful night too!! writing all of this out made me reminisce on some really nice times, and I’m having an a1 night! ^^ ilysm! it’ll probably be daytime when you read this, so i hope you have a great day! <3

🤗 given the chance I would gladly hug you

on god!!!! ;___; i think i would frfr dissolve if a got a Ruth-Certified hug, things have been so overwhelming lately

💙 you are my closest friend

the feeling is mutual!! <3 we don’t always get to talk often, but fhdhshg when we do we talk about like All of the Madness in Sarah’s Mind^tm, and you are so patient + tolerant of my incoherent ramblings which is something i don’t think i’ve ever fully experienced? anyhow, after a year (more than a year?) of having these kinds of convos and going through the general madness of life together, I totally agree ;w;

💘 I love you so much

i love you too!!! so so much!!! 💃🕺 i don’t think words will ever be able to express how much i love and appreciate you! 💜💛

🍀 i’m lucky to have met you

i know we talk about this often, but seriously i feel the same way! it’s a little crazy that we met, technically, because Joseph Joestar tm deserved more than to be a cheater... there is something hilarious about this wild friendship rooting from him!! of all jojos!! 🤢 but i’m so grateful that we met, it’s been such a wonderful ride ;w; <3

😇 you’re a sweet cinnamon bun

🥺🥺🥺🥺 bro i- fhdhghdhgh thank you!!! ;o;

👍 you are fun to be around

ahhh, thank you!!! i am glad you feel this way bc whoo boy, i think some other people would look at the madness i tell you about and go 👁️👁️ that’s a no for me, luvs. remember last year when i was losing it tryna prepare for ren faire + i cut my palm on that one glass bottle? bc a- i barely do and b- i feel like that moment encapsulates the nicki minaj roman holiday-ness of my life XD i’m really grateful you’ve stuck around through it all 🤗💕💖

now buckle in bro!!!! the essays are incoming!!!

5. Name a movie that makes you genuinely laugh.

i swear on my life the Mortal Kombat movie from 1995 is a national treasure, it is SUCH a solid movie and has so many funny moments. Robin Shou makes such a 🥺🥺 Liu Kang, and jesus fuck he can be so savage when the script calls for it!! there’s one part where he takes Johnny Cage’s luggage and straight up fucking chucks it into the ocean + then bullies him about it later! honestly the Ballad of Johnny Cage and His Luggage is one of my favorite parts from the movie <3 if you haven’t seen it + you like cheesy, old school movies, i really recommend it!!!

11. Describe the memory of the last time you felt true happiness.

So I can’t remember the last time I did, bc my memory is horrifically terrible + probably getting worse as time goes on?? but i will tell you about one of the more recent times I remember! :D There is one crucial expository note for this memory- my brother-in-law makes THE best chili in the entire world. my brother and I were trying to recreate it because it’s such a simple but delicious + filling meal- I think this was our first time trying to create it? and it was SO chaotic, the tomato sauce and stuff kept popping and burning me and we weren’t 100% certain that we’d gathered the right ratios for the ingredients and it was just. madness lmao. Chance’s chili is one that you leave alone for multiple hours at a time (I think this is the case for all chili but i don’t cook often enough to know ;__;), and we were kinda 👀👀👀 because we weren’t sure it’d turn out right? But it did!!!! I vividly remember when it was finished and we taste-tested it + went oOOH FUCK! it wasn’t quite the same as chance’s but ohhh my god it was so good 🥰🥰🥰 but yeah!! we ate it all up and I think this was around the time I started my playthrough of Esteban for Dragon Age 2? which was one of my favorite playthroughs for the entire franchise... he’s just a simple ig beard model mage ;w; i wanted to show you what he looked like in this post but the formatting went wonky so ig i’ll just post him separately?? it’s 1000% in-character for him to infiltrate my jojo blog 😔

12. Name a song that makes you feel ethereal.

hm...I’d say it’s between Forget About or Feet of Clay! They’re both such light and tenderhearted songs, and when I listen to them I feel like I’m in an apartment kitchen slow-dancing with a love, and it’s so dark except for the slowly rising sun. I don’t know if that feeling could be described as ethereal? but it’s close enough for me

17. What is something you own that is important to you? What makes it so important?

I have a small collection of scripts from the shows I’ve been in, and two of the most important ones are from the plays my high school put on during my sophomore and junior years, The Nit-Wits and The Musical Comedy Murders of 1940, respectively! The Nit-Wits has a ton of sentimental value to me because it was the last show I genuinely acted in, and it was a show we had to pull together in 2 or 3 weeks!! We were originally going to do a murder mystery play for the fall, but none of the cast was feeling it and it just wasn’t going to come to life in time (honestly this speaks volumes for how much we weren’t vibing with it, because all of our shows came together at like.. the final dress rehearsals if not opening night lmao). I vividly remember we took a vote during rehearsals about whether or not to switch the show, and then we did and it was SO fun + chaotic!! My character was one of the only regular characters in the show, but I think everyone else had a lot of fun acting as actors who were hired to be maniacal, and that made acting off of them so fun! I remember there was also a night my friend Adonis almost tore the entire set down because he ran through a door and tripped over a set brace in his haste!! The Nit-Wits is hugely important because it was a really fresh acting experience for me, and again, my last time genuinely on the stage and not behind the scenes!

MCM is important to me because it was the first play I ever stage managed! I’d stage managed our musical the spring prior, but that was a huge undertaking and involved many different people and moving parts. Stage managing a play, at least at my high school, was a calmer and more intimate experience, and one I really enjoyed! Another huge reason I treasure MCM’s script is because it is one of the last shows I had with my friend I told you about- he was a senior. I have little notes and doodles from the cast and crew scattered throughout my book for this show, and I remember being so irritated by this because it meant I was losing space for stage directions, cues, and notes. Now, I’m super grateful to have these scribbles- it’s one of the only things I have left of him. 

On that note, relating to him, MCM is also the show which birthed my most horrific theater horror story!! During one of the performances, I guess he forgot his line?? idk. But he ended up jumping six pages ahead of where the current scene was (I knew this bc I was following along in my book backstage + was frantically trying to figure out where he’d gone), which threw the entire cast, who were all tragically onstage, way off-track. This resulted in the most frightening game of script ping-pong I’ve ever seen: he’d skipped six pages ahead, so Adonis ended up saying a line from two pages after the six-page skip, and somehow someone else went!! oh I have a response to that line! And then said something like 9 pages back! I think the lead actress tried to ground everyone back to the lines they were supposed to be saying, but she ended up just saying a lot of their lines? And one of those lines that was supposed to be said by someone else was supposed to cue a black-out that someone got murdered in, but my lighting techie was SO fucking lost (we were both huddled over the script next to the breaker trying to figure out WHERE the hell we were! i think i had a flashlight in my mouth so I could flip through the book with both hands and thus faster??), so ofc the lights stayed up! I remember getting through this scene being the most painstaking endeavor of my entire life, but thankfully intermission was right after it! We actually extended intermission because the cast needed a hot second to fuckign RESET for Act 2 bc sweet jesus that was so bizarre...Needless to say, after that show we never messed that scene up again + everyone who acted in the show became super anal about knowing their lines as the years went on. The Six Page Skip became a legendary part of our hs theater Canon (like biblical canon ;w; although I don’t think anyone’s talked about it since my class graduated) alongside the times one of our ensemble dudes had to break through the roof of the girl’s dressing room to retrieve the keys to the theater + i got stuck on stage!

20. What’s the sweetest thing someone has done for you?

I really had to wrack my brain to answer this one, as I’m generally not the person people do things for, you know? This answer goes wayyy back, to 8th grade :O but so! there is mild exposition for this- when I started middle school, I lived in North Carolina, but we moved to Florida right before 7th grade bc my grandma is ill. We lived with my uncle while we were looking for a house, so I went to the local middle school bc why wouldn’t I? but in November, we finally found a house + my mom was like....So... are you going to switch schools or...I’d struck up some really solid friendships in this time, so i was like Mom I’d Rather Die OAO. So, we struck up a deal that I’d get to stay at that school on a zone waiver + that she’d drive me to school everyday. Sometime closer to the end of eighth grade she was like, yeah so.. I can’t do this for high school, it’s too much gas- which was valid! I was really sad about it, but I sucked it up.

Anyhow, fast forward to the last day of eighth grade, which was perhaps the saddest day I’d lived up until that point, mostly bc I knew I was probably never going to see all my friends again. My best friend, who I was like hardcore v close to + the person I shared all my wacky AUs and OC’s and headcanons with, was waiting with me for my mom to come pick me up, and then!!! When my mom pulled into the school she suddenly whipped out this lengthy letter she’d written to me about how much she enjoyed my friendship and how grateful she was that we were able to have lunch together (lunch was.. tragically ;__; the only time we really saw each other that year), and that she would never forget me! And she’d drawn me a ton of fanart from all the things I was obsessed with back then!! it was so much so fast, but then my mom was yelling at me to get in the car and I had to go :(

We kept in touch through email freshman year + fake-dated bc a senior was stalking me? ;J; and then we went to Megacon together! but I became really heavily involved in choir and theater after that, and we just kind of drifted apart :( we do follow each other on ig tho! It’s insane to think about her and that letter because on GOD ruth, that was a thinly veiled love letter and I never like... wrote her anything back that was as worthy as what she wrote me. But, she’s doing really well in uni now, so I guess it’s all okay? idk! ; o ;

23. What’s your zodiac sign? Do you think you fit the general characteristics of that sign?

I’m a Cancer!! and also a metal dragon by the Chinese Zodiac, which I’ve always thought was pretty sick! :3 I am 10000% your stereotypical Cancer, super emotional and introspective + often prone to tears ;u; My mom always said that dragons are steadfast and loyal people, and I think this also applies to me, to a fault. I checked around some websites to see what characteristics were often applied to metal dragons specifically, and it seems they are pretty strong-willed, ambitious, and generous? I don’t know if you could call me strong-willed or ambitious, but it’s all good ig.

25. What’s a song that gives off good vibes anytime you listen to it?

Ohh man, I went in on this question for Shannon, but bc I was digging around my library for Jules, I actually found an old fave! This song is from one of my all-time favorite musicals, Once on This Island- it’s The Human Heart! This song is so sweet, and god between the writing for the orchestra + the writing for the ensemble, this song is a straight masterpiece <3 I love love love the line, “Through your love you’ll live forever”, and although I am Hardcore Terrified of getting a tattoo, I really want that line tattooed on my body. if you have time, I recommend giving Once on This Island a listen!! I’ve never heard a show that uses its instruments and singers the way OoTI does (and holy FUCK it is so breathtaking live!!! I got to see it on Broadway and bro.... 🥺🥺 it was transcendental..)

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Lol, I it was a mistake to reblog that, DO ALL THE EVENS!

you got me there orz

ALRIGHT 

putting it under a readmore ‘cause this shit be long 

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

yes i do, it makes me feel alive - as if electricity is running through my veins

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?

coffee - black with a decent amount of sugar; tea - black with a decent amount of sugar

6: do you keep plants?

i do not but i would like to, especially succulents

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

writing mostly

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

side mostly

12: what’s your favorite planet?

pluto!

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

a mix of industrial and traditional with lots of plants, art, comfortable furniture, gaming setups, a huge kitchen, etc.

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?

cold pasta salad with the multi-colored noodles, black olives, etc.

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

what friends lol nah but like, i don’t have friends now that i’ve had for a long time so there’s nothing to tell 

20: what’s your favorite eye color?

hazel, grey, brown

22: are you a morning person?

it depends

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

yeah

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

just my regular sneakers - i need new insoles for them lmao

28: sunrise or sunset?

sunset

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

yes - i have ptsd from it lmao

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

again…

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

my gran gave me a dark brown, almost black teddy bear for christmas when i was 15. his name is mebby. i still sleep with it every night lmao.

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

uhhh probably… sleeping at last?

38: tell us about your pet peeves!

willful ignorance, rude customers at my job, people not using their freaking blinkers

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

i only really wear one piece of jewelry - it’s virgil’s necklace lmao and its meaning is that i am literally virgil and thomas’ portrayal of him and how he’s treated and then how things change for him and stuff just really resonated with me, so yeah.

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

lol no

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

never

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.

heck.. uhh… 

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

i don’t really remember my childhood so idk and probably not lmao

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?

temporary tattoos? i have over 250

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

uhhhhh idk lmao sanders sides memes in general i guess

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

my mom

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?

heartfelt laughs that can be goofy sometimes; gigglesnorting for sure

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

i’m the vodka aunt probably, idk who the wine mom is

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

yes but i don’t actively read it? so idk

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

rarely but apple juice

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?

black ‘cause it’s nearly 2 am

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?

those small multi-colored wildflowers that you find on the side of highways in the middle of nowhere

68: what’s winter like where you live?

it’s on and off. sometimes it is warm / doesn’t snow / doesn’t change pretty much and sometimes we have a ton of snow and it is freezing

70: have you ever used a ouija board?

i used to own one and yes

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

ye lmao

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

they are adorable and a great hugger, very openminded and accepting and supportive

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

replying to the rp but i’m finishing this first rq

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

hate

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

burnt orange bc it was my uncle’s room before he moved out and he was a nascar fan z

82: are/were you good in school?

i was the Gifted Kid TM that ended up nearly failing lmao

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

i already have two - the trans symbol on the inside of my left wrist and a fox on the inside of my right forearm. i’m not sure about getting more but probably.

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?

i am indifferent mostly

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

surrealism

90: talk about your one of your favorite cities.

i haven’t been anywhere so

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

in the middle???

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

sara, i legit went to her b-day party earlier lmao

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

procrastinate lmao

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

never

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

the past because i have regerts

and done finally

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Define wierd? I'm still getting used to this and some critique would be lovely.

oh is that alright? usually i refrain from unwarranted criticism because not everyone is ok with that mdkjfs... im gonna put it under a readmore bc im anticipating it might get long.... im sorry if this comes off a bit too harsh but im a rather avid reader of fics and i built up high standards over the last few years..... 

my advice isnt like... absolute tho btw i am far from being an authority on this kind of stuff. im mostly a reader because..... i get writers block before i even start to write... i have ideas for fics but hhhhh writing doesnt come easy to me... i know my writing style is at the very least Decent based on a single drabble i wrote when i got possessed by a demon in the middle of the night but i just dont have the willpower or fortitude to complete a full fic ever....

i at the very least know when someones writing is bad, ok, good, or Great tho so this advice is based of my very base standards

ok the easiest thing that you can work on is how you format your writing, specifically the way you break up paragraphs and the spacing in between the lines

like for example here? in the very beginning?

seeing fics written like this is actually a pretty immediate indicator that the writing of fic is not going to be that good (no offense) because if a writer doesnt even know how to make their fics look good then usually the same can be said for their writing.... writing your lines like this is bad because... it actually makes it harder to read.... why isnt all of this in one paragraph? why was Every Sentence put in a New Line.... with no extra space in between too like in your dialogue. spacing in between lines is important because it makes things easier to read and also lets the reader know there some sort of break or pause or a change (like a change of speaker in terms of dialogue). with breaks like this it just makes your writing flow extremely awkward... writing single sentence paragraphs is ok but only if there is a purpose behind it. and i dont think these are meant to be individual paragraphs. it looks like you are just starting a new line just because you can... theres no reason for you to do this actual books dont even do this you know? just clean this up so your lines dont look like this its not professional

tho dont make your fic paragraphs excessively long as a result too? seeing huuuuge chunks of text all mashed together is also just bad visually... its not easy to track the text with your eyes when a fic is like that... a good fic writer knows when to put a break and start a new paragraph. nice bite sized chunks helps keep attention in my opinion especially in respect to ao3. but this is subjective and sometimes long paragraphs work but you still have to know when to break and add space. please add space in between paragraphs please.

ayways that was my biggest issue with your fic i recommend just reading other peoples work and see how they lay out their writing for examples tbh 

as for your actual writing style...? i cant help you improve on this tbh because everyone has got their own style for how they like to write and forgive me for saying this but your writing is kinda amateurish.... its a bit bland and i think it has to do with your word choice. part of the reason why its kinda weak is because you are using filter words a bunch... heres a post about filter words that will help explain what i mean http://ap-sadistics.tumblr.com/post/164792080280/are-these-filter-words-weakening-your-story (lmao ive reblogged a bunch of writing tips onto my main blog over the years... never got to use them for my own writing much... god i wish i had the capacity to write at least 1k......)

i think this is enough criticism because i feel like ive said a lot already.... hope this helps tho? and that i wasnt too mean accidentally while saying all this gomen

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i am curious about Koi :3c so-- 2, 5, 16, 28, 33, 42, 78, 84, and 94 LMAO THATS A LOT HAVE FUN

HI AND SORRY THIS IS SO LONG wrote a hecking essay for last question :,D will put under a readmore later when i am home sorry for now y’all have to suffer bc i am on mobile :,))

2. What is their voice like?

She has some serious vocal fry, and her voice isn’t deep deep, but it is fairly low. She usually raises the pitch of her voice slightly though, so her natural speaking voice doesn’t come out too often. It’s another way for her to “change” her appearance.

5. How do they deal with/react to pain?

Surprisingly given her uh, life, she doesn’t like pain and her response is not a stay and fight/grin and bear it type approach, she is pretty likely to turn tail and run upon injury (or at least, get out of the way from harm…even if it means someone else is more likely to get hurt). However, out of danger she is the type to play up injuries especially if it gets her attention from cute healer girls (AS IN THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED IN GAME LMAO).

16. What are they like when they’ve gotten too little sleep?

(Oh you mean all the time? Be paranoia isn’t kind to her and also, this is a painful question from who she is based on 8) ) But, she’s good at at least pretending she’s had enough sleep even when she hasn’t. But she is a little jumpy, granted, she writes it off as being a rogue like it’s her job to look for traps/surprises. She’s one to watch the shadows and keep herself alert at all times.

28. Are they happy where they are currently?

…… :))))))))) Not even the slightest. She is pretending really well!! She plays the part of the carefree rogue who likes gold and jewels and pretty girls, but underneath it she’s dealing with a lot of guilt for what she’s done and also has not really ever sat down to process the trauma of what she’s gone through, she’d rather ignore it and try to move on and it’ll probably be a while before she realizes she won’t be able to move on and be the better person she wants to be until she does.

33. Do they own any objects of significant personal importance?

YES this is actually built into her character sheet because i rolled for a trinket when making her and got “a diary with 7 missing pages”, and from there built it out a bit. This diary isn’t hers, it belongs to someone from her past (i know who but i am kind of keeping it ~secret~ but the two options are the friend she had a falling out with or the friend whose death she is responsible for :))) ), and she guards it VERY FIERCELY. She doesn’t let people know she has it let alone see it. Also it is not necessarily a positive personal importance.

42. Do they have any bad habits?

YEP. Starting off benign, gambling and lock picking. Granted for gambling it is usually her as the dealer and the games are maybe not that fair. (Also built into character sheet got to choose a gambling item of dice or cards and to customize a bit went with a deck of hanafuda cards so she can challenge people to Koi-Koi (hehe) ;3 ) As for lock picking it’s such a habit she practices it in her downtime and fidgets with lock picks. Supported by HOW GOOD SHE ROLLS IN GAME you really cannot keep her out of any place.Less benign, she is a compulsive liar. I mean, she faked her own death. She created a new identity (Koi is not her real name). She is essentially lying all the time even when it’s not necessary :)))

78. How do they act when they’re particularly happy?

Ok two ways i am gonna answer this and the first is, like mentioned she is basically always /pretending/ to be happy and this comes across as always being particularly cheerful, loud, and optimistic. It’s definitely a showy kind of happiness, like you think she’s happy because of the smiles, the cheer in her voice, etc.When she is actually happy it is a lot more subdued. The smiles aren’t as wide, aren’t as obvious, and it’s more like she’s relaxed. When Koi is happy it is when she isn’t pretending, when she is just herself, and nothing else.84. What are some physical features that they find attractive on people?(because of who she is based on gonna get real selfish/vain here LMAO) She likes long dark hair, high cheekbones, pretty eyes, and nice legs (also partial to NICE BUTTS)

94. Outlook on life?

BUCKLE IN IT IS GONNA BE A BIT LONG FRIENDO. For starters, as a child she very much had a kind of Robin Hood view the rich/privileged have it so much better than us that us orphans committing crimes is completely fair in the grand scheme of things and deserved. This hasn’t changed and she also feels very strongly about protecting kids from the evils of the world. However, as she got older she started taking it a bit further and began to become more and more okay with hurting anyone in the desire for more upward mobility in the world, for wealth and just for power. It didn’t matter because she got pretty spoiled thinking if she can do something, if she’s capable of it through her own skill/means, why doesn’t she deserve it? Why doesn’t she deserve whatever she wants? This is what started the schism between her and her closest friend, and as her friend had a lot of charisma and people naturally followed them instead of Koi, Koi’s desire for power, for authority, for control just grew. She was pretty heartless for a while. She did get a following of her own but it wasn’t (surprise) good people. This all reached a breaking point eventually leading to the events that would cause her to fake her own death and run, because even wanting to change, she couldn’t yet face her consequences and it is in her nature to run away from bad situations. Which brings me to what her “ideal” is on her character sheet. “Redemption: there’s a spark of good in everyone.” She believes this out of necessity. She has to believe it, because otherwise, why is she alive? Why is it fair she got to live? So she’s trying to do better with, mixed results. For some more insight, i would also say important to her philosophy is how big appearance is to her - how important playing a role is. For her right now she’s stuck trying to /look/ like a good person, versus actually /being/ a good person so again she’s working on it. She doesn’t believe people show their true faces, that everyone is pretending and well, “All the world’s a stage”, also like, very much like some of the things the Player from Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead goes on about, she “never takes off her costume”. (Haha also something to be said about how dying, that’s what “actors do best” with her). To circle back to gambling too, i think some of her views on gambling/chance play into how she approaches life too and i am straight up just gonna drop a quote in from a book i just finished reading (Pachinko by Min Jin Lee it is VERY GOOD highly recommend) “…life was like this game when the player could adjust the dials yet also expect the uncertainty of factors he couldn’t control. He understood why his customers wanted to play something that looked fixed but which also left room for randomness and hope.” …i think this would be more part of how she starts to see life moving forward, and i mentioned she fixed games a bit but i think also sometimes (and starting to be more often) she doesn’t, she leaves things up to chance a little more, to test her luck, to test /hope/, and sees how it goes. Anyways. I have MANY FEELINGS IF YOU CANNOT TELL LMAO.

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hi! I hope I'm not bothering you but I can see ur attending CU. I'm planning on applying to either the school of art or engineering, but I'm leaning more towards art. I'm really at a loss when it comes to applying, home tests,and the general enviorment of the school.. and what to do after I graduate so I was just curious on what that's all like :0 sorry for making this so long .. thank u for ur time!

OMG THIS IS THE ASK I’VE BEEN WAITING FOR MY WHOLE LIFE I LOVE TALKING ABOUT COOPER

i’m putting it under a readmore bc it got crazy long??? i’m not even to the part where i yell about applications yet and it’s like ten paragraphs lmao

so. 

first things first. 

i applied to cooper in the first place because when i took the tour (best fucking college tour i took the whole time, by the way. all of the guides LOVE cooper and they love telling you about it, so if you get a chance, defo go on the tour bc theyre way more honest and you get a better feel for the school than on any other tour) one of the things that they emphasized was the student community., one told me that once when she walked into the EE lab and asked to borrow someone’s phone charger because hers had frayed so badly it wasn’t working. not only did someone give her a charger, but they fixed her charger until she could get a new one. 

and when i got here, it’s totally fucking true. cooper is a community in every definition of the word. everyone is totally willing to help you in any way that they can, because that’s the kind of people that cooper admits and then fosters that behavior. 

now. the reason they foster this behavior is because it’s a fucking hard school. the standard course load for a freshman engineer first semester is 18.5 credits, spread out over 7 classes plus a professional seminar. and yeah, some of those are only one or two credit classes, but they still have homework and class time. it is a rigorous schedule that only gets harder. professor alan wolf (physics, more on him later maybe? i have him next semester, we’ll see if the Rumors are true) said at an engineering faculty panel that he wants physics to be moved to first semester of freshman year (instead of second) because the transition from “an easy first semester” to a semester with physics and calc 2 was too difficult for a lot of students. everyone around me groaned when he said the first semester was easy. 

and this is just the engineering school! the art school is hard as hell too. keep in mind that what i know about the art program is just synthesized from talking to art students and not at all from personal experience. but. 

the first year of art is a foundation year. they assume you don’t know anything, and break you down to basics. the art ra in the dorms said her freshman year was incredibly hard for her both as an artist and as a person just because she was confronted with all these other talented people and having to face that she wasn’t The Artist in school anymore. i regularly leave the student lounge (menschel) at two in the morning only for art kids to walk in, holding all of their materials (although, not anymore, since someone got charcoal all over the tables in 3a lmao) and settling in for another all-nighter. 

cooper is a culture of intense rigor and stress, and there is no overcoming that. but it’s also a culture of community and supporting each other. it’s a really specific kind of school that some people find just isn’t for them. 

also, cooper is like, really small. like. very small. here are some of the things you will encounter because of cooper union’s limited budget and facilities, and which you basically have to accept:

no dining hall. there’s frankie’s cafe in the new academic building (also known as the engineering building, most commonly referred to as the nab) but otherwise there is absolutely no meal plan. frankie’s has like, sandwiches and muffins and bagels and (terrible) coffee, but it is in no way a full college dining hall. 

no gym. i think at one point we were allowed to use nyu’s facilities? no longer. almost everyone i know belongs to a gym. i myself visit the planet fitness on union square maaaybe once a month when i guilt myself into it. blink is a popular option. if you’re willing to spare the cash equinox is also there. crunch is the one that everyone kind of makes fun of but like it’s super close so go for it if you want. 

small supporting staff. this is both a blessing and a curse. i know everyone in the student affairs office by first name and usually they know me. i think at this point i’ve met everyone in the financial aid department. cool, because it means that they know me. bad, because it means i’ve had to talk to all of them to figure out what the hell is going on with my scholarships and how much money i actually know. this is not a school where there are online systems in place to fix any problems you have. you have to be your own advocate to the administration, and as much as they desperately want to help you, a lot of the time it comes down to just making sure your paperwork goes through. good news is you almost never have to make an appointment to talk to someone you just show up. 

very little interaction between the schools. there are three schools. art, architecture, and engineering. engineering is by far the most populated, followed by art, then architecture. if i didn’t live with two artists, i would never talk to anyone in art or architecture. yes, the hss classes are multidisciplinary, but just statistically, engineers far outweigh the artists. there weren’t even any architects in my hss1 class. if you don’t make the effort to reach out beyond your school, it straight up doesn’t happen. 

sometimes when you go to the basics plus to get some hangers because you ordered too many shirts online and now they’re just kind of shoved in your drawers and when the cashier asks if you have a student id and you pull out your cooper id she’s like “oh! is that local?” and you have to smile and say yes and when you walk out of the store you can see the foundation building down third with absolutely no problem

there’s more and i’ll think of them later but this is good for now

ANYWAYS i have a lot more thoughts on the culture of cooper??? but i think i’m going to leave it here because this is a decent overview of how i feel and what the most important parts are. 

now.

for applying.

again, i applied to and am in the engineering school. everything i know about the art school is based on talking to art students

also, i am in no way affiliated with the actual admissions department and the following is just based on my experiences as someone who applied and talking to other people who applied

also at first i thought you were applying this cycle and i was like. honey. this is not enough time for either application

BUT THEN i put an ounce more thought into it and realized not everyone younger than me is a high school senior lmao

anyways!

both applications are really intensive. to get art out of the way (sorry art) it’s a series of prompts that you have to create a piece in response to. some artists i know got crazy super stressed about it, and pulled so many all nighters, and skipped a lot of homework to do it, and overall just did not enjoy it. one of my artist roommates, however, said that she actually really enjoyed the process? she just let herself create without worrying “is this what will get me in?” and felt that it was a really great experience. 

either way, you’re going to have an interesting experience. 

for the engineering writing prompts, it’s a goddamn marathon. there were nine, i think, when i applied? i applied to eleven schools and i had to write seventeen supplements. the ratio of supplement-to-school was way off and its all cooper’s fault lmao

there isn’t a word minimum, but there is a word maximum per essay, a fact i discovered as i was copy-pasting mine into the commonapp from my googledocs file. i think the max is 500 words? not positive tho don’t quote me

anyways they’re all fairly standard questions. like, nothing out of the blue like chicago’s or whatever. but keep in mind that this is honestly where you’re going to get admitted. a lot of people apply to cooper. and a lot of those people will have the same exact stats as you (btw, sat/act scores and gpa matter slightly more for engineers than for artists and architects) and the way to distinguish yourself is through your writing. cooper admits you as a person because they believe you’ll add to their community and then to the world, not because you got a perfect score on whatever. 

so i, at least, let myself be a little freer in my cooper essays than in any other supplement. some of them i could answer right away (why cooper? why engineering?) and some of them i had to think about for a few days. the last one i wrote was the “tell us about something you read recently”. i wrote about staying up until three in the morning reading a novel and crying. i wrote it the next day because i realized that’s like, exactly who i am as a person. 

the biggest tip i have for writing these essays in general (not just for cooper) is to watch food network star or something similar. the contestants get prompted on how to hook an audience (hey, you want to do that too!) in a short amount of time (word count) and tell a story that relates to both them and their food (a story that relates to you and and why you’re going to be a bombass cooper student) like, just watch a few, and then you’ll kind of have the flow of it down, and you can figure out how to work it into your own writing

just like, really show who you are. i know it can be tempting to put on this facade, and to a certain extent you should (do not, for example, tell them about the time you got so drunk you pissed your pants) but do your best to express yourself, in either application. 

um anyways i am always down to talk about any aspect of The Cooper Union for the Advancement of Science and Art, so if you ever want any more info on anything, hit up my inbox!

my points of expertise include the dorms, classes, stanislav mintchev the greatest math professor in the history of the world, ray’s pizza, sitting in the engineering student council meetings and listening to all the Hot Goss, and more

i mighttttt end up putting up like “a week in my life” post at some point because i always think those are cool and maybe it would be neato

we’ll see

(if anyone want to see that…… or anything else……. lmk……..)

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1-25 tyshvan

ohhhkay, all 25 questions then... one second while i die, then put this under a readmore so y’all dont have to suffer

1. What is this character’s alignment? 

neutral good!!

2. What is a notable quote from this character? Alternatively, what is their favoUrite quote?

jeez, i have so many,,, uhhh maybe “you seem interested in dwarves. would you like a lesson in dwarven biology~?”

3. SummariSe your character’s backstory with no more than three sentences.

she had a happy childhood! then she went off to war! now she’s traumatised and has recurring nightmares and a strong determination to do what’s right! 

4. Describe your character using a song title.

just a song title? alrighty then, uhhhh, ‘Learn To Let Go’ or ‘Fighting For You’

5. Are there any story arcs you would like this character to explore?

i’d like to see her come to terms with her past, whatever that might mean. it might mean facing one pressure point from her life and reconciling, or it could be her accepting what happened and healing as best as she can. she needs to learn she can’t save everyone, and it’s not her fault if people die. to quote the founding fathers musical, “you have no control who lives, who dies, who tells your story”

6. What would your character like (or have liked) to do with their life?

tyshvan’s ALWAYS wanted to be an adventurer, so she’s pretty much in her ideal career path right now. she really wants a dog though, like,, a permanent dog, but she’s a dwarf and dogs dont generally live for 400 years

7. Who is your character’s best friend?

TENJAMIN C, but honestly she loves her entire party and would consider them all friends. tenny’s her Bro, so thats why he’s being singled out here

8. Who is your character’s worst enemy?

herself. no, thats too dramatic,, probably kalarel, an evil necromancer who’s kinda the main antagonist for the whole party rn

9. Who has, for better or worse, had the most impact on your character’s life?

hmmm, probably her ex gf, riswynn, who taught her the importance of standing up for what she believes... in by showing her what happens if she doesn’t

10. What is the most badass thing this character has done?

she rewrote fate itself to save tenny’s life (thanks to some magic card shenanigans)

11. What crime is this character most likely to be convicted of?

disobeying an order that would harm people,, (lmao she’s been court martial’d for this) or doing basically ANYTHING illegal in order to help people in the long run. she’s neutral good, so her opinion of the law... varies, depending on how much the law helps people

12. What meme would you use to describe the character?

you fucked up a perfectly good dwarf is what you did. look at it. it’s got anxiety

13. Does this character swear frequently?

not unless things are REALLY bad, and even then only in dwarven

14. What is this character’s relationship with religion or the church?

she’s,,, a cleric,,, but she doubts the gods really care all that much tbh? her current god, a mysterious forgotten god, definitely seems to care more than her last god, in her mind,, tho thats not always a good thing as the party is fully aware

15. Would this character ever make a deal with a devil or dark spirit?

if it was to save someone’s life, yes

16. Emotion or Logic?

EMOTION

17. Soup or Salad?

oh soup?

18. What is the character’s favoUrite Pokémon?

arcanine!! she loves dogs

19. What Pokémon Go team would they be on?

instinct, bc she’s a huge hufflepuff, but she’d also be a contender for valour bc she’s great and i have a bias for valour.

20. Is your character currently in love? Is there anyone in love with your character?

in love? nope, but she DOES have a lil crush (; and... the second part? well. who knows.................................... 

21. Do you ship your character with any other characters? (This includes characters from other universes and canons)

YEAH, uhh the whole party ships their characters with a wizard, equus,, (he’s amazing, it was love at first sight for the whole party) and there’s a character from tyshvan’s backstory (^:

22. How would this character seduce a lover?

she’s usually VERY direct with what she wants, like, she’ll gauge interest with conversation, then either go for the direct flirt/pickup line or otherwise confess to her feelings. like, the crush i mentioned before? is weird for her bc she’s used to just admitting shit almost immediatelyin a long term relationship, though, she’d be very obvious so there wasn’t any doubt. the last thing she wants is for a lover to doubt her intentions/interest

23. If your character could play any part in a drama, stage production, or musical, what part would they play?

she’d enjoy playing a minor character i’d say, but she’d probably get roped into being first aid

24. What is your character’s favoUrite album?

i honestly dont know a single full album that i enjoy other than crj’s E.MO.TION, so lets go with that

25. What does this character mean to you?

she means... a lot, tbh. like. she didn’t at first, but over time i grew to love her so much. she’s my first dnd character, and i use her to be the best person i can be. like, i can be incredibly selfish at times, but tyshvan wouldn’t dream of being selfish, so it’s kinda nice being Good for a change, and always caring for other people, and always trying to help even when its inconvenient or dangerous. she stands up for what she believes in, too, even to those she loves/loved. i admire that so much about her.

i had no idea how much i cared about her until she sacrificed herself in a battle royale type situation where she had to fight her own party to the death (it was in a dream, so everyone lived). either way, i cried when i wasn’t sure if she would come back to life, and that’s the point when i realised i cared so much about her