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A spell for my chosen father. Get better soon Outsan~♡

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More pics of last night~☆ @psychedelicfaerie we should have a tv show called Hippie and Goth where we solve mysteries. Murder mysteries🔪🔪

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Oh boy guys, don't feel obligated to read this, just a little venting. Did it here cause i know not many of my followers will read it. Not that is a bad thing, i don't normally write things on tumblr so idc. I don't read anyone else's stuff most of the time lol, didn't expect anyone else to😂 Haven't been on for a while....haven't been on anything really. Kinda been more radio silent than usual. I had just recently moved in with my boyfriend on may 20 of 2017. I know i should be happy, but I'm not. Not because I'm not in love with him or anything, but because i had left a home with the family i had made. He makes me so very happy, and my intuition said to follow along this path. But i can't seem to move past the ssdness or worry that's consuming me. I loved with the two people i consider as my parents, a person i consider as an older brother and the new members to my family (a couple and their 9 month old daughter). I had dreamt about moving in with these chosen parents of mine since i was 12. It was all I've ever wanted since i was 12, and when it finally happened, my chosen father had almost died. Luckily hes stubborn and survived. But it just continued to go Dien hill from there in life in general. With everything constantly hitting us every time we thought things were starting to get better, I've noticed a difference in my views in hope once again. And i feel like everyone else felt the same. It killed me too see them so sad. And i feel like i just left them in the dirt, which is the last thing i ever wanted to do. All i feel is guilt, worry, depressed and even paranoid. I feel like I'm never gonna see them again despite knowing that I'll be seeing them at least once a week on Wednesdays. Though i am Wiccan, my chosen mom has converted back to the Christian faith permanently. In a way, it's really hard for me because wicca was what connected us in the the first place. She had decided to teach me when i was caught practicing (foolishly) by my aunt. She was the only person i really did anything witchy with, and now it's just me. But I'm more grateful than sad. Reason being is because she is happier, there's the comfort that she was missing. As long as she has that, I'm happy. In recent history, she had converted back for the third and final time and now attends a bible study with a bunch of our lady friends (one being the new family member in my life). She had invited me to join. Being the person i am, i accepted. I was wanting to show my support and will always show intrest in someone's beliefs when they share them with me (unless it's being shoved down my throat of course). I'm completely comfortable in my faith and knew that i was surrounded by a group of beautiful, loving, open-minded women. So i thought why not. Song as how the bible study is held across the street from my old place, I'll get to stop by and see everyone too. This last week, after the study, i traveled across the street to see everyone. When i got there, and when i got there, i got completely anxious and felt so awkward because i felt so terrible. I don't want to lose them in my life.. My first pair of parents that actually do the job, who raise, love and care for not only me, but my brother and sister. My older chosen brother who gives the best hugs. I loved when i had a rough day and hed give me a hug when he'd come home at night just cause, i even loved when he'd ask me to give him one cause his day sucked! I felt so special! Even taking me to rad concerts with him, or throwing on a random cheesy ass 80s horror or stoner movie and chillin in the living room with me! And his precious dog who'd always jump up on me when i got home, even sit with me for hours when i was upset. And my new chosen family members and their daughter. Both talking to me and building a stronger bond with every conversation, helped me whenever I needed it. And their funny, beautiful baby girl. (I'll post some funny pics i took of her a few days before i moved out after this post) Seeing them, i feel like all i did was hurt them or let them down. Even then i worry that I'm just being conceited for feeling that way...i also feel like everyone is angry with me and the terrifying part is not knowing if everyone really is, or if it's all just my paranoia. Its madness... i don't know what to do, what my next step is and how i should approach it. But while doing my Bible study hw last week, i came across this verse (ephesians 2:14, the verse i used in the pic) and it just really kinda stuck with me. The wording is so pretty and the meaning is comforting. So i thought it be the perfect finish for the picture i took of Maui when we went on that hike. Originally i took it to edit and make a Christian based picture (with the women in bible study in thought before i was part of it) Though Im not Christian, this verse really means something to me. I view it not with Christian eyes, but through my own unique pagan eyes and see what it means to me.

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OOOHHH GETTING READY TO HEAD OUT FOR CAMPING WITH THESE BEAUTIFUL WOMEN!! YAY WOMEN'S RETREAT FROM LIFE'S SICK, SADISTIC HUMOR! !! SHROOMSSSSSSS🍄🍄🍄🍄🍄

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Got new shoes as a gift from a dear friend of mine and his parents. Loving my hair cut and dye that my boyfriend's mom took me to get. Been so spoiled lately.

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Chillin with my man. Hes playing world of warcraft

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Been playing with photo editing apps...

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Had a date, but since school books and gas are hella expensive, he couldnt afford the gas to pick me up, so instead im chillin with Cooky, Danelle and our neighbors & friends. So, still a good night

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Ran into my squad last night at First friday @aestheticafrogoddess @jinxmeunlucky @anastassia-necrophades

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