#protect armin at all costs

[augustisodd]

A continuation of my last post about these guys… Sorry if it’s a bit much lol.. If I find any mistakes I’ll come back and correct them, there’s just a lot going on here.

Their designs may be a bit inconsistent, this took a while to finally complete whenever I had the time… Anyway, have an AoT bug/sprite creature thing AU…

I’m in too deep, I think I’m gonna continue writing this li’l goofy thing…

[theunfairmaiden]

FUCK

Of course Armin cared a lot about Hanji. But also, he knew exactly what she was feeling. He was burnt alive too. That must have been doble traumatic.

[everythingseasoning]

How the AOT men love you (SFW & slight NSFW).. PT 1

MINORS: Please DNI. Further reading means you consent to reading everything here, though it's pretty vanilla tbh.

EREN - A bit rough around the edges regarding emotional intimacy. Don't get me wrong, he definitely will straight up tell you "I love you so much, y/n," -- he's not afraid of saying what he feels. However, because he isn't as reflective and insightful and calm as Armin is (Eren's a little more simple-minded), he isn't a guy who does fluffy stuff all the time. He's more about action and adventure -- always pulling you into the next great thing.

*NEEDS* you to be safe, and happy. He will only feel satisfied if you're doing okay. Man cares about you, more than anything else.

Oh .. oh, Eren is definitely very blunt, and stubborn. He sees things in his own way, and it's hard to convince him to back down on anything he's got his mind set to. However, the flip side of this, is that he is fiercely caring, and righteous. Will protect you at all costs, even for little things: Some as*hole at the grocery store cut you off in line and you almost fell to the ground? Eren has a hand on your back and waist, steadying you, before he storms up to the man with the DARKEST look of determined hatred. This man has ZERO chill. (and we love him for it).

You are the most important thing in the world to him. He loves you so intensely and passionately that you won't have a chance to ever doubt it.

Fluff 1) You and Eren like to go on walks/runs together. Sometimes you two have races. Eren always wins (the little b*tch--) or ends up slinging you across his shoulder while running, the biggest smile on both of your faces as you two enjoy the rush of being with each other, and life. Life with Eren is just so right, exciting, and full of good times.

Fluff 2) Just how many beautiful waterfalls have you seen with Eren? You've even hiked a purple-flower covered mountain with him! And you've both tried many wild fruits, from the strange oblong shaped ones to pretty yellow star shaped ones-- Usually you were the one to notice the fruit while Eren glanced giddily all around the forest canopy and ground. It was tradition that whenever you two discovered another fruit plant/tree, Eren opens up the Wild Fruits and Plants You Can Eat book, gifted to you by Armin ("So that Eren doesn't accidentally eat something poisonous.") Sometimes Eren is not as bouncy with energy when you two explore the world, and instead he will hold your hand as you two stroll casually, cuddling up on each other's warmth.

NSFW 1) Eren isn't afraid to just.. straight up ask you.. when he wants it. He will look you up and down, eyes full of hunger. "I want you. How 'bout you?" Whewwww. 😮‍💨

LEVI - ohh boy i have so much to say about this little dude...

Would go absolutely crazy and turn into a battle demon, if he saw the love of his life in danger. ...

If Levi somehow found the right somebody, and actually spent enough time with them to be in a relationship, he would NEED his partner to be safe. He will not risk losing you-- he won't. Not after Isabel and Farlan..not again. So if you're ever in danger, you will see an overpowered beast emerge from that man's body and soul.

Levi isn't the best at emotional intimacy, is very stiff when it comes to words of affirmation. He hadn't ever really thought about love. He never even thought he'd have the option to be safe physically, let alone be safe emotionally. --But when he does meet that person, they light up his life in ways that just stun him. They feel like a summer's glow. He will look 10 years younger with you by his side, will feel unprecedented relief whenever he goes back to you. Will scare all the cadets because he will have this stupid smile on his face whenever he sees you.

--But Levi is not used to being loved deeply. He wouldn't know what to DO with your love, and he'd definitely have trouble opening up and being vulnerable. Nonetheless, I do think he'd try; he has initiative to do well to you, and to give you everything he can give to you (starts off with him being your literal guardian demon, progresses into him becoming soft to you). It'd take time and effort for him to learn how to love you properly.

Fluff 1) In the beginning stages of your relationship, Levi would enjoy cleaning with you. He would find himself giving you commands to do more chores (with him).. because he -- wants to -- be with you -- so often??? (won't ever never admit this).

NSFW 1) Levi is a v*rgin. Yes. Yes he (most likely) is. He never met the right person before you, so he never had a chance/time to indulge in s*x. The first time you and Levi have s*x, Levi will have his mouth CLAMPED shut-- trying not to make a noise, trying to control his expressions of pleasure. You'll have to teach him/encourage him to just let go lol.

NSFW 2) Levi wanted to have s*x with you for so damn long cause he's soooo attracted to you, but he will not initiate it LOLLLL. He just doesn't know HOW to ask for that. You had to feel up on him and really let him know you wanted it (breathy whispers and requests), before he FINALLY took the reigns and pinned you against the wall, kissing you hard before taking you to the bedroom~~!!

Also, he's a fast learner. (Imagine with that what you will 🥵).

Fluff 3) & After you two finish, he will clean you up immediately. But after that he won't let you go. Will hold you in a hug for an eternity. Is addicted to your warmth and the love/care you two give to each other.

ARMIN - OH MY GOD NO BECAUSE - i'm so in love with this man - oKAYYY: Armin is a very thoughtful, perceptive, and practical lover. You would feel *so safe* around him, at ease, and like you can be your full self. He's very accepting.

Armin is also going to *look out for you.* He is insanely analytically accurate. He has a clear, reassuring, and gentle energy about him. You know that with Armin, you'll be protected from any new obstacle or harm's way.

You and Armin would see the world for fun. Armin is somebody who feels fascinated with exploring the world, and with learning. He'd probably want a partner who is brave. He'd probably want somebody whose actions or way of doing life, amaze him. He would be so f*cking blushy around you, stuttering and all, whenever you smile so brightly at him -- you're like the sun to him.

Armin *would die for you.* He practically died already, for Eren & the mission. Armin wouldn't hesitate to give himself up, because that's how deep and true his love is for you. (And you genuinely get mad at him for this... but neither of you will budge-- you'd both die for each other).

Fluff 1) You and Armin like to read together :'). Armin will have red blush dusted across his cheeks, and his eyes will be shining as he talks excitedly, imagining all the things the book talks about. You adore it.

Fluff 2) You tell Armin you had a rough day, and he will set up a bath for you. While you bathe in the dark with candles, Armin will be in the kitchen with stew or soup simmering on the stove, before he quietly leaves the house: He will personally scour the bookstore in order to find a book that he thinks will make you smile-- or a book you two will both enjoy reading together/discussing together. Literally this man is like light okay. When you come out from the shower he will be there with a fresh, steaming bowl of stew and a dessert he picked up from the store. You two will eat together and then read a book, cozily cuddling on the couch.. before things get s*xy.

NSFW 1) This man is a *PLEASURER* -- Everything will be gentle, but imbued with such strong love for YOU. Will worship your body. Armin will feel like the luckiest man alive. He sees all your goodness, admires you, and is huge on praising you. Also he moans a lot, even if it's just a soft one that escapes him. Not sorry.

NSFW 2) For my switches/d0ms: You care deeply for Armin, and you also want to see his face when he's a writhing mess-- Sometimes you'll tie him up, and he will... oh he will be so helpless and flustered. You will be giving him all the sensation and he will *love it so much.*

REINER - Somebody come get yo man TT!! Reiner is a f*cking sweet, really good guy. Would protect you and your children (if you have them)-- with EVERYTHING he has -- from difficult, unfair situations (like what he was put through). But, Reiner also probably would want somebody who is strong, because strength means you can protect yourself, and change the world -- Strength is a necessary trait for survival, and he is attracted towards people who are able to stay efficient and alive.

Reiner wants a morally beautiful/morally pure hearted partner. Definitely wants a good person (I mean... Him and Historia in Season, what was is, 2? --speaks for itself). AND I MEANNN Reiner has such a soft heart-- he literally cracked psychologically because he couldn't handle the trauma of being a double agent in a cruel world-- so his pure heart seeks out another pure heart <3

Reiner would ADORE relaxation time with you! He wants the soft fluff, and the soulful moments, like laying together under the stars-- being safe, peaceful, *free.* Reiner has had the burden of war and the Armored Titan like a boulder on his shoulders for ... as long as he can remember. When you're both cozied up together, hands interlaced under the big night sky, Reiner's heart will have bursted and melted all throughout his body. He hasn't ever felt freedom before-- until you. (don't mind me f*cking sobbing right now. he deserves the world!!)

Fluff 1) You and Reiner sometimes do typical, fluffy couple stuff, like go to parks and have picnics, or going to the aquarium, or baking together. Reiner loves the domestic life with you, and you will always catch him gazing dreamily at you, as if he's not sure you're really his. Are you actually right there in front of him? How did he get this lucky? ..Man short circuits a lot around you.

Will definitely be so caught up in his smittenness for you that when you drop the bread dough on the ground and start getting upset/sad, he will just be staring at you like o// //o, not even realizing what happened.

NSFW: I honestly haven't thought about this but I will update this post when I do have some accurate guess on what Reiner in the bedroom is like-- (you can comment if you wanna be tagged for when I do finish this post/ make part two)

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[verystrxxwberry]

What do you think each of the boys would like to receive as Christmas gifts?? Love your writing so much!

WHAT WOULD THE MCL, ML AND ELDARYA ROUTES WANT FOR CHRISTMAS

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𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭: My candy love (all routes), eldarya (all routes), ml (all routes), small and individual headcanons. ↝ 𝐂𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐭𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: First post of 2025! Happy New Year everyone. I didn’t really know which fandom you meant with this request, but I will include all of them!

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MY CANDY LOVE

Castiel: He insists in not needing anything (because whatever he needs he immediately buys it), but he might be very excited to get anything related with his guitar. The thing he’d be the most grateful about would be earplugs to protect his ears from the loud volumes of his concerts. He’ll be happy with cheaper things such as cozy blankets, new pajamas or even new slippers or shoes. 

Nathaniel: Whatever cat-related makes him as happy as a kid, even a gift for Snowy makes him feel excited. He doesn’t want you to spend much money on him and tiny things are enough. Even handmade things make his heart melt!

Lysander: He might like any gift that makes reference to some inner joke in between you. Handmade gifts are his favorite honestly, he loves ceramic mugs made by you!

Armin: Steam gift cards… any character figurine for his collection, any sweater related to a fandom he is in. He’s a freak, he is easier to gift.

Kentin: On the opposite to Nathaniel, something dog-related. A scarf or a coat might be good for his van trips to some colder places. Something more expensive he could get to enjoy is a smartbox to live a new experience with you, but he doesn’t want you to spend much money. Handmade chocolate cookies are also a great gift for him!!

Rayan: He adores being gifted books and even more if it’s a classic. He will never say no to reading Oscar Wilde, Edgar Allan Poe, Jane Austen, Stephen King or George Orwell. He is opened to other authors and other genres. He might also appreciate new formal clothes for his job or a handmade painting.

Hyun: Cute plushies are his thing, also cool jackets or coats. Warm and cozy socks to be home. Any vanilla scented candle for his bedroom might also work as a great gift. Skincare products are also a great option. He loves to get gifted stuff in boxes, everything together, so it is more exciting to see the amount of gifts he is going to open.

Priya: Candles! She doesn’t have a preference for any scent, as long as it can give a certain smell to her bedroom. She’d also be grateful to receive a new, medium lengthen notebook where she can write her thoughts. 

Devon: Massage card, man is stressed. He is such a romantic man and definitely would love to receive a handmade letter from you. Devon likes any tiny detail that comes from you, he doesn’t mind whether you invested money or not, which of course he prefers that you do not invest much.

Jason: There isn’t much this man needs other than genuine affection. Whatever he needs he also buys it almost immediately as he has got the sources to get them.  Yet new ties for his uniform are a thing he forgets most of the time. He prefers to get gifted unique things that no one else can have such as handmade stuff or experiences. But really, even something that doesn’t cost much money is good for him since it comes from you. Even if he finds something useless at first, he will find the way to make it useful.

Roy: He’s very easy to gift to because he likes absolutely everything. Something that involves an adventure, food, clothes, skincare, a fitness mat, products to take care of his hair… whatever is enough to make him excited.

Thomas: He makes you a list of gifts in case you need it. He might appreciate a new jacket to wear in his motorcycle, a gift card for one of the local yarn shops, motorcycle gloves, a steam gift card, a warm blanket for naps.

Amanda: A basket of candles, bath bombs and chocolates is perfect for her. She will be grateful with a basket of random teas as well.

ELDARYA

Ezarel: Sweets. Literally anything that is sweet af such as bonbons, cookies, honey, candies. He’d really like to receive ear warmers and a scarf.

Nevra: Your kisses and hugs are the best gifts for him! But if you wish to gift something material, probably a matching necklace (something elegant and not too colorful), the experience of having a romantic dinner with you is also a great gift for him.

Valkyon: A fancy cup for beer nights. A handmade letter, or simply your presence. He doesn’t want you to spend anything for him, and if you do, he hopes it is something for Floppy (a gift for her equals to a gift for him)

Leiftan: He’s gonna cry at any of your gifts, no matter if you bought it or you did it by yourself. He is going to drown in tears. Books, drawings, poems, crotchet figurines… he loves them.

Lance: Gloves for his freezing hands (so you don't freeze when he touches you), a good perfume, pajamas and a kiss :).

Mathieu: He is good with silly little stuff such as plushies, bracelets, necklaces or the dumbest shirts ever (he’s gonna go out with them without any shame). Cute cups, cute plates, anything to decorate his prosthetic leg.

MOONLIGHT LOVERS

Aaron: No matter if he loves his brown shirt too much, he lowkey needs a new one… so a brown sweater, shirt or jacket, it might be pretty useful. 

Beliath: Skincare products, a headband, haircare products because bro wants it to glow and be fancy. A bottle of red wine. Affection. Any sex-related stuff, even if it is in a joke, it might be a good gift as well.

Raphael: Books in braille! He knows how hard it is to find them, so it’s a great surprise for him to receive more. And even more if they are from your era, and he can get to know what kind of literature is made nowadays.

Vladimir: A bucket of candles and tea. Books, a bucket of flowers, a new cane that can be elegant or neutral. A letter made by hand, or even a poem. 

Ethan: Probably noise-cancelling earbuds for those times when there’s a storm. He’d be pretty glad to receive citrus soaps, a cool leather jacket. Or gift cards for clothing shops. 

Ivan: A gift card for Netflix, silly socks!! Or a silly blanket. Gift him food and he will be happy. Or bring him a nice cuddle session! That’s more than good for him.

Neil: He doesn’t follow the tradition of Christmas and won’t understand why is he receiving a gift. Still, he can never say no to some genuine and spontaneous thing coming from you, like you giving him some jewelry, some sweets or even gifting him a book you’d think he’d like. He appreciates handmade stuff but no need to be Christmas to give those gifts.

✰; remember to reblog and like to support my content, I hope you enjoyed it! Happy new year to everyone!

[starless-nightz]

I think I love you

note -> I love Mikasa so much i'm sad the fandoms practically dead.

pairing -> Mikasa Ackerman X fem! reader

warnings -> none.

contet includes -> fluff, smitten Mikasa, Mikasa confessing to reader, love at first sight, oblivious reader.

Mikasa never thought she would fall in love, after all she was too busy making sure Eren and Armin dont die while also being a cadet

The moment she saw you she felt a connection to you, she couldnt get her eyes off of you, even when training

Mikasa tried denying her feelings for you, but she knew she liked you, everyone knew except you, which she was glad about

She was often teased by her friends about her crush, especially by Yumir and Eren, who were always making faces behind you whenever you two talked

Armin and Historia would incourge her to confess to you, while it wasnt as obvious they were sure you had a crush on her too!

It would take a lot of convincing to make Mikasa confess to you, and it would take here even longer to actually confess

It would take a long time for Mikasa to muster the words 'i love you', she just didnt know how or when to say it

Mikasa would protect you at all cost, you are the most important person in her life and she would gladly die protecting you

Both her and Eren are protective of you, you are like a sister to Eren, if you are important to Mikasa then you are important to him

Mikasa would help you train, but she would make sure to hold back to not hurt you too bad

Whenever you get hurt she would stay with you until she knows you are 100% okay, and even then she wouldnt leave your side

[howboringislife]

Aot men and their favorite season

Including: Levi, Erwin, Armin & Jean

Cw: none

「 ✦ Levi ✦ 」

This man says that he doesn't have a preference for a season but he secretly loves fall. It's not too hot or too cold outside, ideal weather to wear hoodies. Levi likes to take walks with you in the forest, the colorful leaves softly falling on the ground to create the most peaceful and perfect view in the whole world. And once back home, he can share a warm cup of tea with you while watching a scary movie. He even accepts to have matching fall outfits with you because he secretly finds it adorable. Please, protect this man at all costs.

「 ✦ Erwin ✦ 」

Erwin is a total summer guy. He HATES to feel cold (he's an old grandpa after all). He's 100% the type to wear shorts with a cuban collar shirt and sunglasses. Erwin can spend all his day on the beach, giving him this nice summer tan that makes him even hotter (you don't know how he doesn't catch sun burns). Will drag you into the water or just splash some into your face to tease you, the water war is officially declared. And what's better than ice cream during a hot summer day? Nothing. Offer him some and he will be the happiest man in the world.

「 ✦ Armin ✦ 」

Armin loves all the seasons but he's definitely also a summer guy like Erwin. He hates the cold because he quickly falls sick. This man loves the sea and will beg you to go to there, I mean... how to say no to this sweetie? Armin will literally dash into the water, splashing it everywhere and laugh in happiness. He's gonna try to make some sand castles and find sea shells with your help. He is still a child deep inside him. And what about watermelon? He absolutely loves it (make him a plate of fresh juicy watermelon and he will be in heaven).

 

「 ✦ Jean ✦ 」

I see Jean as a winter guy. He likes the snow;  he finds it fascinating how these white little snowflakes manage to cover up everything in like one day. Also, the winter brings a lot of nice things! What's better than coming home all frozen up before cuddling with you under a warm blanket, drinking hot chocolate with small marshmallows while watching a comfort movie ? Even if he is grown up adult, Jean still likes to make snowball fights against you but immediately stop when he starting losing, pretexting that he got snow in his neck. Poor baby can't assume he lose a game.

[yourownutopia]

╰┈➤ In the midst of a critical mission to protect Eren, [Y/N] shoulders the weight of leadership while haunted by Levi’s trust and unspoken fears. As Titans close in and comrades fall, [Y/N] is driven by the desire to prove her worth and protect Levi’s hope, even at the cost of her own life.

┊ Levi x Fem! Reader ┊ Character Deaths ┊ Angst ┊

An old one-shot I just had to post solo. 😄 I know there are a few mistakes, but I hope you'll still enjoy it. If you have any feedback, please leave me a review. ❤️

"Hey, [Y/n], are you coming?"

You turned to see Eren, who had stopped and was waiting for you.

You smiled faintly and walked over to your teammate. You got along really well with the brown-haired Titan shifter, even though you were much older than him.

"Yessss~," you called out cheerfully and rejoined the group, which consisted of Connie, Sasha, Mikasa, Armin, Jean, Eren, and yourself.

You were glad to have them all by your side.

The group was heading back to the camp to eat and prepare for tomorrow's mission. Commander Erwin had decided to delay passing through the forest until the next day—it was too dangerous in the dark. Even though Titans weren’t typically active at night, he didn’t want to take any risks.

After dinner, you settled down with the others by the fire, staring into the flames. Your thoughts swirled, but they kept returning to the mission awaiting you tomorrow.

The mission was simple: bring Eren safely back to the walls.

But that day, an abnormal Titan had wiped out a third of your soldiers.

You were convinced it was another Titan shifter. Armin suspected a particular girl—Annie Leonhardt, you thought, though you weren’t entirely sure. Levi and Erwin kept the details to themselves to prevent rumors. But Levi trusted you.

He shared this information for one reason: to make you be careful.

Ever since you joined the Survey Corps, Levi had been keeping an eye on you, as he later admitted. From the beginning, you’d been in his squad. You ended up doing most of the punishments under him and receiving special training because, apparently, he’d seen “potential” in you.

Over time, you grew accustomed to him. You knew Levi didn’t want to fall in love, and neither did you. Besides, you couldn’t imagine him ever being interested in you. You were just one of many—a woman with no extraordinary talents, or so you thought. But Levi had always seen you as different from the others.

At some point, you had to admit it: you’d fallen for him.

And it was tearing you apart.

You hated yourself for it—for falling in love at all.

You had always avoided building close relationships, terrified of the pain of losing someone. You’d experienced it before, and it haunted you. Watching people die every day filled you with dread. You’d grown used to it, of course. But, like Levi, you couldn’t stop caring, no matter how much you wished you could.

A few months after joining the Survey Corps, you went through a terrible phase. The mental strain overwhelmed you. Night after night, you cried yourself to sleep.

You had nightmares, rarely slept properly, barely ate, and felt disconnected all the time. The lack of rest and nourishment took a toll on your body. Your skin grew paler, dark rings formed under your eyes, and you lost a lot of weight.

Everyone was worried about you. They tried to cheer you up, encouraged you to eat, but nothing worked. Your focus waned, and during one mission, you narrowly escaped death.

-‘๑’-

“[L/n], what the hell are you doing?!”

You lay on the ground, wide-eyed and staring blankly into the sky. Your life had just flashed before your eyes. Exhaustion had dulled your reflexes, and you’d failed to notice the abnormal Titan approaching your group.

You fired a flare far too late, and the Titan wiped out nearly your entire squad. It grabbed you, its grip crushing the air from your lungs as you choked. Staring into the monster’s grotesque face, you saw its mouth opening wide, ready to devour you.

You had already accepted death, your life flashing by like a Film in fast-forward.

Then, just as you gave up resisting, you heard the familiar whir of 3DM gear. A shadow darted behind the Titan, and its grip on you loosened. The creature fell, steaming as it hit the ground, and you landed roughly on the rocky terrain.

Too shocked to cry, you lay there trembling. Your blood pounded in your ears, your heart racing wildly. You hugged yourself, trying to steady your shaking body.

A shadow loomed over you, footsteps approaching. You didn’t look up, too consumed by shame. It was your fault your squad had died.

Levi knelt before you, his harsh voice barely registering through your daze. You didn’t respond. Not until a stinging slap snapped you out of your shock.

“Pull yourself together, dammit.”

You hadn’t noticed Levi gripping your shoulders, shaking you slightly. But it worked—you returned to reality. You nodded, and the two of you whistled for your horses.

When you returned within the walls that evening, the crowd jeered at you, throwing insults and even objects. Some begged for news of their children, siblings, spouses.

On the outskirts of the crowd, you saw two children watching you with admiration, their smiles full of awe. Normally, you would have smiled back, inspired by their belief in you. But today, you couldn’t. You were too broken. You simply stared ahead, your expression grim, tuning out the voices around you.

They didn’t understand what it meant to face a Titan.

To see comrades—no, friends—die before your eyes, yet rise again to fight another day.

-‘๑’-

It was late at night, and you were sitting on your bed, staring at the floor in deep thought.

Your body was still trembling slightly from the tension.

You had hoped that despite your current condition, you would still be allowed to remain in the Scouts and continue to help. But today, because of you, a dozen people had lost their lives—simply because you weren’t in top physical and mental form.

The decision wasn’t an easy one, but you knew it was best to desert.

With a heavy sigh, you stood up and left your room.

The hallways were, as expected, deathly quiet and dark, save for a few torches lighting the long corridor.

You knew Levi would still be awake.

So you made your way to his office and knocked softly.

Silence.

In that case, you’d write him a letter, pack your things, and leave.

Just as you were about to turn away, his deep voice called out from inside the room.

“Name and reason,” his typically monotone voice sounded.

“[Y/N] [L/N], um—”

“Come in,” his voice interrupted before you could explain your reason.

You reached for the polished door handle and pushed it open.

Levi was leaning against the window, arms crossed, watching the rain. It was as if the sky itself was crying, mourning for humanity.

You quietly closed the door behind you and stood in Front of his desk.

“I want to thank you for saving me today,” you said, your voice a little hoarse as you looked at him.

Levi waved it off, turning his head toward you. His cool, gray eyes bore into your dull [E/C] ones.

“That’s not all, is it? There must be another reason why you’re showing up here at such a late hour.”

Caught, you nodded and nervously clasped your hands behind your back.

“Y-Yeah, uh…” You swallowed the lump in your throat.

“Get to the point.”

“I want to leave the Scouts,” you finally said, watching his face to see how he would react.

But Levi wouldn’t be Levi if he made it that easy.

He merely furrowed his eyebrows and stared at you.

“Why?” he asked after a long silence, pushing himself off the wall. He took a few steps closer, observing you intently.

You averted your gaze to avoid his piercing stare.

“It’s not important.”

“It is to me.”

You looked up, taken aback. That wasn’t what you had expected.

“Because…” you trailed off. What were you supposed to say? Pour your heart out to your superior? Definitely not. Levi had his own problems to deal with.

“Did you lose your nerve?” he asked, the corner of his mouth twitching briefly, if only for a millisecond.

“No! I—it’s just that I…” You searched for the right words but couldn’t figure out how to express yourself so he’d understand.

“I think my mind just can’t handle it anymore,” you admitted with a heavy sigh, meeting Levi’s neutral gaze as he looked down at you.

Though he wasn’t particularly tall, your 1.54-meter stature made you feel like a Gnome.

“T-Today, countless people died under my command.”

“It wasn’t your fault. I’ve already told you that several times. I thought you’d finally understood that,” Levi said, bracing a hand on his desk.

“I-I know, and I did understand… but this time, it really was my fault,” you said, feeling tears well up in your eyes as you quickly let your bangs fall over your face.

“I was just too unfocused, too sleep-deprived, and—” You sniffled briefly, hot tears rolling down your cheeks.

“I gave the signal to change direction too late. I was responsible…! I just don’t know how to deal with it anymore—” Your words were cut off by another sob, your body trembling.

“They died under my command, Levi!” you cried out, looking up and directly into his gray eyes.

For the first time in a long while, he felt guilty.

He had thought you could handle it when he put you in charge of the team. He believed you could bear the burden—but clearly, you couldn’t.

“I can’t risk other people’s lives because of my problems! It’s better if I leave,” you said, pressing your hand to your eyes and biting your lower lip to stifle another sob. Instead, a pitiful whimper escaped your throat as you felt two strong arms gently wrap around you.

The dark-haired man didn’t know how else to respond. He wasn’t often faced with crying women he liked—especially not this close.

Your pale fingers clutched at his gray shirt as you let your tears flow freely.

“If anyone’s to blame, it’s me. I’m the one who gave you command. Besides, everyone has to carry this burden—and you’re strong, which is why I know you can handle it. I’ll stay by your side. You’re not alone—don’t forget that.”

Through your tears, you managed a faint smile.

To Levi, it felt like an eternity before your trembling finally subsided and your tears dried.

At some point, you must have passed out from exhaustion, because the next morning, you didn’t wake up in your own room.

The two of you often met at night to talk, and it helped you tremendously.

Soon, you started eating properly again.

If nightmares woke you in the middle of the night, you’d go to him. He stayed by your side until you fell asleep.

Your strength gradually returned, and you could once again give your best on missions. You never lost focus again.

All in all, Levi had saved your life—not just your body but also your soul, which was slowly healing.

To this day, you weren’t quite sure what kind of relationship the two of you had, but it didn’t matter.

As long as you could be together, it didn’t matter whether you were a couple or not.

You smiled contentedly, staring into the flames of the warm campfire before closing your eyes and drifting into the land of dreams.

-‘๑’-

The next morning, everyone was up before sunrise, packing their belongings so that you could depart as soon as the sun rose.

You sat on your horse, Eren just behind you. To his left and right were Mike and Auro. Petra brought up the rear, ensuring Eren was most protected in the center.

Levi would follow later, though it didn’t sit well with him to entrust you with such a large responsibility.

At first, he had asked Petra if she wanted to take command, but you stepped in and took the responsibility yourself.

“You have to get Eren through the forest and protect him with your lives. Do you understand?” Erwin looked at each of you intently.

“Yes, sir!” the four of you replied in unison.

“We depart in 30 seconds.” With that, Erwin moved away from your group.

“Please don’t die, [Y/N],” Levi said quietly, looking at you.

“Believe in me,” you replied with a warm smile.

He nodded, giving you a brief, soft look before riding back to Erwin.

The last time he had heard those words, the most precious people in his life had spread their wings and flown straight to heaven.

Now, too, he had a sinking feeling in his gut, warning him against leaving you alone—but he had no choice.

The signal to depart sounded, and you all rode out.

Apart from the clatter of hooves, the wind rustling through the leaves, and the birds cheerfully singing their songs, everything was silent.

You didn’t hear any footsteps or feel the ground tremble.

Erwin stayed back with the other troops, riding along the left and right flanks of the forest.

The purpose of this mission was to confuse Annie, who was clearly after Eren, and lure her onto a false trail.

She was among one of the outer troops, and Levi was tasked with keeping an eye on her.

That’s why he hadn’t joined you.

With Levi and the other troops, everything seemed fine. He kept an eye on Annie, making sure she didn’t slip away unnoticed.

“Titans!” someone shouted, pointing to a group of eight Titans of varying sizes.

Mikasa glanced at Levi, who nodded, and the troops prepared to engage.

Some soldiers fell in battle, but in the end, they managed to kill all the Titans and re-form their ranks.

But moments later, a yellow flash lit up the sky. Thunder cracked loudly, and the ground shook beneath them.

Levi turned his head in every direction, only to realize that the blonde was no longer among the recruits.

“Damn it,” he muttered, pulling his reins sharply to head toward the forest. But another group of Titans emerged from the trees, blocking his way.

He had no choice but to fight.

“[Y/N], stay alive until I get there,” he thought grimly.

Relief washed over everyone as you neared the forest’s edge, with no major incidents so far.

You, too, were relieved—but something about the situation still felt off. It had been so quiet the entire time.

You hadn’t heard any flares signaling for help or any calls to retreat.

Your suspicion proved correct. Before long, the ground trembled, and fast footsteps approached.

To your left, trees toppled over, and a massive foot swept over your heads.

You all looked up in horror, meeting the icy blue eyes of the Titan, who leapt over you and came to an abrupt stop.

You spurred your horses to their limits, pushing them as fast as they could go. The Titan would soon be on your heels.

“Turn!” you shouted, yanking your horse’s reins to change direction. The others followed your lead.

You could still feel the ground quaking under the Titan’s steps, but it remained out of sight. Following your orders, your group zigzagged through the forest until you eventually returned to the main path.

You all exhaled in relief, the adrenaline beginning to fade.

You thought you’d lost her, but you were wrong.

A few minutes later, the footsteps returned. Glancing behind, you saw her closing in again—fast.

“I could transform into a Titan and protect us!” Eren called out, looking ahead to you.

“Do you trust me?” you asked, turning your head toward him.

“Yes, but—”

“Then don’t question me.”

Eren wasn’t satisfied with your answer, but he knew he had to trust you.

“[Y/N], what should we do?” Petra called out to you, with Mike and Auro giving you expectant looks as well.

They awaited orders—orders that wouldn’t send them to their deaths.

But you said nothing. You simply kept riding straight ahead, the Titan gaining on you with every passing second. It would soon reach you.

“[Y/N]!!” Petra’s voice was panicked. She was scared because you remained silent.

Auro and Mike were growing impatient too.

“[Y/N], say something, damn it!” Auro turned back, his voice tense, before looking ahead again.

Eren was on the verge of biting his hand to transform into a Titan, but your earlier words echoed in his mind.

You closed your eyes, thinking about what Levi would do in your place.

The Titan had finally caught up to you.

“[Y/N]!!” Petra screamed, shrill and terrified, as the Female Titan reached out its massive hand toward you.

“SWITCH TO 3DM GEAR!” you shouted, leaping off your horse.

The others followed your lead, the Titan’s hand swiping through empty air. You hurried, using your 3DM gear with all the gas you could muster, pushing your speed to the limit.

Eren led the group, you close behind, with your teammates trailing at the rear.

But Annie wasn’t stupid. She pursued relentlessly and managed to grab Auro’s wire. With brutal force, she hurled him to the ground, his body crushed upon impact.

You knew sacrifices would be necessary, so you kept your focus entirely on Eren. He had to survive, no matter if your entire team—including you—perished.

A piercing scream rang out, deafening you, and you turned just in time to see Petra kicked against a tree by the Titan. Blood sprayed everywhere, painting the tree and the ground around it.

There was no time to mourn. The Titan was still chasing you.

You turned back to Eren.

“Eren, listen to me. We’re turning back now. I’ll hold her off as long as I can while you fly ahead and find Levi. Do you understand me?”

His shocked, wide eyes met yours, and he shook his head vehemently. He thought this was his fault.

“I won’t let anyone die if I can save them. I’ll transform into a Titan and save you! I won’t let you die!”

“DON’T QUESTION ME‘‘, you yelled, your voice trembling with hysteria and fear. There was no room for arguments anymore.

“Do you trust me or not?”

You didn’t even trust yourself. You were terrified of dying, but Petra and the others had died for Eren. They believed in you.

You would believe too.

You couldn’t face Levi with tears in your eyes, admitting you’d failed. You wanted him to be proud of you.

You wanted to be useful.

Eren reluctantly gave in, nodding sadly.

“Good. I’ll count down from three, and then we’ll change direction. Got it?”

Eren nodded again, preparing himself.

“Three.” Your hands gripped the controls of your gear, targeting a suitable spot.

“Two.” Your heart pounded wildly against your chest as you took a deep breath.

“One.” Your hands trembled, damp with sweat.

“Go!”

You fired your hooks into the trees on either side, slowing down. Eren followed suit.

Using the remaining momentum, you pushed backward, just as you’d hoped. The Titan hadn’t anticipated the maneuver and barreled past you.

But she skidded to a halt and turned sharply, preparing to give chase once again.

You signaled to Eren to keep going no matter what happened, and he nodded, focusing on the path ahead.

You managed to gain some distance, but the Titan was quickly closing in again.

It was your time now.

You stopped using gas, intentionally slowing down. She would think you’d run out.

Out of the corner of your eye, you saw her massive hand reaching for you.

But just before she could grab you, you fired your hooks into her torso and shoulder blade—one blade reversed, exactly as Levi had taught you.

Using incredible speed, you spun along her arm, slicing deep into her flesh.

Her icy blue eyes followed you closely, and before long, her arm hung limp at her side.

You aimed for her nape, but just as your blades touched her skin, a crystal layer formed, shattering your weapons.

You immediately replaced them, cutting into her body again—her arms, her eyes to blind her, and down her leg.

But she caught you in the end, squeezing your body tightly in her massive grip.

Before losing consciousness, you threw your blades with all your strength at her heel, causing her to stumble and crash to the ground with a thunderous noise.

The next moment, all you felt was searing pain.

-‘๑’-

Levi flew at breakneck speed through the treetops, desperately hoping to find you alive.

He had a sinking feeling in his gut but clung to hope, fragile as it was.

Even if it could shatter like a soap bubble, he needed to see for himself.

Unless he saw your lifeless body with his own eyes, he wouldn’t believe you were gone.

As he neared the location where his comrades had fallen, he saw it—a body dangling lifelessly in the air, blood splattered everywhere.

Time seemed to slow as he flew past the corpses of his team members.

Petra’s bloodied body leaned against a tree, her head tilted skyward, her eyes cold and lifeless.

In that instant, all his hope disappeared.

But so did his other emotions.

Fear for you and the sorrow welling up inside him were suppressed by cold reason.

The sky began to weep.

Then he saw it—a massive, steaming skeleton sprawled on the ground, its flesh barely clinging to its bones.

Beside it lay a human body.

Levi landed and approached slowly. He could already see your [h/c] hair, matted with dirt and blood. Your uniform was soaked with blood, and your body was broken.

His steps faltered as he dropped to his knees beside you. He gently turned you onto your back.

Your half-open eyes and slightly parted lips made it seem like you had wanted to say something.

Your body was still warm. You hadn’t been gone long.

Levi rested your head on his lap, gripping your uniform as tears silently fell, landing on your bloodied cheek.

They mingled with the rain, now falling harder.

“Believe in me.”

He had believed in you and lost you.

But you’d done your best—you’d given your life to carry out his orders.

He was proud of you, and you knew that.

Gently, he closed your eyes and mouth with his fingers.

Levi tilted his head back, releasing a short cry of despair before lowering his gaze again.

He softly stroked your hair, your serene face looking like you were peacefully asleep.

“Heichou,” Eren said, his voice trembling. Levi turned his head toward the brunette, who was wiping tears from his face, appearing behind a nearby tree.

Eren stepped closer as Levi gently laid your head on the grass and stood up.

“She did everything right,” Eren said, attempting to smile at the Corporal.

“Her orders were absolutely correct. She saved my life‘‘, he added, looking down at the [h/c]-haired girl.

“We should go,” Levi said, standing up.

Eren nodded, glancing down at you one last time before following Levi’s lead.

Levi smiled faintly, looking back at you before taking to the skies.

“I’m proud of you, [Y/N].”

“[Y/N], are you coming? We should go,” Petra called out, smiling at her friend.

You smiled back briefly, nodding. “I’m coming!”

You spread your wings and joined the others, forever at Levi’s side, watching over him.

Petra and you flew to his left, while Auro and Mike stayed on his right.

We’ll be your wings.

[moonspirit]

Hi! I'm the same Anon who asked about the hypothetical situation of Annie NOT crystalising herself and the other possible set of events occurring. I read your thoughts and I honestly never even thought about another Kenny and Annie reunion and just.. talking, quite interesting! (Not to mention Pam's own idea that they wrote - I like it!) Including another mentioning a fic where Annie sees her Dad as a Titan during the second Colossal Titan attack and.. I may had a pretty devious idea. So, let's say Annie did in some way join the Scouts (or just is betraying the Warriors,) so during the mission to retake Shinganshina and there's the scene where Zeke & the mindless Titan's appear, what if one of those mindless creatures was her Dad? (This next part, I'm somewhat iffy since it really feels I mis-characterised her since I tend to mess up, so my apologies!) I'm not sure HOW it could play out then, maybe Annie in some desperate attempt to hold her Dad down so it's not mauled by Levi or Zeke. Though, one thing is clear, she sees the Colossal Titan going down and realises that in some selfish way.. she could bring her Dad back, it'll be a curse he'll bare too but at least she'll see him. And oh.. That's Armin. Completely charred, yet still breathing. With the Scouts debating whenever to save Erwin or Armin. This is all I have before I genuinely write more nonsense, I appreciate taking your time to answer my previous question. Please, have a lovely day! (AND I'M SO SORRY FOR HOW WORDY THIS IS)

Oohhhh hello again anon! I'm honestly so relieved you saw my answer because you sent me the ask on sept 19th and... I took nearly a month to answer - very sorry T^T But I enjoyed it so much and yes, the variety of thoughts on it have been incredibly interesting!

Some quick things first tho 1. you don't have to apologise for a long-ask, they are genuinely enjoyable xD 2. I don't think there's such a thing as mis-characterization especially when we talk about a completely new what-if scenario because there's soooooo many little things influencing a person's thoughts and actions and the resultant outcomes. So nope, there are only headcanons, they are all valid, and you don't need to worry about anything else :>

Now to your ask!

🙃

How dare you now bring THREE contenders for the serum with Annie in the mess? Erwin, I don't see her caring for, but now it's Armin vs. her Dad?

What in the gut-wrenching angst is this, holy shit anon 🥲

But no, genuinely I don't think Annie trying to protect her father from Levi's attacks is out of character for her. That is her DAD. She may have joined the Scouts as you say, but maybe that's because it's her best chance for survival. Betraying the warriors isn't Annie's concern, it's betraying her dad. At any cost, even by joining the scouts, she must return to him.

Only, she probably didn't expect to see him in Paradis, and as a titan no less.

Of course she's abandoning everything else (let's say she doesn't know of Armin's plan) and rushing to protect her father and get him out of the line of fire - perhaps by taking him down in her titan form and dragging him to safety, using her scream to summon other pure titans to whoever is attacking and using the time to do so.

(wait... now I suddenly have the mental picture of Annie and Zeke engaging in a screaming match 🥲)

Her sudden switch in priorities isn't likely to bode well with the others, especially when so much is happening and the Scouts find themselves in a dangerously cornered pinch.

Annie's very good at analyzing a situation and quickly making problem-solving decisions, given two options, she chooses the one in which she has a greater chance of survival (yet sometimes she also willingly walks in to dead ends thanks to her heart, but that's canon). Like leaving Marco on the roof vs saving him, but now..... now we have an extreme situation.

Say she thought immediately crosses her mind - of feeding her father the colossal once she learns it's been taken down. She may not have become attached to Bertholdt as much as she considered him a companion in their mission and someone from home, but he's still... a companion. A fellow warrior.

How do you feed such a person to your father?

And then of course:

That's Armin. Completely charred, yet still breathing.

How do you save your father at the cost of losing the one boy who makes your heart beat faster than the wind?

The one boy you swore you'd protect, as long as you wore the wings of freedom by his side.

The one boy who's looked you in the eyes and said I love you.

Nothing makes sense anymore.

[cosmicjoke]

One tactic that some Eren fan once tried to argue to me, in trying to defend Eren's actions, is that Isayama, halfway through his story, suddenly decided that fighting back was "bad", and that's the cause of Eren's supposedly sudden shift in character at the end of the story. This person basically tried to blame it on Isayama changing his mind about the themes of AoT and, thus, on bad writing. They couldn't just accept that that was who Eren was all along; a whiny, selfish child that put himself and his desires above everyone else. Eren isn't bad because he was "fighting back", he's bad because he used the justifiable cause of self-defense as an excuse to commit horrific atrocities, when the real reason behind his actions was a childish inability to accept the way things were. It's why Eren's murder of the two sex traffickers who had kidnapped Mikasa was, on its face, justifiable, but the real reason behind Eren's actions wasn't. He did it because he was bored and enjoyed it. He could have waited for his father to get the authorities, but he didn't. And he didn't because he wanted to do what he did. He wanted to commit murder. It wasn't self-defense, it was self-indulgence.

Isayama never condemned the concept of self-defense or fighting back, and I think anyone who thinks he did wasn't paying any kind of attention to what they were reading/watching, and they aren't giving AoT enough credit for its nuance and sophistication.

The thing about AoT is that it doesn't present or force any sort of black and white moralistic world view on the reader/viewer. I talk about this with Levi a lot, how Levi is really representative of how morality isn't a static concept. How it varies and depends on the circumstances. He's a good man, the kindest, most compassionate man, that does quote on quote "bad things". Bad things within the context of normal society. But context always matters, and violence and killing isn't always wrong, even as it's always tragic. Jean, for example, very harshly criticizes Levi for killing people, only to be placed shortly thereafter in a position of having to kill in order to defend both himself and the lives of others; and when he falters and fails to do so, it's Armin who's forced to take that burden upon himself. We see in that moment how Jean's static morality and stubborn world view caused great harm to one of his friends, because he was more interested in preserving that static idea of morality and, thus, his own self-comfort, than he was in protecting his comrades. Jean's unmoving morality costs Armin dearly. Jean, in that moment, was extremely selfish.

And yet Levi later says to Jean that he doesn't know what's wrong or right, and he doesn't condemn Jean for his inaction, but simply states a fact; that Armin saved his and others lives by taking action in his place. Isayama's themes are never so basic or self-righteous as to present a definite answer on moral questions. He never tries to convey any kind of black and white world view. Rather, he presents the complexity of morality, and it's ever shifting conditions, while also showing us the oft tragic outcome of violence, even when that violence is justified or necessary.

Eren's actions weren't actions taken in self-defense or defense of others, they weren't necessary to his or anyone else' survival, and so they can't be defended and aren't justifiable. But Eren was given the power he was in an attempt at self-defense. Because a group of people was being persecuted and punished for things they weren't responsible for. That act of giving Eren power is justifiable. And that's the tragedy. Of having to rely on a bad person like Eren in a desperate attempt to survive. Just like Armin's emotional distress at having to kill in order to save Jean was a tragedy. Armin was justified, but it didn't stop him from being damaged by the event. It's not the self-defense itself that's wrong, but the fact of people being placed in a position of having to defend themselves at all, and all the many consequences of that, including the trauma is causes, both to ourselves and others, the sometimes ugly things it forces us to, and the cyclical, inescapable nature of it, that's tragic.

So it's not about questions of right and wrong, good or bad. Really, AoT is more a study on the tragedy of human nature and of nature itself. The world is cruel but beautiful, as Mikasa says. It's designed this way, and we're designed this way, and that's the way it will always be. Kill or be killed. Nature itself is predicated on that truth.

[quills-of-freedom]

Headcannons ~

What they're like when you're on your period

Female Reader ~ Reiner, Jean, Levi, Eren, Armin

Including: What they're like with one of those cramp simulator things

Warnings: Well, period stuff. If it grosses you out, don't read.

Reiner

10/10 Reiner will always know when you're period is due and when it comes. In a different way to how Armin knows (below) Reiner senses it more with his astuteness for your moods.

He can pick up on the tiniest changes within people when he knows them well enough, so when your temper begins to shorten or notices you tearing up a little more easily during a movie - he's got you figured out.

If you verbally complain about cramping, he'll comfort you with a cuddle and get you a hot water bottle ready. He'll suggest running a bath, but before you even have time to answer, he's on his way to the tub to start it for you.

He's not against getting you your favourite snacks but he will try to persuade you to eat healthier snacks like fruit - just because he wants your body to function well, no other reason.

Reiner has a soft spot / huge kink for anything soft and feminine so for example, his breeding kink; he views a pregnant woman as something so precious that must be protected at all costs. It's the same when you're on your period so he will try to have sex with you and he'll not care about the mess - he'll just shower and place a towel down.

But if period sex isn't your thing, then for god sake put him in your mouth or something because he's borderline pestering feral.

Winces slightly when Connie brought over that period electronic device thing. He tries to hold in a whimper, his macho image at risk - but it certainly relates to your pain more now, but he wasn't exactly ignorant about it before that.

Jean

Jean is so underrated with how good of a partner he is. If anyone else complained of a stomach cramp (usually Sasha and Connie after eating too much) although he's aware they're different things, because it's you it's the biggest tragedy known, that you're in pain.

Hands you painkillers, a drink, snacks and has no problem running to the store to get you whatever you need.

Rubs your feet for some reason. They're not hurting, but he does it.

Jean isn't here nor there when it comes to period sex. He'd rather not, because it might hurt you / will make a mess but if the woman he loves wants his intimacy, he won't turn you down.

Encourages you to exercise through the pain. He read somewhere it helps. Please, someone gently tell this man that the last thing you wanna do is go out running in tight lycra.

He is confused about all the different brands, sizes and flow charts when he's picking up your sanitary products. He will probably call up Sasha to ask for assistance.

Sasha thought it would be funny to tell him the flow drop indicator meant how much water is needed to "activate" them. He believed that for a good week.

Jean drops to the floor when he has the electric cramp simulator on his lower abs, totally taken by surprise; also Eren started it on the highest setting because, well, he can be a prick sometimes.

Levi

Levi isn't one to shower someone with blatant love and affection, he shows he cares in his own little ways.

Will always make sure wherever you keep your products is always stocked full, and secretly leaves a chocolate bar or something within it for the next time you go into it.

Will gladly run you a bath. Periods are dirty as hell.

Will not have sex with you ever on your period. He would make exceptions if, for example, you're having problems where you're bleeding more often or for longer. But if everything is how it should be, then don't even think about asking.

Will give you lower back rubs if you're in pain but works it around what he's doing. Sometimes he'll sit you on his knee while doing paperwork and one hand kneading into your flesh (he's great at massages btw)

Remains stone-faced with the cramp machine but once he is free of it, will see lady-time in a whole new light.

Eren

Eren is always caught between an immature mindset and a solemn awareness of the world and how it works. So depending on his mood will depend on how he treats it.

Worst case scenario, he tells you to suck it up and get on with it like you do every month. But will still lazily put his large, warm hand upon your lower stomach to help ease it a little.

Best case, he'll run to the store to pick up what you need.

Eren isn't fussed if you want sex while on your period. He just showers and cleans up after. But if you don't want to, he understands.

Grits his teeth and winces when he gets a taste of what a cramp can be like - but still insists he could handle it. Which, coming from the man who can gauge out his own eye and amputate his leg, those words aren't worth much salt.

Armin

Amin comes to learn your cycle like the back of his hand (if you're regular)

He notes your increase in appetite (not in a negative way at all) and how often you seem to get fired up for him. He knows when you're ovulating so if you ever tried for a baby with him, he'll know when is best to go for it.

Armin won't ask for sex if you're on it, but won't deny you if you want it either.

Will run you hot bubble baths, get you snacks, anything for his princess.

Armin was already clued up about how bad cramps can be, so he refused to do the simulator.

[the-last-thread-of-my-sanity]

Losing my mind a little bit rewatching the final episode in dub…

I don’t think anyone talks enough about Annie and Mikasa right after Falco rescues the group.

Firstly, I absolutely love that Annie yells out to Mikasa as they swoop in- like things couldn’t be more dire, Mikasa is giving this badass speech and then Annie is just yells at her that she’s in the way with the same tone you would call out to someone who was blocking you on the sidewalk. Annie is honestly so funny sometimes and we don’t talk about it enough. And the okapi scene with them? Most levity in the entire finale arc in my opinion.

Most importantly to me though, when Levi makes the call that they need to split up and kill Eren and everyone is making their case as to why it hurts but they have to do it (Jean is the only one who apologizes to her, identifying that this is going to hurt her more than anyone else- but that’s a post in of itself) and Annie is the one who is able to prevent Mikasa from spiraling and get her back on track.

How?

Not by reasoning with her, or telling her to toughen up, or any of those heartless or logical things that we might be tempted to associate with Annie. Instead she tells her to focus on rescuing Armin and let the others worry about Eren.

This is interesting coming from Annie for a couple of reasons. Obviously it’s in her best interest to remind the group that Armin still needs rescuing since she cares for him and wants to focus on that herself. But I also think it matters that Annie is able to understand how to reach her. Mikasa wants more than anything to protect the people she loves- she can’t imagine ever harming them. By giving her something else to focus on, Annie is saving her from the hurt of thinking about Eren.

But not only that- Annie has been in her position.

Knowing she could die, that it would cost her the mission, that it was a betrayal of her other comrades (including Marcel who had already died)- knowing all of this, she was unable to kill Armin. On multiple occasions! Even without the bond of growing up with him such as in Mikasa’s case with Eren, the feelings she had for Armin wouldn’t allow her to hurt him.

Annie knows that she can’t possibly ask Mikasa to do something she wasn’t able to do. So she encourages her with a purpose that Annie herself can relate to. Fighting for the family she has left.

And there’s just something so touching and human about Annie’s ability to realize that in such a tense moment, and I don’t think we talk about it enough.

[sunflowersunite]

Here for the headcanon game, and as usual I've got a lot to ask 😁

☾ - Eren, Armin, Erwin, Mike, Mikasa

★ - Erwin, Pieck

▼ - Hange, Mike

Hellooo Swordslinger! Thank you for indulging me in this fine day in this fine game and sorry for the late response, I wanted to think about this in depth 😁

I had way too much fun coming up with these, the plethora of characters presented here is so interesting!! It sparked my creativeness and I always love a challenge so without further ado

sleep headcanons

☾ Eren: he's the type to have the wildest dreams influenced by the whirlwind of emotions that drive him, and they're so vivid that he believes them to be true the next morning. He dreamt humanity defeated the titans and he was the most joyous he's ever been the next day. When he dreamt Hange dissected him with a cactus, he avoided her all week. His top dreams also include:

Connie stuffing his socks with molten cheese

Sasha munching on the flesh of his thigh and nibbling on his femur (it was terrifying)

Levi kicking him to the point of complete obliteration and Mike inhaling the remains (that happened after the jury scene)

Mikasa dating Jean. This one wasn't that extraordinary but Eren was mad at Mikasa for a whole day and he didn't even know why. He doesn't care, right...?

☾ Armin: he curls up in a fetal position, rolled up in a colourful blanket and he's warm and adorable, he must be protected at all costs. The 104th invented a game where the objective was to pick up Armin and carry him round like a baby while doing the craziest challenges like hopping on one leg or doing a handstand or having freezing water poured down their backs. The winner was whoever could do all that with Armin remaining asleep for the longest time. Reiner won more often, Connie lost all the time.

☾ Erwin: he's a sleep talker. that man hasn't slept soundly since the dawn of time, always on about the next day's mission while unconscious. You can even strike up conversations with him, Hange has tried and it's hilarious. he slurs out "charge" every two sentences into the discussion. he's even sleepwalked a few times; and trust me, it's not a sight you want to come across, your Commander emerging from the darkness clad in a nightgown and barefoot, terrifying blue eyes blown wide, staring into your soul, hearing

"charge"

loud and clear before returning to his room calmly and still asleep. it's happened to a soldier and they couldn't look Erwin in the eye again. it's also happened to Mike and he just said "ok" with a flat face and guided Erwin back to his room.

☾ Mike: he doesn't really like sleeping, it feels uncomfortable. He himself doesn't know the reason but I'll let you in on a secret; you can't smell anything while asleep and thus Mike is out of his comfort zone. Also he sleeps with his arms crossed, don't tell me it doesn't make sense. He instinctively wants to make himself smaller to fit on the standard sized military beds, because Mike is always bigger than any bed he finds himself in. After confirming his unbelievable strength and calculating the possibilities of Mike dying soon (very few), Erwin ordered him a bigger bed.

☾ Mikasa: if no threat is involved, Mikasa sleeps like a log. She might not look it because every time she's ordered to wake up she can be ready within minutes, but when nobody's in danger don't you dare separate her from the shadows that have claimed her. she often seeks beside her for something familiar to hold onto, usually Eren or Armin or after she joined the military, her scarf. She and Eren make a perfect sleeping match because she holds onto him tightly, stopping his neurotic moves, and eventually her calm heartbeat slows down his own too.

And they sleep soundly like they deserve 😀

sad headcanons

★ Erwin: in the end he was revealed to be driven by selfishness, able to send hundreds of soldiers out in the battle to die. it's easier for him than breathing to sacrifice people for what he wants to achieve. maybe it's because those deaths, those murders could never rival his very first; the murder of his own father. the twelve year old boy inside him never picked up the pliers to torture his father, the knife to end his life, but let his tongue loose, lead him to prison, lead him to his death. Erwin might pretend otherwise, he might wear the facade of the numb and fearless Commander, but the twelve year old boy never healed, never escaped the guilt. He gave up on Marie in his youth because all he does, all he can do, is to hurt those he loves. Maybe he doesn't deserve to be loved. Maybe he deserves to give up on his dream and die (his thoughts, not mine)

★ Pieck: (Pieck! I wasn't expecting her but she's welcome to the party, you're feeling bold today Mina. Either you know i'm fond of that sassy titan shifter or you're trying to catch me by surprise. Either way, i can find sad headcanons for everyone, so gotcha 😁)

Relationships scare her and I don't mean romance, I mean anything. Her mother isn't in the picture and her father is sick, Pieck lives with the fear of losing him. She trusted her comrades with her life, and they died. She was friends with Marcel, with Berthold, with Annie. They didn't return. Reiner did but he might as well have stayed back because all that returned home was a husk.

Porco died, which hurt more than she expected it to (she always kept his jacket). Pieck sometimes wishes she didn't care as much, she envies Annie for her stoicism and wishes she didn't get attached so easily, hopes friendships and love and care didn't scar her deeper than titan marks.

childhood headcanons

▼ Hange: she scolded literally anyone around her who smoked since she found out it's bad for one's health. She stole and threw away cigarette packs (even the expensive ones without batting an eyelash, a child doesn't give a damn about money and Hange Zoe surely never did) and proudly received the beating afterwards, gritting her teeth, because she knew she was doing the right thing long term. Maybe that's why she became estranged with her family, who knows 🤔

Unbeknownst to her, Hange started an anti smoking campaign among the neighbourhood kids who continued her legacy after she left.

Yeah Hange can't stand smoking

▼ Mike: he started speaking at six, maybe seven, much too late for a child to utter his first words. He studied the world around him attentively but couldn't speak to communicate with it, all his thoughts locked inside his own mind. For that, he was considered different and odd by some, including his parents. they took him to doctors, even the church of the walls eventually, to cure him. Mike himself didn't mind, he knew he'd speak when ready. He met Hange at some point in his childhood and she didn't care if he spoke or not, she played with him nonetheless. they communicated by signing random things in a sign language they made up on the spot, and by drawing on the dirt. They never met again until the army where they reunited happily, this time communicating vocally (but keeping in mind their private sign language for boring office meetings or teasing. Hange once kept signing "banana" over the assembly hall during lunch and Mike was mortified the entire time)

Thanks again Min! This was so much fun! 😉

[my-animeandmanga-journey]

Yup. Makes sense. If Eren's gonna become the MVP, then the two humans that can keep him stable in either his human or titan form...

...also need to be protected at all costs.

(In addition to Mikasa and Armin just being too darned capable and valuable on their own.)

[crisalidaseason]

bassist!Armin who plays in a small local band and occasionally does vocals. He does little dances while playing and looses himself on the music. He is also the smallest bandmember and a bit shy, usually shielding himself behind Eren or Jean.

bassist!Armin who never noticed how popular their band was becoming until people started to stop him in the uni hallways to take pictures. He never thought people knew he was in the band to begin with, but he quickly becomes a fan favorite to the point it scares him.

bassist!Armin who constantly gets the attention drawn to him when Eren, the vocalist, makes sure to introduce him extra loud before playing. The relatively big crowd gets wild whenever the blond boy is shown.

bassist!Armin who finds out there are quite a few fancams and edits of him online and gets extremely embarassed that people notice him during shows.

bassist!Armin who is the "protect him at all costs" of the band.

bassist!Armin who gets supervised by his bandmates whenever he interacts with people because sometimes they can be a little too invasive and Armin is extremely reserved. You often see Jean become a bodyguard of sorts.

bassist!Armin who, despite his smaller frame in comparison to his bandmates and his pretty appearance, has one of the most powerful voices in the band. His vocals are sporadic but very noticeable, specially because Eren usually stops singing or lowers his mic to let Armin shine.

bassist!Armin who secretly has a partner that always watches him play. It is so funny when he waves happily at his partner from the stage, people wave back not noticing his wave is for one person only.

bassist!Armin who writes most of the songs with Eren and slips one or two verses dedicated to his lover, verses only for them to decipher and nobody else.

bassist!Armin who does magic with his fingers. That's all, not elaborating on that.

[shadyruinskryptonite]

Titan Bending Chapter 8

Warning: Violence consistent with cannon, NSFW so MDNI, language, major character death (both consistent with canon of both AOT and ATLA as well as diverging from canon), so much trauma literally everyone is so traumatized, very much slow burn, a little enemies to lovers, SO MUCH ANGST, hurt/comfort, hurt and delayed comfort, AFAB reader

Chapter Warnings: This is the first chapter where we have actual death, fighting, guns, weapons, murder, running for your life, vomit (not described in any way)

WC: 2877

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As we flee, we take the high ground and watch the cabin from a cliff where we won’t be seen. Not five minutes after we take our new post, there are soldiers storming the cabin.

Armin thinks out loud, “how did Commander Erwin know they were headed here?”

“The government has passed down some new orders. There’s been a freeze on all Scout activity outside the wall. We’re to hand over Eren and Historia.” Everyone collectively stiffens at Levi’s statement.

“Captain, I didn’t have time to tell you, but some MPs came for the Commander right after I left him,” the same member of Hange’s squad relays.

“What, like he’s some kind of criminal?!” I can hear the outrage in Hange’s voice and I’d be remiss to say I didn’t feel the same way.

“They’re bringing this fight out into the open. No more working from the shadows,” Levi declares.

Shit, what have I even gotten myself into with these people?

“They’re going to protect the wall’s secrets at any cost. But why? And what exactly are they after Eren and Historia for? They don’t want them dead, so what are they planning?” Hange asks to no one in particular.

I was wondering the same thing. Then a realization dawns on me, but I keep it to myself. And what if they find out about me? 

From the corner of my eye, I know Levi saw my revelation and had the same one himself. He doesn’t address it though, simply adding, “who knows? But they want these two and they’re not being subtle about it, which makes lingering here dangerous. We’ll move Eren and Historia to Trost.”

Just when I was starting to think that I agreed with the little shit. I don’t know a lot, but doesn’t that seem counter productive?

Clearly everyone else was thinking the same thing I was, so he counters, “heading toward the interior would be worse. With Trost in a panic it should be easy to slip in. And if things do go all to hell,” Levi shows his ODM gear, “we can use these in the city.”

Damn, maybe I really should stop doubting him. His strategy seems flawless…Actually…it seems less like strategy and more like survival instinct…

“We don’t know the identity of our enemy yet, I have an idea of how we can change that.”

Well, that caught everyone’s attention.

With part of Hange’s squad in tow, we split as she goes to save Erwin and the rest of us go to Trost.

God, I hope splitting up is worth it. Can Hange and Moblit handle themselves alone if things go to shit? I guess I’ll just have to hope they can…

--

Levi was exactly right, we slipped into Trost with no issues at all.

There’s a pounding behind us and suddenly, Jean and Armin - acting as Eren and Historia - are scooped up. Momentarily forgetting what the hell we were even doing, I lunge forward. Mikasa merely grabs my arm. 

Right, we wanted this to happen.

We break off, following the cart that now has our body doubles. Watching it enter a warehouse, I’m struck by just how easily this seems to be going. As Mikasa covertly watches to make sure they’re buying the plan, I sit on the roof with Levi. 

Given the beat of silence, I can’t help myself but to say, “is it just me, or does this all feel a bit too easy?”

“I was just having that same thought,” Levi responds.

As soon as the conversation begins, it ends again as Mikasa returns. At the news of what they’re doing to Armin thinking that he is Historia, I practically begin seeing red. This time it’s Levi that holds me back. They continue back and forth for a moment and he notifies Mikasa of our suspicions that these are amateurs. As he stands, he looks at me.

“Y/n, you’re with me. Mikasa, you and the others come and meet up with me when you’re done taking out the trash here.” The way Levi says this leaves no room for discussion, but I’m still confused. I hold my confusion for a moment, not wanting to delay us any farther.

As we zip through the air, I’m much clunkier than Levi is. I had only just learned the basics of ODM gear on the way to Trost, everyone figuring it was better that I refrain from using my bending unless it was absolutely necessary since no one outside of Levi and Hange’s squads knew about me. Even so, despite fumbling a bit with the triggers of the gear, I managed pretty well because the mechanics are very similar to when I swing from place to place via water.

“So, you wanna tell me why you changed the plan, Levi?” my question sounding harsher than I had intended. “I guess I’m just confused since we had discussed having me go in with the kids. You going in with them as well now that I mention it.”

We land on a roof briefly before jumping back up. It’s only when we’re back in the air that he answers me, saying, “you said it yourself, that was too easy, which means that the kids can more than handle themselves. That also means they didn’t send their A team so we have to figure out where that A team is. Also,” he pauses to land next to the girl from Hange’s team whose name I’ve now learned to be Nifa, “I want you in my sight.”

I scoff and try to hide my indignancy under a mask of playfulness when I say, “still don’t trust me, eh cap’?”

For the first time, maybe ever, he looks me directly in the eyes when he speaks, saying, “you’re an asset just like Eren and Historia, except you barely know how to use ODM gear. I want to be able to see you so that I can protect you. Also, if shit hits the fan and you have to bend, I need to be there to help with the fallout.”

As soon as he’s done speaking to me, he turns to Nifa and asks for an update just as easily as if our conversation had been about the weather. I’m still in a state of shock but I know I have to tune back in, and I do so as Levi is telling Nifa about this fabled serial killer that he seems to know personally.

What does this even have to do with the mission at hand? Does he think the MPs hired the MP killer to work with them?

Just as I’m trying to parse out why Levi would reasonably be talking about this, I feel him shove me around a chimney as he yells for Nifa to look out. The sound of a gunshot and the image I can make out of my peripheral vision tells me that she unfortunately didn’t have a chance to look out.

We can hear who is, presumably, Kenny the Ripper approaching up the roof behind us. Without much time to think, I lean over and whisper, “he clearly is most interested in you, let me hit the ground and follow the wagon on foot, and you be the best diversion you can be.”

I can see him hesitate, but based on the footsteps and now the whir of ODM gear, we’re running out of time. Before he can answer, I make the decision, sliding down the tiles. Before I let go, I just quickly whisper to him to be careful, but I don’t wait for a response - there’s no time for that.

I begin going on foot -- I can see the wagon and there’s enough people in the way that it can’t go anywhere fast. The crowd also gives me a good cover so as to not seem suspicious. I hear a gleeful yell behind me which catches my attention and I look back just in time to see Levi chuck one of his blades at the man that is now confirmed to be Kenny based on Levi’s yell.

I didn’t even know that little shit could get that loud.

Scanning the rooftops, I see two more people zipping around and realize just how bad this is.

Shit! They literally predicted everything that we would do! But, they still don’t know about me, I’m still a wild card…

They rip the cover off of the wagon and before I know it, they’ve killed the driver. I use my ODM gear to hook onto the cart so I can at least keep pace with it. As I do, I collect as much water from the air as I can. From my right I hear more whirring and I prepare to use what little water I have when I realize that it’s Levi. I’m aggravated that he didn’t take my suggestion to lead them away but, more than anything, I’m surprisingly relieved.

That relief is short lived as the cart rounds a corner and Levi has to change course, this time myself going with him.

I’ll go a different way than Levi does, split these people up. Just the way he talks about him, I doubt I could take Kenny myself, at least not with ODM gear. But these other normal people? I at least stand a better chance against them.

While Levi and I initially veer off together, at one point he’s forced right and I instead decide to go left. We’re moving so fast that I almost miss Levi yelling, “what are you doing?!” at me. 

There’s no time to yell back.

I glance back and see that Kenny followed Levi, just like I thought. Two of the others are hot on my tail, though.

Shit.

Ice!

I lay ice down so I can slide under a merchant’s cart. Pop left. Is that an alley ahead on the right? Guess I’ll find out. I swing wide and head right. Yup, alley. Knocking over dumpsters won’t help, they’re fucking flying. Oh god, is this alley ending? Fuck where do I go?! Guess it’s fucking up! 

While up was the only choice, it still wasn’t great as it puts me practically eye to eye with these fuckers.

Ice again!

Realizing I have my own sort of bullets, shards of ice slide from my fingers. I only meant to slice their lines, but the people themselves happened to get in the way. Oops. Continuing on my upward trajectory, I’m met with more of these soldiers on the roof.

Damnit!

I don’t know how ice can get me out of this one.

There are gunshots in the distance. This draws their attention for a split second. Now! I lurch forward, my hook stabbing clean through someone. I slide low across the tile. In one move, I have my knife from my waistband. In another, a soldier is falling. Sliced achilles heel. 

Guess I still got it.

Shots fire. I dodge left and toss my knife over to my other hand while grabbing my spare. Double fisting it. I get the shooter’s throat; someone else’s ankles. Where is Levi and where is that cart?

In the distance I can see what looks like the bulk of these soldiers congregating, all looking in one place.

Shit, either that’s Levi and I’m worse off if I go over there and try to help, or it’s Eren and Historia in which case I need to go over there and try to help.

My choice is made for me when I hear one lone shot followed by a crash and then a lot more. If I had time I’d almost laugh.

Sounds like Levi is givin’ em hell.

And with that, I get to a good vantage point to try to find the wagon. I see motion above the buildings and finally recognize some friendly faces. Moving as fast as I can, I zip off to meet up with the kids. Not wanting to spook them into shooting me, I swing wide and approach from the side. It’s Armin that sees me first and the relief on his face is immediate. He yells to the others that it’s me, and I finally join their ranks.

“Try not to yell like that if you can avoid it, right now they just think they’re looking for Levi and maybe me,” I inform the group.

“Who is they?!” Connie shouts, ignoring my warning.

“Not sure about all of them. The leader is someone Levi knows though.”

No one has a chance to process what I’m telling them before we spot Levi tailing the wagon and, close behind him, is another soldier. Levi makes quick work of the soldier before he spots us, quickly giving orders to not hesitate to kill. Other than myself, Mikasa is the only one that seems unbothered by this idea.

With no opportunity to think, Levi takes out the person in the back of the wagon with Eren and Historia. He then knocks the driver backwards, leaving an opening for Armin. Jean is threatening her. I’m checking if Eren and Historia need any healing. There are swift movements behind me. The soldier has knocked away Jean’s sword. Without thinking, I put myself between the two of them. One smack up, one kick to the wrist. Her gun is gone and her wrist broken. Despite her pain, she shifted to grab her other weapon when Armin discharged his, killing her instantly.

Just as that threat is neutralized, I hear Levi calling our names.

At least three more of them are about to get us. Before we can think, Sasha grabs Armin, Connie grabs Jean, and Levi grabs me. They slip past us and into the gate. We lost them.

If this weren’t an emergency, I would swear Levi looks worried.

Just as I’m starting to attempt to read Levi, he has to drop me to restrain Mikasa, but I can’t worry about that right now. I scramble to my feet and over to Jean and Armin, checking for physical injuries but also wanting to gauge the mental. 

Armin is clearly still in shock, but he’s going to crumble any minute, and while I can mother these kids all day long, he’s going to need his best friend.

“Mikasa!” I yell, getting her attention and trying to wave her over urgently.

This is good, it’ll also distract her.

As soon as she hugs Armin, it’s all over. Reality strikes and I can almost see the color drain out of his face. Giving them privacy, I turn my attention to Jean. He has minor knicks and cuts, but nothing serious enough that I need to bend in order to save his life. As I’m looking him over I can see that he’s fighting with everything in him to not cry. Despite knowing that it might make his fight that much harder, I pull him into the tightest hug I can because it’s clearly what he needs. I shoo the others away quietly, knowing he would be mortified if they saw him like this. His machismo is going to be bruised just from me seeing him like this.

After Jean has a chance to collect himself and Armin stops throwing up, Levi has us regroup and head to some semblance of safety, ironically, in the same warehouse where the would-be kidnappers took Jean and Armin. We set up around a small lantern and distributed some rations, but the silence is thunderous. 

“What’s wrong? Did all this filth kill your appetite?” Levi asks, breaking the silence.

Was that…was that a joke?!

Whether it was a joke or not, his question at least got the boys talking, which they both desperately needed.

Was even that little light-hearted comment calculated to get them to get this off their chests?

My heart breaks as Armin starts postulating about the dead woman’s personality and why she hesitated.

Another wave of reality washes over Armin as he says, “does that mean…I’m…”

“A killer. And now that your hands have been soaked in blood, the person you once were is gone for good,” Levi interjects.

“Why would you say that?!” Mikasa raises her voice.

Why would you say that?!

He continues, “and you shouldn’t regret it for one second! Because if you’d chosen to keep your hands clean, Jean and y/n would be corpses on carts right now.”

I hadn’t even considered how close of a call this was for me, too.

Levi finishes by saying, “I’ll tell you why you pulled the trigger: because your comrades were about to die. Armin, everyone on our squad survived today because you got blood on your hands. Thank you.” 

I’m so stunned, it feels like someone has electrocuted my brain. So this is what people have meant about him caring a lot in his own way. I think I finally see it.

Replaying the conversation, I realize that he cut Armin off when he did, not to call him a killer but to save him from having to say it himself. 

As Levi goes over to interrogate one of the kidnappers, I can feel Armin trembling next to me, and Jean isn’t holding it together much better.

It’s going to be a long night.

[dancergurl3000]

It’s been almost ten years since I graduated college. And in that ten years so much has changed. I’ll be breaking down this morning just exactly what has changed before my very eyes. Think of it. I remember it like yesterday. It is August 2015. I had an IPhone 6. The iPhone has just come out. I had broken my IPhone 4 and 5 my junior year of college. This time though, I wouldn’t be living in a dorm room. This time I was living in an apartment downtown with four other girls. My brother had just been in a drunken fall, and I didn’t know if he was going to come out of it alive. I’ll admit it, back then, when I was 24 I was more than a little perplexed anyways to finish college. It was like I knew what was coming. There seemed to likely be two presidential candidates, and I was already out in Oneonta anyways taking a summer class. I was to graduate though in December. My college career was ending. The party essentially was over. Needless to say my last semester there was my hardest. It reminded me of my senior year of high school: hard and unrelenting. I certainly didn’t know what I was going to do for work after graduation, and it’s really not like it mattered. Turns out the drama that I left back in high school returned when I finished college. Finals week December 2015 someone had posted to Facebook, an angry sophomore that he was going “to shoot up Oneonta state” the Monday during finals week. Graduation was that Sunday and it was a blur. I don’t remember most of it. I don’t even think we had a speaker tell us words of wisdom. Everyone was just on high alert that day. Scared shitless I guess. Then I got in trouble. I was censored on my college campus. I really thought I was going to be expelled, kind of like I thought I would be expelled for punching Armin in the shoulder after he had hugged me from behind and grabbed my stomach one day junior year of high school after English class. I was taking an exam for an adjunct professor. At the test he told me that he thought I had dyslexia. I was stunned. All I could think was: “you’re telling me this right now when I’m trying to finish taking your test?” And someone who I thought was a friend saw me coming out of that classroom sobbing. So she messaged me on Facebook. I messaged her the phrase “I could kill said Professor”, and she handed those messages into the police. I followed their instructions: I was banned from campus. I was only allowed to come back to campus to take my exam and then I could never be allowed to be on Oneonta state’s property again. I mean I was incredulous. Who hasn’t had those thoughts about someone they are upset with? And did Oneonta state’s staff really think that I could come back to campus and hurt said professor? I had no plans to hurt this professor. But here’s where free speech should be protected not limited. Because what I said IS Free Speech. In no way would I carry anything out. I was just shooting off at the mouth! But when you’re doing that today, you better be careful. It almost cost me my college degree. Needless to say I don’t miss school. Either I went to the wrong ones, or I just didn’t go to ones that supported free association, free thinking, free speech, and a channel to complain to about sexual harassment and assault. If schools in New York State have “zero tolerance” policies where you could be arrested for having advil on you, but also: “boys will be boys”, and “there will be no thinking for yourself here”, where does that leave the rest of us? To that professor, obviously I wished him no harm. I just was upset with being told something that no student should hear while taking a test. And it turns out I wasn’t alone in thinking that he was just an asshole teacher. My only girlfriend at the time babysat his kids and they were spoiled little brats she told me. All I really knew was I worked hard and I wasn’t protected. Nobody stuck up for me. Nobody said: “this is wrong.” “She should be able to say anything she wants to.” Please remember to stay vigilant, otherwise you lose everything you’ve worked for.