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kavehater · 4 months ago

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You know the reason why this feels like such an annoying thing to me is because I’m sooo the opposite of family oriented it’s crazy LOL

I’ll never understand younger siblings whining about their older siblings moving away like I bet yall were nasty and annoying too like wow all those years and you claim to adore the older sibling and post oh woe is me the older sibling abandoned me … girl … the older sibling didn’t have a parental certificate or anything.

#like ever since I was a kid I detested kids with my whole being #and since I was a kid I just felt family dynamics and that sorta thing made me super uncomfortable? and it felt cringe like #I think this is the first time I ever speak of it but it feels so forced ? like cmon stop pretending we’re in it together when we’re not #it just feels fake idk and this was before everything went south too so this is just my honest feelings #it kinda annoys me when my family even more now than before given how horribly things turned out #insist I have to be close to them or near them but first of all I’m not an affectionate person nor do I like closeness of any type it kinda #irritates me a ton and I desperately need space (it’s their fault cause they made me like this ☠️)#I don’t understand why I have to be near them like girl it’s not that deep if I’m not #the world continues to go round #and it’s not even the fact that I do get mad when they show their ‘concern’ it’s the fact they’re the biggest fakers and liars #like ohh I’m so worried about you listen I may be stupid but I’m not that stupid #if you truly cared I’d see it in your actions and quite frankly telling me I’m the spawn of shaitan and implying you hope I get 🍇d or what #have you of the list of offences is not something I believe a concerned person would say to prove their concern #it’s why I loathe concern sometimes like idm it when it’s important but when they try to push onto me their povs etc it’s so infuriating #like kaveh is so real for getting angry when ppl do that cause man I just want to bite ppls head off sometimes LOL #anyways my kid hating era is kinda gone now surprising given how bad I used to hate them #but my pov on family relationships being cringe to me is still a big thing and dahlia said before that #it’s because I was probably never given the opportunity to feel loved or something I forgot 😭 but yeah although I’m sure as a young kid I #was ? I just kinda was a sociopath as a kid I’m ngl I did a complete 180 fr 😭👍#it makes me wonder like dang I seemed so quiet and good to the untrained eye but I was such a sociopath mentally (I say this as someone who #knows a bit about sociopathy and aspd but jfidkaks like dang that was a bad time. I’m glad I changed sm otherwise life would be #so difficult for me omg …#probably would’ve ended up in juvenile or something 😭 and that’s why everyone should be glad I’ve got patience cause if I didn’t and acted #out what I truly wanted well damn good luck babe ! as roan says ☠️👍)#dora Daily

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