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Officially in the market for an actual laptop 💻✨

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anybody wanna buy me kingdom hearts shirts my birthday is this weekend 🥺

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a sort of organised analysis of The Gifted characters

pt. 1: Pang

(this analysis includes episodes 1-13 of season one and 1-7 of season two, so it probably isn’t completely accurate, but i tried my best. also please excuse grammar or spelling errors that i might’ve made cuz i write these late at night when my creativity sparks lmao)

Characteristics and qualities in the beginning of season 1

Even in the very first episode, Pang already showed some idealistic qualities. He always thought that the school system wasn’t fair, and he always tried doing the right thing (or what he thought was the right thing). His idealism wasn’t as extreme in the very beginning of the show, since he wasn’t as confident in his abilities. He probably didn’t have much interest in changing the school system when he (and the people around him) saw him as a dumb kid from classroom 8. Getting into the Gifted Program was what affected his idealism to the point where it became a fault.

Before he discovered his potential, he was most likely very confused about his “academic rank”. He was in classroom 8, yet he was in the Gifted Program... but he hadn’t found his potential yet. I can imagine him questioning his worth and how significant he really was; he was also one of the first kids in the gifted class to outwardly express how they felt about the unfair treatment of the ordinary students compared to the gifted students. This was probably because he got to experience both ends of the unequal treatment, unlike the rest of his gifted classmates.

In terms of intelligence, Pang is street smart. In episode one he thought of a distraction to not get caught stealing the test. He also used the egg drop parachute to save his phone. He is innovative and can create ideas and identify problems. In episode one (again), he noticed that Wave was sweating and seemed weak. He also noticed Ohm’s bloody nose and Mon moving a locker full of weights. He was aware of shit... but he’s not very aware of other people’s feelings... at least not fully.

Pang’s friendship with Nac hits different after the pangwave fight but anyways... Pang knew that he didn’t use the cheat sheet, and he couldn’t tell Nac anything about the Gifted Program, so he probably didn’t fully understand why Nac was so upset when he technically did nothing wrong. Nac even said he wasn’t upset that Pang was in the Gifted Program. I think that’s why Pang never talked it out with him and just kinda exploded at him. Even though he may see himself as empathetic, it’s really just him being idealistic. He mistakes his ideals about equality for empathy, when, in fact, those are two separate things. When it comes to individual people, I don’t think he’s very good at understanding them thoroughly enough. Nac’s reasons for being upset with Pang are realistic and valid. He’s in class 1, Pang’s in class 8, yet Pang was the one who got into the Gifted Program. Nac gave Pang a cheat sheet, and even though Pang denies using it, he couldn’t really believe that he got in with the grades he has. And on top of that, Pang doesn’t even tell him what happens in the class. Nac feels used and excluded, but Pang wasn’t paying attention to that. He ended up blaming the unfair system, which was just a factor of the conflict, but never took a moment to look at what he himself could’ve done to help the conflict, or even what he might’ve done wrong. but issokay cuz pang is a smol bean and i love him

Characteristics and qualities in the middle - the end of season 1

Lets talk about Pang discovering his potential in episode 6. He first noticed it when he told Nac to bang his head on a metal bar. This wasn’t the first time he used his potential on Nac, though. In the first episode he used it on him and said something like “don’t talk to me ever again”, and so Nac didn’t communicate with again him until episode 6. This was when Pang used his potential on him saying “why can’t we just talk it out?” and Nac was finally able to communicate his frustration. Nac was blaming Pang for shit he didn’t do and it was unreasonable, according to Pang, but Nac didn’t know the full story. If you look at the way Nac sees things: Pang is in the Gifted Program, Pang used me to get into the program (because there’s no way he just got in without using my cheat sheet), I got punished when Wave provoked me and Pang tried playing hero, as if he was some perfect angel. Pang has new friends, he has no use for me anymore, I don’t need him either, I find new friends, Pang suddenly joins in, everything goes haywire, my anger and frustration towards him explodes, and he just ignores what I’m feeling and tells me that I’m wrong and that I’m an asshole. Like I did something wrong, and he’s perfectly innocent. Lmao Nac is salty af. And he has a good reason to be. Pang doesn’t understand Nac’s thinking, and on top of that, he makes almost no effort to understand. His beliefs blind him into thinking he’s done no wrong.

Now lets talk about his actual potential, and how it affects him. His ego and self esteem rises, but Pang doesn’t notice it. It’s explained in the end of season 1 that the reason Pang lost is because he wanted to do everything on his own because he thought that only he was able to defeat the director. His ideals and his ego are very closely connected. Pang teams up with Wave because he thinks that Wave will be the most useful to stop Director Supot. Now, I don’t think Pang doesn’t care about his friends, but his actions are neglectful. When Pang teams up with Wave, he tells none of his other friends about what he’s doing. He doesn’t tell Namtaan or Ohm, literally his two closest friends, and convinces himself that he’s doing it to protect them. News flash, he isn’t. He’s trying to be a hero. His ego rapidly increasing might be because of how he was constantly ridiculed when he was in classroom 8, and suddenly he gets this power that makes him “superior” to ordinary people. Another possibility is that his ego was already big, but we he only showed it/applied it when he was trying to take down Director Supot.

Now lets talk about the season 1 finale: Pang becomes aware of his ego through the director foiling his plan and humiliating him. This is a big part of his development as a character. Ofc in season 2 he still has a problem with neglecting and doing things solo, but he become a little more aware, and for 2 whole year’s he’s able to somewhat-effectively lead the gifted gang in their fight against the anti-gifted.

Characteristics and qualities in season two (up until episode 7) 

Lets discuss: Ms Darin. aka ms loser. Remember in the beginning of episode 7 where he trusted her cuz of what she said and he noticed her actions (oop remember this trait from before? he’s aware of shit!), but it turned out it was all lies. He eventually got back on track after Third showed him the truth, and was smart enough not to trust Ms. Darin after that. I wanna guess that the reason he started trusting Ms. Darin so easily (other than what she said and did) is because he was in distress from failing Korn and Time. He needed some support, and he wouldn’t let his friends support him because “im a hero blah blah blah i dont wanna worry my friends they dont need to help me with my burdens cuz i can do it on my own :D” season 1 Pang type shit. Ms. Darin was an adult who seemed trustworthy enough, plus Director Supot was gone, and he was the main antagonist in season 1, so isn’t everything only gonna get better now that he’s gone? Plus when Grace said that he sounds like the adults lksdjlkjslfjjsdf THAT HIT ME.

Now I wanna talk about him with Chanon. I’m praying that Chanon is pure and not corrupted because if he is he might’ve used Pang and might do so in the future too... but let’s not focus on that. Pang finally has a mentor-figure in his life that he looks up. Someone to balance out his ego and show him that he can’t do everything on his own. yeah that’s all i have to say about that.

Punn. “You’re done, Pang.” Yeah lets talk about that because holy mcnuggets. Punn knows Pang well enough to know how intensely idealistic and passionate he is. Once the director is gone, Punn is like, bitch u got nothing else to obsess over MOVE ON. He’s basically saying Pang’s existence was so heavily tied with fixing the school system that when eveything’s fixed, he’ll be “done.” It’s similar to Five from the Umbrella Academy, where his whole life was set on fixing the apocalypse that he felt that life had no meaning without an apocalypse to prevent.

Now let’s talk about PangWave... I truly believe that Pang sees Wave as his equal, as his friend, and as a person whom he cares for deeply. His ego and idealism, topped with all the stress he’s going through (by himself), are dangerous towards his relationships. Wave feels used by Pang, and explains how Pang only comes to him when he needs his help, and avoids him when he disagrees with what Pang thinks. Pang is so fixated on his ideals and beliefs that he will do anything to make sure they become a reality. He’s obsessed, and it’s sooooo bad for his relationships with others. It shows that even on Namtaan’s bday, he can only think about “doing the right thing”, because that’s his number 1 priority. PANG JUST GIVE URSELF A BREAK PLEASE TAKE A METAL HEALTH DAY JUST SLKJFLSDKJJD MEDITATE OR SMTH.

I could type for several hours longer but I think this is enough word vomit for this post.

Summary

- VERY IDEALISTIC !!!! TO A FAULT

- He has somewhat of an inflated ego, but uses his ideals and beliefs to cover it up and convince himself that he is a “good person”

- He overworks his brain by never thinking of himself or other people’s emotions and focuses on his idealistic goals and his idealistic goals ONLY.

- He’s very aware of the things’s around him, and is street smart, but he’s not as aware when it comes to other people’s feelings and thoughts.

- He cares for his friends, but his extreme idealism ends up hurting them, and in turn hurting himself and further encouraging him to self-isolate.

- Independent, but this is mostly due to him thinking that he can handle problems on his own and he doesn’t want to get others involved.

- He is becoming more aware of his wrong actions, hence him apologising to Wave about going after Korn without him, but not enough to actually prevent these wrong actions.

- didn’t talk about this much but GUILT!!! I can tell that he feels immense guilt (especially in the latest episodes) whenever one of his friends get hurt and he’s very involved in what got them hurt. However, when it comes to hurting people emotionally, his guilt is tricky to read. At least for me it is lmao. Cuz he doesn’t always fully understand his friends’ feelings because he can’t always admit that he’s done something wrong, but with the recent pangwave fight he definitely felt some type of guilt there. Or maybe it was frustration? idk skjdflajsdfl someone else step in on this one pls

- He needs rest and a mental break. And some therapy maybe? Like please can one caring adult help this poor child.

- His character is actually pretty consistent wow the writing in this show is great.

- a cute boi who needs a hug. Preferably from Wave and/or Ohm.

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I’ve been selfshipping with Kurt since i was like 14, so figured it might be fun to do a timeline of how my S/I has looked throughout years~ :D in depth talk about that in the read more

Wasn’t gonna type this out since i know no one probably cares enough to read my S/I lore (i dont mean that in a guilt-trippy way, its fine if you dont lol) but if anyone who does wanna read it, i will type it out,,, and i wanna over explain and info dump my shit,,,, especially cause this took A VERY LONG TIME to draw so imma get into it~ i know this will be clunky to read so sorry in advance 😅 alot of  my lore is an inspired mixed of fiction and irl stuff 

Trainees / Younger versions i didn’t make this design till i was like 20 and fixed it up a bit for this art,,,, In my canon Kurt is like 2 years older then me, so we are meant to be like Age ranges S/I: 12, Kurt: 14

 MY VERY FIRST DESIGN FROM WHEN I WAS 14, I would use this design the most back in the day when i was wasn’t embarrassed about posting selfship stuff on the main lmao,,,but i would draw us so much back then and a few of my DeviantArt friends at the time would indulge me xD I still have a drawing on my wall that one of my friends did for me as bday gift back then~ But this designs has a special place in my heart, as it was my first for this pair~ 🥰 the only update on the design i did are the pouches on the belt and the boots coloring,,,otherwise its pretty much the same design as how i first designed it Age ranges S/I: 14, Kurt: 16 

Best friends to lovers, we have a soft moment of the trope of  “haha what if we kissed” playing it off as a joke just to see what its like, since all of our friends have teased us saying “we’re like a couple”  “no we’re just really good friends” both having a crush on the other, but being too nervous to say so, as to not ruin the friendship, but this “platonic” kiss is what starts the relationship and become a romantic couple~ Age ranges S/I: 17, Kurt: 19

Age ranges S/I: 19, Kurt: 21

Costume Change~ 2016 is the first dated drawing i have with this costume idr what made me wanna make a new design back then,,, probably just cause i didnt want the same design that 14yo me thought of lmao,,, although back in ‘16 i still didnt know i was trans,,, but for my S/I i will let them trans their gender,,, so that is an update for that design from the og, as well as the pouches on the belt lol  Age ranges S/I: 20, Kurt: 22 

 ANGST TIME  I dont remember most of my lore for this part since its been forever ago also back in 2016ish 😅 but during a battle a good amount of mutants were killed,,, Including Kurt and Jean,,,, leaving me and Scott devastated,,,, losing and mourning over our loved ones we trauma bond over that and become close friends Age ranges S/I:20, Scott: 27

We Found Love in a hopeless place  After a couple years of grieving, and romantic feelings building, me and Scott become a couple Age ranges S/I:22, Scott: 29

Costume Change~ Didnt really update this design much from what i had it back then,,, other then adding the pouches to the the harness alot of them thats all the updates lol Age ranges S/I:23, Scott: 30

Reunited!!! I also dont remember much of my lore for this part im sorry haha  😅 but a some years have past and a select few of the xmen that were killed are brought back to life,,, Including Kurt and Jean,,,, so angst ensues from all sides,,, Kurt and Jean return to see what has happened in their absence only to find how Scott and I are now dating,,,, again angst time!!! hurt feelings of finding someone new, but also an understanding and a peace of mind that we werent suffering alone, so just confused, mixed emotions and feelings all around,,,, but in the end being so overjoyed to be together again~ 💙 I did this design a few years ago (2017 is the most recent date i can find) but i only had the mullet in mind for the design,,,, i never had an canon outfit i wanted since each drawing i have a different yet similar costume lol, So i kinda did a mash up of the ones i seemed to be mulling over at the time and like improved it Age ranges S/I: 25,  Kurt: 27

Together Forever~ New/Current design i will have for myself Age ranges S/I: 26, Kurt: 28

EXTRA INFO TIME~ I dont remember all of my own lore unfortunately being as this S/I ive been doing on and off for like a over a decade,,,, But some other notable facts that i dont remember all the details of but want to mention 

me and Kurt at some point get married/are engaged,,, as bad as it sounds i cant remember how it happens... since again this is such a long term f/o,,,, :(  we still are married tho, and i will rethink how at some point 

My S/I mutation powers have changed overtime,,, not because it being how my mutation has developed- just because i’m not creative enough to think of something unique/definitive lmao,,,, but when i was 14 i had like fire/electricity powers decided,,,, but at some point i retconned it into some type of wind based powers instead so i could have flight ability 

Drawing #8 costume is probably when i decided on wind powers i think,,, since that’s when my designs had added goggles, to protect my vision when im in the air

Each of the pouches on my belts/harness are filled with different projectiles to use on my opponents  

 I view Magneto as a father figure, so theres many points in time where im not with all the xmen, but with the brotherhood instead,,, which has cause  some drama *gasp*

Also within certain points of my story me and Remy have sort of a occasional flirtationship, but thats about all it goes for that pair

Although i selfship with Ororo and Rogue,,, they are just platonic friends in this story and that is all their connection with my S/I,,,,, my selfshipping with them is separate / their own separate things  

Was gonna post some old art for a side by side “ Then vs Now” but this post is already long so i wont, but if anyone wants that i will