#pro jeremiah fisher

[heyyyitsmegia]

I JUST LOVE HOW US JELLY SHIPPERS CANNOT DO AND I MEAN LITERALLY ANYTHING WITHOUT A BONRAD POPPING UP LIKE A ZIT ON SCHOOL PICTURE DAY! LIKE STOP! GROW UP! GET A REAL JOB! ADOPT A PET! READ THE BIBLE! DO SOMETHING, ANYTHING ELSE I'M BEGGING YOU!!!!

[heyyyitsmegia]

The fact that you guys actually think that Conrad liked Belly before she turned pretty is insane to me. Wasn't Conrad the one who said, "We grew up together, so I've always thought of her as this little kid. But now... she's... not." And Jeremiah literally said, "You're my best friend but there were times I wanted it to be more." For there to be 'times when he wanted it to be more' then that means that he would have had to like her at some point before she turned pretty. He also says, "Well, there was always Conrad. Then, this summer, it was Cam. And I guess I was just waiting." In season two, Jeremiah says, "Except what I was feeling in that moment was so much stronger." This indicates that Jeremiah already had some type of feelings for her. And then you have the flashback of them in the fort holding hands. Yeah I really don't need to explain this. The only thing ya'll depend on when bashing Jeremiah are the books. Ya'll love referring to the books. And what is so funny about the whole thing is that Conrad was more of a jerk to Belly in the books that in the show. The books are old. The show is new. So stop relying on the books every time you are trying to prove a point. The firework incident is so overused by you bonrad girls. Ya'll have murdered that excuse. As to your point about Jeremiah throwing her and Conrad's break up in her face... he literally did no such thing. He was only stating the obvious. He knew his brother would fuck up and he told Belly that and yet she didn't listen and got broken up with at prom by Conrad (her so called 'first love') in the rain. So mature of him really. Please give me one piece of evidence IN THE SHOW NOT THE BOOKS that Conrad loved Belly before she turned pretty. Please do. Because, I would love to hear it.

Having been on twitter and tik tok it’s amazing how many people are confusing jeremiah and Conrad’s intentions, even with things that are tv cannon, the fact people are saying that jeremiah was the one who liked her before she turned pretty when it is shown through flashbacks Conrad has always liked her let alone jeremiah actually saying he started liking her that summer. That jeremiah let’s her be an individual when again that is Conrad, she has to constantly accomodate for Jeremiah’s feelings. Annoys me how many people are team jeremiah when he is such a red flag. He is the only one in the love triangle that has all the information but constantly chooses to use that information to benefit himself. With the firework saga in season 1 to him constantly throwing it in belly’s face that Conrad dumped her when he knows that Conrad loves her as he told him. I really hope Jenny keeps season 3 close to the book because I think it would actually be an educational watch for team jere girls to see what self proclaimed nice guys turn out to be.

Right? But one thing that’s for sure is people will see what they want to see. At this point I just try to follow people I agree with! And blacklist things I don’t where I can because it makes social media a lot more enjoyable.

[showmethesneer]

i know i’m forgetting some things but these all stood out to me while i was watching The Summer I Turned Pretty right after reading the trilogy. the difference between Conrad and Jeremiah on this show is everything. and it’s everything i felt while reading the books. they nailed it.

1. Jeremiah is full of compliments and smiles when Belly steps out of the car on the first day, Conrad tells her he doesn’t like her without glasses (sorry, i love a good gentle roast but i hate negging)

2. the cat funeral gets mentioned at dinner, Jeremiah immediately offers his condolences to Belly

3. Jeremiah has been waiting for Belly to get there to swim in the ocean-- this is a decision he made before even seeing how pretty she got this year, he literally planned to save his first ocean swim for her before she even showed up

4. at the bonfire, Jeremiah was the only one of the boys to greet Belly and actually want her there (despite not wanting her to join them initially, but he doesn’t make her feel weird once she’s there)

5. Conrad’s fight with the gas station guy-- Belly gets hit in the face, Jeremiah immediately rushes to her, Conrad keeps fighting the guy without even glancing at her

6. Jeremiah introduces Belly at the debutante lunch as his future wife

7. when Belly is leaving for her date, Jeremiah turns to look at her when no one else does, goes out of his way to compliment her, ditches the video game to twirl her around and build her up; Conrad only turns to her to ask who she’s going out with and stares in silent broody anger as she leaves, which just feels possessive to me

8. Jeremiah doesn’t want to crash Belly’s date but Conrad immediately decides that’s what they’re gonna do

9. Conrad says “why don’t you go look in the mirror some more” and i genuinely hate nothing more than a guy making a teenage girl feel self-conscious about caring about her appearance

10. Jeremiah gives Belly a thoughtful present for her 16th birthday while Conrad hides his meaningful present and pretends he forgot her fucking birthday altogether

11. Jeremiah teaches Belly how to drive and reminds her that she’s the main character in her own life

12. Jeremiah speaks positively and encouragingly about the guy Belly is dating

[ist4rgirlo]

─── 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝 - 𝐜𝐟 : 𝐈

Summary: Being Belly & Steven’s older sibling has it’s pros and cons. Protecting them and taking care of them is a must, but do you really have to put their feelings first instead of your own?

Next | Conrad Fisher x fem!reader | My blog

Warning: comparing, angst, conrad being a two timer (?), fluff, physical touch. (lmk if i missed anything!)

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I never thought that I would have this talk with Conrad. I didn’t except for any of these to happen, we were all just trying to have fun, but I realized that we’re all grown ups now, we’re not the same kids as we were back then and that’s what i hated.

“Connie? is that you?” I asked, feeling Conrad’s presence.

Conrad entered the kitchen with a gentle smile, walking towards the fridge to get a drink. “Hey, what’s up?” he turned to me — tilting his head a little bit, still smiling.

“Oh I just wanted to talk” I told him, not looking at him in the eyes.

“Oh okay, what are we gonna talk about?” Conrad walked towards me and sat beside me — pulling his seat closer to mine.

I turned to my side so I can talk to him clearly, “It’s about us, about you and Belly” I looked at him, his gentle smile now faltering, his brows started to furrow. The room now filled with silence and the only thing I can hear was my own heart beating fast.

“What about me and Belly?” Conrad looked into my eyes trying to search for something — trying to see what I really meant.

“You… you know you need to make up your mind soon, right Conrad?” I looked down at my fingers and started to play with my rings, I didn’t want to look at him, I couldn’t look at him.

“Make up my mind about what? you are confusing me Y/N” Conrad pulled me closer to him.

Conrad knew what I was talking about, he just didn’t want to talk about it or acknowledge it because he never wanted this to happen, he never wanted to like both of his bestfriends.

“I know that you are starting to like Belly” I backed away from him — not wanting to hurt myself more.

“What are you talking about? I am close with Belly but..” Conrad was trying to find words, he knew he can’t deny it because it was true, he can’t lie to to me, he know’s he can’t.

I looked at him and took his hand as a sign of reassurance “You don’t have to lie to me you know?” it’ll just hurt me more if he did, he knows it would.

Conrad looked into my eyes — his brows still furrowed — he swallowed hard and said “I do.. I do like Belly, but I like you too”.

I closed my eyes “You have to choose Conrad, please” I stood up and started to walk towards the window.

Conrad started walking towards me, trying to reach for my hand, “I don’t want to choose, please don’t make me choose. I can’t lose either of you, Y/N”

“You know you won’t lose me, Conrad. Belly’s my sister, I don’t want to hurt her, so please choose.” part of me hoping that he would choose me, but I know that he knew what I was implying. He knew that i’d want him to choose Belly instead.

It was always him and Belly, not me and him. at least that’s what mom said, she always liked Belly and Conrad together, but Susannah thought otherwise. Susannah knew what we had ever since we were little, she always liked me and Conrad together.

“I will think about it, okay?” Conrad said.

I nodded and walked away before I felt my tears fall down my face.

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It was the night after me and Conrad talked. I was laying down when Jeremiah knocked on my door and asked me if he can come in.

“Hey Y/N, can I come in?”

“Come in, Jere” I sat up to give him space to sit on.

“Hey pretty girl. You seem down, are you okay?” Jeremiah sat down in front of me and asked me with a gentle smile.

I smiled at him “I guess? i dont really know. there’s just a lot of things going on and it’s just exhausting for me” I plopped down and laid on my back.

“Well do you want to talk about it? yk i’ll listen” Jeremiah pushed me to the side gently so that he can lay down beside me.

Jeremiah and I have this special bond that Laurel and Susannah loves. We are each other’s rock, each other’s bestfriend. We are there for each other when no one else is.

I sighed, “I gues it’s just hard for me. there’s just a lot of things happening, Susannah getting sick, me having to choose what I want for college and now this Conrad thing”

“Oh what about Conrad huh?” he said teasingly — nudging me with his elbow.

“It’s not like that, Jere” I wish it was. I sure did wish it was like that.

“Well then what about it?” his gentle smile now faltering, he turned to his side facing me.

“Me and Conrad talked, I told him to choose between me and Belly” now it was was me turning to my side to face him.

“What? why? why would you do that?” Jeremiah sat up confused and raising his voice a little, causing me to sit up too.

I took a deep breath, “Conrad’s starting to like Belly”.

“What do you mean? he likes you Y/N, it’s so obvious that he does” he said frowning.

That’s true, i know that’s true “Well who can’t not fall inlove with Belly, she’s amazing Jere.” and that’s true as well

“Well, what are you going to do now?” Jeremiah’s voice laced with worry, he knew I was hurting, god he knows all of the emotions I am feeling right now.

“She’s my sister, Jere. I’d be way happier if Conrad chose her.”

“She’s very important to me, I am supposed to protect her not hurt her”

“But you are hurting too Y/N” Jeremiah said concerned.

“I know but i’ll get over it, as long as she is happy, as long as my siblings are happy, i’ll get over it. Even if it takes me to let go of that someone for my sister.” and that someone is Conrad.

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Me and Jeremiah talked all night long, not knowing that Conrad was outside the door listening to us the whole time.

[caffeinemachine]

Life Jacket - Chapter 1

Conrad Fisher x Eldest Conklin Sibling Reader

I just wrote this so quickly cause it was sitting in my head and it had to get out. Go read this post for an idea of what this series will be! I'm very excited about it!

Here's Part One!!!

Word Count; 1.2K

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Cousins. Lots of mixed emotions came with going to Cousins. I loved it I really did, but I wasn’t blessed with the privilege of experiencing the blissful, worry-free love like my sister. Things still followed me to Cousins, responsibilities. And I always was stuck wishing they didn’t.

My siblings got to go swimming whenever they wanted, I had to swim once a day to “keep up with it” in my parents' words, mainly my Dad. I know they don't mean it. That in their hearts they do it out of love. Cause I do love swimming, I really do, but sometimes I wish reality could go on pause so I could live freely for a little while. With no concerns, or right way or wrong way, just me doing as I please. Without my Dad here the past two summers it helped. He’s harder on me than Mom. I grew up to realize it was just cause he didn’t really know how to be a parent. Does anyone really?  But his way of showing me love as a parent was by promising my success and ensuring my future. Well, I got recruited to Harvard's swim program with a scholarship so I guess his way of love kind of worked.

Despite everything, Cousins meant I got to see them. Susannah, Jeremiah, and him. Conrad. He was what stirred my emotions about Cousins the most. I’d had a crush on him for as long as I could remember. But I couldn’t tell him. I couldn’t jeopardize our families like that.  I didn’t have time for boys. I had tried to date here and there, but everyone got bored, or mad that I “didn’t have enough time for them”. I couldn’t even get upset because they were right. I didn’t have time for them like normal high school girls did. I couldn’t hang out after school, I had swim practice and very few high school boys wanted to hang out just to do homework together once I got home if you know what I mean. I couldn't afford to be distracted, so I let them all go. I couldn’t do that to Conrad, put him in that situation. I also think I couldn’t do it to myself. The other boys didn’t matter, but him? Losing him would crush me so hard that I don’t think I would recover.

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I drove to Cousins with Steven in my car.  I had saved up all summer and bought my trusty Volkswagen Passat last Fall. That was another pro about Cousins, the money. I've worked as a lifeguard at the club since I was 15, and I also did swim lessons there as well as private lessons. Those people will pay real well to have an all-star swimmer teach their three-year-old how to float I’ll tell ya.

“So you excited to work this summer?” I asked Steven. He got a job at the pool snack stand at the club and I had helped Jeremiah get a position as a lifeguard.

“Yeah, I guess, I’m excited to make big bucks like you have been all these summers.” He smiled at me making me instantly light up. Steven just had a natural energy to him that brightened people's moods. 

We jammed out to music for the rest of the drive and before I knew it we were pulling in the driveway. I noticed my mom's car wasn’t here yet. Knowing her and Belly, they probably stopped for snacks. Man, this house. I dreamed about this house. It was absolutely beautiful. I honked, our signal to them we had arrived. 

Jeremiah was the first one to run out to see us, but Susannah was not far behind. Conrad was nowhere to be seen, odd. I didn't have time to think about it though as Jere scooped me up in a big hug and spun me around. I noticed then how much he had grown since last summer. He probably started working out and he definitely grew a couple of inches. As we said hello he had a huge smile on his face, he usually did Jere was always a golden retriever in human form. 

Then Susannah came up to me. when Susannah hugged me it was like life went on pause, the way I always wanted it to. In her arms I was safe, in her arms I was still just her baby, the first born girl. 

“ Wow Y/N look at you, my precious girl, you've bloomed," Susannah said to me as she held the sides of my face. I never doubted a word Susannah said, the way she said things made me believe them. Susannah never said it and neither did I, but we were each other's favorites. She always spoiled me, she always was my number one fan. Susannah had a level of enthusiasm to her that most people didn't have. It probably wasn't fair for me to call her my favorite. She got to love me like a mother and spoil me like the fun aunt, and she never had to give me any of the negatives. So yes it probably wasn't fair for her to be my favorite, which is why I only ever told her private.

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We all walked back inside, Susannah and Jere helping Steven and me carry in our bags. Still no Conrad. I dropped my bags on the floor as I scanned my eyes around my room. Nothing out of place, everything was as I left it. I really do love this room. It was bigger than my one back home, it even had a small walk-in closet.  Conrad and I had the biggest rooms, we were the oldest so we got the first pick of rooms. 

I'm mindlessly unpacked for a while before hearing the same signal I had done myself just a bit earlier, Mom and Belly were here. I didn't rush down after all, I had seen them just a few hours ago. I thought it was okay to let them have their own proper reunion with the Fishers. So I finished putting the rest of my clothes in my drawers before I went downstairs. However, when I open my bedroom door, I open it to find Conrad with his hand in mid-air as if he were about to knock. 

“Whoa- oh, hi,” I said somewhat skeptically, he had just appeared out of nowhere, where had he been when I would got here? He cleared his throat, shuffling his feet somewhat awkwardly as he put his arm down from its spot in the air and clasped his hands behind his back.

“Hey, um I was uh coming to say hello!  I was down at the beach surfing all morning, I didn't even realize you were here until your mom pulled up and you weren't with her.” He seemed nervous for some reason, I wasn't sure why.

“Don't worry about it, was the surf any good?” 

He smiled at me then, “ Yeah it was so good, I lost track of time.” I smile back at him, I had missed him. 

“Glad to know you missed my entrance for something worthwhile.” He laughed, me along with him before his face went back to being relaxed. He stared at me in silence for a few moments before suddenly, before I could even realize what was happening, Conrad had his arms around me. Conrad was hugging me. It was nice, but odd. Conrad wasn't the most affectionate person and this was very out of the blue.

“I'm happy you're here Y/N.” He whispered, slightly muffled by my hair. We backed away as I said,

“Me too.”  The silence stretched a moment too long for my level of comfort. He was too intoxicating, his gaze on me was all consuming, I had to get out of there. “I'm going to go say hi to my mom and my sister.” I rushed out, going past him down the stairs before he even replied.

This summer was already off to an interesting start.

[warsrage]

LIVING IN NEW YORK CITY HAS ALWAYS HAD ITS PROS AND ITS CONS. on one hand, it's busy and loud and fairly overstimulating for somebody who admittedly prefers to be the most distracting thing in any given circumstance. on the other, it is much easier for him to go about his life and business here than most other places in the world, as though he were just like anybody else. nobody gives a shit about fame here, and besides, he was raised a part of this city. if all else fails, at least his family remaining congregated here makes him feel as though there's never an audience – except the one he performs to nightly.

" you know, I've been living in this city most of my life and I still always stop to see what the fuss is about. " sim's never quite shaken the arguably obnoxious habit of simply speaking to whoever's standing next to him, whether he knows them or not – and in this case, it's certainly the latter. sim frowns, boosts himself briefly up on his toes before rolling his eyes. " I don't have to see to know it's never that interesting. is it a flash mob? please tell me it's not another flash mob. why do I always stop? "

simeon sommerfeld for jeremiah fisher ( @norholy ) . / starter call.

[tidaljay]

this is about to be a really stupid shitpost take but I can't get it out of my head. I am so anti-white!Percy. I am so pro-Walker. but the part of me that cannot handle percy jackson being a blonde eyed blue eyed surfer bro... I could chill out about it if I subbed jeremiah fisher in for 17 year old percy. like tbh.

[roman-catholic-mass-readings]

23d November >> Mass Readings (USA)

Monday, Thirty Fourth Week in Ordinary Time

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Saint Clement I, Pope, Martyr 

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Saint Columbanus, Abbot and Missionary 

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Blessed Miguel Agustín Pro, Martyr.

Monday, Thirty Fourth Week in Ordinary Time

(Liturgical Colour: Green)

First Reading

Revelation 14:1-3, 4b-5

His name and his Father’s name are written on their foreheads.

I, John, looked and there was the Lamb standing on Mount Zion, and with him a hundred and forty-four thousand who had his name and his Father’s name written on their foreheads. I heard a sound from heaven like the sound of rushing water or a loud peal of thunder. The sound I heard was like that of harpists playing their harps. They were singing what seemed to be a new hymn before the throne, before the four living creatures and the elders. No one could learn this hymn except the hundred and forty-four thousand who had been ransomed from the earth. These are the ones who follow the Lamb wherever he goes. They have been ransomed as the first fruits of the human race for God and the Lamb. On their lips no deceit has been found; they are unblemished.

The Word of the Lord

Thanks be to God.

Responsorial Psalm

Psalm 24:1bc-2, 3-4ab, 5-6

R/ Lord, this is the people that longs to see your face.

The LORD’s are the earth and its fullness;    the world and those who dwell in it. For he founded it upon the seas    and established it upon the rivers.

R/ Lord, this is the people that longs to see your face.

Who can ascend the mountain of the LORD?    or who may stand in his holy place? He whose hands are sinless, whose heart is clean,    who desires not what is vain.

R/ Lord, this is the people that longs to see your face.

He shall receive a blessing from the LORD,    a reward from God his savior. Such is the race that seeks for him,    that seeks the face of the God of Jacob.

R/ Lord, this is the people that longs to see your face.

Gospel Acclamation

Matthew 24:42a, 44

Alleluia, alleluia. Stay awake! For you do not know when the Son of Man will come. Alleluia, alleluia.

Gospel

Luke 21:1-4

He noticed a poor widow putting in two small coins.

When Jesus looked up he saw some wealthy people putting their offerings into the treasury and he noticed a poor widow putting in two small coins. He said, “I tell you truly, this poor widow put in more than all the rest; for those others have all made offerings from their surplus wealth, but she, from her poverty, has offered her whole livelihood.”

The Gospel of the Lord

R/ Praise to you, Lord Jesus Christ.

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Saint Clement I, Pope, Martyr

Liturgical Colour: Red.

Readings at Mass

Readings for the memorial

There is a choice today between the readings for the ferial day (Monday) and those for the memorial. The ferial readings are recommended unless pastoral reasons suggest otherwise.

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First reading 1 Peter 5:1-4 Tend the flock of God in your midst!

Beloved: I exhort the presbyters among you, as a fellow presbyter and witness to the sufferings of Christ and one who has a share in the glory to be revealed. Tend the flock of God in your midst, overseeing it not by constraint but willingly, as God would have it, not for shameful profit but eagerly. Do not lord it over those assigned to you, but be examples to the flock. And when the chief Shepherd is revealed, you will receive the unfading crown of glory.

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Responsorial Psalm Psalm 89:2-3, 4-5, 21-22, 25 and 27

For ever I will sing the goodness of the Lord.

The favors of the LORD I will sing forever;    through all generations my mouth shall proclaim your faithfulness. For you have said, “My kindness is established forever”;    in heaven you have confirmed your faithfulness.

For ever I will sing the goodness of the Lord.

“I have made a covenant with my chosen one,    I have sworn to David my servant: Forever will I confirm your posterity    and establish your throne for all generations.”

For ever I will sing the goodness of the Lord.

“I have found David, my servant;    with my holy oil I have anointed him, That my hand may be always with him,    and that my arm may make him strong.”

For ever I will sing the goodness of the Lord.

“My faithfulness and my mercy shall be with him,    and through my name shall his horn be exalted. He shall say of me, ‘You are my father,    my God, the rock, my savior.’”

For ever I will sing the goodness of the Lord.

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Gospel Acclamation Mark 1:17

Alleluia, alleluia. Come after me, says the Lord, and I will make you fishers of men. Alleluia, alleluia.

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Gospel Matthew 16:13-19 You are Peter, and upon this rock I will build my Church.

When Jesus went into the region of Caesarea Philippi he asked his disciples, “Who do people say that the Son of Man is?” They replied, “Some say John the Baptist, others Elijah, still others Jeremiah or one of the prophets.” He said to them, “But who do you say that I am?” Simon Peter said in reply, “You are the Christ, the Son of the living God.” Jesus said to him in reply, “Blessed are you, Simon son of Jonah. For flesh and blood has not revealed this to you, but my heavenly Father. And so I say to you, you are Peter, and upon this rock I will build my Church, and the gates of the netherworld shall not prevail against it. I will give you the keys to the Kingdom of heaven. Whatever you bind on earth shall be bound in heaven; and whatever you loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven.”

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Saint Columbanus, Abbot and Missionary

Liturgical Colour: White.

Readings at Mass

Readings for the memorial

There is a choice today between the readings for the ferial day (Monday) and those for the memorial. The ferial readings are recommended unless pastoral reasons suggest otherwise.

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First reading Isaiah 52:7-10 All the ends of the earth will behold the salvation of our God.

How beautiful upon the mountains    are the feet of him who brings glad tidings, Announcing peace, bearing good news,    announcing salvation, and saying to Zion,    “Your God is King!”

Hark!  Your sentinels raise a cry,    together they shout for joy, For they see directly, before their eyes,    the LORD restoring Zion. Break out together in song,    O ruins of Jerusalem! For the LORD comforts his people,    he redeems Jerusalem. The LORD has bared his holy arm    in the sight of all the nations; All the ends of the earth will behold    the salvation of our God.

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Responsorial Psalm Psalm 96:1-2a, 2b-3, 7-8a, 10

Proclaim God’s marvelous deeds to all the nations.

Sing to the LORD a new song;    sing to the LORD, all you lands. Sing to the LORD; bless his name.

Proclaim God’s marvelous deeds to all the nations.

Announce his salvation, day after day. Tell his glory among the nations;    among all peoples, his wondrous deeds.

Proclaim God’s marvelous deeds to all the nations.

Give to the LORD, you families of nations,    give to the LORD glory and praise;    give to the LORD the glory due his name!

Proclaim God’s marvelous deeds to all the nations.

Say among the nations: The LORD is king. He has made the world firm, not to be moved;    he governs the peoples with equity.

Proclaim God’s marvelous deeds to all the nations.

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Gospel Acclamation John 8:12

Alleluia, alleluia. I am the light of the world, says the Lord; whoever follows me will have the light of life. Alleluia, alleluia.

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Gospel Luke 9:57-62 I will follow you wherever you go.

As Jesus and his disciples were proceeding on their journey, someone said to him, “I will follow you wherever you go.” Jesus answered him, “Foxes have dens and birds of the sky have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to rest his head.” And to another he said, “Follow me.” But he replied, “Lord, let me go first and bury my father.” But he answered him, “Let the dead bury their dead. But you, go and proclaim the Kingdom of God.” And another said, “I will follow you, Lord, but first let me say farewell to my family at home.” He said, “No one who sets a hand to the plow and looks to what was left behind is fit for the Kingdom of God.”

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Blessed Miguel Agustín Pro, Martyr

Liturgical Colour: Red.

Readings at Mass

Readings for the memorial

There is a choice today between the readings for the ferial day (Monday) and those for the memorial. The ferial readings are recommended unless pastoral reasons suggest otherwise.

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EITHER: --------

First reading 2 Chronicles 24:18-22 Zechariah was stoned to death in the court of the Lord’s temple.

The princes of Judah forsook the temple of the LORD, the God of their fathers, and began to serve the sacred poles and the idols; and because of this crime of theirs, wrath came upon Judah and Jerusalem. Although prophets were sent to them to convert them to the LORD, the people would not listen to their warnings. Then the spirit of God possessed Zechariah, son of Jehoiada the priest. He took his stand above the people and said to them: “God says, ‘Why are you transgressing the LORD’s commands, so that you cannot prosper? Because you have abandoned the LORD, he has abandoned you.’” But the people conspired against him, and at the king’s order they stoned him to death in the court of the LORD’s temple. Thus King Joash was unmindful of the devotion shown him by Jehoiada, Zechariah’s father, and slew his son. And as he was dying, he said, “May the LORD see and avenge.”

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First reading 2 Maccabees 6:18, 21, 24-31 I am suffering it with joy in my soul because of my devotion to him.

Eleazar, one of the foremost scribes, a man of advanced age and noble appearance, was being forced to open his mouth to eat pork. Those in charge of that unlawful ritual meal took the man aside privately, because of their long acquaintance with him, and urged him to bring meat of his own providing, such as he could legitimately eat, and to pretend to be eating some of the meat of the sacrifice prescribed by the king.    He told them: “At our age it would be unbecoming to make such a pretense; many young men would think the ninety-year-old Eleazar had gone over to an alien religion. Should I thus pretend for the sake of a brief moment of life, they would be led astray by me, while I would bring shame and dishonor on my old age. Even if, for the time being, I avoid the punishment of men, I shall never, whether alive or dead, escape the hands of the Almighty. Therefore, by manfully giving up my life now, I will prove myself worthy of my old age, and I will leave to the young a noble example of how to die willingly and generously for the revered and holy laws.”    He spoke thus, and went immediately to the instrument of torture. Those who shortly before had been kindly disposed now became hostile toward him because what he had said seemed to them utter madness. When he was about to die under the blows, he groaned and said: “The LORD in his holy knowledge knows full well that, although I could have escaped death, I am not only enduring terrible pain in my body from this scourging, but also suffering it with joy in my soul because of my devotion to him.” This is how he died, leaving in his death a model of courage and an unforgettable example of virtue not only for the young but for the whole nation.

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First reading 2 Maccabees 7:1-2, 9-14 We are ready to die rather than transgress the laws of our ancestors.

It happened that seven brothers with their mother were arrested and tortured with whips and scourges by the king, to force them to eat pork in violation of God’s law. One of the brothers, speaking for the others, said: “What do you expect to achieve by questioning us? We are ready to die rather than transgress the laws of our ancestors.”    At the point of death, the second brother said: “You accursed fiend, you are depriving us of this present life, but the King of the world will raise us up to live again forever. It is for his laws that we are dying.”    After him the third suffered their cruel sport. He put out his tongue at once when told to do so, and bravely held out his hands, as he spoke these noble words: “It was from Heaven that I received these; for the sake of his laws I disdain them; from him I hope to receive them again.” Even the king and his attendants marveled at the young man’s courage, because he regarded his sufferings as nothing.    After he had died, they tortured and maltreated the fourth brother in the same way. When he was near death, he said, “It is my choice to die at the hands of men with the hope God gives of being raised up by him; but for you, there will be no resurrection to life.”

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First reading 2 Maccabees 7:1, 20-23, 27b-29 This most admirable mother bore it courageously because of her hope in the Lord.

It happened that seven brothers with their mother were arrested and tortured with whips and scourges by the king, to force them to eat pork in violation of God’s law.    Most admirable and worthy of everlasting remembrance was the mother, who saw her seven sons perish in a single day, yet bore it courageously because of her hope in the LORD. Filled with a noble spirit that stirred her womanly heart with manly courage she exhorted each of them in the language of their forefathers with these words: “I do not know how you came into existence in my womb; it was not I who gave you the breath of life, nor was it I who set in order the elements of which each of you is composed. Therefore, since it is the Creator of the universe who shapes each man’s beginning, as he brings about the origin of everything, he, in his mercy, will give you back both breath and life, because you now disregard yourselves for the sake of his law.”    “Son, have pity on me, who carried you in my womb for nine months, nursed you for three years, brought you up, educated and supported you to your present age. I beg you, child, to look at the heavens and the earth and see all that is in them; then you will know that God did not make them out of existing things; and in the same way the human race came into existence. Do not be afraid of this executioner, but be worthy of your brothers and accept death, so that in the time of mercy I may receive you again with them.”

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First reading Wisdom 3:1-9 As sacrificial offerings he took them to himself.

The souls of the just are in the hand of God,    and no torment shall touch them. They seemed, in the view of the foolish, to be dead;    and their passing away was thought an affliction    and their going forth from us, utter destruction. But they are in peace. For if before men, indeed, they be punished,    yet is their hope full of immortality; Chastised a little, they shall be greatly blessed,    because God tried them    and found them worthy of himself. As gold in the furnace, he proved them,    and as sacrificial offerings he took them to himself. In the time of their visitation they shall shine,    and shall dart about as sparks through stubble; They shall judge nations and rule over peoples,    and the LORD shall be their King forever. Those who trust in him shall understand truth,    and the faithful shall abide with him in love: Because grace and mercy are with his holy ones,    and his care is with his elect.

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First reading Sirach 51:1-8 You redeemed me, true to the greatness of your mercy and of your name.

I  give you thanks, O Lord and King;    I praise you, O God my savior! I will make known your name,    for you have been a helper and a protector to me. You have kept back my body from the pit,    and from the scourge of a slanderous tongue,    from lips that went over to falsehood. And in the sight of those who stood by,    you have delivered me, According to the multitude of the mercy of your name,    and from them that did roar, prepared to devour me, And from the power of those who sought my life;    from many a danger you have saved me,    from flames that hemmed me in on every side; From the midst of unremitting fire when I was not burnt    from the deep belly of the nether world; From deceiving lips and painters of lies,    from the arrows of dishonest tongues. My soul was at the point of death,    my life was nearing the depths of the nether world; They encompassed me on every side, but there was no one to help me,    I looked for one to sustain me, but could find no one. But then I remembered the mercies of the LORD,    his kindness through ages past; For he saves those who take refuge in him,    and rescues them from every evil.

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Responsorial Psalm Psalm 31:3cd-4, 6 and 8ab, 16bc and 17

Into your hands, O Lord, I commend my spirit.

Be my rock of refuge,    a stronghold to give me safety. You are my rock and my fortress;    for your name’s sake you will lead and guide me.

Into your hands, O Lord, I commend my spirit.

Into your hands I commend my spirit;    you will redeem me, O LORD, O faithful God. I will rejoice and be glad because of your mercy.

Into your hands, O Lord, I commend my spirit.

Rescue me from the clutches of my enemies and my persecutors, Let your face shine upon your servant;    save me in your kindness.

Into your hands, O Lord, I commend my spirit.

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Gospel Acclamation Matthew 5:10

Alleluia, alleluia. Blessed are they who are persecuted for the sake of righteousness, for theirs is the Kingdom of heaven. Alleluia, alleluia.

Or: John 17:19

Alleluia, alleluia. I consecrate myself for them, so that they also may be consecrated in the truth. Alleluia, alleluia.

Or: 2 Corinthians 1:3b-4a

Alleluia, alleluia. Blessed be the Father of compassion and God of all encouragement, who encourages us in our every affliction. Alleluia, alleluia.

Or: James 1:12

Alleluia, alleluia. Blessed is the man who perseveres in temptation, for when he has been proved he will receive the crown of life. Alleluia, alleluia.

Or: 1 Peter 4:14

Alleluia, alleluia. If you are insulted for the name of Christ, blessed are you, for the Spirit of God rests upon you. Alleluia, alleluia.

Or: see Te Deum

Alleluia, alleluia. We praise you, O God, we acclaim you as Lord; the white-robed army of martyrs praise you. Alleluia, alleluia.

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Gospel Matthew 10:17-22 You will be led before governors and kings for my sake, as a witness before them and the pagans.

Jesus said to his Apostles: “Beware of men, for they will hand you over to courts and scourge you in their synagogues, and you will be led before governors and kings for my sake as a witness before them and the pagans. When they hand you over, do not worry about how you are to speak or what you are to say. You will be given at that moment what you are to say. For it will not be you who speak but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. Brother will hand over brother to death, and the father his child; children will rise up against parents and have them put to death. You will be hated by all because of my name, but whoever endures to the end will be saved.”

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My Thoughts On Jeremiah Fisher

Someone asked me to do a Jeremiah Fisher pros and cons. So here I am. Let's gooooooo.

Pros:

Cute as hell.

The bluest eyes you have ever seen in your life.

He’s sociable, outgoing, goofy, and emotionally available!

Invites Belly to hang out and makes her feel comfortable.

Takes care of his mom.

Takes Belly to the deb ball.

The way he kisses ofc (1 million points).

Is Belly's best friend.

Loves Belly.

Cares for Belly.

His style.

Life of the party baby.

"You don't need to hurt yourself to get my attention".

Drives a red jeep (sucker for jeeps).

Bisexual king!

Cons:

Flirts with everyone.

Firework incident.

Telling Belly about Conrad asking for his blessing (was a private convo).

Can be immature at times.

I'm so sorry but I literally CANNOT think of anything else. And not just because I'm Team Jeremiah. Because, I literally can't think of anything else.

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What pissed me off so much about We'll Always Have Summer-- 

and not just because i was already a Jeremiah stan since the first book-- is that Belly repeatedly said she was choosing Jeremiah. She was coming to the decision that Jeremiah was who she wanted to move forward with. She made that decision over and over. She said it.

"Conrad has my past but Jeremiah has my present and my future."

"I chose to walk away from Conrad. I chose the boy who would never walk away from me."

Like over and over she makes this decision. And she still ends up with Conrad anyway. It's not like this book was a love triangle (i hate those anyway) where she was torn between two men and didn't know what to do; she kept choosing Jeremiah every time and there were moments where Conrad was agreeing to that decision too. The whole book was Conrad and Belly letting go of each other until the last part and i just.. hate that.

I think with To All The Boys, the conflict between choosing Peter and choosing John Ambrose was very much about how you don't have a choice in who you love. If you just can't help being in love with someone, the better and frankly perfect other option being put right in front of you can't change that. So Lara Jean chose Peter because she couldn't not choose Peter.

But with this... Belly made a very mature assessment that Conrad would always have a piece of her heart but that didn't mean she should be with him. And then she repeatedly chose Jeremiah. Until the very end when he couldn't accept that her reality was she couldn't evict Conrad from her heart entirely as she said she had-- because you literally can't do that-- but she wanted to build her life with Jeremiah.

And that killed me. Because it's like even when you make a clear and conscious choice, even when you make it repeatedly, it doesn't matter.

I hated the time jump between the 2nd and 3rd book. I hated not getting more of Belly and Jeremiah's relationship before the big fight and sudden proposal. I hated that this book cheated me out of my favourite ship by having it be all about them planning a rushed and ill-advised wedding. But most of all i hated how no matter how many times Belly chose Jeremiah, she still fucking ended up with Conrad. Worst possible follow up to the amazing 2nd book in my opinion.

And i hated when Conrad said "he's marrying my girl" when he dated Belly for 6 months and made her feel horrible about it, whereas Jeremiah was her best friend and dated her for 2 YEARS. She's nobody's girl. She's her own girl. But if anybody should be marrying her, I'm leaning towards the one she had a longer and more satisfying relationship with.

And I'm not forgiving Jeremiah for sleeping with someone else when they were broken up and never telling her about it. I don't support his sudden marriage proposal while they were fighting. I don't like that he couldn't accept that Belly would always have feelings for Conrad and was still choosing him.

But i also just don't like the plot of this book altogether. So I'm not even holding those things against my boy, I'm holding everything against the book itself. I think Jeremiah's love for Belly was portrayed better throughout the trilogy. Both as a character expressing himself and from a writing standpoint. And i think it's best summed up in a line Conrad himself says about him, "He's not a serious guy but believe me, he's serious about her."

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─── 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝 - 𝐜.𝐟 : 𝐈𝐈

Summary: Being Belly & Steven’s older sibling has it’s pros and cons. protecting them and taking care of them is a must, but do you really have to put their feelings first instead of your own?

Prev ; Next || Conrad Fisher x fem!reader || My blog

Warning: angst, fluff, swearing(?), smoking, conrad being a two timer. (lmk if i missed anything!)

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It was the night after me and Conrad talked. We were now in the dining room, eating the food Susannah prepared for us.

“So, I want to continue on your guys’ portraits tomorrow. Are you guys free?” Susannah smiled at us.

Susannah was almost done with our portraits. She just needed to put a little bit of touches, more color to it. We’d love to stay home and let her continue it but it was almost the end of summer, we all had our own plans.

Steven looked around the table, waiting for our answer. “Well I am free tomorrow, you can continue mine” he smiled.

I smiled at Steven and started to look around the table too. “Anyone else that’s free? it’s okay if you guys are not, it’s summer, you guys are supposed to have fun not be stuck here” Susannah reached for my hand and smiled.

“I don’t think i’ll be free tomorrow” Belly said, stopping herself from smiling. Trying to cover her mouth with her hand. That smile, I knew there was something going on. I just knew it.

Susannah and Laurel looked at her, confused while Steven looked at me like asking me if I knew what was going on. I shook my head no even though I knew.

“Wow! Belly is finally going out!” Steven teased Belly. I laughed “Shut up, Steve! Don’t tease her like that” I nudged him with my elbow and looked at Belly winking at her.

Belly smiled big, “Well whether you believe it or not, I am going on a date” she bit her lip — trying to contain her giggle.

I knew it. I knew Conrad was going to ask her anytime soon. This is what I wanted right? but why am I hurting? am I sad about it? I don’t think so.

I smiled, “So who’s the lucky guy? huh?” I asked — acting like I didn’t know, I definitely knew and Susannah knew that I knew.

Susannah who was still holding my hand, started to caress my hand. I looked at her, I nodded and smiled, as a way of saying that it was okay, that I was okay.

“Well, It’s Conrad” Belly said, trying not to giggle. My mom smiled, she looked excited, “Oh really? that’s nice!” finally, what she wanted was happening.

Steven looked at me, confused — trying to comprehend what was happening. He was confused with how Belly and Conrad happened, how it started, when it started.

“What the fuck, Conrad! Really? my sister?” Steven teased. “Hey! Don’t be like that!” my mom said glaring at Steven. Of course she’d defend them, this was something that she always saw back when we were little.

“Well, what about you Y/N? are you busy tomorrow? Jere?” Susannah said looking at us with a gentle smile.

I looked at Jeremiah, he was looking at me too, “I think i’m-“

“Me and Y/N actually got something tomorrow, Mom” Jeremiah said, cutting me off — smiling at Susannah.

I looked at Jeremiah — raising my brows at him. He just smiled and shrugged.

“What?! where are you guys going now? why am I not included in whatever this is?” Steven yelled while pointing fingers at us. I laughed at him along with Jeremiah and Belly.

“Oh come on, Steven. Let your sisters have fun without you!” my mom laughed, looking at me and Belly. Steven groaned and slumped on the chair he was sitting at, “This is not fair!!”

It was funny how he always acted like he knew everything, like he was the shit but when it comes to things like this, he acts like a child. He doesn’t like it when he feels left out.

“Well I guess it’s just you and me, Steven” Susannah smiled gently. I looked at Conrad, noticing that he was already looking at me, I looked away and turned my attention to Belly.

Belly looked back at me and smiled, I smiled back. She wanted this, this was her dream, to be with Conrad. She deserves this, she deserves to be happy. She is happy and I am happy too. That’s what matters.

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After the dinner, I went up to my room and changed into my swimsuit. I decided to go for a swim, since it was something that always eased my mind.

It was such a nice night to swim, not that cold and not that hot. It was just the right temperature.

I went in and swam for a while. As I returned to the surface, I saw Conrad, smoking.

“Hey, there. Didn’t know you smoked” I tilted my head, smiling a little bit. It was the first time I saw him smoke, he never smoked.

Conrad smirked, taking a drag of his cigarette before answering me. “Well it just helps me sleep well” he shrugged.

“Yeah sure, It’ll kill you too.” I rolled my eyes and swam away from him.

This was different. Conrad was acting different, this wasn’t normal. I wanted to act like I didn’t care but I did. He’s my bestfriend too, I can’t afford to lose him.

As I returned again to the surface Conrad asked me, “Are you happy?” he titled his head, taking another drag of his cigarette.

“All of a sudden?” I asked him. I ask myself the same question, am I really happy? am I putting up a front? is whatever i’m doing right?

Conrad shrugged, “Yeah? Just wanted to ask, you seemed kinda off earlier” he looked at me in my eyes, trying to read my emotions. He always said I was an easy read, but he wondered why he can’t read me now.

I remained silent for a while — I didn’t know what the answer was because even I ask myself that. “Well we’re all complete. It’s summer, no school, no problems. I guess i’m not fully happy because of what Susannah’s going through right now but we’re all together so somehow I am happy.” I smiled gently, Conrad smiled back.

“Well I am glad you are happy because me too. I feel the same way” Conrad said, smiling at me — taking another drag of his cigarette. Looking at me while he blew the smoke out of his mouth.

I can see that he was happy but there was a glint in his eyes, I knew he wasn’t fully happy, how can he be happy when Susannah’s sick? — he made it so hard not to care for him but I knew I needed to stop this feeling, I needed to do it even if it hurts me.

I looked away from him, “So… where are you taking Belly?” I asked as I swam away from him, turning my back on him, trying to change the topic.

There was silence, I guess he didn’t want this conversation. He never expected to jump into this topic. He didn’t want to talk about this with me.

“Uhm, I’ll be taking her to her favorite restaurant and probably go to the arcade too or something” Conrad shrugged throwing his cigarette away, not really sure with his answer.

I turned, “That’s nice, Belly will absolutely love it” I smiled at him. He just looked at me with his brow furrowed,that look like I was crazy — like I was someone he didn’t know — all because he couldn’t figure it out, he couldn’t read me — it was so hard for him.

It was silent again not until Jeremiah came out of the door.

“Y/N! Go inside, it’s getting cold!” Jeremiah walked towards me with a towel in his hands. I swam all the way to the end of the pool where Jeremiah was, he lend a hand out and he helped me get out of the pool.

“Thank’s Jere” I took the towel and smiled at him gently. I wiped my face and rubbed it on my head then wrapped it around my shoulder.

I look back to check if Conrad was still there but he already stood up and started to walk inside the house.

Jeremiah looked at Conrad then looked back at me, I looked back at him, his brows furrowed, “You okay, Y/N/N?” I smiled at him and nodded, “Come on, let’s get back inside” I said — Jeremiah nodded and guided me back inside the house since I didn’t have any slippers on, we went inside the house and watched a movie with the moms.

There was a lot of things that happened today, my talk with Conrad, Conrad asking Belly out, and me and Jeremiah going out which I didn’t even know that we were, I am honestly glad that Jeremiah was there to save me. As of right now, if my sister is happy then I am happy too. As I said, that’s what matters.

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Trayveon Williams is a threat to take it to the house

     War Eagle, everybody! It’s time now for another Auburn game preview! After a bye week on the October 27th weekend, Auburn will host the Texas A&M Aggies on November 3rd. Since the Aggies joined the SEC, the home team has yet to win a game in this series. Auburn will have a great chance to end that streak this year. New head coach Jimbo Fisher intends to transform Texas A&M from a spread team to one that is more pro style on both sides of the ball. That sort of shift rarely works out well in year one.

     Texas A&M has a brutal schedule early on. The Aggies open on a Thursday night in late August with Northwestern State, then host Clemson and Louisiana Monroe in back-to-back weeks. The Aggies then travel to play Alabama, followed by Arkansas in Arlington, Texas. Texas A&M then hosts Kentucky and travels to South Carolina. The Aggies have a bye week, then travel to Starkville to take on a tough Mississippi State team before their trip to Auburn. Auburn will have played Washington in Atlanta and hosted Alabama State, LSU, Arkansas and Southern Miss before traveling to Mississippi State. Auburn then hosts Tennessee before heading to Oxford to play Ole Miss. The Tigers have a bye week before hosting Texas A&M.

     One of the issues of transforming from a spread attack to a more conventional offense is whether the team has any players on the roster that can handle the lead blocking roles played by tight ends and fullbacks. If the spring game is any indication, the Aggies have found a tight end or two that should be good. Fullback was more of a walk-on situation, and the Aggies ran a lot of one-back offense in the spring. I worry about those positions every year at Auburn, and now the Aggies have those worries. Still, I expect to see the team lean heavily on star running back Trayveon Williams. Williams is fast, but hasn’t yet been put in the position of having to be the bell-cow runner.

     Texas A&M wasn’t great up front on offense last season, but it does get most starters back and has retained offensive line coach Jim Turner from the previous staff. The quarterback is still up in the air as sophomores Nick Starkell and Kellen Mond continue to battle it out. One would think that Starkell’s drop-back style would be a better fit for the style of offense head coach Jimbo Fisher likes to run. Mond is more of a mobile, dual-threat quarterback. Fisher hired Darrell Dickey to run the offense, and Dickey is known for the formidable passing offense he put together last season at Memphis.

     Defensively, Fisher was able to hire Mike Elko away from Notre Dame to run the defense. Elko runs a pressure style, multiple defense which is difficult to prepare for. Elko inherits a defense that has been less than the sum of its parts the past couple of season. The Aggies could pressure the quarterback but were quite leaky on the back end. Elko has talent and experience to work with at every level of the defense.

     Texas A&M has a pair of very strong, accurate legs in veteran kicker Daniel LaCamera and punter/kickoff man Braden Mann. The Aggies will have to replace legendary kick/punt returner Christian Kirk, although there are plenty of good speedsters on the roster to audition. Texas A&M was average in punt coverage and somewhat suspect in kick coverage last season.

Unit battles, after the jump!

Auburn defensive line vs. Texas A&M offensive line: Auburn brings a big, athletic defensive line back this season. Likely starters at tackle are senior Dontavius Russell and junior Derrick Brown. Junior strong-side end Marlon Davidson was a beast on A-Day. The buck side is a rotation between sophomores TD Moultry and Big Kat Bryant. Auburn can play monster sophomore Nick Coe at any position on the line with great results. Auburn has serious depth all across the line as well. The Aggies took a blow this past spring when starting left tackle Koda Martin suffered a heat stroke and subsequently transferred to Syracuse. The next man up is sophomore Dan Moore, Jr., but there may be some shuffling in fall camp. Carson Green took hold of the right tackle spot this past spring but may be moved to the left side and in that case look for Keaton Sutherland to start on the right. Guards should be junior Colton Prater and senior Connor Lanfear. Junior Erik McCoy will start at center. Advantage: Auburn.

Auburn linebackers vs. Texas A&M backs: The Tigers have a good cross-trained quartet of upper echelon SEC-caliber linebackers. Senior Deshaun Davis leads the bunch, seniors Darrell Williams and Montravious Atkinson are able to play all three positions, and we might see any combination of these players out on the field at a given time. Auburn has lots of depth behind the starters as well. Auburn’s linebackers play with leverage and are sure tacklers. Junior Trayveon Williams will start at running back for the Aggies. Williams has bedeviled the Auburn defense with long runs the past couple of seasons but did not get a ton of carries. It remains to be seen how well he will hold up as a primary ball carrier by the time November rolls around. Advantage: even.

Auburn corners vs. Texas A&M receivers: Auburn has a fairly good combination of starting corners in juniors Javaris Davis and Jamel Dean. Junior Jeremiah Dinson could move over from safety, if needed. Sophomore converted wide receiver Noah Igbinoghene turned heads this spring and could be a co-starter on either side. John Broussard Jr. provides quality depth. Texas A&M lost a couple of great receivers, as they seem to do every year, but there is still a stockpile of talent here. Look for sophomores Kendrick Rogers and Jhamon Ausbon to start, with depth provided by Klyde Chriss and Hezekiah Jones. Advantage: Auburn.

Auburn safeties vs. Texas A&M secondary receivers and quarterback: Auburn’s starting unit features Juniors Jeremiah Dinson and Daniel Thomas at safety. Thomas was an experienced backup last season, and Dinson played nickel back. Dinson can play every position in the secondary well but has missed considerable time with injuries over the past 3 seasons. Sophomore Jordyn Peters is listed as Auburn’s top nickel back as of now. Auburn is very young behind the starters. The star of the Aggie spring game was transfer tight end Jace Sternberger, who was a serious threat in the passing game. Sophomore slot receiver Cameron Buckley may be the fastest of all Aggie receivers. The duel between sophomore quarterbacks Nick Starkell and Kellen Mond will continue this fall camp, but a starter should be settled on by November. It is important to remember that Jimbo Fisher has quite the reputation as a developer of quarterbacks. Advantage: Even.

Punting: For now, Auburn sophomore Aiden Marshall is the starter, backed up by Ian Shannon. Both were inconsistent last year and didn’t do much to impress in Auburn’s A-Day game in bad weather. Australian import Arryn Siposs is expected to come in and win the starting punting job this fall. Last season, Shannon averaged 39.8 yards per punt, and Marshall averaged 39.4. The Aggies will miss the leg of Shane Tripucka, but junior replacement Braden Mann looks like a more than adequate punter. Neither team was great in punt coverage last season. Texas A&M gave up 8.1 yards per return, and Auburn gave up 11.4. Both teams are still trying to find a punt returner for this season. Advantage: Texas A&M.

Kickoffs: Auburn redshirt freshman Anders Carlson has no experience, but given his displayed leg strength on A-Day, I think kicking a lot of touchbacks should be a given next season. Also, there is a new fair catch rule in effect this season, that puts the ball at the 25. I think we will see a lot of fair catches on anything fielded inside the 5 this season. Braden Mann should be a strong kickoff man for the Aggies. Auburn will return kickoffs with sophomore Noah Igbinoghene, who averaged 23.8 yards per return last season despite only fair-to-poor blocking. We’re not sure who’ll return kicks for the Aggies yet, but it is worth noting that Trayveon Williams averaged 30.5 yards per return on 6 returns last season. Whether the Aggies would consider their top running back for return duties is up in the air. Auburn was awful on kick coverage giving up 27.2 yards per return last season. Fortunately, Carlson can produce a lot of touchbacks. Texas A&M was suspect, giving up 22.4. Advantage: Texas A&M.

Place kicking: Anders Carlson of Auburn has no experience, but he did hit 4 of 4 in bad weather in Auburn’s spring game. I watched him in warmups, too. His only miss in practice was from 53 yards, hitting the upright. Senior Daniel LaCamera returns for the Aggies after hitting on 18 of 21 field goals last season. Advantage: Texas A&M.

Auburn offensive line vs. Texas A&M defensive line: It’s still not settled who’ll start for Auburn on the line, although the starters looked decent on A-Day. Auburn is set at the guard spots with veteran juniors Mike Horton and Marquel Harrell. Left tackle seems solid with junior Prince Tega Wanagho, who has reputedly taken the next step forward this spring after struggling last season in limited starts. Right tackle was a battle this spring between freshmen Austin Troxell and Calvin Ashley. Both had good moments, but Auburn turned around and signed graduate transfer Jack Driscoll from UMass. Driscoll played last season against SEC foes Tennessee and Mississippi State and allowed just 1 quarterback pressure. Center is another big question mark for Auburn. Junior Kaleb Kim and redshirt freshman NickBrahms were battling for the starting job, but both went out with injuries and may or may not be back for the season opener. Converted H-back/tight end/walk-on Tucker Brown started on A-Day and actually did a good job. By midseason, I’m confident that line coach J. B. Grimes will have a strong offensive line out there. Grimes did a really solid job with the Auburn line in his previous stint from 2013-2015. Grimes has been greatly missed the past couple of seasons! The Aggies have a stout pair of senior tackles, Daylon Mack and Kingsley Keke, with depth behind them. At end, the Aggies return senior Landis Durham, who led the SEC in sacks last season. Junior Michael Clemmons appears to have nabbed the other starting spot. Depth is good at end, as well. It is worth noting that this team only got to the Auburn quarterback a couple of times last season in College Station. Advantage: Even.

Auburn backs vs. Texas A&M linebackers: Auburn features senior H-back Chandler Cox, a 4-year starter, blowing open holes. The real question is who will carry the ball. Junior Kam Martin is blazing fast but has had durability issues in the past. Junior Malik Miller has size, power, and a few carries here and there but hasn’t been used much. Sophomore Devan Barrett has been moved to receiver. Auburn played freshmen JaTarvious Whitlow and Asa Martin a lot on A-Day. Both were suspect in pass blocking, and running sideways or backwards. Whitlow dropped several passes. The best A-Day runner for the second year in a row was junior walk-on C. J. Tolbert, who had 137 yards. Tolbert is on the small side and didn’t have an actual carry in 2017. We do know, after watching the Gus Malzahn offense for 8 years at Auburn, there will be a bell-cow running back identified by this time, tearing SEC defenses up, as long as the offense is balanced. The Aggies should be solid here with returning starters. Senior Otara Alaka and sophomore Buddy Johnson will handle the outside, while junior Tyrel Dodson lines up in the middle. Auburn piled up 228 rushing yards against Texas A&M last season. Advantage: Even.

Auburn receivers vs. Texas A&M corners: At the end of spring, it looked like Auburn’s two starting outside guys were juniors Nate Craig-Myers and Darius Slayton. Both guys can fly, have good height, and great hands. Redshirt freshman Marquis McClain had the catch of the day on A-Day and is someone to watch out for on the outside as well. Veteran junior Charles Oliver holds down one side, and evidently Clifford Chattman will return after sitting out of academic reasons last year. There is good depth at corner as well. Advantage: Even.

Auburn secondary receivers and quarterback vs. Texas A&M safeties: Auburn senior Ryan Davis shattered the team single-season receptions mark last year with 84 catches. Teams that gave Davis a cushion last season got eaten up 5 to 10 yards per quick pass. Teams that tried to press were often burned for touchdowns. Auburn depth at the slot took blows with both Will Hastings and Eli Stove having knee injuries and surgeries this spring. Both did a ton of damage last year. Auburn has moved running back Devan Barrett to the slot for depth. Barrett has good hands and is a good runner, but he’s not the breakaway threat the guys above him are. Auburn’s tight end is senior Jalen Harris. Teams can key on him as a blocker only. I think Auburn has targeted Harris maybe 3 times in his 3 years as a starter. Auburn quarterback Jarrett Stidham had a slow start and a propensity to take hits last season but heated up by about game 4 and lit up some SEC secondaries. He’s mobile in the pocket, and can make every throw. The Aggies are pretty stout at safety with a strong rotation. Expect some combination of Donovan Wilson, Derrick Turner, Keldrick Carper, Deshawn Capers-Smith, and Larry Pryor to keep the top on the defense. Advantage: Auburn.

     Auburn should have a good home-field advantage in this one, and depth tends to matter more in November. Auburn has better depth than Texas A&M in spots as well as more top-end talent, especially throughout the defense. I suspect both teams will try to establish the run and control the clock, in order to keep the other team’s dangerous skill players on the sideline. However, I think Texas A&M is a couple of recruiting classes away from being able to pound on SEC West defenses.

Prediction: Year one of the the Fisher era is going to be a tough transition. Auburn wins in workmanlike fashion, 27-10.

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─── 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝 - 𝐜.𝐟 : 𝐈𝐕

Summary: Being Belly & Steven’s older sibling has it’s pros and cons. protecting them and taking care of them is a must, but do you really have to put their feelings first instead of your own?

Prev ; Next || Conrad Fisher x fem!reader || My blog

Warnings: fighting, angst, yelling, accusations, swearing, crying, panic attack. JUST MOSTLY ANGST (lmk if i missed anything!)

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It was the morning after the movie night. I woke up and realized that I wasn’t in my own bedroom, I was in Conrads. He might’ve carried me up here instead of my room. I tried to wake myself up so that I can get out of this room immediately.

I got out of the covers looking at the clock — it was already 11 in the morning so I went on and immediately walked to the door but as I open it I saw Belly — she was outside of Conrad’s room waiting — probably didn’t know that he was gone. She was surprised — shocked, betrayed seeing me there.

She looked at me, her brows furrowed. She chuckled sarcastically and scoffed, “Wow Y/N. Goodmorning to you, too.” she said, turning her back on me — running towards the stairs.

I panicked, she must’ve thought wrong “It’s not what it looks like Bells!” I yelled at her, trying to catch up to her. I messed up. I shouldn’t have let myself sleep on Conrad.

“Yeah?! that’s what they always say! You came out of Conrad’s room, Y/N!” Belly turned to me, she was at the end of the stairs — I saw Steven come in the view “Why were you in Conrad’s room? and where the fuck is Conrad?” Steven asked, looking at me — confused too.

I understand that she’s hurt, she probably felt betrayed. “I was in Conrad’s room but nothing happened! It’s not like that, will you just let me explain?!” I told Belly — walking down the stairs — we were in the living room now. She probably thought that I was a traitor. “You guys, why are you yelling? what is happening?” Mom asked, Susannah right behind her — her face filled with worry.

“I saw Y/N come out of Conrad’s room” Belly said looking down at her feet, crossing her arms. Jeremiah came into the view — walking towards me, standing by my side. “What do you mean you came out of his room? why were you there Y/N?” Mom looked at me, her brows furrowed.

“I woke up then I was just there, he might’ve carried me last night or something. I swear nothing else happened, Mom.” I told them, my face was still filled with worry. “Bullshit!” Belly yelled at me — she walked towards me and looked at me in the eyes.

“Belly, don’t scream at your sister like that!” Mom said, walking towards Belly — pulling her away from me before anything bad happens. I felt Susannah come up behind me — she held my hand guiding me away from Belly. “You know you could’ve just told me that you like Conrad. I can’t believe you Y/N, after me and Conrad kissed this is what you’re going to do? You know how much I like him!” Belly yelled again — still caught up on her emotions.

Steven was surprised, even Jeremiah “You and Conrad kissed? Since when?” Steven asked Belly, Belly looked at him — probably shocked about what she said, she didn’t mean to just blurt it all out. Her emotions took over her.

“On our date, we went to the beach after and that’s when we kissed” Belly looked at all of us, “So are you guys together?” Mom asked, smiling. It’s crazy how the mood just changed like that — like she wasn’t about to kill me earlier.

Belly smiled — trying to contain her giggle. “I guess so? Yeah?” Mom hugged her and said that it was great, Steven also smiled at her. “That’s good news, Bells. Just to clear everything, I don’t like Conrad. He’s all yours.” I told Belly, smiling at her gently. Not wanting to ruin this precious moment that they are having — I turned my back to them and walked towards the kitchen.

I acted like nothing happened — I sat down to eat my breakfast, I heard Susannah ask me “Hey, are you okay?” She said, she went beside me and rubbed my back. “Yeah, I’m happy for Belly. I’m glad that her and Conrad are together. I’m okay, Susannah.” I looked at her with a smile. She looked at me, her eyes filled with worry. “Are you happy because you’re happy or are you happy because your siblings are happy?”

I ask myself the same thing — am I truly happy because I am happy or am I just putting up a front for my siblings, for my mom. I really don’t know.

I looked at Susannah, I started to tear up. “I don’t know, Susannah. I don’t know If I am happy at all, whatever i’m doing is hurting me.” Susannah looked me, she put her hand on my cheek — caressing it. “Oh my special girl. Come here” she pulled me closer and hugged me.

“Thank you for always being here for me Susannah”

“Ofcourse, you’re my special girl” She smiled, her eyes gleamed.

“Promise me you won’t ever leave me” I looked up to her, smiling.

There was silence, it wasn’t an easy question to answer but still she said, “I’ll be by your side, forever. I promise” Susannah hugged me tighter.

I know that the future might do otherwise, thats what the fate is. Right now, I just want to enjoy and cherish my moments with Susannah. Cherish the moment of me being her special girl.

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I was in the living room with Steven, we were playing a game that he pushed me to play because Conrad and Jeremiah wasn’t here so he made me play it with him.

“NOT THERE! there there there, NOOOO GO RIGHT, okay now go left” Steven yelled at me, determined to win. “OH MY FUCKING GOD, SHUT UP STEVEN! you’re stressing me out” I yelled back at him.

After awhile, we had a few rounds and there and then we tied. While Steven was in the kitchen getting some snacks for the both of us — I saw Laurel walking towards me, sitting beside me.

“So, what was that earlier?” Laurel asked — not looking at me, just looking at the screen. “What was what?” I asked, confused.

Laurel looked at me then turned to me. “That thing with Conrad, why were you in his room?”, I looked at her with my brow furrowed, “Mom I was just sleeping there. Remember last night? we were watching a movie? He probably went and carried me up to his room. That’s all, nothing else.” I explained to her.

“You know that him and Belly got something on right? they’re together now.”

“I know that, Mom”

“Then why did you sleep in his room? did something happen to you guys? you know you can tell me everythi-.”

“Mom! I just told you, nothing happened. I thought this conversation was over!” I groaned — she didn’t believe me, it’s like she wasn’t even listening to what I just said. Why was she acussing me of something I didn’t do? she knows that I can’t do this to Belly, I would never.

Mom turned herself away from me, leaning on the couch, “I don’t know why you’re acting so selfish right now. You know how much Belly likes Conrad. So please, don’t take this away from her” she said, crossing her arms.

My brows furrowed, shocked from what she just said, “Selfish? what do you mean selfish? how am I selfish when all I did was sleep in Conrad’s room? that wasn’t even my choice Mom! and I am not taking anything from her! She can have Conrad as much as she wants, I don’t fucking care!”

I yelled at her, frustrated. I didn’t even notice that I was already crying — I would never take anything away from my siblings, I care for them too much to do that.

“Don’t yell at me like that, Y/N. I am still your mother! I’m only saying this because I am worried about you and your sister. I don’t want you guys to fight about this! ” My mom yelled — hurt about how I answered her.

I scoffed, sure she was worried “Well I am sorry mom but… y-you’re hurting me right now. I can’t believe that you just called me selfish, after everything I’ve done? I-I’m sorry, this is too much for me.” I told her, I stood up from the couch then walked towards the door, as I was walking I saw Steven standing there in the kitchen looking at me, I looked back.

As he was about to walk towards me, I shook my head no then continued to walk out of the door. “God mom, you didn’t have to be so harsh to her. She’s going throught a lot of things too you know. She didn’t do anything wrong, you know yourself that she can’t do that to Belly.” Steven said.

“Steven stay out of this.”

“Well I’m sorry but they’re my sisters too, I care about them so I wont stay out of this.” Steven told my mom — mom just looked at him then stood up from the couch and then went back upstairs.

As I reached the beach, I felt my heart tighten. I felt my heart beat so fast — I couldn’t breathe, I just couldn’t. It was so hard for me, I was so hurt. I just saw myself sobbing, crying my emotions out.

How am I the selfish one when all I ever did was let Conrad have the choice, I decided to let him go for Belly. So why am I the selfish one? I was the one who got hurt — I was the one to let go of my feelings and prioritize other’s feelings first.

I tried to walk but it was hard, my knees were buckling. It was so hard to breathe, I need a second. I need to breathe.

“Y/N?” someone yelled. “P-please, just… just go.” I said, still struggling to breathe, tripping a little. I felt the person walk towards me

They grabbed my shoulder gently then they turned me — we were face to face now. I could see their eyes, it was a bit blurry but I immediately knew who it was.“You’re okay, you’re safe with me. Follow me yeah?” he instructed. He guided me to sit with him, we were kneeling in front of each other — face to face.

“Breathe in, breathe out. That’s good, there you go” he said as I followed his breathing. We did that for a minute until I calmed down. My heart was beating at a normal pace, I’m okay now.

He rubbed my back and pulled me closer. He sat down so that I can lean on him. I was now sitting between his legs — my back against his chest. “There you go, you’re okay. I’m here, you’re fine. No one’s gonna hurt you” he said, rubbing my shoulders. I felt myself fall asleep from exhaustion.

I felt safe, I felt secure. Today was exhausting, never expected that my day would end like this. I am just thankful that he’s there for me, because I wouldn’t know what to do if it wasn’t for him.

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[ist4rgirlo]

── 𝐛𝐞𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐝 - 𝐜.𝐟 : 𝐕

Summary: Being Belly & Steven’s older sibling has it’s pros and cons. protecting them and taking care of them is a must, but do you really have to put their feelings first instead of your own?

Prev ; Next || Conrad Fisher x fem!reader || My blog

Warnings: angst, fluff, talking about panic attacks, swearing, crying (lmk if i missed anything!)

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It was the morning after the incident — thank god I woke up in my own room now. I was still exhausted, tired from last night. I never thanked that person that helped me last night, I never thanked him.

It was 9 in the morning, I decided to just stay in my room. I can’t face them — I just can’t, how can I? I’m still hurt from it, from what they said to me.

There was a knock on my door. “Come in!” I sat up and looked at the door — It was Steven. “Hey sis, goodmorning” Steven walked towards me, he was holding a plate with food in it. Gosh I love Steven, he was the only one who truly cared.

“Hey Steve” I said, looking up to him — smiling at him. “I got you breakfast” he said, titlting his head. He smiled, raising his shoulders.

I stood up and hugged him. We always had each other even from the start, even when we were little. He understands me and I understand him. That’s what I love about our relationship.

“Thank you, Steve. For everything”

“Ofcourse sis. Anything for you” Steven pulled away, rubbing my shoulders. “So, I heard that you had a panic attack last night. You want to talk about it?” He sat down — asking me to sit down with him. He placed the plate on my lap.

As I started to eat my breakfast, Steven said “It’s okay if you don’t want to, I can understand” looking at me — smiling gently.

I looked back at him “No it’s okay, we can talk about it. Just wanted to ask you, who told you?” He looked down, fidgeting with his fingers. He shouldn’t have asked — he thought.

“Oh uh, it was Conrad”

Ofcourse it was him, he was the one who helped me. He was the one who went up to me last night, at the beach.

“Oh, ofcourse” I said looking at him, I smiled — nodding. He just looked at me waiting for an answer. Waiting for me to tell him what the reason was behind my panic attack.

“It was just too much for me last night. I guess I just exploded. I never meant to yell at mom or Belly, I was just too tired. It was like I was in the middle of everything — it wss my first time having that incident, Steve. I thought I wouldn’t make it.” I told him, plopping down on my bed — sighing deeply, putting my arm over my eyes.

“I am so sorry that happened to you sis, I should’ve been there by your side — defending you, I should’ve followed you.” Steven’s voice was filled with worry, with disappointment. I might’ve struggled a lot last night, he thought.

Hearing the sadness in his voice, I sat up — putting my arms around his shoulder “Steve you shouldn’t be sorry, it’s okay. I’m okay now, don’t worry” I looked at him then I leaned my head on his shoulder while he leaned his head on top of my head.

“I got you always, sis. You know that”

“I do, Steve. I also got you, always. I am so thankful for you”

We stayed like that for a moment until Steven had to go because Laurel was calling for him — he had this thing with Shayla — it was probably about the deb ball.

TIME SKIP

After mopping around in my room and doing god know’s what, I decided to go get ready to go out. I couldn’t stay here in my room all day so I decided to go to the beach and get some fresh air.

As I walk downstairs, I saw Susannah — she was with Belly & Laurel in the living room. “Goodmorning, Y/N!” Susannah greeted me, I greeted her back then walked out of the door — completely ignoring my sister and my mom.

Conrad and Jeremiah were in the living room, playing games. I hesistated between going to him or not but I chose not to go to Conrad just to thank him for last night — it’ll just add fuel to whatever heat is going on between me and Belly. It was best to keep quiet and not say anything.

I went out of the door and went straight to the beach.

For me, beaches have a soothing ambiance that nothing can beat. The earthy and salty scents of the sea breeze. The sounds of the ocean and gulls. It calmed me, it is my way of coping.

“Hi, pretty girl” It was Jeremiah — I looked up to him then I pat beside me, telling him to sit down. “Hi Jere” I said smiling. He sat down letting me lean on him.

He put his arms around me, rubbing my shoulders “How are you? I heard you had a fight with Belly yesterday, they were talking about it earlier.” He said — brows furrowed.

“Interesting, I thought they were over it, I guess not. But yeah, we had a fight yesterday but I’m okay now. I don’t really care anymore” I shrugged — not really wanting to waste my time just thinking about that stupid fight that we had.

Jeremiah chuckled “It’s good that you’re unbothered about it right now. You shouldn’t waste your time on that, enjoy your last week here in Cousins!” I just smiled and nodded. I don’t want to promise him anything, knowing that I already made up my mind.

Jeremiah stood up, offering me a hand “You wanna go get ice cream?” he smiled widely — I nodded, giggling.

“So what you gonna get?”

“The usual”

“Coffee” we said at the same time. Jeremiah made a face, a dirty face.

“Ew” he said, teasing me. “Uh don’t you ever! I never teased you about your obsession with milk” I elbowed him in the stomach, he looked at me chuckling.

“I’m just kidding” he said smiling — wrapping an arm around my shoulder as we walked towards the ice cream shop.

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It was night now, they were all eating dinner but i’m here in the pool swimming — I didn’t feel like eating, it was too awkward for me plus I was still full from earlier because Jeremiah spoiled me with food too much.

I always loved swimming, ever since I was little. Swimming and the beach are one of the things that I love. Swimming just makes me feel a lot better, it make me keep my mind off of things.

I swam and just enjoyed the coolness of the pool. As I returned to the surface — I saw Conrad, a plate beside him, filled with food. He wasn’t smoking this time, he was just watching me swim.

“Hey” Conrad said, looking at me — smiling. I looked at him, I didn’t want to talk to him — I wanted to ignore, to get away from him. I can’t keep hurting my sister. Why is it so hard?

“Oh hi” I turned around, not wanting to look in his eyes. “Uhm, I got you food” Conrad said, I turned to him — I saw him holding up the plate with my favorite, “I made it” he smiled.

I turned and looked at him — confused, why was he doing this? Belly didn’t tell him that we had a fight? Did no one tell him about yesterday? but it’s impossible, he was the one who helped me when I was having a panic attack — maybe he never asked.

He looked at me, his smile faltered. “Hey what’s wrong? why are you ignoring me?” he asked, his voice laced with worry. “I am not ignoring you, Conrad. I’m just confused why you are here and why you made me that food” I looked at him — disappointment started to fill his face, his heart was slowly breaking.

“Oh, i’m sorry” he said, putting the plate down — looking down. I needed to do this — so he would stay away from me. I had to do it, for my sister, for me.

I swam to him — still keeping distance. “You don’t have to say sorry, I guess they just never told you what happened yesterday.” Conrad tilted his head, confused about what happened tomorrow.

“Well I never really asked.”

“Even though you saw me have a panic attack last night?”

“Yeah, it was your business. I didn’t want to just butt in it. I respect your privacy too” Conrad looked at me with his gentle blue eyes.

How can I stay away from him when this is how he cares for me?

“Me, my mom and Belly fought yesterday” I said before swimming away from him.

Conrad stood up, “What? Why did you guys fight?” his voice laced with concern, his brows furrowed — his lips started to frown.

“Well, Belly saw me getting out of your room yesterday” Conrad frowned, his shoulder slumped. Why were you the only one that Belly yelled at — he thought. Why did you have to take the blame?

Conrad’s heart was beating so fast, he wanted to hurt himself. He never wanted this, for Belly and Laurel to accuse you of something you didn’t do. “I am so sorry, Y/N. I-I should’ve been there for you, I should’ve defended you. I should’ve taken all the blame”

“Conra-“

“No… no it was all my fault. I shouldn’t have taken you to my room, now.. now Belly and Laurel is mad at you. I am so fucking sorry, i’m so stupid. Fuck!” He sat down, his head was in his hands. His face filled with frustration. He could’ve taken all the blame — he thought, it was his fault afterall.

I swam all the way to him, my hands on his knees. “Conrad it’s okay, breathe. I’m okay now, everything will be alright. Soon” I took his hand and removed it from his face, I caressed his face and wiped his tears.

He started to lean in but I backed away — I know where this was going — that’s what I thought but in his mind, all he wanted to do was hug me, was to be close to me because it felt like he was losing me, like he was going to lose me.

“Soon?” He asked — I swam all the way to the end of the pool and got out of the pool, he stood up — walking towards me, giving me a towel from the chair.

“I’m planning to go back home tomorrow.” I said, turning to him — we were now face to face. He looked at me with his brows furrowed.

“What? Why?” He said trying to reach for my hand but I pulled away. “It’ll just make things easier, Conrad. For everyone, for me.” I said looking up at him.

I had to stay away from him, this was the only way — was to go back early. I wanted to stay here in Cousins, I wanted to stay with Susannah but I just can’t. I can’t enjoy my last week here when all I can think about was about was him and Belly, together.

“You.. you don’t have to do that y/n. Please just stay, mom would want you to stay. I would never go near you again if that was the only reason why you wanted to go back home.” Conrad was panicking — trying to convince me to stay because he knew that whenever I was here, I never wanted to go back home. This time was different.

I looked at him, holding his shoulders gently, “Conrad, I have to do this. It would be easier for me to focus on college.” he pulled me closer and hugged me, his head was on my shoulder.

“I don’t want you to go, I don’t want to wait another year just to see you”

“Please Conrad. Let’s not make this hard for the both of us”

“It’s our last week, just please… please stay” Conrad pulled away, holding my shoulder gently — looking at me in the eyes.

I pulled away, I took my towel and started to walked towards the door. This conversation wouldn’t go anywhere, I don’t think anything can change my decision.

I went inside the house — I saw all of them in living room, Conrad was right behind me. Belly was about to stand up and walk towards me, probably to yell at me again because i’m with Conrad.

“Belly, come on. Stop it” Conrad looked at Belly, stopping her on saying anything bad. Belly looked at him — confused and mad because Conrad was defending me. “Nothing happened, I just talked to her so stop.” Conrad looked at everyone, making sure Laurel heard him too. He walked towards the couch and sat beside Steven.

“I’m planning on leaving tomorrow.” I said, as I walked towards the kitchen to get a drink. Jeremiah stood up from the couch after hearing me say that, “You’re leaving? why? it’s too early plus we’re leaving sunday, just stay.” he said walking towards the kitchen, grabbing me

I shrugged, “Just thought it would make things easier for everyone” I looked down, trying to stop myself from crying. I dont want to leave but they’re making it hard for me to stay.

“Oh special girl, do you really want to do that?” Susannah asked, her eyes filled with worry. She didn’t want me to leave but she didn’t want to push me into something I didn’t want to do.

I looked at her and nodded, “College is coming soon so I need to focus on that.” Laurel looked at me, she knew what the real reason was, she knew I was tired. She knew that I had to get away from her, from Belly, from all the problems.

Belly sat down beside Conrad then leaned her head on him “Well.. do you want me to help you pack?” she asked, looking at me. I looked at her, surprised that she’s talking to me.

“No, It’s alright. I already started packing earlier so I don’t think I need any help.”

“Oh uhm okay, I guess we’ll just see you when we get home?”

I just nodded before going upstairs to shower. I went in my room first to get my clothes then went straight to the bathroom to clean myself. I can finally let my feelings out.

I sat in the bathtub and cried and cried until I had no more tears to shed. In spite of the fact that I was on my last day here, Laurel did not seem to care at all, it hurt me to receive this type of treatment. However, I made the decision to leave early on my own. I must endure the pain, I must endure the suffering but it's okay , the pain will be over soon, it’ll be over tomorrow — I thought. I’m going to be alright.

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It didn't occur to me that Steven was having a difficult time as well, I thought I was the only one having a hard time. As I was crying in the bathroom, I did not realize that he was also crying outside listening to me cry — he was crying because I was crying. The reason he was crying was because he did not know what to do, what to say to me in order to keep me. He knew that no one would ever be able to change my decision. All he wanted was to spend time with his family, with Susannah, Conrad, and Jeremiah. Why did it have to be like this?

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Summary: Being Belly & Steven’s older sibling has it’s pros cons. protecting them and taking care of them is a must, but do you really have to put their feelings first instead of your own?

Prev || Conrad Fisher x fem!reader || My blog

Warnings: s2 spoilers (?), angst, fluff, swearing. (lmk if i missed anything!)

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Today was the day that I’m leaving. I’m going back home early — It hurts to go back home, I didn’t want to go back home but I just had to. I want to make things easier for them, easier for me. Easier for me to move on.

It was 10 in the morning — I’m on the floor — still packing my clothes, leaving some of them so I can use something incase I come back here.

There was a knock on my door — It was Jeremiah. I told him to come in, “Hey pretty girl” Jeremiah sat down on the floor — helping me fold my clothes so I can pack faster.

“Hey Jere” smiling at him — he was consistent with that nickname, not going to lie, I love it. It always made me feel pretty.

Jeremiah looked at me, reaching for my hand “Are you really sure that you’re leaving?” he asked me, his eyes filled with hope. He wanted me to stay but what was his place for him to do that? He was just my bestfriend — he thought.

I nodded, holding his hand. I am certain that he is aware of the fact that I had never intended it to reach to this point — because all we ever wanted was a a good summer, was to spend time with each other.

“I’ll miss you” He pulled me closer to him, I was now sitting between his legs — his arms wrapped around me. “I’ll miss you too, Jere” I said, leaning on him — hugging his arms.

There was a knock again, It was Steven. Jeremiah looked back and told him to come in. He came in and walked towards us, sitting beside Jeremiah — hugging the both of us.

“I’ll miss this” Steven said, his head tucked between us “Hey, we’ll do this again next summer. Don’t worry” I smiled at him — pulling away from Jeremiah so I can see Steven’s face then I placed my hands on his cheeks.

“I wish that we can do this next summer” Jeremiah started to tear up, worried of what might happen in the future. He was scared that everything will go wrong, he hated the thought of that.

I looked up at Jeremiah, sitting up, placing my hands on his cheek “We’ll be able to do this next year okay? you guys, no crying” I frowned — looking at Steven, he was crying too.

I laughed, “Steven stop it, you look ugly crying” Jeremiah stopped crying just to look at Steven, he started laughing too. “You guys are so mean to me!” Steven sobbed — I went to him then hugged him.

“Oh little brother, you’re going to be alright. We’ll just see each other when you guys get home okay?” I felt his head nod.

We just stayed like this for a while, laughing then crying. I guess this was a good way to spend my last day here in Cousins, with my two favorite boys. Steven and Jeremiah.

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For the last time, I went to the beach just to say goodbye to it. The beach here has always been a part of me ever since I was little. It was my favorite place here in Cousins.

When I was about to walk towards the shore, I saw Conrad. I wanted to back out, to walk back and go home — but would it hurt me to talk to him for the last time? the least thing I can do was go up to him and say a proper goodbye.

I walked towards him — he might’ve felt my presence because he looked back at me, smiling a little. “Hey” I said, before sitting down beside him.

I saw a cigarette in his lips — it wasn’t used yet. “You know, you should stop doing this thing” I pulled it out of his lips and threw it away.

He chuckled “Goodbye, my cigarette” he said — playfully frowning and waving his hand. He looked at me, making a face.

“Oh come one, Conn- Conrad. That thing will kill you” I hit him gently on the arm — rolling my eyes. I still care for him you know, he’s still my bestfriend.

He rolled his eyes playfully “Don’t roll your eyes on me” I said, scrunching my nose — he made a face, copying me.

“So are you really leaving?” He looked at me — same way Jeremiah looked at me earlier, his eyes filled with hope. He also never expected his summer to end like this, so much drama, so much pain.

I nodded, looking up at him. “You know.. I talked to mom last night” He looked back at me before laying down on the sand.

“Yeah?” I said as I laid down beside him — putting my arms behind my head.

“Yeah, we just talked about what I wanted for college. We also talked about my relationship with Belly.” He turned to me — facing me. He smiled gently, I can see that he’s genuine.

I faced him, putting my hand under my cheeks “That’s nice. So you guys are serious huh?” I said, looking at him in the eyes.

He nodded, confirming their relationship. I turned around and laid on my back — sighing. That was the only answer I was waiting for — I guess i’ll be at peace now, now that I know that Conrad is serious for my sister.

“That’s nice, just… just take care of her for me.”

“Ofcourse, Y/N.” Conrad said, nodding — sitting up.

“Enough of this talk. Wanna go get ice cream? just like the old times” He offered a hand, pulling me up. I nodded.

TIME SKIP

It was now 3 in the afternoon — after me and Conrad ate ice cream, I decided to go back in the house to finish my packing. After I got done packing I decided to go downstairs to talk to Susannah.

There she was in the dining room, I walked towards her and sat beside her. “Hi Susannah” I looked at her — smiling, reaching for her hand.

She turned to me and smiled. “Hi special girl”

“So I heard about what happened with you, Belly & your mom” She looked at me with gentle eyes — caressing my hand.

I looked down, “I-I’m sorry about that”, She pulled me closer to her “Hey, don’t be sorry” she said, shaking her head no.

“I just didn’t want the summer to end like this, It just feels like i’m losing everyone” I said, my lips trembling.

“But you’re not” she said, putting a finger under my chin, telling me to loon at her. I looked up to her, I saw her smiling — her eyes filled with hope. “This place is always here for you, Y/N. For all of you.”

“Yeah but, y-you made every summer magical” I said looking up — tears started to form in my eyes. Susannah made this place magical, this was her place. “What… what happens if-“

“Hey, hey, I know that you love this place just like I do”

“If anyone can keep the magic then it’s you and you know that”

I looked at her, before shaking my head no. “B-But, it wouldn’t be the same”

“It doesn’t have the be the same, Y/N. You’re supposed to make new memories every year, it’s okay” Susannah said — hugging me closer, kissing the top of my head.

This was the only reason why I didn’t want to go because what if when I come back here Susannah’s not here anymore? I’d forever blame myself for that.

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I said my goodbyes to Susannah and Jeremiah. Belly wasn’t here, she was with Conrad — I don’t know where, I don’t care.

It was just mom, Steven, Susannah, and Jeremiah here. I gave all of them hugs. “Look, you can still stay if you want. No pressure with you leaving” my mom said, holding my arms.

“No, I’m okay. I just need to get my mind off of things.” I looked at her — she nodded and pulled away.

“I’ll see you when we get home okay? please take care of yourself for the mean time.” Steven said — pulling me closer to him hugging me.

Jeremiah stood behind me and joined our hug, “I’ll see you next year” I pulled away and nodded.

I walked towards Susannah and gave her a really tight, I never wanted to let go. I shouldn’t have, I shouldn’t stayed.

“Please when I come back, I want to see you here. I’ll see you okay?” I sobbed — not wanting to let her go.

“Special girl, i’ll be here okay?” she pulled away — she placed her hands on my cheeks and caressed it — then she placed a kiss on my forehead.

“Go on now, It’ll get dark soon.” She said, I nodded and gave all of them another goodbye hug.

As I walked out of the door — I saw Belly walking with Conrad. It was Conrad first who looked at me then Belly, she ran towards me and pulled me into a hug.

I hugged back “I am so sorry, Y/N. For accusing you and for hurting you. I promise i’ll explain everything to mom. I’m so sorry, please just stay” she sobbed — her arms tightening around me.

I pulled away then wiped her tears — “It’s going to be okay, we’ll see each other when you guys get home okay?” she looked at me and sobbed more — then nodded.

“I have to go. Conrad, take care of her.” he looked at me and nodded. I walked towards my car — I got inside of it and started it. As I started to drive it I saw Conrad in my mirror - waving — I smiled before driving off.

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After Spring

Belly’s Pov

A lot of things happened after summer, Me and Conrad got together but broke up after awhile —we just needed to focus on much more important things. Things are awkward betwen me and Jeremiah. My mom made a book about Susannah — Steven is now graduating, he got into Princeton.

We also never saw Susannah ever again. It was spring when she passed away. After she passed, we never saw y/n come out of her room ever again, she would only come out to eat and when she had to go to school.

Y/N regretted leaving early last summer, she regretted not spending her last days with Susannah. She regretted it so much, she blamed herself for it.

Even at Susannah's funeral, we never saw her cry. There was never a tear shed by her. She cried her heart out when she is alone because she thought that she had to be strong for us, for her family.

We all began to feel distant from her as she stopped talking to people. We all did our own things after she passed. After Susannah's death, our lives were never the same as it was before.

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Summary: Being Belly & Steven’s older sibling has it’s pros and cons. protecting them and taking care of them is a must, but do you really have to put their feelings first instead of your own?

Prev ; Next || Conrad Fisher x fem!reader || My blog

Warning: angst, fluff, slowburn, swearing (lmk if i missed anything!)

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The Day Of The Date

I just woke up when I heard a noise downstairs, it was probably just the boys playing a video game. It was mostly Steven that I heard, he was complaining again.

I went down the stairs and saw Steven, Conrad, and Jeremiah playing video games. As I walked towards the kitchen Steven yelled, “Hey, Y/N!” I looked at him and saw him smiling at me, I smiled back.

He always acted like a kid around me, he was the only boy but he liked having an older sibling, an older sister. Someone he can rely on, even though I’m a girl, he knew that I would understand him, he knew that he can lean on me.

Jeremiah stood up from the couch and started to walk towards the kitchen, “Yeah dude sure, ignore the fucking game, WE’RE GOING TO LOSE MAN”, Steven complained again — groaning.

“Shut up, Steven. You are too loud” Jeremiah yelled back at him, Steven groaned again — Jeremiah turned his attention to me and chose to ignore my brother, “Hiii pretty girl, good morning” he said to me, hugging me sideways. I smiled at him “Jere, I just woke up. What do you mean “pretty girl” come on, I still have bedhead” I giggled.

“It’s true” Conrad whispered under his breath, looking at me — thinking that I didn’t hear it but no, I did. It sure took me by surprise, It made me look at him — even Jeremiah didn’t expect that from his brother, not when Conrad is going on a date with Belly.

Steven groaned, “Are we going to continue playing the gane or what?! Come on guys, stop flirting with my sister” Steven threw his controller on the ground and ran towards me covering my face with his hands.

“Oh my god, stop it Steve!” I laughed at him, trying to remove his hands from my face. “Ew dude, you have cheeto fingers” I pushed him gently, Steven just pouted and walked towards the living room. I started to eat the pancakes Jeremiah made me.

Conrad looked at us for a moment then went back to playing — Steven plopped down and went back to playing too. “Hey after you eat, go get ready okay?” Jeremiah told me, patting my head, I nodded. Jeremiah walked towards the couch and went back on playing too.

After I finished eating my pancake I ran upstairs to get ready, I bumped into Belly “Hey sis!” Belly gleamed, I smiled at her, she looks really happy — I thought — I am glad she is. “Hey, Bells. i’ll talk to you later okay?” I told her, she nodded and smiled. I went to my room and started to get ready.

TIME SKIP

I was getting ready when Susannah knocked on my door and asked if she can come in — ofcourse I said yes. She went inside my room and walked towards my closet to look at the clothes that I picked out for today.

“You getting ready for you and Jere’s date?” Susannah smiled at me teasingly, wiggling her brows. “You know red suits you very well” She said, holding up a red blouse.

I giggled “Susannah, it’s not a date. I’m just coming with him to run some errands” I turned to her and reached for her hand. I went and grabbed the red blouse she was holding and placed it over my chest.

“You look lovely, Y/N” Susannah said, she went behind me and tucked a piece of my hair behind my ear. “My special girl” She smiled at me rubbing my shoulders.

She’d always call me that — It was one of my favorite nicknames that I got. That nickname was very important to me. It always made me feel loved. I smiled, I placed the red blouse on top of my bed and walked towards her to hug her — she hugged me back. She always gave the best hugs, it was warm and felt like home

“Well I’ll stop bothering you, I’m sure Jeremiah is waiting for you” Susannah pulled away and giggled. “Love you, Susannah” I looked at her, smiling.

“Love you too, my special girl” Susannah smiled gently before kissing my forehead then she went and walked out of my room.

I walked towards my bed and grabbed the red blouse that Susannah picked for me. It was pretty, red really does suit me. Susannah just knows me so well.

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The Night After Conrad & Belly’s Date

We were here again, at the dinner table. We were eating the food me and Jeremiah prepared together. When we were out earlier, we decided to make food for everyone since summer was almost ending. It was our last week here in Cousins.

“Did you guys enjoy the food?” Jeremiah asked everyone, hoping for a good answer. Steven looked at him and nodded, Susannah and Laurel as well. Conrad just ignored him and continued eating.

“You know I never thought you could cook Y/N/N” Belly smiled at me. I smiled back, “Well it’s my secret talent” I said, teasing her and raising my brows at her. Belly giggled.

I look at Conrad and saw him smiling, he have tasted my food before because I always cooked for him. He always asked me to cook his favorite food, and I always said yes.

“You know you even cook better than mom” Steven laughed not until mom hit him at the back of his head. I gasped while Belly and Jeremiah was laughing their ass off.

Mom glared at Steven, “You don’t say that to me! You love my cooking!” Laurel said, crossing her arms and leaning back on her chair. “Mom you know I was just kidding, sometimes I pretend I like it but your cooking can be good too” Steven smiled awkwardly, I laughed at him.

These kind of memories was always important to me, I always try to cherish it because it felt like a once in a blue moon experience. We didn’t get to laugh like this all the time, this made me realize that I am happy, as long as we are together here in Cousins, laughing, I am happy.

“Oh btw Y/N, you need to apply for college soon” my mom looked at me. College, I absolutely despise choosing what college I should go to and what course I should get. It was just that I don’t think I can focus on it, Susannah is not even related to me but it affects me so much to the point where I just wanted to stay here and not go to college at all. She’s like a mom to me too.

I slumped and sighed. I knew my mom was just worried about me, she looked at me with gentle eyes, a way of telling me that she wasn’t rushing me but she knew that I know that I need to choose soon. I nodded “Yeah, sure mom. I’ll make sure to apply the moment we get home, just not today. I’m trying to enjoy our last week here” I looked at her and smiled. She nodded and held my hand.

“So sis, where do you plan on going?” Steven looked at me, I honestly don’t know where I am going to go, I don’t even know what course I’m going to take. My face was filled with confusion, with worry. I didn’t know what to say to Steven. I know that he looks up to me, I can’t disappoint him, I can’t disappoint them.

I saw Conrad looking at me, we locked eyes. This time, he read me. He knew what I was feeling, he knew the feeling of not knowing what the answer is, “You know what we should do tonight? We should watch mom’s favorite movie” Conrad said changing the topic, looking at me. I mouthed “thank you” — he nodded and gave me a gentle smile.

Jeremiah stood up from his seat, “Yeah! We should do that, what do you think, mom?” Jeremiah said agreeing with Conrad. He walked towards Susannah and hugged her from behind. Susannah nodded.

“Okay! I’ll go and get the snacks ready! Bells, you know what to do!” I stood up from my seat and immediately went to the kitchen to make us some popcron and grab us some candy.

Belly stood up from her seat to get blankets for everyone. She laid it around the couch then she went towards the tv to put the cd inside the dvd. They all started to gather and started to sit in their places on the couch.

While I was in the kitchen, I felt Steven’s presence. “Hey uhm, you never answered my question earlier. Are you okay?” He walked towards me and grabbed my shoulder gently.

“I’m okay, it’s just you know, confusing for me. I just don’t know what path i’m taking.” I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, then I turned to him.

He saw the worry in my eyes, he knew I needed comfort. He pulled me closer to him and he hugged me. “You know that no one is pushing you in anything that you don’t want to do right?” he rubbed my back.

“I know but college is important Steven, I can’t let you guys down. I can’t let down mom” I looked at him, it’ll kill me if i disappoint them.

Steven looked at me with gentle eyes, “Sis, It’s alright. You’ve done so much for us and I am thankful for that. I’ll be proud of you no matter what okay? plus i’m sure mom will understand ” he said — pulling away, patting my shoulders.

I smiled at him, Steven is good with his words. He might be annoying and can be an ass sometimes but he knows how to comfort people. I nodded “Thank you, Steve. I don’t want to be cheesy but you are a great brother” smiling at him — I patted his head even though he was taller than me. He’s still my little brother, my baby brother.

“You know what, you’ll make me cry! Let’s just go and watch this movie with the moms” Steven laughed as we walked towards the living room to watch the movie.

It was Steven at the end of the couch, Laurel was next to him and then Susannah then Belly then Conrad — next to Conrad was me then it was Jeremiah at the other end of the couch.

After for awhile, I started to feel myself sleepy. Earlier did drain me. Jeremiah took me to a lot of places, It did help me take things off of my mind so I was thankful for that.

I didn’t realise that my head was lolling not until I felt Conrad guide my head towards his shoulder, so that I can lean on it.

I just let it be — never acknowledged it or said something about it — but I would be lying if I didn’t feel anything. I know it’s just a simple gesture, afterall, we’re still bestfriends. He made it so hard not to love him when he was sweet like this. I asked myself so many questions but still, I didn’t do anything about it — I never removed my head on his shoulder, I let myself fall asleep.

Jeremiah’s pov

I’d say that today was a really nice day for me — I know it was nice for Y/N too. I got to make food for everyone and I got to take Y/N out and get her mind off of things that she shouldn’t be worrying about. I knew that she needed this, it’s what she deserves.

I noticed that Y/N was feeling a little sleepy — tired from earlier. I was about to tell her that we should go up so she can sleep properly, but I already saw my brother’s hand guiding her head on his shoulder.

“Hey I can take her upstairs if you want, you’re probably uncomfortable” I tapped Conrad. Not wanting Y/N to regret anything in the morning.

Conrad looked at me, shaking his head no, “It’s okay, let her be. If you wake her up then she wouldn’t be able to fall asleep again plus i’m not uncomfortable so it’s alright” he said, smiling while looking at Y/N — tucking a piece of her hair behind her ear.

I looked at Belly, trying to see if she was sleeping or if she was witnessing all of this but no, she was also sleeping, her head on Susannah’s shoulder, she was sound asleep.

“Are you sure? are you not sleepy yet? I can take her if you want” I asked again, I guess this was my way of saving Y/N. I just don’t like seeing her get hurt.

Conrad looked at me again, chuckling quietly, making sure that he won’t wake Y/N up, “Jere it’s alright, don’t worry. I’m not sleepy yet so it’s okay, I can handle it” Conrad said as he fixed y/n’s position so she would feel more comfortable — wrapping his arms around her shoulder, also making himself comfortable — not even bothered by it as he went back to watching the movie.

I sighed, not really wanting to act suspicious — so I let them be. I admit, my brother can be an asshole sometimes — he leaves people confused with his actions often but he can be a good guy, some people just misunderstands him. He is caring, and I understand that he’s Y/N’s bestfriend — but I just wish that he would stopped hurting her. She’s important to me too.

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