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November 20th, 2023

In my travels through life, I've come to realize that a lot of issues I suffer from come from the traumatic experiences of life itself. At the young age of four, I witnessed domestic violence, child abuse (some of which landed me in the hospital) -- I was displaced from life at an early age. As I've gotten older, I did blame everyone for my faults.

But when you're confined and you're forced to look at yourself through these concrete mirrors, it is a constant reminder that you messed up. And it's no one's fault but your own.

How do you admit that to someone if you can't admit it to yourself?

My aunt taught me the rights and wrongs of life, but because the wrongs were never explained to me, I became rebellious -- I became everything that was dished out to me. I punished women for the actions of my mother. I bullied the weak because I was bullied by my father. I took all the bad things that happened to me and used it to treat other people who really loved me messed up. So now I sit alone in prison, remaking myself and trying to apologize to as many people as I can so that I can sleep at night; and there are a lot of sleepless nights.

When I found out that I had mental health issues, I was already into my second decade of my prison sentence. That was a heavy blow because of the stigma that surrounds it. It's not something loosely or easily talked about.

But I am willing to face this thing head on. I don't know how bad I am -- but for me to like or enjoy being locked in solitary, that shows how bad it is and can be. Some prisoners in here cannot take the solitude because their minds drift in and out of the wrongs they've done and they can't be alone with their own thoughts. So sometimes you will get sudden outbursts from them, which means that they will be forcefully removed from their cells and taken off to the hole, which administration calls "restrictive housing."

This can be further damaging to the mind. Mentally ill people are trapped in a system that's incapable of delivering the long-term care that many prisoners need.

I've begun my mental health healing journey by hearing and reading stories about famous people overcoming their battles, such as tennis champion Naomi Osaka and NBA player Kevin Love.

So with the little things I've done, I've tried and reached out to as many people to whom I've caused discomfort. I've even started writing urban fiction novels as part of the process. Finding a hobby sometimes is the best therapy -- don't take my word for it, though; I have no degree in this field.

I want to thank you for taking the time out to read my blog. I will be sharing short stories and a little bit more about myself and my growth. So be on the lookout for my first urban novel later next year! Have a good day and a blessed week.

From Eric Humes -- Caged In Publishing

Eric Humes #119468 CSP POBOX 777 Cañon City, CO 81215 USA

[wisdomfromprison]

Grateful

Well, well, how is my family and friends doing today? Fine I hope.

Me? I'm just 'grateful' to be able to talk to YOU! I should have been dead back in the 1960's or 70's. I never had an idea that I would ever live this long.

'Gratefulness' comes from the knowledge of knowing just how 'bad' things 'could have been' or 'could be now'.

People should be 'grateful' for MANY things, especially for the 'basic things like their 'health', both mentally and physically.

I myself, family, am 'grateful' for having this opportunity to become someone within the human race that is worthy of 'respect' and accepted as a 'productive' person within humanity. And, I have no problem with working hard to prove that.

"HEY! LUCKY! How hard is it to write on a 'tablet'? The thing almost writes for you! And, as for writing being a 'hard job', writing is more fun than work!"

"You know what Willie, I think you 'hit the nail on the head' as the old 'proverbial' saying goes. Yes, it's something that I am very 'grateful' to be able to do."

"Folks, I think Lucky has been HYPNOTIZED! He has NEVER been this focused in life to accomplish something!"

My family and friends, don't think for a second that I've been put under some type of spell, Willie is the one that DON'T EXIST!

Me? I am the person who is 'grateful' for the chance of trying to be a 'positive', 'productive', and 'focused' person within this crazy world of ours. And, if I do a good job in helping just one person or many ...... then I have accomplished MY goal within this life.

My family and friends, be 'grateful' for any opportunity to 'better' yourself throughout life, it is better to 'progress' in life. Always strive to do the the best you can do.

Until next time ...... Stay positive, productive, and focused.

~Lucky Stancliff

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A Tribute

This has been a very vulnerable time for me. Most people don't understand what losing my Uncle and Aunt has meant to me.

Uncle Marvin and Aunt Elaine were like my adoptive parents. My Aunt Elaine is my dad's sister and is married to my Uncle Marvin. They've been together since she was 16 years old. By the time I came along they had four boys, most of which were adults. They always wanted a little girl and found that in me. They instilled in me a level of grace and authenticity that I'm so thankful for. Their passing three months apart has caused me pain I have never felt before. I've felt a degree of failure and guilt for not being there for them in their final moments that is crushing. To date, due to irksome DOC (Department of Corrections) policy, I have not been able to view their funerals. I dream about them and the house I grew up in. I think about them constantly and the lessons they taught me. They give me hope for my future to manifest all the hopes and life quality they wanted for me. I intend to pay them homage while carrying their legacy forward. I love them so much and the memories I have of them are invaluable.

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[wisdomfromprison]

Outlook

And a "GREAT DAY!" to all my family and friends. This is what I personally enjoy doing every single day, talking to my people about 'life'. I just hope that I can bring some of that joy to YOU!

That is my goal in life, to be a good enough writer to bring joy and understanding to others, by accomplishing that, I could leave this world with a satisfied smile when the time came. That is my 'outlook' on 'life'.

'Outlook' is what 'you' personally 'feel' about 'life'. THAT is why it is so important to have a 'positive' personality throughout life. If a person doesn't have that, then the chances of having a 'happy' life is very slim.

"HEY! LUCKY! My 'outlook' is this ...... If YOU don't start letting me sleep later ...... YOUR 'outlook' is gonna change! ...... "

"If I had known you were asleep Willie, I would have beaten on this solid metal sink and toilet! I would have made it RAIN NOISE! CLANG! BANG! GONG!"

"Folks, see what I have to deal with! Lucky just 'changes' things as he sees fit! ...... to 'suit' him! And that is my 'outlook'."

My family and friends, yes, everybody has 'their' own personal 'outlook' throughout life. And, those 'outlooks' change as a person gains knowledge and old belief's are replaced by new ways of thinking.

Let me stop for today. Just know that I wish you all to have a pleasant day and a bright 'outlook' for the future.

Until next time ...... Stay positive, productive, and focused.

~Lucky Stancliff

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Problems

"GREETINGS! TO ALL!" Hope this finds every one in the best of health and spirit. Looks as if we might have a 'problem'.

'Problems' have always existed in humanity. They are as 'normal' as breathing the fresh air.

' Problem' is ...... how do we deal with them? ...... do we use force? ...... do we use 'intelligence'? ...... or do we just sit back and 'hope' that the 'problem' works itself out.

Whatever the case may be, we will ALWAYS have 'problems' throughout life.

 That is one of the things that causes 'humanity' to be the highest form of 'intelligence' upon the planet.

Figuring things out is what gives 'humans' the ability to become masters of the universe.

Yes, 'problems' have to be met 'head on' and dealt with.

"The only 'problem' Lucky has right at this moment is ME! Willie! I know ALL of Lucky's tricks!"

"Willie, stop a second and think ...... I CREATED YOU! AND I CAN 'UN'CREATE' YOU JUST AS EASY!"

"Folks, Lucky wins this 'round'. May you all have a 'trouble free' day, and we will see you again soon, BYE!"

Yes, my family and friends, just know that most 'problems' can be figured out, or at least enough to live with.

I wish each and everyone of you to have a 'problem free' day.

Until next time ...... Stay positive, productive, and focused.

~Lucky Stancliff

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Love

"HELLO!" Hope everyone is feeling well and ready for a conversation about one of the most 'hoped for' things throughout life, 'love'.

If a person ever experience's 'love' in it's truest form, they will never be truly happy throughout life if they don't have it.

I myself, have had 'true love' twice in life. Nothing can compete with the 'satisfaction' and 'peace' that love brings into a person's soul.

Here is a poem that I wrote about such a sensuous feeling ...... "THE ROSE" by Lucky Stancliff Fragile and petit, standing alone, the rose was second to none, a kind seldom found. Petals, long and shapely, smooth, red, resembling a tongue, droplets of dew sliding off, pure, sweet, tasting like honey. To merely touch, was to caress, a sense of lust had to be covered, for the rose held emotion, as one would find in a lover. Yes, 'love' makes the best come out of a person. I feel bad for the person that has never had a chance to experience 'love'.

"And that would be ME!, WILLIE! Nope, Lucky has NEVER created a girl I could fall in 'love' with!"

"Willie, listen to me, YOU DON'T EXIST!"

"Lucky, I bet these people reading this would argue that point!"

Folks, please forgive me if you side with Willie, BUT HE ISN'T REAL!

A any rate, 'LOVE' is a very 'precious thing for a satisfying life. My family and friends, just know that I have 'love' for ALL of you.

Until next time, be sure to show your 'love' to the people that count within your life, and as always ......

Stay positive, productive, and focused.

~Lucky Stancliff

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Progress

And a very "GOOD DAY!" to all my family and friends, Are we ready to make some 'progress' in this great world of ours?

Yes indeed! A LOT of people strive for 'improvements' within their personal environment, ME being one of them.

'Progress' is the ability to overcome a task.

'Progress' is only accomplished by 'focusing' on ways to overcome the obstacle's needing changed.

'Progress' is what I hope to achieve with "WISDOM FROM PRISON".

Folks, if anyone wishes to have direct communication with Lucky Stancliff #18062, go through Jpay to get on e-mail contact.

I will try to help answer any questions you might have, or, you may relate a funny or positive story. I would love to have conversations with people out in the 'free world'. THAT would be the true meaning of "PROGRESS"!

"HEY! FOLKS! The 'heck' with Lucky, Me!, Willie!, that's the one you ask to have contact with! We can party and bring the house down!"

"Willie, you keep 'tripping' and your WHOLE HOUSE is gonna BURN down!"

Well, my family and friends, let me stop for today and I will catch you tomorrow. Just know that wish you all to have 'positive progress' within your lives.

Until next time ......

Stay positive, productive, and focused.

~Lucky Stancliff

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Interaction

"GREETINGS!" to my family and friends, Hope everyone is feeling as good as possible.

What people of like minds do, is 'interact'. NOBODY on this planet can exist without 'interacting' with at least one person.

People have to 'interact' with each other in order to survive. 'Interaction' is not only for 'knowledge' and 'business', but is the bases of a society to build a force of 'protection'.

'Interaction' is how 'knowledge' is gained. Me writing this is an act of 'interaction', an action to perpetrate communication between people in order to build a more 'positive' outlook on 'life'. That is my goal to accomplish. I wish people to enjoy life to it's fullest, no matter the hardships they have to battle. If I can help just one person, then I have accomplished my goal.

"GOODNESS GRACIOUS! Lucky has done gotten too serious once again! HEY! LUCKY! Snap 'out of it'! We know you're just a softy at heart!"

"Willie, why don't you just blurt it to the whole world! Have you forgotten that we are STILL in a 'maximum security' prison! Now I'm going to have to 'workout' twice as hard just to keep from being a victim! Thanks a lot 'pest'!"

O.K., my family and friends, that's it for today. Try to 'interact' with people on a 'productive' level that benefits both you and them.

Until next time ......

Stay positive, productive, and focused.

~Lucky Stancliff

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Focused

And a "HAPPY HELLO!" to all you good folks out there,

Yep, it's that ol' Lucky again. and folks, let me tell you, staying 'focused' is a MUST within this fast paced world.

'Focused' has a power of it's own, it has the ability to 'create' if a person studies something long enough.

'Focused' is the ability to analyze and make correct 'choices' in this crazy world of ours.

'Focused' is a 'tool' for people to use in figuring out problems.

'Focused' is the 'strength' within us to accomplish goals within a person's life. Yes, it is a very important part of our consciousness.

"HEY! LUCKY! FOCUS ON THIS!"

"Willie, quit sticking your tongue out and say 'hello' to the nice folks."

"Hi! everybody! Didn't mean to interrupt ...... but sometimes Lucky gets too serious in his talks ...... and THAT is why he invented me! ...... to jump in and bring things back to a more cheerful conversation."

Folks, staying 'focused' should become as natural as breathing within ones life, it will help to accomplish ALL things in this life.

O.K. my family and friends, let me stop for today.

Hope that ALL of you have a pleasant day, and remember ......

Stay positive, productive, and focused.

~Lucky Stancliff

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Acrimony

Brooke told me when we met that she was here for aggravated assault. That an old friend from high school had reached out to her on Facebook and invited her to a party, she went and there were drugs. The police were called, the women blamed it on her, and she went to jail. After being released Brooke and a few guys went to the women's house and beat her up badly. Subsequently, she was sentenced to 5 years in Prison. I never questioned her story, until recently. There were rumors that she was a cho mo (child molester), but rumors like that are common. People twist why you're here and run with it. I asked her if it was true and she told me no-end of story. She prided herself on being honest, she never lied to me in the past, and I felt like I knew her well enough to know the rumors were untrue.

We had broken up because of my cheating, but after my Uncle passed we began talking again. Sometimes when bad things happen it makes you realize who's important in your life. Brooke knew more than anyone here how much I loved my Uncle and what his passing meant for me. So, she broke up with her girlfriend and we started to mend our relationship. I felt things were going better than they had in a long time, but seeing each other was hard because of the quarantine.

After I went to the hole, Brooke came the next day. She refused to lock in and was given 15 days. It was actually great because we were able to see and talk to each other more than we had in months. She caught me up on all the things that happened while we were broken up, like the fact that she had sex with one of our mutual friends, Tymber. I was angry about her having sex with Tymber because she was around us since getting back together, smiling in my face. But I was even willing to move past that. Brooke refused to leave the hole and did another 15 days.

With only a few days left, I asked her if there was anything else she needed to tell me. She said no and I felt good about things moving forward.

Until, I got in an argument with Jamie about the TV. She told me I needed to stop acting like my girlfriend isn't a child molester. I didn't pay Jamie any mind because of the rumors in the past that Brooke denied, but she kept going on about.

The next day I asked Brooke why Jamie said that to me. I had heard that rumor too many times and started to feel uncomfortable with it. Brooke said she didn't know why Jamie said that. I asked if she was sure, and that's when she told me the "truth". I say " truth" because even that ended up being a lie. She confessed that a 15 year old boy asked her to purchase liquor, she said no. That boy then told a girl that he was having sex with Brooke- the girl told her mom, her mom told the school, the school told the police, and Brooke was charged.

I was shocked and I tried to make sense of it. I went through stages-I was confused, understanding, uncomfortable, upset, and finally angry. After processing and questioning I realized how demented Brooke is. Her liquor store lie was fell apart, so I had her Googled. The truth was that she went to a mutual friends house, had sex with the 15 year old and was charged with statutory rape. I realized how many lies she told me over the years to hide the truth from me. How she guilted me for things she was guilty of. How she manipulated me to keep me. How the plans we made for the future were all lies. How she portrayed herself to be someone she wasn't. I knew she would never tell me what really happened. I haven't spoken to her since.

Today, my emotions still oscillate between angered, bitter, hurt-acrimony. I should have found out for myself why she was here before getting close to her. She put me at risk of exposing my loved ones to a child molester. I've decided in 2021, I will be single and work on myself. I need to heal from past relationships so I don't keep making the same mistakes and become pessimistic. I want to be a loving wife someday, but I never have the right partner.

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same bro

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