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"hey, it's alright to let it out." (from Idyia)

@primowishes ☃️ when it gets hard || sentence starters.

Let it out? How could she do that? Telling everyone the truth about what she feels every time the sun comes out, sharing the true feelings of not being like anyone else, and how it feels when almost everyone is afraid of your abilities, even if you mean no harm?

«...I'm...uh.»

Now given the possibility to finally reveal herself, she's speechless for some time before deciding to start talking again. This topic would be uncomfortable, if not the other person's cherished behavior. Her voice shivers as she is about to confess, feeling somewhat safe because of sensing the possibly inhuman nature of another.

«I don't know how to tell you about this. But... I'm not a human. At least, not precisely. Allow me to demonstrate.»

Reaching out one of her hands, Alice let her skin become blue with ice consuming it, though only half. While she exhales, and her frozen breath can be seen clearly around her, she makes eye contact with Idiya as if silently permitting her to touch it if the girl gets curious and expresses the desire to do so.

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Now look at this woman smiling and grinning, trying to make fun of her! It's getting harder to hold herself back, but for the sake of William's reputation she holds herself back, and also --- the fact she's one of the fatui harbingers it'll be very dumb to try and attack her, and she understood it well.

Nevertheless, Alice could barely keep up with the growing rage, which shows in her body changing as well. Once in a while, she didn't worry about it as much as she usually does, though revealing her true nature is risky nonetheless.

Alice's hands weren't revealing the ice, but her fingernails sharpened a bit too as if she was getting ready to fight, but in fact, she knew she stood no chances against one of the fatui harbingers, let off that she's the fourth, almost one of more powerful of them all.

«...it just seems you don't know. And if you don't know, why don't tell me so?»

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"sleep fixes a lot of stuff. it's like emptying garbage cans in your brain." (from Lynette)

@primowishes ❄ when it gets hard

Lately, Alice's sleeping schedule messed up because of the mechanism she was building up. She couldn't allow herself to rest before she finished or at least get closer to the result she wished for. But, in truth, she was so tired, she could barely keep her eyes open, still resisting hard the desire to sleep.

«Huh?»

Was it her imagination, or was it really a cat girl before her? Well, Teyvat was full of wonders, so she wasn't at all surprised. Moreover, Alice feels like she's seen this particular girl somewhere before, but she was with a cheerful boy.

Perhaps she'd seen them both on the streets of Fontaine performing something like magic tricks, and she never believed street magicians. Anyway, she's too sleepy to remember clearly. Though, despite her own condition, she answers, as she suppresses a yawn.

«I'll get to rest when I finish the project I'm working on. I can't stop in the middle apparently. »

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"hey. you look tired. you alright?" (from Emma)

@primowishes ❄ when it gets hard

Alice stayed in the sun for far too long this time, but she barely had a choice: she needed to sell the inventions to make money, though if she didn't need to eat much, she needed ingredients, and not all of them was easy to find in the wild. Also, she needed to pay for the house, and for studying one of the scientists she met agreed to give her.

«..?»

It's strange, but the girl she passed by asks her about her well-being, making her smile softly. The drops of sweat(or, rather, water) streaming down her face, she's especially vulnerable at the moment. In this state, her abilities couldn't be use if an enemy suddenly appears, and she swings from side to side a little, which speaks without words about how exhausted she truly is.

«Ah, yes, I'm tottally fine. There's no reason to worry. »

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"Stay out of it. It's nothing to do with you." (from Arlecchino)

@primowishes⛄ Threatening Sentences, Vol. 1

Father, they say. They call her Father, the orphans in the House of the Hearth, right? At least, that's what Alice heard from her father. She, on the other hand, won't ever call her that, as she considers this word sacral, and nor she's going to obey her, showing only false obediency perchance.

«...how is that so? If...is this about my fa-»

Unsurprisingly she can't hold back all of her true feelings, the way her eyes narrow, but she regains control pretty fast. Though it seems this time her emotions find their way through her body, the thin lines of frost barely showing up, still it could be caught by an attentive eye.

«I...have the right to know what happened to my parent. If it's something about him, I must know, because I'm his child. And I don't care what's the truth!»

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“I know you don’t trust me, yet, and that’s okay.” (from Dottore - and she probably shouldn't ever trust him either for that matter)

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Trust is such a fragile thing, especially when a girl such as herself is in the circumstances she can't trust anyone. But, this man appears in her way too often to consider it a consequence, so should she be scared or inspired? She's side with warning more than a benefit of the doubt.

«...You're right. I don't. I never trusted strangers, you know. Parents taught me so.»

Escaping the word 'father', Alice doesn't make an eye contact with a man at all, but she's ready to run if she needs to. Good that's the weather was rainy and cold, so it won't reveal her true identity.

«...and do you even need my trust? I'm a regular human, with regular interest in mechanics. I'm not worth your time, monsiuer.»

Despite appearing confident on the surface, Alice is still worried and a bit scared deep inside. Masking that fear by the politeness she handles the conversation with, she hopes the demonstration of coldness and disinterest in his persona will discourage him from engaging further with her.

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"I've never really been good at taking no for an answer." (from Dottore)

@primowishes 𝄞 Threatening Sentences, Vol. 1

There's no way Alice would give the notebook to the stranger, who, furthermore, asked so unpolitely. Even if no one except her can understand the language it's written in (though still, if she understands, she can't understand it in the way of science) and it's her father's research, which she's not eager to share with anyone.

«No way! I'm not giving it to you! It's mine!»

She held back so as not to turn him into an ice statue, or freeze the environment till her heart's content, actually escaping the demonstrating her abilities in front of this man. For some reason, his presence gave her goosebumps.

«I'm not going to give it, so why don't you go and mind your own business instead?»

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10. what genre do you most enjoy, whether in roleplay, or fiction as a whole? (fantasy, period, superhero, etc.) / 14. which roleplay community has been your favorite to write in?

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10. what genre do you most enjoy, whether in roleplay, or fiction as a whole? (fantasy, period, superhero, etc.)

Fantasy, of course, most of the time! I stay with the fantasy theme fandoms for that exact reason. I do accept sometimes clearly romance threads or rarely read romance books. It's not really interesting to me if there's no fantasy element in fiction!

14. which roleplay community has been your favorite to write in?

Oh, that's one of my first experiences on Tumblr as a whole, it was about two years ago when I was in the D.Gray Man community. We had so much fun with other OCs and canon characters! It was so wholesome! Alice even had relationships. Though it wasn't very long, I still remember it as a positive thing. Hope I'll experience it in other fandoms as well…someday, perhaps!c;

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"I'm going to hunt them down and kill them." (from Jeht)

@primowishes 🧊Threatening Sentences, Vol. 1

How worried these words made Alice, even though they barely knew each other. The fatui agents were very dangerous, to begin with, involving oneself willingly might end up in a disaster. The least she wished for, is for someone to possibly sacrifice their life for…someone like her.

«No, you shouldn't do that! Fatui agents are extremely difficult to fight! ...I...don't deserve such a danger you putting yourself in. You should think of yourself first! What if you die---»

Alice stopped in the middle of the reply, acknowledging what she'd said. No, no way, the girl shouldn't risk her life over a non-human creature like her. She won't forgive herself if something happens to her. She's not worth it.

«Please, think again. I ask you not to pursue them, and not try to pick up a fight. I'm able to protect myself, and if I fail, that's…well, my problem. It's just how life is, no more, no less.»

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“ i’m sorry— i was gonna try to help but it happened so fast. ” (Sucrose, from this meme from your old blog)

@primowishes ❄ more injury prompts bc reasons

Ah, she shouldn't be angry, she shouldn't be angry, she shouldn't be angry --- Alice tries to repeat to herself, as she watches the ingredients wasting away, after Sucrose presumably wasn't careful enough and dropped a good amount of it. She is very, very irritated, but it only shows her eyebrows twitching a bit.

«...no, it's nothing. The ingredients are not that rare, I can gather them.»

Though, how much will it take? Hard to think about it, but at least she has a few potions left, but half of them ruined. She felt irritated so much, that her icy skin was revealing, and her hair partly becoming blue and white.

«Just...help me tidy everything, okay?»

With a heavy sigh, she tries to hold back herself. Well, she's certain Sucrose didn't do that on purpose, they still can have productive results, after all. Two heads are better than one, isn't it? Also, Sucrose didn't trigger her social anxieties, so she much preferred to communicate with her than others (most of the time).

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Oh, there were even more dangerous things than just the irrational fear of the notebook is lost or coming to harm---there was even the worst possibility of the fatui laying their hands on the father's whole life research. And as his own successor, Alice never wished it to happen, so she almost guarded it with her life.

«What do you mean by....a scholar?»

As far as she knew, scholars were studying in the Sumeru Akademiya, and William was one at some point. However, he threw this idea off because he desired his way of researching. Even though his methods were acceptable, his thinking seemed a bit different from that of other scholars, so they didn't accept him, and as a result, he stayed with his research in the shadows for a long time. Until he did a research of his own and was recruited by the Fatui, that's it.

«...nevermind, I don't care. I did tell it's mine, haven't I? This research I work on, and I'm not going to blindly show it to everyone who desires it.  That's kind of stupid, don't you think?»

After all, sharing her dearly kept secret with a stranger wasn't a good look. She did struggled a lot with the notebook, but won't admit it in front of anyone that simple. Alice tries her best to resist his logic, because she feels alarmed by his very presence. It's his persistence that confuses her,and also startles: he sounded pretty confident, to the point that now she began to consider letting him view it, but still, the hesitation was too strong.

«I can handle it myself, and I don't need anyone! I made great progress recently…so why do I show it to you again?»

Unfortunately, her voice didn't sound that confident, unlike the men's. It's still possible to catch her off guard, even in these defense states. Trying to be as attentive as she is, she hasn't got enough experience which might show her the right person from the wrong one. She's still so easy to trick and play with, even though tried her best not to be.

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Seeing the reaction of other, Alice almost stopped in her ways but regained control very fast: it wasn't the time for impulsiveness when someone's life was at risk --- she couldn't allow the thought of that even for a second. She should be very concentrated and attentive now.

As she paid some attention to his words, it seemed the cold spread nicely. Ah, what a relief! However, she should be cautious not to freeze him suddenly (but she would more likely be able not to do it with the level of power she's left for now, with the constant danger from the sun) --- there's not so much time left for her to last until she have to take the potion.

«...then it's nothing to worry about. Everything's going as it should!»

Making him confident, she wasn't all that sure of herself or her abilities, and even if the notebook helped somehow to understand how they worked, it was very little compared to how many more secrets were hidden there, so she shouldn't show how scared she is in reality. That's all she puts her efforts into, except the elemental energy she transfers to the man.

Finally, when the job done, and she feels somewhat relieved, the stranger asks for assistance. Well, though, it was logical --- she couldn't lead him through the sun for long! Moreover, the potion's effect will wear out on the sun much faster! But…she can't refuse him now and leave half the way, taking into account, that the frozen effect she lay on him might not last long, as well!

«...uh, sure! Let's go!»

Though there's no room for rejections, still, Alice not certain if she could physically help him get up and lean on her --- but here she is, bowing for his hand, waiting for him to grasp onto her shoulders. Her eyes aren't glowing anymore, and she hopes her nature won't be revealed during their little trip, as her other features might be shown, any time if she isn't able to keep her body temperature regulated in time.

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How tough she was, though she was just a human. Is it possible to be so fearless? Not that Alice herself was a coward, but such a concept of thinking admired Jeht deeply. The battle itself didn't scare her (though she did felt insecure because of her element having too much restrictions), but the possibility of being captured did. She didn't want to even imagine what would happen if she got caught.

«Alright, your truth. But, what if you would loose, and they won't kill you...»

This conversation was taking a little too personal direction from Alice's perceptive, but it wasn't like she felt any danger coming from the stranger, but still felt aloof beside her. The following phrase probably translated her fear, but she felt like sharing it, despite the new acquaintance might be perhaps too straightforward in her judgments.

«...what if instead of killing, they decide to capture you? What then? What are you going to do?»

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When Alice feels a colder environment, she inhales with relaxation. Collapsing was the least harm she could get from sunstroke, she could very well start melting because of direct sunlight. The shadow she kept herself in (almost as if it was a shelter of some sort) was perhaps the only thing that actually helped her this long.

«...I guess...water will be...good.»

Stepping inside warily, she tries to keep her composure, holding onto the nearby wall. It's not good if she falls right in front of a stranger, or if her skin will start to show signs of ice. Instead, she was all wet, not like a normal human would even after being exposed to the sun. Indeed, if she spent a bit more time outside, who knows how it would have ended.

«...Could you give me water with ice? Or it could be just ice, if you have any.»

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Of course, Alice's body couldn't function properly without resting (even if she's an elemental being herself, her body still remains human mostly), still, she struggled, thinking she could hold on a little longer, though obviously her fingers trembling while she tries to grab the detail.

«But I…I need to finish it! Or else there's nothing I could sell tomorrow!»

And she knew what might happen if she didn't rest properly, it would influence her elemental powers as well. But she couldn't fail the trust of scientists who actually gave her a place to live and helped her with studying in so many ways.

«Moreover...my teacher will be angry with me, and I can't afford that! My responsibilities go first! I can rest after!»