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Kait’s Emotional Crisis and Analysis on Saeran’s After Ending
That’s right. it’s here folks! You’re here because we’ve managed to survive the waiting period that has been two-years in the making. Are we all happy that we have made it this far and survived the wait? Yes, yes, we are. You wouldn’t still be listening to me babble about how much I love Saeran Choi if you weren’t. We all know what we’re here for, so let’s get down to business. 
THIS IS A VERY LONG POST. I’m not even joking this time. It’s a very long post. 
Spoilers for Ray Route and Another Story!
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I’ve been having to control the flappy hands when I see this photo so forgive me if my thoughts are all over the place as I talk about everything that has been on my mind. I literally had to pinch myself when I woke up to a flood of messages on the matter. 
It’s him. It’s my boy. It’s my boy.  It’s my boy! Mom, holy fuck! It’s my boy and he looks great. I’ve had a lot on my mind since I first saw the title screen so let’s get down to what I have to say about that. First of all, I’m in love with MC’s outfit. I’d wear that, that’s the fucking mood tonight. I’ve been frothing at the bit to be able to draw my MC wearing this outfit and I didn’t even wanna start doing something like that until they gave the official release to us. 
What can I say? I’m a sucker for really frilly tops. Those pink jeans are a really nice shade of pink too. It’s not hot pink, it’s a nice bubblegum which is a good contrast to Saeran’s hair, haha! I just like seeing all the pinks around this boy and his MC, of course, has to be cloaked in those colors as well. It just makes me really happy. I love some of the other outfits that MC gets to wear in the game but oh, God, oh, Fuck. This has to be my favorite outfit that we’ve been able to wear thus far. 
The little necktie? Perfect. Those sleeves? Iconic. The hand-holding? PURE AS FUCK. THE VIBES? CHECKED. 
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Now that I’ve covered my bases with MC, let’s go onto the Choi brothers and talk about them. I actually like that they’ve been drawing Saeran in more brown and pink outfits. It just feels very right for him. 
It goes to show that his mental state is much better than it was in recent years, like, from Ray to Suit Saeran and to Unknown, we all know that they would dress in black and darker themes if they were given the chance. Ray’s outfit was given to him by Rika to wear, and Suit Saeran was the one that picked his suit out to wear. Unknown walked out of the clearance bin at Hot Topic and added those cowboy boots to enrage me. But, I digress. I’ll fight Unknown at a later date about that. 
The natural and earthy tones that they’re going for here with him are very nice to see. He seems like he’s a lot comfier with himself here. He’s got a cozy little old sweater on and his posture is better than I’ve seen it in many photos. If his style is just cozy sweaters, then, well, I can vibe with that. I can see him working in the garden wearing that and I think that’s the point that they’re making with this style of his. 
The loose collar is also nice. I’m used to seeing his clothes buttoned up and out of the way, making sure that he isn’t showing his body. So, seeing him play with his style and wearing something much looser against his body is a good thing as well. I think I saw someone call him a comfy grandpa in one of the posts that I’ve seen floating around. I chuckle at that mention. 
Saeran doesn’t care that much about fashion, to be honest with you. He would, of course, choose something that’s minimalist and comfortable. These browns work with him very much so. I’m happy to see it! It’s in line with the style that I’ve had in mind for him after the Ending! 
Can you see the way that he’s gazing at the player, though? Can we talk about the way that he’s looking at us?
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The longing in that gaze... the way that it looks like he’s been getting some good sleep for once in his life because the discoloration of purple is gone! The way he has that tiny smile that only we know is a smile because he only shares that side of himself with us? His MC? God, I’m in love with you, you fucking bastard man why is your smile making me cry so much?
I could talk about his smile for hours. His expression. The longing. The way that I love you cannot be contained in words, Saeran. It’s far too strong. Just know I’m the person that can feel what’s going on his body from looking at him. He looks to be in a good place. 
Anyways, onto Saeyoung. 
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Oh, my darling, Saeyoung. I’m used to seeing you in green palettes. It’s just a tried and true theory with your red hair and you lean heavily into being a walking Christmas palette. It’s rare to see you without your glasses, and I’m sure that a lot of people are swooning over you for that. You know you’re handsome and you will use that against those MCs that love you. I don’t have a lot to say about his outfit but I do think it’s really fitting for him. 
It seems like a muted pull-over and some worn jeans, which seems in line with everything that I would style him in. He knows plenty about style himself and he knows how to make my head spin. 
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What is this somber look in his eyes? There’s a smile on his lips but there is this feeling to me that it doesn’t meet his eyes. Is he happy that we’re with Saeran or is he weighed by the fact that he wasn’t the one to save Saeran? Does he know what happens with Rika? Does he feel angry over that? What are we going to tell the RFA and him about this? I know that he would be happy that we saved his brother...
But the guilt in his heart is nothing to scoff off. He always blames himself for what happened to Saeran even though Rika is the one that broke his trust for good and forever. I feel like there’s something bittersweet in his eyes. Does he think that Saeran and the player are going to live happily while he’s not there? 
I always intended to imagine Saeyoung living with Saeran and the player, because they can’t be separated again. 
But does he feel like a weight and a third wheel? I don’t know. I’m scared to think about how he may feel like Saeran is happy now without him and he’ll try to pull away instead of adding anymore trauma onto Saeran’s life. I know that it’s not going to easy for recovery for either of them, but I want to have faith and care for the two of them. 
Saeyoung, you better not self-deprecate. I’ll smooch your forehead too. I just really don’t know how I feel about that look in his eyes. It’s just matching the smile in my opinion. 
I’m still screaming. I’ve been a pit of screaming for nearly three hours now and I know that I’ve still got plenty more to say today on the matter. But, I know why you’re here for real, you want me to analyze what I see in this picture and what I think will be in the AE from what we’re shown. I’ve had a few days to think it over and I’ve got my ideas. 
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Where are you Saeyoung? This title screen is not confirmation that Saeyoung is alive. For all we know, this photo could be more inspiration for the theme and the emotion that takes place in the After Ending. 
I have to remind people that when we first played Saeyoung’s AE, it was a rouse and we were treated to a happy dream sequence that sought to talk about Saeran living with us and Saeyoung as he made a toy store. There’s a possibility that in the midst of the search for Saeyoung, we’re confronted with dreams and nightmares on Saeran’s end in regards to his brother. 
It’s my biggest fear that Saeyoung isn’t alive. We don’t know if the Prime Minister took him or if an enemy took him, or if it was the agency, or a combination of all three of these options. I don’t know how I feel about it. I’ve considered that we won’t have the answer until the After Ending itself comes out but I’m interested to know what the answer is. 
If it was Saejoong, well, I fear for Saeyoung’s health if we do find him alive. His emotional state... God, that was always his biggest fear. His and Saeran’s biggest fear that their mother always whispered. She was a monster to the two of them with her abuse but the unknown of what their father would do to them had to be even more frightening. Their mother always said that Saejoong would kill them if he caught them. 
But, he could have honestly done a lot of horrible and twisted things. They could have become political pawns and a sob story that Saejoong could have sold if he wanted quite easily, and their mother could have been killed to silence that story. There was a lot of worse case scenarios. Saeyoung knows and has thought of all of them. 
So the idea that he’s living his worst nightmare? 
The fact that Saejoong could have killed Saeran without him being able to protect him?
The fact that he’d not be able to talk to V? 
He sent a frenzied message to the chatroom for us to contact V for him. This only implies that he was trying to warn V to protect Saeran at the last minute, so it feels like it could only be Saejoong that took him. He panicked hard. He had to make sure that Saeran was protected even if he died. I think that was what he did with his message in the chatroom. 
But, we all know how it turned out. 
I felt like that sacrifice of panic on his part was.... it still hurts me to think about all of it. 
My worst case scenario is a dream sequence and Saeyoung not... not being alive anymore. I don’t know what that would do to Saeran. He wants to make things right with his brother, he really does. The gaslighting and manipulation done by Rika is going to take some time for them to work past, and I know that he can make progress in therapy and as he challenge his intrusive thoughts as we stand by his side. He can see it through. 
He is hopeful for his brother. 
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However, it’s going to be tested when he actually faces his brother in the game and that’s the real test. Therapy is one thing. Facing your fears is even harder than talking about them. Saeran is going to... be overwhelmed with everything and he may need to step away when push comes to shove. 
I want Saeyoung to see us together holding hands and let him have that moment realization that even though Saeran went through a lot of harm while they were separated, he wasn’t alone through all of it. He never wanted Saeran to be alone in any way. If Saeran has to step away, then well, that would leave us with his brother in the process.
I can’t say how much I’d choke up if he thanked us for loving his brother. The guilt in his eyes as he cries and we reassure him. I think that’s one thing that I want the most with Saeyoung. I want him to know freedom from his chains and I want to help him too. There’s a lot that I want out of that and there’s so much of this potential that we can talk about in the AE.
There’s a lot with Saeyoung that I want to think about but so much of it makes me wanna cry. 
I also fear for V and I’ve discussed many of my fears on that matter. I’ll repost my thoughts right here.
Now, in regards to what I sincerely don’t want is a repeat of what went down with V’s After Ending.
I’ve shared my feelings on that matter before and I understand that Cheritz was going for that moral high-road that many people take where they say that it’s better to forgive on your path to healing, and while that can be good for some people, it can leave a sour taste in the mouth of people who don’t pick to forgive the people that hurt them.
I don’t choose to forgive the people that hurt me in many cases. That doesn’t make me a bad person. The problem with the Forgive/Judgement ending is that it can make you feel ashamed for not forgiving someone who quite literally, took funds from the RFA’s first two parties (that’s the only way she could’ve gotten the money to fund Mint Eye, even coercion and manipulation of people on the level that Rika does wouldn’t give her that much ability), manipulated and gas-lit Ray and Saeran for years, deceived and drugged countless people, so on and so forth.
I hate that she’s never punished for her actions. She needs to be rightfully punished for what she did. I want her to get therapy, and I want her to learn that she was wrong for what she did to everyone. I want her to be able to get better for her own health, and I don’t think she should ever be contact with anyone in the RFA ever again. But, that’s up to the RFA if they choose to speak with her or interact with her, not mine. I don’t want her to die, I want her to learn what she did was wrong.
It’s not Mika (Rika Behind Story Spoilers) who went through the cult. Rika had every chance to stop while she was ahead but she kept doing it. I would not forgive Rika, and I would never want to be around her ever again if I were in the position of the RFA when the truth is made known.  
The only action that Rika ever took that could be looked at with the filter of self-defense was when she panicked when the boy’s mother tried to get close to her and harm her in a drunken rage. She acted to protect herself in that situation, but that’s the only thing that she’s ever done that someone could look at and say, she was protecting herself. She felt threatened. She panicked, she blacked out and protected herself from harm.
Don’t get me started on V. I love V, he’s not perfect, he fucked up a lot and he shouldn’t have gone back to Rika. It feels like he saw us love, forgive, and stand by Saeran and thought that he could be able to do the same for Rika, but that is not what will help him or Rika. They don’t need to be together again. They need to be fair away. Rika and V literally burned down the boy’s childhood home and V was wearing his sunglasses, so I can only presume that Rika harmed his eyes after he went to her.
Saeran himself says that he wants to tell everyone about Rika and V, but he needs to be able to discuss it with V. Even Saeran understands that V is a victim to some degree and he wants to help him. 
That was a big fucking comment on his part and I was proud of him for that. 
But, V left for Rika and we don’t know if we’ll ever see him again. So, I really don’t know how that’s going to be handled in the slightest, Anon.
I don’t want Rika and V together, like, ever again.
I want Rika to be punished for her actions and caught. I want V to get away from her and start to learn to love himself again and grow. I believe in him but he’s in need of someone to cheer him on when that abusive relationship ends. I really don’t want a repeat of V’s After Ending.
Don’t make me forgive Rika. 
Don’t make Saeran forgive her, either. 
That’s my worst case scenario fear. I want Saeran to be able to grow and get healthier, for sure, but his final confrontation with Rika should be the last time that he ever thinks about her. He made his mind up and he made it clear that she was wrong and he would never be tricked by her again.
I want him to stand his ground on that. I’ll stand by him no matter what he chooses to do, though. So, I want this to be about Saeran and Saeyoung coming together again, and helping V get out of that relationship with Rika, as well as Rika facing punishment for her actions. 
But, that might be asking a bit too much, haha.
Ideally, I want Saeran and the player to be able to reach out to V and help him get away from Rika as she’s taken down as well. We don’t know if she left Mint Eye for sure, we don’t know if she and V ran away. Who is running the Cult? Is the cult put to a stop or did Rika put somebody else in charge? It’s hard to say on that front and I’m still not sure how that’s going to end up. 
V can open up and work out everything that’s going to fall out here as it did in the events of V Route with Rika. He’ll need to work out everything with Jumin and the others, but I have hope for him to be able to face what went wrong and not only get the help he needs, but get the support of his support circle behind his back as everyone rallies behind him. 
I would love he and Saeran to be able to work out everything, Saeyoung as well, because even Saeran is willing to work with Jihyun. Rika to get some therapy, get punished for her actions and that to be dealt with is great. It never happens so. That would be a nice change.
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Saeran knows that V is a victim in all of this too. So, it remains to be seen how this is going to be handled. I can only pray that Jihyun is able to be rescued as we rescue Saeyoung (hopefully, fingers crossed.) I’m still so proud of Saeran for doing that. 
God. 
I’ve talked about Choice and Saeran before in regards to the Secret Ending and his Good ending and... well, I’ll direct you to that post. To read about how important it was for Saeran to be able to choose what  he wanted to do with his life instead of having options forced on him. 
Can we discuss this photo as well from the Special Believer Box that I’m nearly about to buy at this point with whatever comes out with AE cause I need it?? I’m gonna go fucking broke. For you. Saeran. For you. I was saving my money for Christmas and now I’ve got a reason to live. 
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I still don’t know if this is the implication of what will happen in the AE or if it’s something that will just exist as a standalone image. I still don’t know why Saeran would be dresses as his brother for some reason, unless there’s a twin switch-a-roo plot somewhere in all of this? I mean, bold choice, but I don’t know. I just think I needed to say again how cute that I think Saeran is in Saeyoung’s outfit. He’s so tiny and slender in comparison to his brother. 
I’m gonna fucking smooch his forehead. I don’t know, I want the CG title screen and this photo here to imply that the Choi boys will be alive and happy together once all is said and done. I can’t say that I know where we’re heading but there is bound to be an adventure to hunt down Saeyoung, but I’m not sure where it will take us. 
A wild-goose chase alongside whatever mystery is left. I can’t wait. 
My ideal ending is one where we get to live in a little house by the sea with a garden with Saeran and Saeyoung where we can visit and chat with the RFA whenever we want. But, we’ll have to see what happens. If you want to read more about some of the things that I think he wants to do with his MC now that he’s free check out this post. 
Anyways. 
Kait’s gotta go cry now. 
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evils-corner · 8 years ago
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Hm... do every prime number on the list!
I had to look up what a prime number was and then I had to look up the prime numbers between 1 and 100 I hope ur happy Anon
2. do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? 
When I first step outside, yes! I like to feel the cold air on my cheeks and in my lungs! But after those first few minutes I’m pretty done with it haha
3. what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?
Lemme see, I’ve used bits of paper, socks, headphones, pencils, a ring, the paper...cover sleeve thing of the book.....Mostly I just use bits of paper. Like receipts or sticky notes or something
5. are you self-conscious of your smile? 
Yes I am...my smile doesn’t look good at all...when I smile for pictures it makes me look like I’m in pain/constipated/etc fkhkefkahf;kjdsf
7. do you name your plants? 
Ah I don’t have any plants, but I probably would if I did!! I name a lot of my things so I think I’d probably name a plant if I owned any
11. what’s an inner joke you have with your friends? 
“*looking around in confusion* What’s a boner?”
And...that’s the major one that comes to mind I don’t really know anymore lmao at least none others are coming to mind sobs
13. what’s something that made you smile today?
Sending memes to @charmyjouta during art history this morning :3c
17. what color do you really want to dye your hair?
I really want my hair to be like, a dark reddish/auburn color!!
19. do you keep a journal? What do you write/draw/ in it? 
Yes I do! I have a dream journal (it’s not a physical journal it’s a word document but still) I haven’t had any dreams worth noting lately tho, or ones that I remember...last entry was like back in June of 2016 :T
23. what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? 
S L E E P
29. what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? 
uuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhhh @acrylicqueen is really expressive, and when she talks about things she likes/is interested in/etc she gets excited and moves her hands a lot and makes a lotta random noises (like little yells/yelps and stuff) and I think that’s adorable :oc
31. what is your opinion of socks? Do you like wearing weird socks? Do you sleep with socks? Do you confine yourself to white sock hell? Really, just talk about socks. 
I really REALLY love socks but at the same time I??? Don’t??? I dunno how to explain it other than like I don’t like my toes feeling trapped?? I’d rather walk around barefoot if I could, and I used to wear flip flops at every opportunity so my toes could be free lmao but I still love socks! I rarely wear just plain white ones, and I also rarely match my socks, I like having two different colored/designed socks....I can’t sleep with socks on my FEETS OVERHEATS AND I END UP KICKING THEM OFF AND LOSING THEM FOREVER RIP my socks.........my favorite pair right now is a tall pair that says “Yo Dude put some pants on!” (because I started sleeping without pants and if I slept with socks on I’d definitely wear those to bed HAHA) I also LOVE thigh high socks and if I had any pairs I’d definitely wear them,  but alas I do not....I need to remedy that
37. do you like keeping your room messy or clean?
Honestly I love having my room be clean, but right now it’s a fuckin DISASTER just because I can’t get motivated to do anything about it/I don’t have the time to do anything about it and it pisses me off looking at the meSS.....
41. what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?
Warriors: Into the Wild! The book is so nostalgic for me, and it’s the first in my favorite series and there’s just...such a homey feeling about it...like it just. makes me think of warm sunny days with my friends and it’s such a nice read and it’s written so well.........so nostalgic ;v; 
43. who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?
Hmmmmm that would probably be my dad! We used to lay down in the back of his truck and watch meteor showers together and point out constellations and stuff....that was a long time ago...
47.what food do you think should be banned from the universe? 
my immediate response is cheese but at the same time there is some cheese that I do like (like on pizza) so instead I’m going to go with octopus because THAT SHIT IS NASTY BLEEH
53. have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? Heathers? Beetlejuice? Pulp fiction? What do you think of them? 
I’ve seen Rocky Horror and Beetlejuice, but not the other two ;v; I loved them!! I need to watch them again tho it’s been YEARS since I’ve seen either aaa....
59. what’s your favorite myth?
Um....well.....I can’t say I really have a favorite myth? Like...nothing is coming to mind lmao 
61. what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? The stupidest one you’ve ever received? 
Stupidest gift I’ve ever given was a “Rainbow Cock Pop” which was...a rainbow sucker shaped like a dick. Gave it to my friend Tristan at his Christmas party and he sucked on it all night hfkdhkfhahfe;klhwf 
The stupidest gift I ever received was a toothpick for Christmas from my Dad. We had a year where my dad decided to give us...shitty gifts, for no reason other than it was funny. My brother got him one tho because my brother knew about the shitty gifts, having helped wrapped presents. (My dad got a roll of toilet paper and my brother got a half empty bottle of ibuprofen.) 
67. how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?
GOSH I love those kinda days!! They’re just so calm and relaxing and soft to me!
71. what’s your favorite kind of tea?
Well I’m not really a tea person and I’ve only had a few kinds, but I really do like Earl Gray! Especially in a London Fog Latte - Earl Gray Tea, vanilla syrup, half steamed milk half hot water...so good....
73. what are some of your worst habits?
Nail biting is the big one - I bite when I’m anxious or bored or fidgety or idle or...anytime really. I don’t have a stopping point and routinely bite until I’m in pain/bleeding/etc and that doesn’t even stop me...I don’t know if this really counts but I also overthink/stress about every little thing lmao...tho that might be. a mental illness thing. So idk
79. what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? 
uuhh. Uuhhh?? Has anybody ever done anything cute for me?? ? I. Don’t know??? If u have I’m sorry I have a shit memory sobs
83. what’s some of your favorite album art? 
....//s w e ats um. I don’t know? I never look at album art for anything haha....
89. are you close to your parents?
Not particularly. I don’t want contact with my mom and my dad never really...seemed interested in me. Like I can’t even say ‘I love you’ to him without it feeling awkward or anything.....haha.....
97. myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? 
INFP, Sagittarius, and Ravenclaw! 
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