#pretend im having sleepovers at a friends house when im in a completely different city getting brainwashed into neglecting my studies

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unfortunately the older i get the more sex with older women loses its mystique bc it starts to feel more and more acceptable each year that passes....i remember being 14 going to pride with my dorky ass pins and dorky ass friends "as an ally" & daydreaming the whole time about an adult woman luring me into her car & driving to a secluded spot in the woods to fuck me in the back seat. The time has passed alas & now id need such a woman to also be my boss or whatever. even then its hard to recreate the pure raw appeal of that fantasy.