#praying no one irl finds this and connects the dots

[tc-frog]

introduction✨

hi :) i've been lurking for quite some time now (following a lot of tc blogs with my main blog :) bc it's not possible with a side blog unfortunately haha) and this community seems really sweet so i decided to make a blog about my complicated teacher relationship haha

important disclaimers!!

- i am neither in love with my tc nor do i have any sexual or romantic feelings towards him. If anything, it’s a sort of an platonic/academic/intellectual crush - i am however using the tc tags and phrases (hope that’s okay guys lskghsldkghk) because frankly, idk where else to put my feelings and thoughts about it and y’all are like the nicest and most understanding community kshgslkghslkg so yeah :) - i hope I don’t offend anyone with tagging my posts as tc even tho it’s not really that (idk how else to describe it), but if i do and y'all don't want me in this community that's fine too! just tell me ^^ - tw for entire blog: a pretty big part of past interactions with my tc were about my mental health issues (depression, anxiety) so this will come up a lot, please take care of yourself if you're sensitive about it :)

Alsooo the typical: i do not condone relationships between teachers and students, i don't want to be with him, i would never do anything bla bla and so on lol

about me - ivy (for obvious reasons i use a fake name and tc initial sghslkgs) - she/her - 19 - lesbian - european (won't specify, but english is not my first language so sorry for any mistakes) - i’m in my last year of school and I’ve only got three more weeks of regular school left so I’ll only see him like four more times lmao - if u wanna know anything about me or my tc or the situation go ahead and ask! i'm always happy about asks :)

about my tc - J - in his 50s - he’s my religion teacher (with him it feels more like philosophy lessons tho which i absolutely love) - he's pretty weird and his lessons are a bit unusual/unconventional at times, but i love it i guess i kinda made this to work through all of my confusing feelings about (and mostly past interactions with) my teacher and to just talk about it slay hope we have a nice time together and i'm always open for chatting about anything :))

btw IF you read through my blog and feel like this all feels familiar and you might know who i am or who my tc is, please don't mention anything about it irl. but please leave an ask telling me about it bc i really wanna know lmaoo

[pebiejeebies]

hey uh

dunno if this is a weird question but

you said stuff like ‘you should find your kins’, it made me curious xP

could you maybe elaborate how one would go about doing that? (and anything else youd like to mention about the topic?)

thanks if so! i wouldnt know where to begin to start researching this stuff haha

( praying that my info is accurate + that I used this right for myself )

Lemme make a list of steps for you to simplify everything! :D

1- Find out who you relate to the most: This is the best and quickest way to figure out your kin! You start with someone you think you connect to, then next

2- You reaserch THE HECK out of them: as much as possible, from their personalities, to their colors (I realized I had some sort of connection for white creatures/characters, so when I found out cabby used to be white, it just seemed like we were meant to be lmao), to their friends and foes, and a lot more, just genuinely study the character!

3- Now find the things you relate to about the character: Take what you learnt, and compare them to your life in your own way, (Ex: Let’s say cabby freaked out over a small fight, try to analyze why she did that, and how much of her reactions and thoughts are related to yours) you can swap the characters for your irl people that affected you in the same way (Ex: let’s say cabby and bot had a fight, if I see myself having the same reaction in the fight but I never really fought with a fictional character, just replace “Bot” with anyone that treated or reacted to you the same way, as accurate as possible is the best option!) and see how much of their personality relates to you, or how they act, or how they think, the more you relate with them in more than just one of these things, the more you are connected!

4- Now imagine: Imagine what you would do in their place, put yourself in similar situations and see how much you react and think like the character! (Ex: Let’s say there’s a scenario that you have to interact in, act in character as much as you can, if it doesn’t seem right or doesn’t fit? You can try to act like yourself and connect the dots!)

5- The most important part of this post:

-It’s completely fine if you take a year or a week to figure yourself out

-You don’t have to be EXACTLY the same, since in reality nobody is the exact same, just make sure that the things you don’t relate to aren’t bigger than the things you relate to

-Its completely fine if you’ve made a mistake on your kin (aka got your kin type wrong) It’s completely normal to make mistakes

-DONT. and I repeat, DONT study the characters you LIKE, study the characters you RELATE to, there’s a huge difference between favorites and kins, even if your favorite character isn’t you kin

-Your kintype is NOT a choice, the kin you found is something you can’t deny or hide, embrace your kin, and try to find the good in the bad

-Be true to yourself, don’t cry or get angry for not getting what you want, be happy about the journey, and about seeing yourself in a different body, shape, color, size, and world! Get excited when you see yourself on the screen and go “Look at me go! That’s me! I’m that character!” <3

-Lastly, don’t stress yourself if you don’t know who you are/don’t know who you relate to, etc, there’s no rush, no race, everyone takes their time, and don’t get angry about what you kin, I want you to be happy that you are a fiction kin, and even if it isn’t the character you wanted, it will feel better when you act as your true self rather than act like the character you like, because in reality your favorite character might not even relate to you at all! But if it does then you’re lucky just like me :D

I hope this helps, in fact I’ll make a smaller less overwhelming list to get the main points for you

1- Find the character you relate to the most (it could be many, or just one) not the character you favorite/like, trust me, if you act like your favorite it won’t seem like your personality fits them, unless your favorite is the one you think you kin!

2- Research, very important, you can use the wiki (no not that boring white and black page, there’s a fan made wiki for all your favorite characters in this website here) to find out more about your character

3- Find connections and relatable information about you and the character, the more accurate you get, the more you will feel connected to said character!

4- Imagine yourself in a situation where you are the character or being yourself and see how much your thoughts and actions link!

WOAH! that’s a lot, I know, but give yourself time.

(Haha not me infodumping my 1 week research into one overwhelming post, you can tell how much I like infodumping abt stuff I like lmao)

Btw do tell if I got anything wrong fictionkins out there! I am very open to new info and corrections, since I’m not a very reliable person due to my memory…

Have a great day, and I hope this helps anyone else find themselves, and it’s okay if you don’t kin anyone! Everyone is special in their own way <3

Only you can find out who you are, not your friend, or family, you

[m1ckeyb3rry]

I laughed so hard you did Lorenzo so dirty (facts though LMAO) hideous dog LMAOOOO I get it for sure though like ugly cute (heavy on the ugly) I really only enjoy seeing him when he interacts with Barou I truly cannot appreciate that man’s features

So real someone come save chigiri and the fact that those three say that all in the same match is WILD like can the crowd hear them talking at all when they’re broadcasted?? I’d hope not LMAO

Barcha being a two man team will never fail to make me laugh but they clearly did not get a lot of plot armor AHDGJS

Speaking of legs that reminds me of epinagi Nagi’s thighs after Zantetsu first hits him in the face like??? I need me a Barou though I want those scary dog privileges

Miratoya for life guys >>> I remember some people hoping they’d have the same va too (or Aiku and Nanami lol) but the va they chose def gives me the same vibe as Toji like…

Ok that’s why im torn LOL like the Shidou lines are so iconic but on the other hand if some of my friends try to connect the dots I gotta be ready to defend myself like I swear it’s not that deep it’s just soccer pls ignore whatever comes out of this character’s mouth

LMAOO hypebro shidou always ready to cheer you on I have no idea how Loki manages them though HAHAHA

NAH FR!! I think the generally decide characters for LN based off popularity….approximately anyways because I’m pretty certain Karasu is generally more popular than Yuki on the JP side (mainly due to shipping but I digress) but according to that sort of trend I’m praying….I definitely would not be opposed to a Nanase one either though!! Tbh I think he’s so cute and I love him too it’s just we barely see him so I don’t have much to go off of (besides him being real estate to Rin) I’d like to know how Shidou spawned into the world though LOLL

MARRIAGE FR HAHAHA like give me your hand in marriage please I’ll give you kombucha!!!! Man lied straight to our faces like the way he managed to find a Yankee’s (I think that’s the term they use) house too??? Like the odds that he didn’t stumble upon some average household too but fr like the man definitely has his own savings account and stocks portfolio like there’s no way (STOPP NO NOT THE FINANCE BRO that lowk slipped my mind but that reminds me of that tiktok audio that’s like “im looking for a man in finance” LMAOO)

Bro that panel is in like my top 10 Karasu panels LMAOAOA when he’s surveying the field and Isagi’s like lol you’re leaving yourself open dumbass and then Karasu whips out his arms shshshshs he’s so gorgeous <3(yeah he kinda looks like a penguin here now that you mention it but it’s ok pretty on brand if you ask me) always appreciate a good Karasu panel though so thank you for your service hehe

Also wait I forgot to bring this up but when I first saw the like official character design references (?? Like the visuals they release on the official website that have them looking like they’re getting their mugshots taken) I was thrown so far back by the jersey colors LMAOAOA I think it looks a lot more muted in the color pages of the manga and also (like the one in your header) shidou and rin take up so much space that you can’t see the details but Karasu and Otoya look like candy canes LMFAOOO and also Yuki/Nagi’s?? I usually like blue but something about it looks so off to me HAHAHA (also their faces but wtv ig)

-Karasu anon

this dog is how i see lorenzo LMAOAAO…but i should refrain from insulting him too much because if he ends up the way otoya did i’m going to scream!! i agree though i feel like he’s really fun w barou and honestly helps him loosen up a bit (even though barou and aiku will always be my fav random ubers friendship)

i feel like the crowd probably can’t hear them just because they’re not shouting or anything and they don’t have mics!! realistically it’s like how irl we don’t hear the players shit talking each other in soccer games but that doesn’t mean it happens yk?? regardless though there was…quite a lot being said during the u20 match LMAOAOA i need karasu and shidou to start saying unhinged stuff again!! like let’s spice up pxg vs bm a bit w some random nonsense from those too 😭 although ig rin has got it covered this time

HELP i had to go back and look and omg??? nagi’s whole build is crazy to me because even before soccer he was so jacked but he literally did nothing all day?? i need that kinda metabolism fr

MIRATOYA CANON 😜 except he’s abt to get a taste of his own medicine when i cheat on him w his best friend 😦 LMAOAO i agree though aiku’s current va has very toji vibes!! he delivered exactly what i expected from aiku

shidou is just shidou the more you think abt it the worse it gets 😩 omg loki is fr a saint like i know he’s being selfish and doesn’t care abt the team as long as charles develops but honestly i have to commend him for keeping his sanity while coaching that crazy blend of characters like i can’t even blame him 😭

nanase was just the only character i could think of that hadn’t gotten a ln besides tabieita and shidou that was also in bllk since it seems like they’ve only done bllk players so far?? but maybe now that aiku is in bllk and he was mentioned in barou’s ln we’ll get one on him. agreed though i’d rather see one for shidou!! was he born like this or did he experience smth that changed his life into whatever it is now?? apparently he didn’t play club soccer pre-bllk so how did he even get scouted??? he’s such a mystery LMAO

FRR he managed to find some bigass mansion and everything 😭 honestly i can’t even blame him if some random kid i barely knew tried to follow me home i would also take the opportunity to mess w him because what 😟 HAHA he truly is a man in finance unfortunately…he was even telling hiori he plays like city planning and stock management simulator video games?? karasu please…let me teach you about mario kart and super smash bros…please…

I LOVE THAT PANEL my fav is def the one in epinagi where he’s introduced and he calls kiyora and nagi dunces hold on let me find it

he just looks so smug and karasu-like in this??? LMAO idk he’s so handsome i love this panel sm

THOSE CHARACTER DESIGNS ARE SO SILLY HAHAHA did you see sae’s neon cleats?? 😰 i think they always look a little odd w the white background though…hopefully it’s a bit more muted in the anime!! it seems like they’re going for a darker color pallet this season (based on the trailer) so i am keeping my fingers crossed 🤞🏻

[dropcosmos]

one meditation later

i tried this and as expected got... weird scrambled results but it felt like i got something out of it

hardest part? finding a neutral comfortable inner place to do it. i tried to use ones from memories at first - my dorm in [identifying info removed], the bush at my parents house... but the first i couldnt pull anything, and in the second i pulled what i think its a pretty accurate incapsulation of little me. not V, but actually little me - i didnt realise there was a difference. it might even be a pretty accurate of current me’s internal self image, considering my “smallness”. it was an androgynous kid of ambiguous age (10-13?) with my hair color, a bob cut and overalls. so thats cool. next i tried a room from a specific “travel” ive had before, but couldnt get much more than scramble because ... well, im not exactly “me” while im traveling, i think.

eventually i managed to get to a place ive used as an inner “hub” before - a circle-bubble “in” a clearing of trees. (rather, in the image of a clearing - the actual place isnt actually directly connected for paranoid privacy concerns.) there was an off and on light rain. the mirror, when i was able to get a hold on it, was very similar to a long mirror i had as a child/teen. sitting and looking in, i couldnt see much. instead of seeing a being in the reflection, it was a generic “avatar” type thing - the vague shape of a human, with no details and all in pure black/gray. its not alarming - ive experienced this shape before, but never thought much of it as just a safe form to project. i looked up. i could feel someone standing behind me, looming - not necessarily threatening, but behind me. i couldnt catch details - maybe feminine,i thought? cool colors. i couldnt get more from this. i got a little impatient, and had to calm myself and refocus. looking from the walls to the sky...

and from the sky, a little starlike light seemed to fall, gently. i held out my hands to catch it, and it dripped down my arms into my chest, where a light spread out like it was lighting my veins. i looked back into the mirror and instead of the little me or the avatar, i saw... something different? ive never seen this thing, or even artistic depictions that got close, as far as i remember.

it was a dark navy, vaguely human shape, with dots of light along its... fur? feathers? i coudn’t tell, but it seemed to have some kind of fluff. the eyes were inhumanly large and a deep black. it also had a pair of wings, with the same coloration and light as the body. i couldnt tell too much else about it, or if the creature was even “me” or accurately so - didnt feel like my reflection, but looking at my own body in it i could see the same features.

i looked up again and saw an infinitely tall black being. i dont know if it was Nut - it felt a bit different from her - but had a similar feeling at very least. i immediately started to pray - but human words, both on my physical lips and in-world, felt clumsy and insufficient, even though it was a well worn and comforting prayer usually. i fumbled for something that felt significant. i imagined pressing feelings and energy tightly together into a “star” until it burned like a small candle. i sent it up, hoping it was suitable.

i dont know if it was. i thought i felt a slight sense of approval. the light in my chest/veins flashed again, and then the focus faded from me. i managed to at very least fold up the mirror and stow it. (it wasnt a folding mirror irl, but it felt appropriate at the time.)

in summary, i feel like i got a little glimpse, and lot to think on. no answer per se, but a hint