#posting five year old gifsets found in my drafts~

[hexmurphy]

What good’s freedom if you’re alone? What good’s family if you’re a slave?

[chaoticwiitch-blog]

Guidelines

Hello Everyone! My name is EISH and I am the person behind this here blog! I am 25 years old. I live in the Canadas, timezone is EST. Just in case anyone finds these rules familiar I have scooped them off a friend, and she does know about it. So without further ado let’s get in to this.

This blog is HIGHLY SELECTIVE AND PRIVATE meaning I will not be interacting with anyone I do not follow and who does not follow me. I want to write with people who actively want to write with me. This being said if we follow each other and there has been no effort made to interact ( i am trying to get better about this myself ) i will unfollow after a few weeks.

Let’s talk about Asks! My ask box is open for any IN CHARACTER interactions. I don’t like ooc asks unless it’s a meme. Anon is turned on for now but if it is abused, it will be shut off. Hate of any kind will not be tolerated, at all. IMs are for plotting and chatting, though I prefer discord! Which is only available for mutuals. Feel free to ask for it!

let's make one thing very clear. I am NOT a meme source? don't treat me like one. if you don't think you can send the meme in to me, reblog it from the source, PLEASE. or --- and here's a thought, just send me the meme

Wanda is sortacanon. I have seen all the movies. I have googled the comics more than actually read them. One day i’ll get to it, but as of now i can’t be bothered. I have read through countless wiki pages tho, so i mean — i get the gist of it all. THAT BEING SAID she's not exactly the same. i pull from what i know of comics and movies and hell, even the tv shows. i also have many verses available, they might take some time to get up and posted, so just like ask me about them.

Let’s talk about my following back-ness. I can take seconds, or like weeks. I look at my followers as the come in usually, unless life is busy. If life is busy I tend to forget? Which means that when I finally look at them it could be a little while later. But I do look at everyone (aside from porn blogs and personals) who follows me. If I think we will mesh well then I’ll follow back, if I don’t, I don’t.

Now, some basic things I look for to follow back — how old is the blog and how much actual writing is there. If the posts only go back like a week and there is minimal to no writing, I will look at the rules and the muse(s) and determine if I want to give the blog a chance. If the blog is like month and months old and I can’t find any writing within a few weeks, chances are I won’t follow. I wanna write! That’s the whole point of being here, right? Next, rules! Whether they are simple or more complex I will read them all! As long as you are above the age of 18, and I feel like we will be able to write well together, chances are I will follow. Which brings me to my next point. I will NOT be following anyone under the age of 18. That is more so because of the content of my own blog more than anything, but also peace of mind. As I will get in to I am a shipping fiend, I love me my ships, and I don’t want any with any minors. So ya know — there’s that. also if you don’t cut your post I’m not even getting in to that okay, I just can’t. I won’t. Please cut your posts! on that note. Move continued asks to a new post, or don’t continue them, kthnx.

Not Safe For Work & Triggering Content — *sigh*. With tumblr doing it’s dumbass bullshittery — clearly there will be little to zero nsfw images on the blog. BUT that does not extend to written smut, or violence, or — well whatever else one wants to consider not safe for work. Please don't confuse triggers with squicks. if you have a legit TRIGGER, i will gladly tag everything and anything as long as you tell me. (i keep a list in my drafts, so like ask nicely, and i'll add it). squicks are a wholly different thing, and if i go around tagging every single thing that people don't like my tags will be a mile long. I will tag common triggers and if there is something you NEED tagged, just NICELY (ffs) let me know!

THE SHIPS THEY ARE COMING. oh lord. Okay. so I am like — shipping traaaaash ask any one who talks to me for five minutes. If I can find a way to ship the muses, I will. And nine times out of ten, I will straight up tell you. NOW it doesn’t ALWAYS have to be romantic shipping, but still ships. I love them. I captain them. I want them all, so like come at me bro. Wanda is DEMISEXUAL/PANROMANTIC. I don't personally ship wanda & vision, but i mean --- it's part of her mcu canon thing, i'll include it as like a PAST thing, if anything.

I am a slow ass replier-er. This isn’t my only blog. I also tend to be busy sometimes, so like I just don’t have all the time to write, ya know? I am also hella selective and private so that I can keep a calm and slow environment, ya feel? I am also working on using the queue more for replies and junk instead of just filling it to the brim with gifsets and shit. So there is that.

I am a mother. I have a five year old daughter she takes up a lot of time and energy, as any parent will tell you, so sometimes I am simply too drained to be here. I am 9/10 more available for writing on discord, than I am here, for simple fact of I can do it mobile, and formatting is less of a thing. 

I DO COMMISSIONS, talk to me about them.  

My theme credit is in the lower corner. Graphics were typically designed by me! Images taken mostly from google. Icons were found in packs and edited by me. I have PSDs from VenusCommissions which are GORGEOUS, and I have a couple others from various other places. Some purchased some not. Some I made my own ass self.

DISCLAIMER I am not affiliated with any show/movie or actor/actress in anyway. NO copyright infringement was intended. This is for fun, nothing else.

These Rules Are Subject To Change Without Notice

[ohohpierre]

it’s 2019

this is going to be a long one, a reflection on the last couple of years. lend me your ears and eyes for a few minutes please. 

i joined tumblr either late 2012, early 2013, i can’t quite remember, and i can’t find my archive anymore to be sure. at the time i joined, i had long hair. i was in eighth grade, and i used to browse tumblr on the school-provided iPads in history class. i still identified as a girl. it’s been a long time. now that i am actually thinking about it, it’s been six years. a very long six years. 

i first joined because i was looking for more content on a very specific fandom, and i couldn’t find it anywhere else. that fandom was marble hornets. yes, the very first slender series that started in 2009. i remember joining at a time where everyone was attempting to code break a video, and i hopped in and tried to help. i didn’t help much, but i tried, and made friends along the way. i cosplayed for the first time, first as jessica (as i had the hair for it), then as tim as i realized i might not be a girl (but also because tim is cool as fuck). the photo set i made in my tim cosplay got somewhat popular for its time (not too much in the grand scheme of things), but i remember being immensely proud of it. 

being on tumblr then exposed me to everything it had to offer, the good and the bad. i am no longer ashamed to say that i was part of the superwholock crowd for a while, and i indulged in my fair share of fanfics, off of fanfiction.net. writing that sentence out makes me feel incredibly old. 

i started writing more. i had always been interested in writing and art. i made sideblogs, hoping that something would take off, but for about two years, nothing happened. at this time, i wrote for marvel - specifically stucky - and sherlock - johnlock. i remember the first time i got a work of mine on a list of recommendations. it was my “caught making toast” fic for stucky, only about 200 words, and definitely not my favorite to write. but hey, i felt so proud to be included in something for once. then, one summer, in a moment of boredom, i made several gifsets of stucky situations that passed around for quite a long time. 

i found several partners through tumblr. i made so many friends. i got kicked off a stucky blog, and i’m still pretty bitter about it. i learned a lot, unlearned a lot, and then re-learned a lot when i learned the world wasn’t fucking only black and white. i lived through the mishapocalypse, in fact i contributed to it at the time. i had thought it was hilarious. now it feels like a war flash back. i’ve been here for quite some time. 

there were also many times that i posted as if the world wanted to hear me. maybe it did at one time, but it definitely doesn’t anymore. there is more than a handful of sad posts in my #personal tag on my blog. i was incredibly sad. i nearly died in 2014, several times, and there are posts that document it.

i’ve been on tumblr quite literally through thick and thin. i used to follow self harm and eating disorder blogs and compared myself to them in vain. i went through some pretty bad break ups on here. i felt abandoned and lonely. 

the transition into 2019 is still incredibly fresh. i’m 19 now, nearly 20 years old (i will be in march), and things feel like they are starting over again, but in a much more mature and insidious fashion. i am still writing, in fact, i’m taking a break from writing two drafts for a fic and the first chapter of my novel to go through this. however, once five years clean from self harm, i cut myself december 30, 2018, and i felt like a 13 year old all over again, desperately pulling down the sleeves of my shirts so that my parents don’t worry. i’ve smoked a bit and i am trying to step away from that before it gets too bad. i entered 2019 with scars on my arm for the first time in five fucking years. things are kind of bad. 

i graduate from college in may. i will have an associates degree, and i will be transferring somewhere new to finish my bachelor’s degree. i am still unsure of my path in this life, and it feels like god has abandoned me in this journey. 

six years i’ve been here. six long years where i’ve seen myself grow, repress, and then flourish once more. this winter has been especially cruel, but the spring isn’t too far away. this reflection, while more for myself than anyone else, i can only inspires at least one person. inspires them that who you were several years ago is most certainly not who you are now. being here for so long can shift things out of perspective, keep you in a perpetually loop of endless blue scrolling where the outside world can’t see you. 

this year is 2019. i know many of you may be in similar situations to me, but i want you to know that i never forgot about any of you. i’ve never forgotten about any of my partners, my friends, my no-longer-friends, myself. this winter has been rough, but stoke the fire and wait for the spring. let 2019 be the year of reflection, and let it be one of growth.