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[andrew-buchan-fansite]

Garrow: You mock me, sir!  You have no need of me.  Plead guilty!

Hadfield: I’m sorry if I confound you....

[jakenbakenn-blog]

There are alot of people out there in the world that aren't happy. They can be sad, mad, depressed, hurt, broken, or anything of that nature. And I hate that. I hate that they have to suffer like that, so much.

Life is too short to not spend it being as happy as you can. Doing whatever you love. Being with whoever you love. And doing exactly what gives you the biggest smile on your face. Of course, times will get tough, and things are going to get hard. And you'll hate yourself because you know that you could've done something better so that whatever is going on, didn't have to happen.

Right now that's how I feel. But I could care less about being sad or mad or broken. All I care about is everyone else around me. I didn't want to get people involved in this because it's not their problem. I don't want to share my sadness with them because I don't want to take away their smile. I want to bring smiles. I want to bring happiness.

Maybe there are some things that I just can't do by myself, but that doesn't ever stop me from trying. I can worry about myself later on in life when everything else is fine. Right now, through my eyes, other people matter more than I do.

Sometimes I do want to just go punch something, or cry my eyes out, or just let myself get swallowed by my own fear. But even in the dark you have to open your eyes and look ahead. You always have to keep trying. There isn't a damn thing out there that is going to stop you from reaching your goals. Limits were meant to be broken, and that's exactly what you should do. Break them. Achieve great things, and be happy. 

For a little while now I've been trying as hard as I can to make everything how it used to be, but that isn't always possible. But that doesn't stop me. I've also opened my eyes to new things, and even checked out details of old things that I didn't even notice.

I'm sure nobody is going to read this, but that's okay. I just want to be heard.

Life is hard. You're going to make mistakes. You're going to mess up. You're going to hate yourself sometimes. You're going to wish that what happened could've never happened. You're going to wish for everything to be okay.

But getting through these struggles makes us who we are. It creates our personality without us even knowing it. 

This is alot to read, I know.....But this is the last thing that I have to say about all of this. Because I learned a couple years ago that words don't work all the time, especially since I have a stutter. So I've told myself this:

"If I can't talk, I'll let my actions speak for me."

And that is exactly what I intend to do with my life.