#post sent to me by M. hence why it is in french etc.

[feuilletoniste]

There's this group of people, usually Western leftists, who tend to filter all global politics through the lens of "what if this happened in America?" regardless of the actual political landscape of the situation in question. So this is one of the two primary reasons that you get takes like the above, even while people who know literally anything about Israeli politics know that Israelis are absolutely furious with Bibi right now. There have been protests! He's under immense pressure from Israeli civilians who don't want Gazans massacred! Israel is not the US under Bush!

The other primary reason is, of course, antisemitism.

[misslisterkeepsajournal]

1822 Thursday 30 May

8

12 1/2

Before breakfast wrote a page of a letter to Marian - downstairs at 9 25/60 - Thomas (Greenwood) came a little after 10 - The horse Cooper spoke of as belonging to a person at York would not do at all - restive, etc - and none worth looking at in the fair at York on Monday - But Thomas had seen a fine 1/2 blood young 3 years old horse at Selby to be had for £25. 15 hands and an inch - will be 16 hands - bay; - And he had bid £26 at a venture for a very nice 4 year old black mare at Bradford which he much recommended - I liked the idea of the horse, so did my aunt - and in talking the matter over to my uncle, he casually said we had better have both - and at last it absolutely ended in this - Thomas to write by this day’s post to Selby (I wrote a few lines for him) to say he wished to know the lowest terms by return of post and would be over there on Sunday or Monday next to try and agree for the horse - and my uncle gave him £30 in notes, and he is to go to Bradford by the 5 o’clock afternoon coach and ride the black mare back this evening.

He brought the gloves from Walker’s (Coney Street) and Walker’s receipt for £1.16 for 8 pair long white French kid gloves for M- (they are lowered 6 pence per pair), and in the parcel a letter from Miss Marsh in answer to mine of the 22nd instant and a note from Eli for M-. He brought also a letter (sent after him to Selby) 3 pages and the ends from Mr Duffin in answer to my 5 pages -  a very kind letter from Mr Duffin. Miss Marsh added a few lines under the seal to thank me for her share of the packet.

Speaking of the plantation being burnt Mr Duffin says “.....Mr Larydales exertions deserve great praise - nay I think his conduct ought to be publickly [sic] acknowledged”

Miss Marsh says “John Stainforth is very soon to be married to Miss Ware, certain £10,000 - may have 15,000 - just 22 - really good looking - lucky John - 37 - he is good - Isabella will be amazed - Mrs Norcliffe still very lame with rheumatism - Ellen Best quite well”.

Came upstairs about 11 1/2 wrote nearly two pages more to Marian - sorry my father did not write the notices to the tenants - thought he should make up his mind whether to go abroad or not before they sold up the furniture; for, if they did not go abroad I saw no alternative but their taking a house at Weighton till the sale of the estate could be effected, as, my father having refused Northgate, my uncle had determined to let it, and would take steps for so doing as soon as the 6 months were completed from the time of my aunt’s death - My father did not think of staying here more than 2 months and the least that would support him in England would also support him abroad that I saw no reason at present why they should not be off about the middle or end of August - Said my uncle had just bought a nice black mare, and I asked whether my father would sell his mare or leave her at Marshall’s - Sent this letter to Marian (Skelfler Market Weighton) about 12 1/2 - having 1st been talking to my aunt a long while, and talking to George in the stable about preparing for the black mare tonight, etc etc.

Came upstairs about 1 - wrote the above of today - and in consideration of what Mr Duffin said, wrote a rough draft of what he may have inserted in the newspapers relative to this plantation burning. Went down and read it to my aunt and staid talking a while just after my uncle had gone again to Hipperholme about the school-trust business.

Came upstairs again about 4 and wrote 2 pages to Mr Duffin dated tomorrow - small and close (the latter page particularly so) to go tomorrow in answer to his letter and to enclose the paragraph for the papers and a few lines which I have begged him to tear off and send to Cooper to thank him for the trouble he has had, and say we have “just got a very pretty four-year-old, useful mare, fit for anything and Mr Greenwood has met with a handsome 3 year-old bay colt that we mean to buy to match the horse that is even better than I expected for firing, and seems quite sound, tho’ the enlargement of the off-fetlock will probably never subside entirely” - Having dated my letter tomorrow I have mentioned the mare as arrived from Bradford as the last night price £30 “to be called Vienne, from a little circumstance relative to Vienne in Dauphiny - the bay colt to be called Hotspur to match Percy” Hotspur - (I hope) 25 pounds. His owner is what Thomas calls “an innocent farmer”, who might have a hundred guineas for the horse easily enough 2 years hence”...”a bay 3 year old colt, 15 hands and an inch, by a full-blood out of a good saddle mare, and promising, Thomas says, to turn out a very fine animal - At the end of my letter mention that Mrs Mellish is on a visit at Lawton and quote what M- says in her praise at the end of her last letter - as also the account she gives of herself the discharge “seems like large flakes of skin and looks very nasty” but is only disagreeable or troublesome if she misses a day using the alum lotion.

Very fine day - Barometer 2 1/2 above changeable Fahrenheit 63* at 9 1/2 p.m. [regarding her venereal disease: 3 treatments and little discharge] A minute or 2 before 12 Thomas (Greenwood) arrived from Bradford with the mare which, after giving her owner a butcher 4 glasses of gin and water, he managed to buy for £27, he rode her from the 4 ash-trees (2 miles on this side Bradford) here in 25 minutes tho’ she had been hard worked leading manure the day before and had nothing but grass in her - She is a very pretty mare, and very cheap - Thomas came into the room to us, and staid till 11 - To come early in the morning to try the mare in the gig - he had a glass of gin and water and gooseberry tart in the room.

Came upstairs at 11 35/60 - My uncle seems pleased with the mare -

Reference: SH:7/ML/E/6/0012

[veryfineday]

Saturday 23 April 1825

6 5/60

10 3/4

.. [Anne’s period] 

From 7 3/4 to 10 10/60 wrote the few last lines of the 1st end, the whole of the 2nd a great deal under the seal, all very small and close, and crossed the 1st page of my letter (began on wednesday part written on Thursday and finished this morning) to ‘madame madame Barlow, Quai Voltaire no.15, Paris’, all which read over, wafered, and directed, and gave for George to take to the post-office –

I have had no time to make extracts but it is very affectionate  say she will perhaps ssee me again before the all off[er]ed two years are expired write as if having no wish but to make her my wife §§  yet say she knows ‘the hard necessity of circumstance that clings around me now’ bid her do what is best for her own interest and for Janes §  for her sake I can forget to be selfish nay more than this abhor thought bid her ‘not sacrifice a certain good for the upncertain prospect of making happy one whose affections she had gained forever but whose hopes of happiness had waked not from their sleep of years till roused by you to live and tremble once again’ § – all this brought on by my saying I had been taken by surprise altogether tho I ought not to have been by the reappearance of her ‘old beau’ that is Mr William Bell §  said I had not the same feeling of repugnance towards him as Mr Hancock between whom to again use her aunts words il nya pas de choix  in point of gentility Mrs H[ancock] nothing beyond her bright grates in bread street but bade her not atten[d] to me but make other inquiries  said I did not mean to reflect on her taste she had seen Mr H[ancock] ‘in ignorance and at Place Vendome two reasons taken conjointly quite enough to excuse the whole thing’ –

she would not ruin me in postage – if her letters cost no more than now and she write regularly every fortnight of her life, they would only cost 47 shillings and 8 d.pence a year  a sum far greater than which I should save by the habits of economy her regard had taught me – why did she not marK the little volumes?  § Rousseaus Nouvelle Heloise  she herself was the only one to whom I would give  did she think I could now make such presents to others perhaps she would soon become what she was pleased to call ‘more rational’ without much effort  ‘you have taught me much untaught before and surely I must strangely learn that hardest science  to forget [wh]ere I can associate another with those sentiments which you have chastened and refined  there is a little sacred record in my memory that would star t up into life against me’ were I to give these too interesting volume to any other than herself – had before all this bidden her not tell me any more of her being an injury to my future prospects etc. etc. §  they we were good enough to content me I wanted nothing more than I was likely to have ‘save that most difficult to gain of all possesions a heart in unison with my own’ –

§ alluding to madame G-[Galvani] ‘They are who thinK but little or tomorrow or of yesterday – are they the happier? I doubt it much – Then are, too, who have no faith in worlds to come; who have no stay for thought to rest upon, and, with whom, it would ‘destroy their paradise’ – when ‘we go hence, and are no more seen, who ever much remembers us, save that lonely one within whose heart our shrine was raised?’ 

ThanKs for her present of the Environs of Paris – I should con it over and plan some litt[l]e excursions for us  concluded my letter with bidding her tell me everything and ‘remember it is the gentle beam of affection not the meridian blaze of intellect that makes happy the heart of your affectionately attached AL’ –

vide last wednesday page 285. no observation made on mrs. B-’s[Barlow’s] letter because I had not time – 3 pp.pages long ends, and a great deal under the seal, all very small and close – § very very affectionate ‘a diversity of objects and scenery saved you from the intense misery I have suffered’ and she goes on to describe feelings much more intense than I had ever dreampt of her experiencing for me it ended in her being ill and having a great deal of fever for which Mrs Guantlet made her take calomel etc. § ‘I became so ill I had so much fever that I composed letters in my brain to your uncle telling him that your return alone could save my child from being an orphan’ – ‘so thin am I that my rings are laid aside I kept losing them every moment’ – about the going to Edmonto[n] etc. she says ‘I know not how to express all my obligation none but yourself could have acted as you describe the invention and decision was unique and the desc[r]iption capital’ –

§ Mr William Bell her ‘old beau’ had called and sat two hours with her making it evident he would offer if he thought he had the smallest chance of being accepted § ‘when I saw him..... I asked myself is that the man who caused much a sensation in our families how altered how changed in every respect’ – ‘would that I had but one day more of your dear societyelf in this ssalon I have so many things unsaid which perhaps we may never meet with op[p]ortunity to express but to tell you truly I must have many days of your society to induce me to undergo the agonized feelings I endured the days which followed your departure I thought I was near my end not that I fear death but on my childs account not that I love you less  but that I feel satisfied you would be decidedly better provided for without the burden of my acquaintance which can only prove disadvantageous and imprudent in being encouraged I must stop op my pen for I know non [not] what my light head would scribble on to say the best thing I could do with this sheet would be to consign it to the flame my next I trust will be more rational god bless and prese[r]ve you you know all I would say adieu CMB’ thus ends the third page –

Her aunt writes that mr. de Lancey speaKs highly of me – Jane has got the SKetch booK with ‘which is extremely well bound – I never saw Jane so delighted with anything’ § – of madame G-Galvani ‘I do not Know anyone who only thinKs of the present so much as our friend – all her actions, even in respect to economy, portray the same character’.... my letter sent off from London on the monday reached mrs. B-Barlow the Thursday following (the 14th April) – and was charged 24 sols – written on my very thin French paper and wafered –

 §§ in my answer when on the subject  vide line 12 from the bottom of the last page slightly alluded to our connection none could possibly understand it but herself  said I still sighed § after happiness gone by with a sigh more deep and long than she might think ‘in the midst of occupation when the strong voice of duty and necessity call on our attention the mind may be diverted for a while but tis the hour of rest when we retire into ourselves tis then when wh fancy brings to mind what absence takes away and thought of happiness gone by disorders all the heart’ said my own room was perhaps the worst place in which to calculate my loss – in an earlier part of my letter had hoped that at all rates she would not be disappointed in me as a friend §  would have nothing to regret but my misfortune (this hard necessity of circumstance that brings around me now) nothing to reproach but my loving her too well  this would be my only fault towards her which I hoped she would forgive ‘and even its very faultiness may wear away with time for time may come when my regard maybe your own without another voice to claim it maybe your own as well from duty as from inclination §§ – in another part speaking of my regard for her calling for no sacri fice on my part my prospect were good enough  [?] and alluding to her thinking of Janes interest  ‘even pride forbids that all the sacrifice should be on one side’ meaning hers § adding ‘if you were as ssingle as I am  I should expect the same sacrifices from you I would in such a case make myself’ - 

Breakfast at 10 1/4 – came upstairs at 11 1/4 – had just written the part of my journal of today on the last page when (at 12 1/2) Cordingley said Dr. Kenny and mr. Sunderland were come (to my aunt) went down – went into the drawing room, where they were with my aunt, for 10 minutes – then waited their going, and followed them into the front stable – spoke to them for a minute or 2 – Dr. K-[Kenny] thinKs my aunt in a very weaK, suffering state – a very delicate subject to deal with – this catching – convulsive motion of the diaphragm which has come on so much within these last few days, the worst symptom – I see he thinKs her constitution much broKen –

she had a warm bath last night, and is to have one again tonight about 98º Fahrenheit – after coming up to bed last night, went down to see how Cordingley had ordered the bath – found the tub 3/2 to two thirds full of water at 170º - staid 25 minutes till Cordingley had put in cold water that reduced it to about 100, or a few degrees more – my aunt too was sitting by the lower Kitchen fire waiting all this time – very bad management – and the tub placed just under the oat bread racK

staid talKing to my uncle and aunt, and did not come upstairs till 1 3/4 – then wrote the whole of the last page which tooK me till 3 – from 3 1/4 to 5 1/4 wrote 3 pp.[pages] and the ends (tolerably close) to mrs. N-[Norcliffe] to go tomor[row] – easy chit-chat, in answer to mrs. N-’s[Norcliffe’s] letter on wednesday 3 pp.[pages] (quite full) the ends, and a good deal under the seal –

a very Kind letter – I had no time to make any observation on it on wednesday – anxious to Know that M-[Mariana] did not visit colonel BerKeley – ‘why introduce her to him at all – old as Jam, I would not be introduced to him’... § a man whose character is so despicable and well Known, that it did not want the addition of his treacherous conduct to miss Foote, to make him as I believe he is, most generally despised .... it is not the 1st trait of treachery to a female’... together with what I copied from M-’s[Mariana’s] letter in my last to mrs. N-[Norcliffe] and the remainder I have copied in this, conclude the L-s[Lawtons] did not visit him, but left mrs. N-[Norcliffe] to form her own conclusions –

§ on her 1st page mrs. N-[Norcliffe] writes ‘you and I suit very well; and, should I live and have my health next year, at this time, should much enjoy a sejour of a month in our capital (London) with you’ – answer after mentioning my uncle and aunt’s health, and saying Dr. Kenny had been here this morning to see the latter – ‘should they be well enough for me to leave them, next year, and this time, nothing would delight me so much, as a month with you in that 1st of cities, London – at all rates, I hope and trust, no flaw in your own health wil be the preventative’ –

Have asKed mrs. N-[Norcliffe] if she Knows anything of mrs. Middleton, daughter of sir William Grace, wife of Mr. Middleton of IlKley – mother of mr. Peter m-[Middleton] of StocKhill-parK who married Miss [Stourton] – wrote the above of this page read over and folded and directed my letter to mrs. N-[Norcliffe], and had just done at 6 –

Great deal of rain last night – rained from the time of my getting up, more or less, till about 3 p.m. – about 8 a.m. sent John Booth to desire nothing to be done at the foot path – no stones to be led, for fear of cutting Thomas Pearson’s field – Dinner at 6 1/2 – Did nothing in the evening – Fair this evening (vide the 4th line above)  Barometer 3 1/4 degree below changeable Fahrenheit 44º at 9 p.m. at which hour came up to bed – Reading volume 1 Rousseau’s confession and looKing at the map of England and that of France, for about an hour – E [2 dots inside] O [1 dot inside] – my cousin came just before getting into bed